Disclaimer: I don't own Buffy and I don't own the song. All recognition goes to the BTVS peeps and three doors down.

Setting: Imagine Oz sitting on the back of his van in the middle of the desert, which is funnily enough deserted. The sun is going down in the background and he is looking up at the rising moon, playing this song on him guitar.

Here Without You

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face

The night in the van stayed in his memory. He remembered every word and every movement. He remembered the way her face had shone with goodness and the way her tear-stained eyes made her look even more pure. He couldn't explain it, but he was still falling in love with her as she told him they could never be together.


A thousand lights had made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same

He looked up at the full moon. He couldn't remember the last night he had slept during a full moon. Now that he could control the wolf, he spent most full-mooned nights outside, watching the thing that he had once feared.


But all the miles had separate

He could still feel her, even though he was so far away. He could feel her fading away as she slowly forgot about him. He was so far away from her, yet she stayed close to his heart.


They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face

As he stares at the moon, he can almost see her. Her eyes, her lips, her cute little nose. He can see it all. He can hear her last words echo in his head… "If I'm old and blue-haired, and I turn the corner in Istanbul and there you are, I won't be surprised. Because... you're with me, you know?"
But she wasn't waiting for him anymore. He wondered if she would even recognise him.


I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello

He had left Devon and the guys, they didn't need him and he no longer got the rush he used to get when he was up on stage. He also found it unfocused him.


I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go

Thinking of Willow unfocused him too, but even though she had been the one to bring the wolf out before, thinking of her habitually kept him preoccupied and the wolf no longer fought against him. He was free when he thought about her.

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won't take away my love

There had been times where he had stopped thinking about her, but these moments left him confused, his mind became obscured and the only thing that came to his mind had been her. Could you love a person too much?


And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done it get hard but it won't take away my love

Ho so often told himself that she was gone, that she wasn't in love with him anymore and never again will be. But as he looked up at the moon, he realised that she was with him. In his heart and in the moon. It was good enough. He could live with the memory of her, although he wanted more, because even if she wasn't waiting for him, he would forever be waiting for her.

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me