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Warnings - Yaoi, as usual, um, swearing (a little) noting major, so only pg13 (tell me if I should alter)
A/N - well, this ficcie is totally out of the blue, like most of my work, I don't really know why I wrote it but for a change I do know where it is going!!! I really hope all you guys like it, as, as much as I have written at the moment, has been really fun to write!!
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He'd done it again, He'd fucking gone and done it again. One week till they were due to go away together for a week, the first real time they would have spent together in over a month and Heero had blown it off.
He'd called the night before saying that no, no, no, sorry and all but no, there was no way that he could afford the time off.
If he was totally honest, then Duo was more hurt and upset than he was angry, but the shell of physical anger hid this weaker side of him, hid the pain that Heero caused every time he vanished, every time he left Duo on his own, every time he broke a promise, every time he lied...
"I'll be back tomorrow Duo!" He would say, as he left to go on a business trip to one of the more remote colonies, a week later he would saunter home, never having given his "Lover" any proof that he was okay, and behave as if nothing had happened, he even got angry if Duo questioned him about why he was so late, or where he had been
"Lover, Duo didn't think he could be classified as that, Lovers made love, that was how it had used to be, but no more, they never even kissed, and barely touched and when they did do anything , well, it just wasn't the same, it was sex, plain and simple nothing more, and it certainly didn't mean anything to him.
He wondered what it meant to Heero, was he still Heero's one and only? Were there others on the colonies Heero visited? What of Relena? Duo knew he was being ridicules, not that he had ever found any solid information that would incriminate Heero, but he knew Relena still chased him, sent him flowers, letters, and other things, Heero never touched any of them, but he also knew that Heero seemed to be going off of him.
He didn't want to sink back to what he had been before, he never wanted to feel the way he had felt when he had had to work the streets to stay alive. And if Heero treated him that way after only four months, then, well, he didn't know how it was going to end.
Their relationship had not exactly gotten off on the best of grounds, they had met at a party of Quatres, maybe three or so years after having split up with the end of the wars. Neither Wu-Fei nor Trowa were there and it was a big surprise when Heero had turned up. It had not however been a surprise to see Relena following him.
Duo had been drunk, heh, big surprise, and had been tailing Heero helplessly all evening, and it came as a huge surprise to him when, In the hope of getting Relena to leave him alone Heero had kissed him, none to gently, but he had still responded, he'd often wondered what it would be like if Heero had ever kissed him, so he wasn't going to pass up a chance to find out properly.
The relationship had been simple acting at first, always pretending to do things that they really weren't to keep Relena off of Heero's heels, not really the most trusting way to form a partnership, but eventually, as one thing led to another, they had both begun to find it harder to keep their hands off each other, and on one rather late, and passionate night all their pretending became reality.
The first month of the relationship had been a mass of stolen kisses, brief caresses and 'accidental' brushing against each other.
After that month they had let everyone else know, everyone being their friends, of course including Quatre, Trowa and Wu-Fei, the relationship had then become something very special, rather than 'Boyfriends' they were a couple, often seen together, happy smiling, and making people around them smile, they had not been the same two pilots that had been known in the wars, all sign of training had vanished, even from Heero. But about five weeks ago that had changed.
Heero had become steadily colder and more surly as time had drawn on, Duo hadn't noticed it at first, and he even managed to brush it of when he noticed that Heero had started to carry his gun again. But it became horribly clear the first time Heero drew his gun on him again.
They had had a small argument over something trivial, hell, it must have been small because he couldn't even remember it, and it had gotten out of hand, he had managed to wind Heero up and Heero had pulled out his gun. Duo had never shut up quicker in his life.
Admittedly Heero hadn't done that since, but it seemed that since that day things had been slowly returning to how they were before, how they were during the fighting, with Heero and himself shut off from each other, it was tearing him apart.
Duo didn't understand why it was all changing, he was confused, and he was hurt. Heero had told him one night, it had been a lovely summers night, that he would never hurt him, that was the first lie, and the first broken promise.
Heero would vanish and never tell him where he was going, he would return late and never talk about it, they rarely even ate at the same time, it was killing him, he was forced to sit back and watch as the one person he was able to love with all his heart slowly pushed him away and blocked his every attempt to save the situation.
Sighing, Duo go up from the floor, he had been sitting in the corner of his room for over an hour now, seething, crying and swearing the whole time, but that wouldn't do him any good. He had to get his head together. He was beginning to lose it.
He felt a final tear fall from his eye, and as it hit the floor he knew that he was doing the right thing. The last time Heero had done this he had sworn that the next time Heero made him cry would be the last, and it would be, he was going to leave, he had been all packed for their week away, so he wouldn't have too much more to do, but he would need somewhere to go.
Making his way over to their phone he dialled the number of the people who he knew would offer him a friendly face and a shoulder to cry on.
"Hello?" A bright voice answered, and was joined seconds later by a smiling blonde face on the screen of their vid-phone.
"Hey Quat," duo said in his tear choked voice. "Don't suppose I could come and stay with you for a bit could I?" Tears began to fall from his eyes again, and he saw the look on the blondes face turn to concern.
"Oh Duo," Quatre said, his voice thick with the genuine sympathy that seemed to flow naturally through him, "Of course you can, but first, Heero, he did it again didn't he?"
Duo nodded, unable to speak and glad that with his phone he wouldn't have to.
"Well Duo, I'll send someone to get you, no sense in you spending money on buying a shuttle ticket, I'll fly you over here on my own one, Oh, I believe Wu-Fei is on L1 at the moment and he is due for a visit, I'm sure he wont mind collecting you as well, I'll phone him and call back, get your things together Duo, and don't worry, everything will be fine."
Duo went back into his room, he looked around, there were signs of Heero everywhere, items of clothing that must have gone astray, photographs, and letters, yes, sappy as it may sound they were both guilty of sending love letters. Carefully Duo picked up the box of treasured letters and slipped them into his suitcase, he had to take something, he wasn't able to completely cut off, but maybe one day, yes, one day this would all be the past.
Duo had nearly finished when he heard a knock on his front door, upon opening it he was met with the stern face of Wu-Fei Chang.
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Meanwhile, on a Colony hundreds of miles distant from the scene one L1, Heero was getting edgy, he hadn't been called yet, this guy was never consistent, but this had to be the longest he had ever been kept waiting. What if he'd gotten bored with playing games with Heero and had simply finished the job? NO, that wouldn't happen, he had promised, and all that Heero had to hang onto now was the promise that nothing would happen to his lover as long as he cooperated and said nothing about what was going to on to anyone, even Duo.
For in truth, for the last five weeks Duo's very life had been held in the balance every time this strange man had called Heero.
As of yet Heero had never found out what the main point for the strangers phone calls really was, he had been forced into stealing smallish amounts of money from his place of work, but that was nothing major, especially for a ex-Gundam pilot. But no amount of hacking had been able to unearth who the hell this fruit-cake was, what he wanted, and how he had known about Duo.
Heeros nerves were really beginning to fray, he had been forced to turn Duo down on their week away, hell, he must have hurt Duo so much recently, but it was for his own good, if he could push him away and convince everyone that he didn't love the guy anymore, then, well, maybe it would pull the rug out from 'Stranger's' as Heero had dubbed him, feet.
The phone rang, Heero grabbed it.
"Hello!" said the bizarre, computerised voice, Heero could tell it was male, and there was a distinct English accent to it. {1}
"Hn," Heero grunted in response "You're late today."
Stranger laughed, "Oh Heero, you should know I only call when I want, this is my game, and it has my rules, so play nice, be careful, or you will lose even more than you lost today."
"What are you talking about?" Heero grated, Strangers tone infuriated him, he was always so damn knowing, and loved to gloat over it.
"Oh my!" Stranger said in mock surprise, "Don't tell me you haven't heard?"
"I Haven't heard!" Heero grated again, this was how the game went every time he was called, he had learnt it was easier if he just played along.
"Why, your dear Duo left you today Heero, he couldn't cope with the lies, the broken promises, the deception, the, oh what was it? Ah yes!" The was the essence of a smirk in Strangers voice, "The pain!" He let the words roll down the phone with an air of pure delight.
Heero felt tears in his eyes, but he refused to let them fall, this was what he had wanted, Duo had to be safe if he wasn't with him, he just had to be. Heero mustn't let the tears fall, not ever, he was sure that Stranger could see him.
"So." Heero said, sounding as indifferent as he could, "if I really cared you think I would have played your game, I'd have gone straight to the police, screw my life but save his, I'm just a selfish coward who has let you terrify him."
Heero had hated to say that, not only because part of it was true, but because he was denying what he felt for Duo.
Stranger laughed. "Oh Heero, you are so funny, lets see," The voice became thoughtful, but retained it mocking quality. "If you really don't care than you wont mind if we simply end our ridicules little game and I just kill Duo tomorrow? How does that sound to you?"
Heero growled, "Leave it out, you know I'll do what you want, just tell me what that really is, I know you aren't going to all this trouble to have me steal a few grand from work, so what is it?"
"Now, now Heero, lets not get impatient shall we, you wouldn't want me to go getting bored do you, because when I get bored people tend to go missing, people just like Du-"
"ENOUGH!" Heero cut him off with a yell, a few tears escaping his eyes. "I'll wait, I'll do what ever you say, just don't hurt him, please."
"Now, that's more like it Heero, that's a good boy, now, I will call you again tomorrow, I'm not going to tell you when, but if you don't pick up the phone then you know what will happen don't you, Duo will go bye-"
"Yes I know what will happen!" Heero said, "I'll be here!"
The phone cut off and Heero slumped back in his chair, he was scared, he had thought that pushing Duo away from him would help, but now he knew it wouldn't, but Stranger seemed to not only know who and where he and everyone he cared about was, but also exactly what he was trying to hide.
He'd hurt and lost Duo now, but for no good purpose, but Duo still might be safer, if he was with Quatre he would, but was that where Duo had gone? Heero would guess so, they had always been close.
Would he be able to win this? Who or What was he fighting, a battle where you don't know your enemy is almost impossible to win, but this was a fight Heero couldn't afford to lose or quit, the stakes were just too high, the stakes were Duo.
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Back on L1, unaware of the repulsive game being played around his life, Duo, still believing Heero hated him had finished and with the help of Wu- Fei had made it to the spaceport and was boarding Quatres shuttle, back at the house was a small piece of paper left for Heero to find.
---{ Heero, I have gone to stay with Quatre, don't come looking for me because you have hurt me too many times, and even though you are now a Frozen Shell, I Love You Still, and its killing me, so leave me to get over you.
Duo Maxwell }---
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Wah, I was writing this after a bad day, hence it is not all happy, but I kinda like it, do you want me to continue?
Warnings - Yaoi, as usual, um, swearing (a little) noting major, so only pg13 (tell me if I should alter)
A/N - well, this ficcie is totally out of the blue, like most of my work, I don't really know why I wrote it but for a change I do know where it is going!!! I really hope all you guys like it, as, as much as I have written at the moment, has been really fun to write!!
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He'd done it again, He'd fucking gone and done it again. One week till they were due to go away together for a week, the first real time they would have spent together in over a month and Heero had blown it off.
He'd called the night before saying that no, no, no, sorry and all but no, there was no way that he could afford the time off.
If he was totally honest, then Duo was more hurt and upset than he was angry, but the shell of physical anger hid this weaker side of him, hid the pain that Heero caused every time he vanished, every time he left Duo on his own, every time he broke a promise, every time he lied...
"I'll be back tomorrow Duo!" He would say, as he left to go on a business trip to one of the more remote colonies, a week later he would saunter home, never having given his "Lover" any proof that he was okay, and behave as if nothing had happened, he even got angry if Duo questioned him about why he was so late, or where he had been
"Lover, Duo didn't think he could be classified as that, Lovers made love, that was how it had used to be, but no more, they never even kissed, and barely touched and when they did do anything , well, it just wasn't the same, it was sex, plain and simple nothing more, and it certainly didn't mean anything to him.
He wondered what it meant to Heero, was he still Heero's one and only? Were there others on the colonies Heero visited? What of Relena? Duo knew he was being ridicules, not that he had ever found any solid information that would incriminate Heero, but he knew Relena still chased him, sent him flowers, letters, and other things, Heero never touched any of them, but he also knew that Heero seemed to be going off of him.
He didn't want to sink back to what he had been before, he never wanted to feel the way he had felt when he had had to work the streets to stay alive. And if Heero treated him that way after only four months, then, well, he didn't know how it was going to end.
Their relationship had not exactly gotten off on the best of grounds, they had met at a party of Quatres, maybe three or so years after having split up with the end of the wars. Neither Wu-Fei nor Trowa were there and it was a big surprise when Heero had turned up. It had not however been a surprise to see Relena following him.
Duo had been drunk, heh, big surprise, and had been tailing Heero helplessly all evening, and it came as a huge surprise to him when, In the hope of getting Relena to leave him alone Heero had kissed him, none to gently, but he had still responded, he'd often wondered what it would be like if Heero had ever kissed him, so he wasn't going to pass up a chance to find out properly.
The relationship had been simple acting at first, always pretending to do things that they really weren't to keep Relena off of Heero's heels, not really the most trusting way to form a partnership, but eventually, as one thing led to another, they had both begun to find it harder to keep their hands off each other, and on one rather late, and passionate night all their pretending became reality.
The first month of the relationship had been a mass of stolen kisses, brief caresses and 'accidental' brushing against each other.
After that month they had let everyone else know, everyone being their friends, of course including Quatre, Trowa and Wu-Fei, the relationship had then become something very special, rather than 'Boyfriends' they were a couple, often seen together, happy smiling, and making people around them smile, they had not been the same two pilots that had been known in the wars, all sign of training had vanished, even from Heero. But about five weeks ago that had changed.
Heero had become steadily colder and more surly as time had drawn on, Duo hadn't noticed it at first, and he even managed to brush it of when he noticed that Heero had started to carry his gun again. But it became horribly clear the first time Heero drew his gun on him again.
They had had a small argument over something trivial, hell, it must have been small because he couldn't even remember it, and it had gotten out of hand, he had managed to wind Heero up and Heero had pulled out his gun. Duo had never shut up quicker in his life.
Admittedly Heero hadn't done that since, but it seemed that since that day things had been slowly returning to how they were before, how they were during the fighting, with Heero and himself shut off from each other, it was tearing him apart.
Duo didn't understand why it was all changing, he was confused, and he was hurt. Heero had told him one night, it had been a lovely summers night, that he would never hurt him, that was the first lie, and the first broken promise.
Heero would vanish and never tell him where he was going, he would return late and never talk about it, they rarely even ate at the same time, it was killing him, he was forced to sit back and watch as the one person he was able to love with all his heart slowly pushed him away and blocked his every attempt to save the situation.
Sighing, Duo go up from the floor, he had been sitting in the corner of his room for over an hour now, seething, crying and swearing the whole time, but that wouldn't do him any good. He had to get his head together. He was beginning to lose it.
He felt a final tear fall from his eye, and as it hit the floor he knew that he was doing the right thing. The last time Heero had done this he had sworn that the next time Heero made him cry would be the last, and it would be, he was going to leave, he had been all packed for their week away, so he wouldn't have too much more to do, but he would need somewhere to go.
Making his way over to their phone he dialled the number of the people who he knew would offer him a friendly face and a shoulder to cry on.
"Hello?" A bright voice answered, and was joined seconds later by a smiling blonde face on the screen of their vid-phone.
"Hey Quat," duo said in his tear choked voice. "Don't suppose I could come and stay with you for a bit could I?" Tears began to fall from his eyes again, and he saw the look on the blondes face turn to concern.
"Oh Duo," Quatre said, his voice thick with the genuine sympathy that seemed to flow naturally through him, "Of course you can, but first, Heero, he did it again didn't he?"
Duo nodded, unable to speak and glad that with his phone he wouldn't have to.
"Well Duo, I'll send someone to get you, no sense in you spending money on buying a shuttle ticket, I'll fly you over here on my own one, Oh, I believe Wu-Fei is on L1 at the moment and he is due for a visit, I'm sure he wont mind collecting you as well, I'll phone him and call back, get your things together Duo, and don't worry, everything will be fine."
Duo went back into his room, he looked around, there were signs of Heero everywhere, items of clothing that must have gone astray, photographs, and letters, yes, sappy as it may sound they were both guilty of sending love letters. Carefully Duo picked up the box of treasured letters and slipped them into his suitcase, he had to take something, he wasn't able to completely cut off, but maybe one day, yes, one day this would all be the past.
Duo had nearly finished when he heard a knock on his front door, upon opening it he was met with the stern face of Wu-Fei Chang.
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Meanwhile, on a Colony hundreds of miles distant from the scene one L1, Heero was getting edgy, he hadn't been called yet, this guy was never consistent, but this had to be the longest he had ever been kept waiting. What if he'd gotten bored with playing games with Heero and had simply finished the job? NO, that wouldn't happen, he had promised, and all that Heero had to hang onto now was the promise that nothing would happen to his lover as long as he cooperated and said nothing about what was going to on to anyone, even Duo.
For in truth, for the last five weeks Duo's very life had been held in the balance every time this strange man had called Heero.
As of yet Heero had never found out what the main point for the strangers phone calls really was, he had been forced into stealing smallish amounts of money from his place of work, but that was nothing major, especially for a ex-Gundam pilot. But no amount of hacking had been able to unearth who the hell this fruit-cake was, what he wanted, and how he had known about Duo.
Heeros nerves were really beginning to fray, he had been forced to turn Duo down on their week away, hell, he must have hurt Duo so much recently, but it was for his own good, if he could push him away and convince everyone that he didn't love the guy anymore, then, well, maybe it would pull the rug out from 'Stranger's' as Heero had dubbed him, feet.
The phone rang, Heero grabbed it.
"Hello!" said the bizarre, computerised voice, Heero could tell it was male, and there was a distinct English accent to it. {1}
"Hn," Heero grunted in response "You're late today."
Stranger laughed, "Oh Heero, you should know I only call when I want, this is my game, and it has my rules, so play nice, be careful, or you will lose even more than you lost today."
"What are you talking about?" Heero grated, Strangers tone infuriated him, he was always so damn knowing, and loved to gloat over it.
"Oh my!" Stranger said in mock surprise, "Don't tell me you haven't heard?"
"I Haven't heard!" Heero grated again, this was how the game went every time he was called, he had learnt it was easier if he just played along.
"Why, your dear Duo left you today Heero, he couldn't cope with the lies, the broken promises, the deception, the, oh what was it? Ah yes!" The was the essence of a smirk in Strangers voice, "The pain!" He let the words roll down the phone with an air of pure delight.
Heero felt tears in his eyes, but he refused to let them fall, this was what he had wanted, Duo had to be safe if he wasn't with him, he just had to be. Heero mustn't let the tears fall, not ever, he was sure that Stranger could see him.
"So." Heero said, sounding as indifferent as he could, "if I really cared you think I would have played your game, I'd have gone straight to the police, screw my life but save his, I'm just a selfish coward who has let you terrify him."
Heero had hated to say that, not only because part of it was true, but because he was denying what he felt for Duo.
Stranger laughed. "Oh Heero, you are so funny, lets see," The voice became thoughtful, but retained it mocking quality. "If you really don't care than you wont mind if we simply end our ridicules little game and I just kill Duo tomorrow? How does that sound to you?"
Heero growled, "Leave it out, you know I'll do what you want, just tell me what that really is, I know you aren't going to all this trouble to have me steal a few grand from work, so what is it?"
"Now, now Heero, lets not get impatient shall we, you wouldn't want me to go getting bored do you, because when I get bored people tend to go missing, people just like Du-"
"ENOUGH!" Heero cut him off with a yell, a few tears escaping his eyes. "I'll wait, I'll do what ever you say, just don't hurt him, please."
"Now, that's more like it Heero, that's a good boy, now, I will call you again tomorrow, I'm not going to tell you when, but if you don't pick up the phone then you know what will happen don't you, Duo will go bye-"
"Yes I know what will happen!" Heero said, "I'll be here!"
The phone cut off and Heero slumped back in his chair, he was scared, he had thought that pushing Duo away from him would help, but now he knew it wouldn't, but Stranger seemed to not only know who and where he and everyone he cared about was, but also exactly what he was trying to hide.
He'd hurt and lost Duo now, but for no good purpose, but Duo still might be safer, if he was with Quatre he would, but was that where Duo had gone? Heero would guess so, they had always been close.
Would he be able to win this? Who or What was he fighting, a battle where you don't know your enemy is almost impossible to win, but this was a fight Heero couldn't afford to lose or quit, the stakes were just too high, the stakes were Duo.
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Back on L1, unaware of the repulsive game being played around his life, Duo, still believing Heero hated him had finished and with the help of Wu- Fei had made it to the spaceport and was boarding Quatres shuttle, back at the house was a small piece of paper left for Heero to find.
---{ Heero, I have gone to stay with Quatre, don't come looking for me because you have hurt me too many times, and even though you are now a Frozen Shell, I Love You Still, and its killing me, so leave me to get over you.
Duo Maxwell }---
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Wah, I was writing this after a bad day, hence it is not all happy, but I kinda like it, do you want me to continue?