AN: Thanks to those who reviewed!

Kyandisu - I hadn't meant this to be fluff, but hey. Why not?! Glad you like it!

Merf – thanks! I was worried that Goku might be a little OoC.

acern – here's that update! Glad you like it!

Oh, and since I didn't do it before, Here's that blasted disclaimer: I don't own these guys. Much as I'd like to, I only own them in the respect that I've bought the first volume of manga and 8 dvds. Other than that, they're not mine, I didn't make them, don't sue, all that jazz.

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That night, with Gojyo laying on his bed smoking a cigarette, I pull out the journal and a pen to write my first entry.

Journal Entry 1

Well…I don't know how to do this, but I guess I should start at the beginning. We, Sanzo, Gojyo, Hakkai, and me, are on a journey west to stop the resurrection of a dangerous demon. We've been travelling for a while now, and we've stopped in a quiet little town.

Tonight, Sanzo has split up Gojyo and Hakkai, making them sleep in different rooms. I feel bad for them, I feel like it's my fault, because Sanzo doesn't want to room with me, which means they have to get split. Gojyo's laying on his bed now, and I'm attempting to write this.

This journal was Gojyo's idea, though he said Hakkai gave him the idea a long time ago. So, I figure, it can't hurt to try? He said just to write what I thought, no matter how random. So if it seems random, I'm sorry.

Earlier today, I was doing a lot of thinking about Sanzo. About what he might think of me, of what I think of him, things like that. I get so frustrated with him sometimes, because I don't know how to react to what he does. Sometimes, I think he actually cares what happens to me…sometimes I think he couldn't care less. It's funny. I've been injured lots during this journey so far, and I'm sure I'll get injured lots more. But none of the injuries have or will compare to how much Sanzo can hurt me. He has no idea (at least, I don't think he has an idea) of how much he effects my feelings, my life. One small smile from him could make me happy for a year…he is my sun, and I need him in my life as much as this planet needs that giant star to give it light and life.

I pause and re-read what I've written. I hadn't even really been thinking, it just all flowed from my mind to my hand and onto the paper. Perhaps this journal thing is a good idea.

I surprised them all earlier, when I used the word libido. I guess they don't think I pay as much attention to what they say and how they say it as I really do. Maybe I'll just have to start surprising them more. It was fun, the argument that Gojyo and I had after that, about his sex life and my lack thereof. When they asked me where I learned 'libido', I replied that they'd be surprised what I hear. I was really tempted to make a comment to Gojyo about how often I 'hear' what he and Hakkai are up to…^_^ but I didn't. I'll save that for another fight hehe. ^_^

Well, I'm getting tired now, so I guess I'll go ahead and try to sleep. I'm sure we're going to head out in the morning, and I want to make sure to have a nice breakfast before we go. Night for now!

I close the journal, feeling like I'd said all I needed to say.

"First entry, Saru?" Gojyo asks me.

"Yeah. I think you might be right about this, Gojyo," I tell him with a smile as I crawl into bed.

"You'd be surprised how much good it can do." He snuffs out his cigarette and flicks off the light. "Night, monkey boy."

"Night, water sprite." I close my eyes and know that sleep will claim me soon.

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"Gojyo, stop," Hakkai's voice laughs.

"Oh, come on. That stupid bouzo kept me away from you, and the monkey sleeps through anything. He won't know the difference," Gojyo's voice replies.

Oi. What a thing to wake up to. I roll my eyes, but for the sake of later blackmail, I pretend to still be asleep.

"No, Gojyo. It's not right. I'll make sure we get a room together at the next inn," Hakkai promises.

"Mmm…" Gojyo whines. "I don't wanna wait…"

"Gomen, Gojyo. Good things take time, they say," Hakkai replies, his voice a bit husky. I can almost hear the smile in his voice. Who knew Hakkai can be a bit perverted?

"Mm. It had better be good…or you'll be sorry."

Oi. I really don't need to hear this! I wonder if I should roll over in my 'sleep' and surprise them… Odd, I'm in a really good mood this morning. Maybe that journal did more good than I thought.

Closing my eyes, I groan and roll over, still pretending to be asleep.

Gojyo sighs. "I guess it's time to wake the bakasaru," he says, sounding disappointed. Note to self: make a comment about his lack of sex sometime today.

I can hear Hakkai step softly across the room. He puts a hand on my shoulder and shakes me gently.

"Goku, time to get up. Sanzo is eager to leave this morning," Hakkai whispers.

I fake a snore in response.

"See. I told you he can sleep through anything. Especially since you're so quiet, he'd never notice…"

I have to stop myself from laughing – I don't want to embarrass Hakkai.

"Aa, but you're rather noisy, Gojyo," Hakkai laughs, giving my shoulder another shake.

My whole bed shakes suddenly and I pretend to jerk myself awake.

"Get up, bakasaru!" Gojyo says, kicking my bed again.

"Alright, I'm up," I yawn. "Ero kappa." Yes, especially this morning, hehe.

"Breakfast should be almost ready, so hurry and get dressed, Goku," Hakkai's smiling face tells me.

"Hai!" Food!