Forbidden Attraction, Secret Desires
Author: Temptress_Kitten17
Rated: R
Disclaimer: I really don't see the point in having a disclaimer this far into the story. Nevertheless, I will put one in here anyway just to ensure that I won't be sued. I can't afford a law suit right now anyway.
Chapter 14:
" So Serena, my daughter tells me that you two will be going to that new club Evening Star on Saturday." Danielle said as she piled some pasta onto her plate. Her shoulder length raven hair was up in a loose ponytail and she wore a crimson T-shirt with black pants.
" That's right, Dani. Normally I don't go to clubs, but Raye insisted on going and I figured that it would be safer if I went too." I explained, hoping I was believable. If I played the part of the concerned older sister long enough, Raye would soon be making out with Jed.
" No, you and my sister are NOT going to that club by yourselves! There are guys there and they'll try and pick you up!" Darien protested.
" And what are you going to do about it? Tie us to our beds? Lock us up? Come with us and scare away all the guys?" I asked in a mocking tone which caused Raye to laugh. Darien suddenly smiled that ' I have a plan now' smile. I hate that look, it's never good.
" What?" I asked, staring at him warily. Surely he couldn't be thinking.... " That's a GREAT idea! Mother, I'm going with them!"
Rats! I knew it!
" What do you mean you're coming with us? Why? So you can scare all the hot guys by playing the role of the overprotective older brother?" I asked, sort of annoyed with his sudden protectiveness. Did he honestly think I would let some random guy pick me up?
" That's right! The Evening Star is a new club and there are a lot of young men who will be looking for girls like you. You're both attractive and not that tough to pin down ya know."
Raye growled. " We'll see about that! How 'bout Sere and I take you on after dinner? If we prove ourselves, you just drop us off at the club and leave to pick us up later. If we lose, you can play the overprotective jerk to your heart's content as long as you don't interfere with my normal socialization."
Darien shrugged. " Fine, after dinner I'll pin you both to the floor without even trying." Raye glared at him for that comment and muttered many choice words under her breath.
*****
A half an hour later, Raye and I stood in the center of the exercise room. I was dressed in a pair of pink shorts and a matching pink T-shirt. Raye wore black shorts and a red tank top. We were waiting for Darien to get here so that we could prove ourselves to him. There was no way that he was going to win!
" So, are you ladies ready to lose now?" Darien asked as he walked toward us. It took all my concentration not to stare at him dreamily. He was more perfect than a god in his tight black tank top and black pants. His muscles rippled under the thin material and I could not stop the images of him simply removing that shirt from coming to my mind.
* Curse you Darien Shields! Curse you!* I thought as I willed the images to go away. Darien must have seen the look in my eyes because he smiled his mocking smile again. * He thinks this is FUNNY? I'll show him funny!* " Prepare to be beaten by two helpless little girls, Darien, because you're going down!" I said in a sing-song voice.
Raye stepped up first. " Just try to wrestle ME to the ground, brother." She taunted as she got into her defensive pose. Darien came toward her and grabbed her wrist. With one quick movement he had spun her around so that her back was against his chest and her arm was twisted painfully behind her back. She tried to hit him with her other fist but he quickly caught it and held that hand behind her back as well. Raye struggled to free herself; which gave Darien the opportunity to trip her. She lost her footing and was easily brought down to the floor. " Damn it Darien! You're being a cheap ass! Let me up now!" Raye growled as she tried to kick him.
" You know all you have to do is say you're sorry you doubted my strength and agree that I'm going with you." Darien said calmly, now holding both her wrists with one hand and using the other hand to mess up her hair some more. " Go to hell Darien!" she replied, kicking him right between the legs. It didn't work however and Raye yelped in pain. Darien smirked. " You think I don't know what you women are capable of? I knew one of you would try that so I made sure to protect myself just in case!"
" Cheater! You weren't supposed to wear a cup!" Raye whimpered.
" Just give up and I'll let you go."
" No way! Sere will fight you and defend the honor of women everywhere! Right Sere?"
I looked uncertainly at Raye. She was stronger than me and yet she couldn't take him. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad having Darien there.
" Uhh...I don't know Raye. You're stronger than me..."
" WHAT?!? No way are you backing out now! Now get in here and fight dammit!"
I sighed. I didn't want to do this anymore. It had seemed fun at the time, but now I realized it was more fun just watching. I approached Darien and tried in vain to pull him away from his sister. Suddenly he released Raye and grabbed me, rolling us both over so that I was now under him! Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Raye get up and walk out.
" Bye Sere! I'm gonna go have a hot bath now. I'm afraid I'm too tired to fight anymore." She waved and left the room dramatically.
" Raye you traitorous witch! Get back in here and help meeeeeeee!" I shouted after her, not that it would do any good. Oh well, I still had a few tricks up my sleeve.
" Stop struggling Sere, I know you enjoy being under me." Darien teased as he moved one hand down my side, smiling knowingly when I jumped.
" I'd enjoy it more if I was on top." I purred, enjoying this new part of our game.
" I'm sure you will."
His lips were mere centimeters from my own and I could smell his cologne. My eyes half closed as my desire for him took over completely. Darien released my hands from his grip and brushed a few strands of my hair away from my face. His lips were inching closer to my own with every breath I took. I licked my lips and moved my hands to his hair and pulled him to me.
His lips were like velvet against my own and I trembled in his arms as the feelings coursed through me. * I've missed this.* was my only thought as his tongue ran over my bottom lip and he gently sucked at it. Soon the teasing, gentle, nibbling kisses became deeper and more passionate. Darien slipped his tongue into my mouth and brushed it over my own. * He tastes like cinnamon and chocolate and something else...* After a few minutes, he pulled away.
" We shouldn't have done that." He said still trying to catch his breath.
" It's okay. I liked it." I replied softly as I ran my fingers through my hair to try and make it look like I _hadn't_ just been on the floor making out with Darien like there was no tomorrow.
" It doesn't matter if you liked it Sere! This is wrong and we both know it. We can't do this!" Darien ran his fingers through his hair, something he often does when he's frustrated.
" Since when did you develop a conscience, Dare? _If_ I'm not mistaken, you seemed to have no problem with this just a few weeks ago when I was last here. AND you didn't even consider Michelle, your GIRLFRIEND, when you were driving ME crazy!" I whispered very heatedly. How dare he act like this when I knew for a fact that he wanted me too.
" Look, I admit that I find you damn sexy and irresistible; and I'll admit that right now I would love to just take you right here. But the fact is, we CAN'T continue this. For one thing, everyone around us seems to see us as siblings despite the fact that our parents aren't even married. Two: Your father would kill me if he caught us messing around, and three: If anybody found out-"
" They won't find out. We won't get caught Darien! So..."
" No! Not ' so' Serena. We can't do this, no matter how much we may be tempted. So I suggest we end this now before one thing leads to another-"
" One thing already HAS led to another. It's a little too late to be reading me the warning labels." I snapped back. Gods, didn't he get it? There was no turning back from this. We couldn't just shut off our feelings and move on. It didn't work that way.
" Damn it, Serena! I will not allow you to lose your virginity to me just because you're horny. You should be with someone who can give you everything you deserve to have. You deserve a loving relationship, not a secret affair. If things had been different-"
" So that's it? You're just going to give up on us due to a technicality? Let me explain something to you Darien Shields! You don't get to pick who you become attracted to and sometimes that person is the 'wrong' one according to society. But if you truly care about what other people think then ask yourself this: Is it really worth losing what could be the greatest love you could ever know just to please everyone else?" I walked away, tears threatening to spill from my eyes as I left Darien, hoping he would think about what I had said.
* If you love something set it free...* my heart whispered to me as I made my way to the guest/ TV room. I needed to be alone with my thoughts at that particular moment. I flopped down onto my bed and picked up one of my Sailor Moon manga ( I think it was book 2 when Usagi finds out she's Princess Serenity). As I was about to finish the part where Tuxedo Kamen saves Sailor Moon I heard a knock on my door. Whoever it was didn't wait for me to get up before they walked in. I stared up into the most soulful dark blue eyes I had ever seen and my heart skipped a beat.
* ...if it comes back it's yours.* My heart whispered.
" Darien..."
" This is wrong." Darien said even as he closed the door behind him and made his way toward me.
" I know..." I replied, whispering. He came closer, almost close enough that I could touch him.
" So why is it that I keep giving in to you?" He asked, sitting beside me on the bed.
" You're giving in to yourself, Darien. I just happen to be the one encouraging you to do so." I replied as I brushed a strand of jet black hair away from his face.
" Okay...then why do I want you so much?"
" I don't know," I whispered. My lips were mere centimeters away from his. " but I'm willing to find out...are you?"
Suddenly his lips were upon my own again as he gently lowered me onto my back, his partial weight settling over me. I sighed into the kiss as his hands slowly slid up my sides and down again. He was teasing me and it only made me want him more. I felt the familiar throbbing sensations as my desire for Darien grew stronger. I began to grip him tighter, holding him closer and wanting more from him.
" Oh gods, Darien! I need...I need...Darien." I pleaded mindlessly with him as he continued his assault on my senses. His lips had made their way to my neck and he was nuzzling me with a desperate hunger. I felt my skin heating up and my vision was blurring on me. How was it that he could do this to me by doing something so simple? I simply gave up thinking altogether as I felt his hands slip under my shirt. I lost control completely and my hands were moving of their own accord. They slipped under his shirt and I traced the muscles of his back, scratching him with my nails as he brought me closer to the edge.
Suddenly I felt it; felt myself going over the edge. Darien's mouth quickly came down on mine to stifle the sounds as I cried out in ecstasy. After I had calmed down, he rolled onto his back and I lay my head beside his on the pillows.
" Sere, I'm sorry I was such a coward earlier. You're right, I was too worried about what other people would think and I almost lost you because of it. I'm sorry." Darien whispered softly as he wound his hands in my hair.
" So does this mean you're going to give us a chance?" I asked as I stared deeply into his eyes.
He nodded and kissed my forehead once. " Yes, I'm saying we should give this relationship a chance."
I don't quite know how to describe what I was feeling at that moment. See, whenever I get really excited or overcome with happiness I feel like I'm going to explode or something. I'm just bursting with emotion and I don't know whether I should giggle like an excited fifteen year old girl, cry, squeal with delight or jump up and down. Let's just say that if I didn't have any self-control I'd be bouncing off the walls like a kid on a sugar high! Finally I decided to simply leap into Darien's arms and wrap my arms around him, showering his face with little butterfly-like kisses.
" Oh Darien..." I sighed, " I'm sooooo happy that you said that! You haven't the slightest idea how overjoyed I am!"
" Are you so overwhelmed that you could bounce off the walls like a kid on a sugar high?" Darien asked innocently.
I blinked, " How did you know?" I asked, surprised at how well he seemed to know me.
Darien shrugged his shoulders. " Sere, I told you, you haven't changed _that_ much. I know you and I know how out of control you can get when you're really excited about something; and that has nothing to do with the eight cups of sugar I once put in with the Kool-Aid back when we were ten."
I giggled at that memory of our past together. " I remember that! Raye and I were jumping off the roof of the play house and onto the trampoline. We couldn't stop giggling and it was all your fault! We were all crazy and Dani finally kicked us all outside until we calmed down. But it was fun! I miss those days."
" Yeah, I did a lot of crazy stuff to try and impress you back then. Remember when Sammy kept bugging you with his stupid Batman action figure so I took it apart and loaded it with springs so that when he touched it, it would 'explode?' We called it the Batman Voodoo Doll and even came up with a song for it." Darien couldn't help but laugh at his own little joke. To tell you the truth, it had been pretty funny to see.
" You did all that reckless and immature stuff just to try and impress me?" I asked after his words finally sunk in.
Darien nodded shyly. He still had that same look in his eyes that reminded me of the little boy he once had been. That little boy had become a man, but he still had his weird sense of humor and adventure and I hoped he always would.
" Of course I did, although it was also for my own amusement. Sere, I've been trying to impress you and get you to notice me since the first day we met. Now that I think about it, I was pretty reckless. I damaged a lot of my old toys in the process of trying to get you to laugh. I loved to see you laugh at my antics! Your eyes just sparkle with happy tears and your giggling laughter is so infectious that I just can't help but be affected by it. Plus, you just look so cute."
I blushed at that comment. " You thought I was cute?"
" I still do, Sere. And I'll still do anything to get you to laugh too! It's the only time you've ever shown your true self to me; most of the time you're guarded. Even as a child you acted as if the weight of the world was on your shoulders. You'd pretend to be cheerful and carefree but I could always tell when you were acting the part. But when you laugh, you're the carefree and happy little girl again. There are no masks, no walls. The first time I made you laugh was the time when I truly fell for you."
" Darien..." I sighed, touched by his words. I had never realized that he had felt like this even when we were children. He had been my best friend growing up. He had listened to me and he had been my escape from being proper all the time. I got to truly be a kid when I was with him. Darien hadn't scolded me for climbing onto the roof of the playhouse. He hadn't tried to stop me when I wanted to launch an old doll of Rini's into Outer Space by the use of his new toy rocket ship. I didn't have to grow up when I was with him. I guess that's why I cared about him so much. He was the only one that I could truly be myself around. The only one who didn't tell me to act my age all the time.
" So, I guess you won't mind if I come with you and Raye to the Evening Star this weekend, huh?" he said, effectively changing the subject. I rolled my eyes and lightly smacked him with a pillow.
" You don't give up do you?" I said, not expecting him to answer.
" Nope! I'm as stubborn as you are! Do you honestly expect me to just let you and my sister go to a club unescorted? Especially now that you and I are secretly dating? Uh-uh! No way! Rachel Shields has a reputation around here and she's actually proud of it. She'll try and set you up with one of her recent boy-toy's friends so she can go to the couple's only make-out parties."
" Are you jealous, Dare? Do you think I'd fall for a high school boy? I'm done with the little boys, they couldn't possibly satisfy me! No, I go for the older guys and you fit quite nicely into that category. I wouldn't go for anybody else, I promise."
" It's not _you_ I'm worried about. It's the guys who think they can have any woman they want that I'm worried about. Trust me on this, Sere. You'll want me to be there to scare off those guys that just won't take no for an answer."
" I guess you're right...Okay, you can come with us. Just don't mess up anything for your sister. Raye really likes this guy that she's meeting at the club."
" I KNEW IT! She's meeting a guy there. That's why she didn't want me to come."
" Uh...yeah..."
I wasn't going to tell Darien that Raye and I had planned this. No, we'd let him think that driving us to the club and going in with us was all his idea. Ah the joys of being a woman! Sometimes having the power to trick men into doing what you want them to do totally cancels out the other less enjoyable things that come with being female; such as monthly cramps and so on. I know it's cruel, but ya gotta admit that any man who thinks he's the one in control is actually having his strings pulled by his wife/girlfriend.
It's simple really, you just play on their caveman instincts. Darien instantly became overprotective and jealous when I mentioned the club. He suddenly got into the classic ' man defending territory' mode and insisted on coming with us. By using this knowledge about men and territory, Raye and I scored a free ride to the club AND a bodyguard to fend off the unwanted loser guys. Then there was the other topic that had been on my mind for weeks.
I know I probably should want to wait a while before I have sex with Darien, but the truth is I DON'T think like that anymore! Why should I have to act like Mary Sunshine 24/7 just so I can be considered a lady by society's stupid double standards? It's okay for men to want to have sex all the time but if a woman has the same desires then she's automatically called a slut. It's those stupid double standards that screwed me up and caused me to think there was something wrong with me when I was still in high school. If it hadn't been for Mina I probably would still be just as messed up.
" So what are you thinking so hard about Sere?"
" Do you want my honest answer or the lie that's used as a means of hiding the truth?"
" The truth, Sere."
" Are you sure you want me to tell you? Or would you rather I show you?" I purred as my hand slid up his thigh teasingly. He groaned. " Never mind. I think I've figured it out."
It's amazing how much the thought of sex can seriously affect a person's vocabulary. I moved my hand to the crease where his leg meets with his hip and traced light circles there with my fingers.
" Sere...I suggest you stop before I jump you and take you right now." he warned as I slipped my hand into his pants and began to caress him through his boxer shorts.
" And what if I want you to jump me?" I asked, batting my eyelashes in an attempt to feign innocence.
" Serena I'm _serious_ about this..."
" So am I..." I whispered as I continued to tease him.
He suddenly grabbed my wrist and pulled my hand away from him. I pretended to pout.
" Why'd you do that, Darien. Don't you want me?" I asked in my hurt little girl voice. Darien groaned in response.
" You have no idea how much I want you Serena, but I want to wait until you're truly ready. Besides, we could get caught since everyone is still awake. Please Sere, just wait a little bit longer."
I sighed. Darien was right, although I was ready, there was still the complication of family that we'd have to deal with.
" Well, I'll wait for a few more hours then, Dare, cuz I'm definitely ready for you. We'll just wait here and watch T.V. until everyone is asleep, okay?"
Darien sighed. " You're sure you're ready?" I nodded.
" I'm as ready as I'll ever be Darien." I purred as I got up from the bed to turn on the T.V and pop a video into the VCR. " How about we watch one of my favorite videos?" I suggested as I put the tape into the VCR slot.
" What's it called?" Darien asked as he turned off the lights and set the entire room into darkness except for the black light by the dresser and the glow of the TV screen.
" Cruel Intentions! It's sexy and entertaining. I'm sure you'll enjoy it too." I pressed PLAY on the remote control and slipped under the blankets, quickly kicking off my shorts so that I could lay down and feel comfortable as well.
" Cruel Intentions? Isn't that a little bit of a tease, selecting that particular movie to watch tonight?"
" It doesn't have to be a tease, Darien. You can feel free to let your hands wander if you feel the need to... I'll welcome it since this movie can get me really horny sometimes." I purred as I inched closer to him so that he would have a lot of access should he decide to do just that.
" This is going to be one looong night." Darien sighed as my hand 'accidentally' touched his thigh as the movie started. * Just a few hours...* my brain reassured me as I tried to focus on the movie and not on what I really wanted to do at the moment. This was going to be one very long night...
Temptress: There ya go! Another chapter for you to read and enjoy. I'm leaving for the holidays soon so I don't know exactly when I'll be able to get another chapter out. I promise that I'll try to work on this fic while I'm on vacation but that doesn't mean I'll be able to get the whole story finished. I gotta spend time with my family and my sister and I are going to go ' boy shopping' too so I don't know how much spare time I'll have. Anyhoo, thanks to all who read my fic since the beginning and thank you to all who write to me and leave reviews! Hope you have a great time during the last few months of 2003! I know I have. Till next time!
Author: Temptress_Kitten17
Rated: R
Disclaimer: I really don't see the point in having a disclaimer this far into the story. Nevertheless, I will put one in here anyway just to ensure that I won't be sued. I can't afford a law suit right now anyway.
Chapter 14:
" So Serena, my daughter tells me that you two will be going to that new club Evening Star on Saturday." Danielle said as she piled some pasta onto her plate. Her shoulder length raven hair was up in a loose ponytail and she wore a crimson T-shirt with black pants.
" That's right, Dani. Normally I don't go to clubs, but Raye insisted on going and I figured that it would be safer if I went too." I explained, hoping I was believable. If I played the part of the concerned older sister long enough, Raye would soon be making out with Jed.
" No, you and my sister are NOT going to that club by yourselves! There are guys there and they'll try and pick you up!" Darien protested.
" And what are you going to do about it? Tie us to our beds? Lock us up? Come with us and scare away all the guys?" I asked in a mocking tone which caused Raye to laugh. Darien suddenly smiled that ' I have a plan now' smile. I hate that look, it's never good.
" What?" I asked, staring at him warily. Surely he couldn't be thinking.... " That's a GREAT idea! Mother, I'm going with them!"
Rats! I knew it!
" What do you mean you're coming with us? Why? So you can scare all the hot guys by playing the role of the overprotective older brother?" I asked, sort of annoyed with his sudden protectiveness. Did he honestly think I would let some random guy pick me up?
" That's right! The Evening Star is a new club and there are a lot of young men who will be looking for girls like you. You're both attractive and not that tough to pin down ya know."
Raye growled. " We'll see about that! How 'bout Sere and I take you on after dinner? If we prove ourselves, you just drop us off at the club and leave to pick us up later. If we lose, you can play the overprotective jerk to your heart's content as long as you don't interfere with my normal socialization."
Darien shrugged. " Fine, after dinner I'll pin you both to the floor without even trying." Raye glared at him for that comment and muttered many choice words under her breath.
*****
A half an hour later, Raye and I stood in the center of the exercise room. I was dressed in a pair of pink shorts and a matching pink T-shirt. Raye wore black shorts and a red tank top. We were waiting for Darien to get here so that we could prove ourselves to him. There was no way that he was going to win!
" So, are you ladies ready to lose now?" Darien asked as he walked toward us. It took all my concentration not to stare at him dreamily. He was more perfect than a god in his tight black tank top and black pants. His muscles rippled under the thin material and I could not stop the images of him simply removing that shirt from coming to my mind.
* Curse you Darien Shields! Curse you!* I thought as I willed the images to go away. Darien must have seen the look in my eyes because he smiled his mocking smile again. * He thinks this is FUNNY? I'll show him funny!* " Prepare to be beaten by two helpless little girls, Darien, because you're going down!" I said in a sing-song voice.
Raye stepped up first. " Just try to wrestle ME to the ground, brother." She taunted as she got into her defensive pose. Darien came toward her and grabbed her wrist. With one quick movement he had spun her around so that her back was against his chest and her arm was twisted painfully behind her back. She tried to hit him with her other fist but he quickly caught it and held that hand behind her back as well. Raye struggled to free herself; which gave Darien the opportunity to trip her. She lost her footing and was easily brought down to the floor. " Damn it Darien! You're being a cheap ass! Let me up now!" Raye growled as she tried to kick him.
" You know all you have to do is say you're sorry you doubted my strength and agree that I'm going with you." Darien said calmly, now holding both her wrists with one hand and using the other hand to mess up her hair some more. " Go to hell Darien!" she replied, kicking him right between the legs. It didn't work however and Raye yelped in pain. Darien smirked. " You think I don't know what you women are capable of? I knew one of you would try that so I made sure to protect myself just in case!"
" Cheater! You weren't supposed to wear a cup!" Raye whimpered.
" Just give up and I'll let you go."
" No way! Sere will fight you and defend the honor of women everywhere! Right Sere?"
I looked uncertainly at Raye. She was stronger than me and yet she couldn't take him. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad having Darien there.
" Uhh...I don't know Raye. You're stronger than me..."
" WHAT?!? No way are you backing out now! Now get in here and fight dammit!"
I sighed. I didn't want to do this anymore. It had seemed fun at the time, but now I realized it was more fun just watching. I approached Darien and tried in vain to pull him away from his sister. Suddenly he released Raye and grabbed me, rolling us both over so that I was now under him! Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Raye get up and walk out.
" Bye Sere! I'm gonna go have a hot bath now. I'm afraid I'm too tired to fight anymore." She waved and left the room dramatically.
" Raye you traitorous witch! Get back in here and help meeeeeeee!" I shouted after her, not that it would do any good. Oh well, I still had a few tricks up my sleeve.
" Stop struggling Sere, I know you enjoy being under me." Darien teased as he moved one hand down my side, smiling knowingly when I jumped.
" I'd enjoy it more if I was on top." I purred, enjoying this new part of our game.
" I'm sure you will."
His lips were mere centimeters from my own and I could smell his cologne. My eyes half closed as my desire for him took over completely. Darien released my hands from his grip and brushed a few strands of my hair away from my face. His lips were inching closer to my own with every breath I took. I licked my lips and moved my hands to his hair and pulled him to me.
His lips were like velvet against my own and I trembled in his arms as the feelings coursed through me. * I've missed this.* was my only thought as his tongue ran over my bottom lip and he gently sucked at it. Soon the teasing, gentle, nibbling kisses became deeper and more passionate. Darien slipped his tongue into my mouth and brushed it over my own. * He tastes like cinnamon and chocolate and something else...* After a few minutes, he pulled away.
" We shouldn't have done that." He said still trying to catch his breath.
" It's okay. I liked it." I replied softly as I ran my fingers through my hair to try and make it look like I _hadn't_ just been on the floor making out with Darien like there was no tomorrow.
" It doesn't matter if you liked it Sere! This is wrong and we both know it. We can't do this!" Darien ran his fingers through his hair, something he often does when he's frustrated.
" Since when did you develop a conscience, Dare? _If_ I'm not mistaken, you seemed to have no problem with this just a few weeks ago when I was last here. AND you didn't even consider Michelle, your GIRLFRIEND, when you were driving ME crazy!" I whispered very heatedly. How dare he act like this when I knew for a fact that he wanted me too.
" Look, I admit that I find you damn sexy and irresistible; and I'll admit that right now I would love to just take you right here. But the fact is, we CAN'T continue this. For one thing, everyone around us seems to see us as siblings despite the fact that our parents aren't even married. Two: Your father would kill me if he caught us messing around, and three: If anybody found out-"
" They won't find out. We won't get caught Darien! So..."
" No! Not ' so' Serena. We can't do this, no matter how much we may be tempted. So I suggest we end this now before one thing leads to another-"
" One thing already HAS led to another. It's a little too late to be reading me the warning labels." I snapped back. Gods, didn't he get it? There was no turning back from this. We couldn't just shut off our feelings and move on. It didn't work that way.
" Damn it, Serena! I will not allow you to lose your virginity to me just because you're horny. You should be with someone who can give you everything you deserve to have. You deserve a loving relationship, not a secret affair. If things had been different-"
" So that's it? You're just going to give up on us due to a technicality? Let me explain something to you Darien Shields! You don't get to pick who you become attracted to and sometimes that person is the 'wrong' one according to society. But if you truly care about what other people think then ask yourself this: Is it really worth losing what could be the greatest love you could ever know just to please everyone else?" I walked away, tears threatening to spill from my eyes as I left Darien, hoping he would think about what I had said.
* If you love something set it free...* my heart whispered to me as I made my way to the guest/ TV room. I needed to be alone with my thoughts at that particular moment. I flopped down onto my bed and picked up one of my Sailor Moon manga ( I think it was book 2 when Usagi finds out she's Princess Serenity). As I was about to finish the part where Tuxedo Kamen saves Sailor Moon I heard a knock on my door. Whoever it was didn't wait for me to get up before they walked in. I stared up into the most soulful dark blue eyes I had ever seen and my heart skipped a beat.
* ...if it comes back it's yours.* My heart whispered.
" Darien..."
" This is wrong." Darien said even as he closed the door behind him and made his way toward me.
" I know..." I replied, whispering. He came closer, almost close enough that I could touch him.
" So why is it that I keep giving in to you?" He asked, sitting beside me on the bed.
" You're giving in to yourself, Darien. I just happen to be the one encouraging you to do so." I replied as I brushed a strand of jet black hair away from his face.
" Okay...then why do I want you so much?"
" I don't know," I whispered. My lips were mere centimeters away from his. " but I'm willing to find out...are you?"
Suddenly his lips were upon my own again as he gently lowered me onto my back, his partial weight settling over me. I sighed into the kiss as his hands slowly slid up my sides and down again. He was teasing me and it only made me want him more. I felt the familiar throbbing sensations as my desire for Darien grew stronger. I began to grip him tighter, holding him closer and wanting more from him.
" Oh gods, Darien! I need...I need...Darien." I pleaded mindlessly with him as he continued his assault on my senses. His lips had made their way to my neck and he was nuzzling me with a desperate hunger. I felt my skin heating up and my vision was blurring on me. How was it that he could do this to me by doing something so simple? I simply gave up thinking altogether as I felt his hands slip under my shirt. I lost control completely and my hands were moving of their own accord. They slipped under his shirt and I traced the muscles of his back, scratching him with my nails as he brought me closer to the edge.
Suddenly I felt it; felt myself going over the edge. Darien's mouth quickly came down on mine to stifle the sounds as I cried out in ecstasy. After I had calmed down, he rolled onto his back and I lay my head beside his on the pillows.
" Sere, I'm sorry I was such a coward earlier. You're right, I was too worried about what other people would think and I almost lost you because of it. I'm sorry." Darien whispered softly as he wound his hands in my hair.
" So does this mean you're going to give us a chance?" I asked as I stared deeply into his eyes.
He nodded and kissed my forehead once. " Yes, I'm saying we should give this relationship a chance."
I don't quite know how to describe what I was feeling at that moment. See, whenever I get really excited or overcome with happiness I feel like I'm going to explode or something. I'm just bursting with emotion and I don't know whether I should giggle like an excited fifteen year old girl, cry, squeal with delight or jump up and down. Let's just say that if I didn't have any self-control I'd be bouncing off the walls like a kid on a sugar high! Finally I decided to simply leap into Darien's arms and wrap my arms around him, showering his face with little butterfly-like kisses.
" Oh Darien..." I sighed, " I'm sooooo happy that you said that! You haven't the slightest idea how overjoyed I am!"
" Are you so overwhelmed that you could bounce off the walls like a kid on a sugar high?" Darien asked innocently.
I blinked, " How did you know?" I asked, surprised at how well he seemed to know me.
Darien shrugged his shoulders. " Sere, I told you, you haven't changed _that_ much. I know you and I know how out of control you can get when you're really excited about something; and that has nothing to do with the eight cups of sugar I once put in with the Kool-Aid back when we were ten."
I giggled at that memory of our past together. " I remember that! Raye and I were jumping off the roof of the play house and onto the trampoline. We couldn't stop giggling and it was all your fault! We were all crazy and Dani finally kicked us all outside until we calmed down. But it was fun! I miss those days."
" Yeah, I did a lot of crazy stuff to try and impress you back then. Remember when Sammy kept bugging you with his stupid Batman action figure so I took it apart and loaded it with springs so that when he touched it, it would 'explode?' We called it the Batman Voodoo Doll and even came up with a song for it." Darien couldn't help but laugh at his own little joke. To tell you the truth, it had been pretty funny to see.
" You did all that reckless and immature stuff just to try and impress me?" I asked after his words finally sunk in.
Darien nodded shyly. He still had that same look in his eyes that reminded me of the little boy he once had been. That little boy had become a man, but he still had his weird sense of humor and adventure and I hoped he always would.
" Of course I did, although it was also for my own amusement. Sere, I've been trying to impress you and get you to notice me since the first day we met. Now that I think about it, I was pretty reckless. I damaged a lot of my old toys in the process of trying to get you to laugh. I loved to see you laugh at my antics! Your eyes just sparkle with happy tears and your giggling laughter is so infectious that I just can't help but be affected by it. Plus, you just look so cute."
I blushed at that comment. " You thought I was cute?"
" I still do, Sere. And I'll still do anything to get you to laugh too! It's the only time you've ever shown your true self to me; most of the time you're guarded. Even as a child you acted as if the weight of the world was on your shoulders. You'd pretend to be cheerful and carefree but I could always tell when you were acting the part. But when you laugh, you're the carefree and happy little girl again. There are no masks, no walls. The first time I made you laugh was the time when I truly fell for you."
" Darien..." I sighed, touched by his words. I had never realized that he had felt like this even when we were children. He had been my best friend growing up. He had listened to me and he had been my escape from being proper all the time. I got to truly be a kid when I was with him. Darien hadn't scolded me for climbing onto the roof of the playhouse. He hadn't tried to stop me when I wanted to launch an old doll of Rini's into Outer Space by the use of his new toy rocket ship. I didn't have to grow up when I was with him. I guess that's why I cared about him so much. He was the only one that I could truly be myself around. The only one who didn't tell me to act my age all the time.
" So, I guess you won't mind if I come with you and Raye to the Evening Star this weekend, huh?" he said, effectively changing the subject. I rolled my eyes and lightly smacked him with a pillow.
" You don't give up do you?" I said, not expecting him to answer.
" Nope! I'm as stubborn as you are! Do you honestly expect me to just let you and my sister go to a club unescorted? Especially now that you and I are secretly dating? Uh-uh! No way! Rachel Shields has a reputation around here and she's actually proud of it. She'll try and set you up with one of her recent boy-toy's friends so she can go to the couple's only make-out parties."
" Are you jealous, Dare? Do you think I'd fall for a high school boy? I'm done with the little boys, they couldn't possibly satisfy me! No, I go for the older guys and you fit quite nicely into that category. I wouldn't go for anybody else, I promise."
" It's not _you_ I'm worried about. It's the guys who think they can have any woman they want that I'm worried about. Trust me on this, Sere. You'll want me to be there to scare off those guys that just won't take no for an answer."
" I guess you're right...Okay, you can come with us. Just don't mess up anything for your sister. Raye really likes this guy that she's meeting at the club."
" I KNEW IT! She's meeting a guy there. That's why she didn't want me to come."
" Uh...yeah..."
I wasn't going to tell Darien that Raye and I had planned this. No, we'd let him think that driving us to the club and going in with us was all his idea. Ah the joys of being a woman! Sometimes having the power to trick men into doing what you want them to do totally cancels out the other less enjoyable things that come with being female; such as monthly cramps and so on. I know it's cruel, but ya gotta admit that any man who thinks he's the one in control is actually having his strings pulled by his wife/girlfriend.
It's simple really, you just play on their caveman instincts. Darien instantly became overprotective and jealous when I mentioned the club. He suddenly got into the classic ' man defending territory' mode and insisted on coming with us. By using this knowledge about men and territory, Raye and I scored a free ride to the club AND a bodyguard to fend off the unwanted loser guys. Then there was the other topic that had been on my mind for weeks.
I know I probably should want to wait a while before I have sex with Darien, but the truth is I DON'T think like that anymore! Why should I have to act like Mary Sunshine 24/7 just so I can be considered a lady by society's stupid double standards? It's okay for men to want to have sex all the time but if a woman has the same desires then she's automatically called a slut. It's those stupid double standards that screwed me up and caused me to think there was something wrong with me when I was still in high school. If it hadn't been for Mina I probably would still be just as messed up.
" So what are you thinking so hard about Sere?"
" Do you want my honest answer or the lie that's used as a means of hiding the truth?"
" The truth, Sere."
" Are you sure you want me to tell you? Or would you rather I show you?" I purred as my hand slid up his thigh teasingly. He groaned. " Never mind. I think I've figured it out."
It's amazing how much the thought of sex can seriously affect a person's vocabulary. I moved my hand to the crease where his leg meets with his hip and traced light circles there with my fingers.
" Sere...I suggest you stop before I jump you and take you right now." he warned as I slipped my hand into his pants and began to caress him through his boxer shorts.
" And what if I want you to jump me?" I asked, batting my eyelashes in an attempt to feign innocence.
" Serena I'm _serious_ about this..."
" So am I..." I whispered as I continued to tease him.
He suddenly grabbed my wrist and pulled my hand away from him. I pretended to pout.
" Why'd you do that, Darien. Don't you want me?" I asked in my hurt little girl voice. Darien groaned in response.
" You have no idea how much I want you Serena, but I want to wait until you're truly ready. Besides, we could get caught since everyone is still awake. Please Sere, just wait a little bit longer."
I sighed. Darien was right, although I was ready, there was still the complication of family that we'd have to deal with.
" Well, I'll wait for a few more hours then, Dare, cuz I'm definitely ready for you. We'll just wait here and watch T.V. until everyone is asleep, okay?"
Darien sighed. " You're sure you're ready?" I nodded.
" I'm as ready as I'll ever be Darien." I purred as I got up from the bed to turn on the T.V and pop a video into the VCR. " How about we watch one of my favorite videos?" I suggested as I put the tape into the VCR slot.
" What's it called?" Darien asked as he turned off the lights and set the entire room into darkness except for the black light by the dresser and the glow of the TV screen.
" Cruel Intentions! It's sexy and entertaining. I'm sure you'll enjoy it too." I pressed PLAY on the remote control and slipped under the blankets, quickly kicking off my shorts so that I could lay down and feel comfortable as well.
" Cruel Intentions? Isn't that a little bit of a tease, selecting that particular movie to watch tonight?"
" It doesn't have to be a tease, Darien. You can feel free to let your hands wander if you feel the need to... I'll welcome it since this movie can get me really horny sometimes." I purred as I inched closer to him so that he would have a lot of access should he decide to do just that.
" This is going to be one looong night." Darien sighed as my hand 'accidentally' touched his thigh as the movie started. * Just a few hours...* my brain reassured me as I tried to focus on the movie and not on what I really wanted to do at the moment. This was going to be one very long night...
Temptress: There ya go! Another chapter for you to read and enjoy. I'm leaving for the holidays soon so I don't know exactly when I'll be able to get another chapter out. I promise that I'll try to work on this fic while I'm on vacation but that doesn't mean I'll be able to get the whole story finished. I gotta spend time with my family and my sister and I are going to go ' boy shopping' too so I don't know how much spare time I'll have. Anyhoo, thanks to all who read my fic since the beginning and thank you to all who write to me and leave reviews! Hope you have a great time during the last few months of 2003! I know I have. Till next time!