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A girl laid on a bed her face turned towards the wall not even looking up as the soldiers filled the room, each one lining up around the bed but at the same time keeping themselves near the edge of the room. The door opened again and a man stepped through following soon after a woman her chocolate brown hair pulled back into a tight braid, her arms behind her back and her body stiff as a board. She went around to the other side of the bed kneeling down to face the woman in the bed, speaking softly she said, "Welcome home, big sister."
The girl was chained to a chair, the man stood over her, "Where are the others?" The girl looked down at her lap; "Last chance." The man pushed down a button, her back arched, her head fell backwards and her whole body tensed. "Where are the others?" he repeated, after a couple of seconds he slapped her, again and again he asked her in between he slapped or pushed the button sending electricity throughout her body. After a while he stopped slapping her and starting using his fists.
The scene changed into a hospital like room on the bed laid the same girl from before, her knees being forced to her chest by two nurses, her arms chained tightly to her side and a white sheet pulled over the lower half of her body. A doctor sat on a chair at the end of the bed his hand under the sheet, his arm flexed and a scream filled the room. The girls face tensed tightly and her hands where squeezed tightly turning white and her face whipped back and forth finally her sight laying on the mirror on the left wall. On the other side of the wall a man from before sat his knees rested on the edge of the window seal his knuckles white but at he same time he had a smile on his face. The words the solider just said still etched in the air; "Sir, we have the test result she has given birth before."
The scene altered again a woman that had never been previously seen was in a cell the woman from the scenes before lying on the ground. Her body squeezed tightly into a ball an arm laying over her slightly round stomach. "Tell me where the child is?" No answer, the woman kneeled over the girl, moving the hair from her forehead, "You have someone special when you where on the outside, that's the only way you could have held your sanity this long." The woman reached out and brought her hand to the girl's tummy rubbing it through the thin fabric of the hospital gown. "Don't get to comfy on land, sweetie the moment the tanks back online your going back in."
The scene again was replaced with another, a tank that went almost to the ceiling filled with water a glass panel that finally let you see the face of the woman that was in all the previous scenes. The woman inside wore a black bra and underwear, tubes coming out of her body and there was no way you could miss her round stomach.
Liz whimpered and shot upright in her bed, the sheet clinging to her and sweet poured off her body. Bile filled her throat and she jumped out of the bed running into the bathroom, leaning her head over the toilet. After she empty her stomach with everything she had ate from the last week, she leaned her head on her arm and let the tears roll down her checks. Jumping when she felt someone push her hair from the side of her face. "Mom," I whispered, my voice hurting a little. "I didn't mean to wake you."
"I was already up. I couldn't sleep," she whispered. I looked up at her and saw tears glistening in her eyes; a small tear went down her check.
"Mommy, I'm so sorry," I cried, more tears coming down my checks.
"Why?" she asked, cupping my checks with her hands and wiping my tears with her thump.
"Because, I'm hurting you," I answer.
"Oh baby, I love you and the only reason I'm hurting is because you're hurting and I can't stop that." I didn't know what to say it's not like my mom and I never had any of these talks before. It was just that I've never had this serious conversation before, so I did the only thing I could I told her the truth.
"I was so worried about Eva I couldn't stand not being around her all I wanted to do was get out of that hell hole, I just wanted my baby back in my arms. When that asshole told me I was pregnant again and was scared shitless, I didn't know how to react. Everything was turned upside down Julie died and now I had two daughters. When I came back, I didn't realize I was going to stay I was planning on leaving before any of this happened." My mom stopped stroking my hair and I looked up.
"Why did you wake up crying and shaking?"
"Nightmare," I replied.
"Baby, can you show me your dreams?" She asked, reaching and putting a stray hair behind my ears. "Shh. maybe I can help. I just need to understand." I nodded slowly, watching as she reached up a gently put her hands on my head, her eyes stared straight into mine and slowly I started to feel connections start.
Flash
Watching my sisters and brothers when they were a very young.
Flash
Sing Maxie and Jondy asleep, after they had a bad dream.
Flash
Zack and I sparring.
Flash
Lydecker yelling at us.
Flash
Ben making finger puppets on the wall.
Flash
All of us in our first mission
Flash
Escaping
Flash
The Parker's picking me up from the side of the road.
Flash
The first time Alex played the guitar for me.
Flash
One of Maria and mine's girls night.
Flash
Myself stepping off the plane
Flash
Strapped on the bed
Flash
Lydecker telling me I was pregnant
Flash
Julie and I escaping
Flash
Going into labor with Eva.
Flash
Max healing me
Flash
Max's and I first kiss.
Flash
Eva's first step
Flash
Eva's first word.
Flash
Tess arriving in town.
Flash
Getting captured by Lydecker
Flash
Being tortured.
Flash
Being strapped to the bed during the operation.
Flash
Being locked in the growth camper
Flash
Brin helping me escape
Flash
Going into labor with Hope.
Flash
Leaving town.
Flash
Traveling town to town with Eva and Hope.
*End of Flashes* *The nightmare*
After the scenes of my nightmare stopped running through our minds, feeling started to spread through us. Happiness and love for my brothers, sister and my two daughters. Sadness when I saw Brin in Manticore. Pain when I went through the operations and tortures. Feeling so lost when I was stuck in the growth camper, when Max went after Tess and when I had to leave Roswell.
The connection started to fade and I realize that I am crying. When I looked over to my mom I saw her crying to and it made me feel a little better. She pulled me into my arms, and I clinged to her letting the tears fall down my checks onto her shirt.
"I'm sorry, baby I'm so sorry," I heard my mom whisper, while she rocked our shaking bodies. Even when our crying subsided, she didn't let me go our tears a long time ago mixed with one another.
"I should have told you a long time ago and I'm sorry for that," I whispered into her shoulder.
"Liz look at me," my mom whispered taking my face in her hands pulling it up so we were eye to eye. " I love you, I will always love you. Whether or not I gave birth to you or not doesn't matter, and because I am a mother I can understand why you left. But, you should also know I probably won't be letting you go for a while," she explained giggling a little. Chuckling at her and wiping my own tears. As I lay my head on her lap, feeling the cold floor under me it's hard to believe that when you stop feeling for so dam long you just simple forgot how to feel. But, now I just lay hear letting all the feels wash over my body love, hate, sadness, loneliness and happiness. After our tears stopped falling, we made our way back to my bedroom and my mom pushed me into my bed. Turning onto my side I felt Eva push herself into chest putting her head on it, I kissed her head and stroked her hair, until I joined her into peaceful sleep.
Not even Nancy Parker who stayed long into the night just watching her daughter and granddaughter's sleep saw the dark figure watching them from afar.
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A girl laid on a bed her face turned towards the wall not even looking up as the soldiers filled the room, each one lining up around the bed but at the same time keeping themselves near the edge of the room. The door opened again and a man stepped through following soon after a woman her chocolate brown hair pulled back into a tight braid, her arms behind her back and her body stiff as a board. She went around to the other side of the bed kneeling down to face the woman in the bed, speaking softly she said, "Welcome home, big sister."
The girl was chained to a chair, the man stood over her, "Where are the others?" The girl looked down at her lap; "Last chance." The man pushed down a button, her back arched, her head fell backwards and her whole body tensed. "Where are the others?" he repeated, after a couple of seconds he slapped her, again and again he asked her in between he slapped or pushed the button sending electricity throughout her body. After a while he stopped slapping her and starting using his fists.
The scene changed into a hospital like room on the bed laid the same girl from before, her knees being forced to her chest by two nurses, her arms chained tightly to her side and a white sheet pulled over the lower half of her body. A doctor sat on a chair at the end of the bed his hand under the sheet, his arm flexed and a scream filled the room. The girls face tensed tightly and her hands where squeezed tightly turning white and her face whipped back and forth finally her sight laying on the mirror on the left wall. On the other side of the wall a man from before sat his knees rested on the edge of the window seal his knuckles white but at he same time he had a smile on his face. The words the solider just said still etched in the air; "Sir, we have the test result she has given birth before."
The scene altered again a woman that had never been previously seen was in a cell the woman from the scenes before lying on the ground. Her body squeezed tightly into a ball an arm laying over her slightly round stomach. "Tell me where the child is?" No answer, the woman kneeled over the girl, moving the hair from her forehead, "You have someone special when you where on the outside, that's the only way you could have held your sanity this long." The woman reached out and brought her hand to the girl's tummy rubbing it through the thin fabric of the hospital gown. "Don't get to comfy on land, sweetie the moment the tanks back online your going back in."
The scene again was replaced with another, a tank that went almost to the ceiling filled with water a glass panel that finally let you see the face of the woman that was in all the previous scenes. The woman inside wore a black bra and underwear, tubes coming out of her body and there was no way you could miss her round stomach.
Liz whimpered and shot upright in her bed, the sheet clinging to her and sweet poured off her body. Bile filled her throat and she jumped out of the bed running into the bathroom, leaning her head over the toilet. After she empty her stomach with everything she had ate from the last week, she leaned her head on her arm and let the tears roll down her checks. Jumping when she felt someone push her hair from the side of her face. "Mom," I whispered, my voice hurting a little. "I didn't mean to wake you."
"I was already up. I couldn't sleep," she whispered. I looked up at her and saw tears glistening in her eyes; a small tear went down her check.
"Mommy, I'm so sorry," I cried, more tears coming down my checks.
"Why?" she asked, cupping my checks with her hands and wiping my tears with her thump.
"Because, I'm hurting you," I answer.
"Oh baby, I love you and the only reason I'm hurting is because you're hurting and I can't stop that." I didn't know what to say it's not like my mom and I never had any of these talks before. It was just that I've never had this serious conversation before, so I did the only thing I could I told her the truth.
"I was so worried about Eva I couldn't stand not being around her all I wanted to do was get out of that hell hole, I just wanted my baby back in my arms. When that asshole told me I was pregnant again and was scared shitless, I didn't know how to react. Everything was turned upside down Julie died and now I had two daughters. When I came back, I didn't realize I was going to stay I was planning on leaving before any of this happened." My mom stopped stroking my hair and I looked up.
"Why did you wake up crying and shaking?"
"Nightmare," I replied.
"Baby, can you show me your dreams?" She asked, reaching and putting a stray hair behind my ears. "Shh. maybe I can help. I just need to understand." I nodded slowly, watching as she reached up a gently put her hands on my head, her eyes stared straight into mine and slowly I started to feel connections start.
Flash
Watching my sisters and brothers when they were a very young.
Flash
Sing Maxie and Jondy asleep, after they had a bad dream.
Flash
Zack and I sparring.
Flash
Lydecker yelling at us.
Flash
Ben making finger puppets on the wall.
Flash
All of us in our first mission
Flash
Escaping
Flash
The Parker's picking me up from the side of the road.
Flash
The first time Alex played the guitar for me.
Flash
One of Maria and mine's girls night.
Flash
Myself stepping off the plane
Flash
Strapped on the bed
Flash
Lydecker telling me I was pregnant
Flash
Julie and I escaping
Flash
Going into labor with Eva.
Flash
Max healing me
Flash
Max's and I first kiss.
Flash
Eva's first step
Flash
Eva's first word.
Flash
Tess arriving in town.
Flash
Getting captured by Lydecker
Flash
Being tortured.
Flash
Being strapped to the bed during the operation.
Flash
Being locked in the growth camper
Flash
Brin helping me escape
Flash
Going into labor with Hope.
Flash
Leaving town.
Flash
Traveling town to town with Eva and Hope.
*End of Flashes* *The nightmare*
After the scenes of my nightmare stopped running through our minds, feeling started to spread through us. Happiness and love for my brothers, sister and my two daughters. Sadness when I saw Brin in Manticore. Pain when I went through the operations and tortures. Feeling so lost when I was stuck in the growth camper, when Max went after Tess and when I had to leave Roswell.
The connection started to fade and I realize that I am crying. When I looked over to my mom I saw her crying to and it made me feel a little better. She pulled me into my arms, and I clinged to her letting the tears fall down my checks onto her shirt.
"I'm sorry, baby I'm so sorry," I heard my mom whisper, while she rocked our shaking bodies. Even when our crying subsided, she didn't let me go our tears a long time ago mixed with one another.
"I should have told you a long time ago and I'm sorry for that," I whispered into her shoulder.
"Liz look at me," my mom whispered taking my face in her hands pulling it up so we were eye to eye. " I love you, I will always love you. Whether or not I gave birth to you or not doesn't matter, and because I am a mother I can understand why you left. But, you should also know I probably won't be letting you go for a while," she explained giggling a little. Chuckling at her and wiping my own tears. As I lay my head on her lap, feeling the cold floor under me it's hard to believe that when you stop feeling for so dam long you just simple forgot how to feel. But, now I just lay hear letting all the feels wash over my body love, hate, sadness, loneliness and happiness. After our tears stopped falling, we made our way back to my bedroom and my mom pushed me into my bed. Turning onto my side I felt Eva push herself into chest putting her head on it, I kissed her head and stroked her hair, until I joined her into peaceful sleep.
Not even Nancy Parker who stayed long into the night just watching her daughter and granddaughter's sleep saw the dark figure watching them from afar.