Kokoro no Hitan
I stayed in my room, sleeping intermittently, for days, maybe even longer. I didn't eat, drank water occasionally, and only really left to go to the bathroom. I was a mess when I was told that I had a visitor. I didn't care though. When they asked if they could come in, all I told them to do was open the door.
And she was the last one I expected.
I sat bolt upright. "T-Tohru-kun....O-Ohayou...O-genki...desu..ka?" I was at a loss for words.
"Watashi wa genki desu...Ano...Kagura-san, daijoubu desu ka...?" She walked toward me and sat down next to me on my bed.
I stood up, and nearly fell, my knees were shaking so hard. Maybe going days on end without eating and crying all the time wasn't the best method to treat depression. "H-hai...Atashi wa genki desu." I looked at the floor. "Atashi wa daijoubu zutto."
She could tell I was lying. "Nee, Kagura, what's wrong? You can tell me."
Tears threatened again. Kyo-kun...The word echoed in my thoughts endlessly. "Kyo-kun...," I accidentally mumbled outloud. I looked up at her, my head still tilted down. She looked some-what shocked, but also like she had expected that answer all along. I fell onto my knees. I just couldn't stand anymore. "Kyo-kun..."
This wasn't like me. I never showed anyone I was depressed, I'd cover it up with anger, or act like it wasn't there. I'd only cry when no one else was around. And now I had broken down in front of Tohru.
Would she tell Kyo? Would she pretend that it never happened? Would she force him to come and apologize? Would she make me go back and talk to him? All of these thoughts passed through my head in a single moment as I looked at her. I had no idea. I was so lost. Then everything got blurry again, and I wasn't sure what was going on anymore.
- Kagura Sohma
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I hadn't been expecting this from Kagura. Everytime I saw her, she was always calm and collected. Or maybe she was angry or annoyed at Kyo. But I had never seen her like this before. I don't think anyone had.
Maybe she just finally broke. People act completely different than normal when everthing that pills up on top of them spills out and there's no way they can push it all back in again.
I wonder how long she's been holding all this back, was the only thing I could think as I looked at her. I was at a loss for words.
"Kyo...kun," she mumbled again. Her arms were hugging her chest as she knelt there, hunched over on the floor.
"Ano...maybe you should...talk to him again," I had tried suggesting.
"Iee." She shook her head. I could tell she was thinking that it would be worthless. And although it probably would initially cause her more pain, it would help her wounds to heal. She couldn't go on living like this forever! And she probably wouldn't live much longer anyway if she kept this up.
At work, Momiji had told me that he had heard Kagura hadn't eaten in days, that she hadn't left her room, and that the only thing people ever heard when they walked by was sniffling or the steady breathing that told them she was asleep. No one had actually seen her in over a week and people were starting to get worried. Akito wasn't too conerned. He had basically just said that she needed to get over it.
With this information foremost in my mind, I knelt down in front of her and hugged her. She tensed for a moment, and then relaxed. She probably didn't know what else to do. She was too weak to move.
"Tomorrow," I told her. 'Tomorrow we'll go see Kyo." I could feel her shaking her head, almost sense her pain at the thought of having to face him again. I could hear her sniffling. "It's the only way things are ever going to get any better. You can't go on living like this." 'Cause I'm afraid you won't last much longer.
-Tohru Honda
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A/N: Gomen, gomen! I know this chapter was short, but the last one was longer than usual! Don't worry, I will be writing more. And just think, we both don't know how this story is going to end! Is that bad...Hmm...Oh well! Ja ne, and see you next chapter!
I stayed in my room, sleeping intermittently, for days, maybe even longer. I didn't eat, drank water occasionally, and only really left to go to the bathroom. I was a mess when I was told that I had a visitor. I didn't care though. When they asked if they could come in, all I told them to do was open the door.
And she was the last one I expected.
I sat bolt upright. "T-Tohru-kun....O-Ohayou...O-genki...desu..ka?" I was at a loss for words.
"Watashi wa genki desu...Ano...Kagura-san, daijoubu desu ka...?" She walked toward me and sat down next to me on my bed.
I stood up, and nearly fell, my knees were shaking so hard. Maybe going days on end without eating and crying all the time wasn't the best method to treat depression. "H-hai...Atashi wa genki desu." I looked at the floor. "Atashi wa daijoubu zutto."
She could tell I was lying. "Nee, Kagura, what's wrong? You can tell me."
Tears threatened again. Kyo-kun...The word echoed in my thoughts endlessly. "Kyo-kun...," I accidentally mumbled outloud. I looked up at her, my head still tilted down. She looked some-what shocked, but also like she had expected that answer all along. I fell onto my knees. I just couldn't stand anymore. "Kyo-kun..."
This wasn't like me. I never showed anyone I was depressed, I'd cover it up with anger, or act like it wasn't there. I'd only cry when no one else was around. And now I had broken down in front of Tohru.
Would she tell Kyo? Would she pretend that it never happened? Would she force him to come and apologize? Would she make me go back and talk to him? All of these thoughts passed through my head in a single moment as I looked at her. I had no idea. I was so lost. Then everything got blurry again, and I wasn't sure what was going on anymore.
- Kagura Sohma
~~~
I hadn't been expecting this from Kagura. Everytime I saw her, she was always calm and collected. Or maybe she was angry or annoyed at Kyo. But I had never seen her like this before. I don't think anyone had.
Maybe she just finally broke. People act completely different than normal when everthing that pills up on top of them spills out and there's no way they can push it all back in again.
I wonder how long she's been holding all this back, was the only thing I could think as I looked at her. I was at a loss for words.
"Kyo...kun," she mumbled again. Her arms were hugging her chest as she knelt there, hunched over on the floor.
"Ano...maybe you should...talk to him again," I had tried suggesting.
"Iee." She shook her head. I could tell she was thinking that it would be worthless. And although it probably would initially cause her more pain, it would help her wounds to heal. She couldn't go on living like this forever! And she probably wouldn't live much longer anyway if she kept this up.
At work, Momiji had told me that he had heard Kagura hadn't eaten in days, that she hadn't left her room, and that the only thing people ever heard when they walked by was sniffling or the steady breathing that told them she was asleep. No one had actually seen her in over a week and people were starting to get worried. Akito wasn't too conerned. He had basically just said that she needed to get over it.
With this information foremost in my mind, I knelt down in front of her and hugged her. She tensed for a moment, and then relaxed. She probably didn't know what else to do. She was too weak to move.
"Tomorrow," I told her. 'Tomorrow we'll go see Kyo." I could feel her shaking her head, almost sense her pain at the thought of having to face him again. I could hear her sniffling. "It's the only way things are ever going to get any better. You can't go on living like this." 'Cause I'm afraid you won't last much longer.
-Tohru Honda
~~~
A/N: Gomen, gomen! I know this chapter was short, but the last one was longer than usual! Don't worry, I will be writing more. And just think, we both don't know how this story is going to end! Is that bad...Hmm...Oh well! Ja ne, and see you next chapter!