Standard disclaimer, I don't own Lizzie McGuire or any of the Disney characters here, I just like the show and because I liked it so much, I decided to write a story based on it, so if Disney type people read this, please understand I wrote it because I think your characters are great and I love your work so don't sue me.

Chapter 3 - Wrestling with himself

"Tell Her!" the voice rings again, Gordo starts to wonder if his inner self has anything else in its vocabulary then that 2 word phrase as it has been ringing constantly in his mind since before the day he left Hillridge.

"I can't, don't you understand, I can't tell her how I feel, the only thing that makes my life bearable is having her as a friend, if I were to tell her that and she didn't feel the same way, she might get so mad at me that she won't write to me anymore. Her letters are the only thing that keep me going from one week to the next, if they were to stop, I couldn't go on." he answered the voice out loud.

"But what if she feels the same way? You'd no longer have to worry about telling her, and you'd have something even better then you have now." the voice answered me back, oh so it can say something else....

"Yeah, but what about her, let's say she did feel the same way, she is perfect, she deserves to have fun. She deserves everything she can get out of life, if she were to feel like she owes me something, she'd miss out on things like dating and relationships. I'm 2000 miles away from her, if she did love me, I couldn't date her except for the few times I can visit her. I can't do that to her."

"But if you don't tell her, she will find someone else, you know you will never find anyone else you will love as much as you love her, she is meant for you. Yeah long distance relationships are tough, but you know she would make you happy, and you would do anything for her, absolutely anything."

"Of course I would, but everything I can give probably wouldn't be enough. She deserves the best."

"And what about you, don't you deserve the best?"

"Me? No, I don't deserve the best, look at me. I'm ugly, I'm not Ethan or Ronnie, I'm just Gordo. Not only that, I'm starting to become a bit of a geek as High school goes on. No, I could never deserve her."

"But you love her more then life itself, you can offer her that."

"That's not enough. But it doesn't matter because she probably doesn't feel the same way anyway."

"But what if she does? Can you ever forgive yourself for not finding out?"

"No, you are right there, I have to know, but I just can't ask her."

"Then show her and see if she tells you.

"How?"

"How am I supposed to know, I'm you, if you don't know I surely don't."

"Perhaps I really am going crazy, look at this conversation I'm having with thin air, oh if my Dad was here he'd probably send me off for another horrible 4 months of therapy, I couldn't stand that."

But his father, who was standing outside Gordo's door listening to this one sided conversation, was just thinking that he was finally able to understand what was going on in Gordo's head even though he couldn't hear the imaginary voice, he got a pretty good idea of what was going on, he only wished he could help his son.