Title: Let Me Rest in Pieces

Author: Kathea

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: JAG belongs to CBS and DPB. "Rest in Pieces" belongs to Saliva off the Back into Your System cd.

A/N: I wrote this right after ATW2 aired. During a psych class in fact but it's taken me this long to post. It's a one shot. Plus, check out Saliva's cd, it's great. Please review.

Paraguay, Cuidad de Este Outside the hotel

The warm night air had suddenly turned oppressive and overwhelming. The yellow light from the street lamps stood out n harsh relief from the dark night sky. I felt the air rush out of my lings like I'd been punched. Mac was never one to pull a punch. I'm still not exactly sure what happened. Her words rushed by me without comprehension. I don't know why I thought being in a foreign country would change anything. Australia had screwed us up too. But we had recovered, right? So that means I can have some hope, right? How could I have possibly screwed this up? I dropped everything to come rescue her. I lost my job, my military career, and came to a war zone. Despite what Bud thinks I'm not Superman, I do make mistakes. The problem is I can't figure out what I did wrong.

Look at me

My depth perception must be off again

This hurts deeper than I thought it did

It has not healed with time

It just shot down my spine.

You look so beautiful tonight

Reminds me how you laid us down and gently smiled

Before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart

To make this go away

And let me rest in pieces

Would you find it in your heart

To make this go away

And let me rest in pieces

The cabbie is insistent that we get to the airport on time. The blast of the horn jerks me back to reality. As I carefully bend my battered body into the cab, I realize how close we'll be. I'm glad it's dark so she can't see my face. I can't look at her right now. She looks too beautiful and so damn content. Why shouldn't she be? She's going home to a man, who by all accounts, really loves her. The cobblestone streets and bad suspension cause me to fall onto Mac. I can't help but touch her since it'll probably be the last chance I get. What am I supposed to do? Do I love her? Yes, without reservation. Can I live without her? No way! I asked her to wait for me once but she can't wait forever. The cabbie slams on brakes and send me flying into the back of the front seat. Great, a pain in my head to match in the one in my heart. Look at me

My depth perception must be off again

You got much closer than I thought you did

I'm in your reach

You held me in your hands

Would you find it in your heart

To make this go away

And let me rest in pieces

Let me rest in pieces

My life is slowly breaking apart around me. It's like an iceberg that slowly loses pieces of itself. What am I going to do when there is nothing left of me?

The End