"Inevitable Disillusion"
By The Carpet Shampoo and The Ambitious Blank


Disclaimer- Kingdom Hearts still isn't ours. ^^;
Comments- Blank here, with the last chappie. ;_; Written by Shampoo, edited by me. Hope you all have some tissues handy. ^^


Chapter 6

The sun sank slowly over the horizon, drooping down slowly, as if it knew the night would bring something bad, and it wanted to fight off the inevitable darkness that was to come. The sun tried desperately to keep sending off its light, turning the sky a blood red color, as slowly it fell, dying at the hand of the night.
Riku stared out, standing back in the welcoming shadows, staring out in the direction of the sun, as if he could see it sinking below the darkness. He didn't care what the night brought. He had been waiting for this moment now, it seemed, for such a long time.
At last the sun took its final breath, and fell beneath the surface, and Riku stepped out his door. He took a deep breath, inhaling the deep scent of the night air. After all, it was his domain. To someone who didn't know the silver haired boy, the site would have been strange. A long dark cape, a silver haired beauty, who only came out at night. Children who saw him would whisper in hushed voices, "Vampire...", mothers would lock their windows, fathers would look worried and pull their children back indoors. Sadly, this was the way the world treated Riku.
In some way, Riku could tell that perhaps if he had foreseen this happening to himself, he could have prevented it, somehow. That maybe he and Sora could truly have been together forever. But no, he'd made this choice on his own, and was now forced to face the fearful eyes of the people he once knew. The world would forever treat him this way.
But not Sora. Sora remembered Riku as the Greek-esque, shining god, the one who stood above the crowd on an alabaster pedestal, shining down on them from above, pushing everyone, especially pushing Sora, to be a better person. Riku had been the god of the island, everyone worshipped him, whether they admitted it or not.
But Sora... Sora had loved him more than anyone else ever had.
"That's why..." Riku whispered. Inside now, he wasn't so confident anymore. He knew that Sora loved him, and that he loved Sora. But he couldn't lie to Sora. He couldn't live with himself, if Sora could not love who he had become. It had been too long, Riku had spent too long away from his home.
The island was a paradise to them; it was heaven, and he and Sora lived Like angels, loving each other the way boys did. They were shy at first, not quite sure of themselves and each other, but gradually they grew comfortable with each other, and held hands while dreaming of forever paradise with each other.
But then the darkness came. Riku stepped into the darkness and planned on giving up heaven and an angel forever. His heart was Sora's, as he stepped into the gateway to hell; now Riku, the fallen angel. The forbidden lover of so many fairy tales, the one in the shadows who only appeared out at night.
In the darkness, Riku learned what hell really was. Hell was betraying those people you loved, Hell for Riku was betraying Sora, it was being away from Sora, it was everything he did to the boy he loved.
Hell is what I deserve now...an angel cannot love a demon, Sora, unless he's willing to become one himself. I can't betray you again; I love you too much. You still live in a world of light, a world where we both live in heaven, and we both shine in white light and bliss. This is my fault, Sora. So, I'm giong to do everything I can to make things right again. I love you...

Sora looked around impatiently, shivering slightly in the cold. He knew Riku was coming; Riku always came for him. Sora glanced around and trembled in the shadows. He wasn't just shaking because of the cold; it was a little scary being out at night too. Sora knew it was a silly thing to be laughing at, but it was true. Sometimes he was scared of the dark. But once Riku was here, everything would be okay. Riku was like a light, Riku could light up the world with just his smile, he was like a shining god to Sora, standing on a marble stand for all the world to see, and for Sora alone to love.
"Sora..." Sora turned and broke into a smile. Already the world seemed
brighter as he saw his best friend and first love standing there before him.
Riku reached out to his friend and pulled him in close, holding the younger
boy against him.
"Please...Sora, forgive me...and let me love you just one more time..." Sora
looked up, confusion written all over his face. He had never been good at
hiding his emotions.
"Don't try and understand." Riku said firmly. Sora nodded his head, and wrapped his skinny arms around Riku's waist.
A breeze blew and Sora shivered, cuddling up closer to Riku, for what little good it did. Riku seemed colder now, his pale skin, which Sora had always found surprisingly warm for something that looked so cold and icy, was now as cold as it looked. Riku tilted his head down, moonlight silver locks brushing against and tickling Sora's forehead, before Riku planted an icy kiss on Sora's forehead.
"You're cold..." whispered Sora.
"I'm sorry..." Riku apologized, a pang striking his heart. Everytime Sora commented on one thing that had changed, even if it was the smallest thing, it hurt him. He knew he couldn't go on living like this, struggling to be the actor in the play of Sora's innocence, trying to make things normal again even if he knew it was futile.
It's hard being an actor when you know the play will never turn out right.
"Its okay..." Sora reassured him, just like always.
Riku knew it would never be okay.


The two of them walked alongside the beach, gazing out at the dark water that gently lapped against the cool sand beneath their feet. Sora stared out at the ocean. The ocean, by night, remained such a beautiful sight to Sora, no matter how many nights he saw it. The moon seemed to swing low, a huge silver orb in the sky, lighting up the world for all the nightwalkers and late-night lovers. The ocean stretched out like a giant beautiful mirror for the gods, reflecting the moon back up on itself. The water rippled, distorting the moons reflection slightly, but rather than creating a chaotic ugly image of distortion, the moon light skipped from wave to wave, cresting each wave with a light platinum and sparkle, a graceful recovery from impending disaster.
"Do you think the moon gets lonely up there all by itself?" Sora asked, his blue eyes sparkling with the platinum of the waves as the moonlight caught them.
"Its got all the stars to keep its company, doesn't it?" Riku asked, amused by the young boy's question. Sora's naivety had always fascinated him in strange ways he couldn't quite explain.
"Yeah, but...sometimes little stars aren't enough company, you need someone who understands you in life, I think..." Sora said. Riku gazed up at the moon himself.
"I don't think the moon gets lonely...maybe it has no one to keep it company, but it takes care of the stars, and watches over and guides the earth. Besides, the sun isn't lonely, is it?"
"No...the sun is so bright, I think it knows how to keep itself happy..." Sora replied.
"Have faith in the moon, Sora. It won't be lonely."
"If you say so, Riku..." Sora answered airily. Riku turned the boy towards him, gently rotating him around, an action to which the brunette easily complied. Riku leaned in and pressed his lips to Sora's. Memories of being two boys shy of kissing came flooding back to Sora for a moment, but thoughts of being with Riku calmed his suddenly jumpy nervous as he responded to the kiss, moving his lips against Riku's to deepen it. Sora pushed up against Riku, and the two of them stumbled down into the sand, Sora falling right into Riku's arms. If they broke contact, they didn't know it, as they toppled down into the sand, holding each other tightly.
The old worries of their fairy tale-like forbidden love seem to have been forgotten, tossed carelessly like the waves nearby. There were no more worries of "being caught" or scaring each other. The two merged together, tumbling own into the sand, their lips locked together in a kiss. They lay side by side, Riku's strong pale arms holding Sora around the waist, Sora's skinny tan arms linked around behind Riku's neck.
They lay there for a long time, kissing occasionally, cuddling with each other, playing with each other's hair, fingers, toes. Riku planted gentle, playful kisses along Sora's neckline. Sora buried his hands in platinum hair, letting his legs get tangled up with the other boys. But most of all, they enjoyed each other's company. Sora eventually fell asleep easily, curled up like a child in Riku's arms, the peaceful moon keeping watch over its two angels, bathing them in a pale white light.


Sora woke up first the next day. It was just before sunrise and he gentle shook Riku's shoulders, and planted soft kisses on the boys forehead.
"Riku, wake up. Its almost sunrise." Riku sat up and to Sora's surprise, immediately placed the blue eyed boy in a tight embrace.
"Sora, I have to do this..." Riku said, whispering softly into the other boy's ear. He kissed Sora's earlobe and pulled away. Sora blinked his bright blue eyes, surprised by how dead serious Riku's tone was. Riku backed off until he was seated on his knees. The rising sun created a golden silhouette around him as the boy reached back and began to untie the blindfold.
"I can't handle the light, Sora...it hurts so bad."
"Riku, stop it! Go inside!" Sora reached out for the boy, but Riku gestured for him to stop. Sora withdrew, too confused and surprised to do anything.
"Sora, its time now. Things aren't going to be the same, you'll see in a minute." Riku let the blindfold fall, keeping his eyes shut as he slipped the black robes over his head. Underneath he was wearing his old clothes, a sight that sickened Sora in a way. As the light hit Riku's skin, the boy frowned, biting his lip in a twisted expression of pain. He grabbed at his arms, in one last, desperate attempt at trying to stop the sun before he fell into the sand.
"Riku!" Sora's legs worked at last as he dove towards the boy. "Riku, please..." The pale boy lay there, twitching in pain, even as Sora held him, and tried to block out the light with his body.
"I chose this....Sora..." Riku's voice sounded through clenched teeth. His eyes remained tightly closed as he reached and grabbed Sora's wrist tightly.
"Sora..." Riku gasped, drawing in air suddenly, before he opened his eyes and stared up at the other boy. Sora gasped at the sight. The eyes still shimmered the royal jade they had always been, that weird mysterious glow that always seemed to shine from Riku's eyes was still there, but beyond that, Sora saw such pain, the pain of knowing you betrayed the one you love, the pain of knowing that you could never be with the one you loved.
"Oh Riku...I didn't know, I didn't know..." Riku smiled at Sora, before shutting his eyes again.
"I know...Sora....But...it's okay now...I'll be fine...I love you so much Sora. I'm sorry...that it came...to this..." Riku relaxed in Sora's arms, letting the brunette boy hold him. Sora clutched Riku to him and put his ear up to the older boy's chest. It was so quiet... even the seagulls had stopped calling to each other, only the stubborn waves persisted, lapping at the sand.
"Riku...? Riku, wake up, Riku..."
No...It can't be...people just don't die from sunlight.
"Riku, come on. This isn't funny..."
But his body...it's been in darkness for so long...
"Riku I mean it, get up!"
He couldn't handle the darkness...and its all my fault for not noticing!
"Riku...?" Sora felt tears spill over his cheeks, he watched them fall onto Riku's lifeless body, but he couldn't explain why he was crying just yet.
All I wanted was for things to be the same again.
"Riku, please, Riku, I love you too, please wake up!" Sora gasped for air, something in his chest was clamping down on his lungs, and Sora found that it was growing harder by the minute to breathe.
Was I really that blind...?
"Riku, God, Riku, wake up!" The tears flowed freely now, and Sora didn't bother to wipe them away. Within his chest, he felt this pain. Sora had been sad before, but never anything like this. It was an actual physical pain, like there was a knife within his body, tearing away at his heart, shattering his very soul into pieces.
Just don't leave me alone...
"Riku...I love you Riku, I need you, I need you so much..." Sora fell down and lay crying on Riku's chest, the pain where his heart was made it hard to breathe, and he couldn't quite stand up. The world was spinning around him, his nerves were shaking out of control, but this time there was no Riku to calm his trembling, to wipe away his tears. There would never be another Riku. Sora managed a strangled cry before he passed out from the pain.
I love you so much, Riku...I forgive you...do you forgive me, for not
seeing that things have changed? I see the changes now, Riku. I love you so
much...



Weeks passed, a funeral for Riku was held, though memories of it were fuzzy in Sora's mind. Sora drifted about as if he were dead too, that constant ache remained in his heart, as if Riku has died and taken Sora's heart with him, and that ache Sora felt was the empty hole where a heart belonged.
He did this because he loved you, Sora... Kairi's words echoed back in his
mind, but Sora didn't see how they made sense as he stared out at the
setting sun.
There had been anger. Sure, there had been anger, sadness, confusion, and a period of complete apathy where nothing had seemed to matter anymore. Kairi and the others had done their best to try and keep him in good spirits, something for which he was grateful, but he knew that no one could replace what he'd had.
"I changed my mind, Riku. The sun is very lonely, no matter how bright it is. And no matter how many people it has to watch over, the moon is lonely, too..." Sora glanced up and noticed something he was quite sure he hadn't seen before. The moon had already risen and was sharing the sky with the sun. The sun was sinking slowly, holding on as it passed the rising moon. Sora felt sad in a way, he knew the sun and moon would soon be alone, but the fact that they had this brief moment together took a weight off Sora's heart momentarily. There was still healing to be done, there would always be healing that was needed.
Isn't that right, Riku? The sun's naive...it doesn't understand that it really needs the moon to keep balance in the world. But I think today, it might finally be beginning to understand. Precious moments may not last forever... but in our hearts and minds, we know there's another to always be looking forward to.
Sora had given his whole heart to Riku, but Riku had given his heart to Sora. They both ended up with a full heart in the end. The ache was still there in Sora's heart, and his eyes still filled with tears when he thought of Riku.
But the sun and the moon where briefly united again, even if only for a short amount of time, and Sora knew he might have to wait a long while, but someday, he and Riku would meet again at sunset.

Fin.