Kokoro no Hitan
I didn't want to go. I was scared. So scared. And I didn't know what I would do if Kyo rejected me again. But she pushed me so much, in the end, I didn't have much of a choice. I was too weak to put up a fight anymore.
And so I found myself dragging my feet towards that Sohma house buried in the woods with a heart as reluctant as my footsteps.
My thoughts wandered aimlessly, making it seem like hours had passed before we finally reached Kyo's home.
A bittersweet smile fluttered across my lips for a moment as a stared at that house of memories. All the fun times I had had with Kyo, even though for him, most of them had been torture. And then I knew that my torture would soon begin as I took that last step towards the front door.
-Kagura Sohma
~~~
When I pulled back the front door, Kagura was the last person I expected to see.
She was staring at her feet, her head tilted down. A smiling, but clearly worried Tohru stood beside her.
I raised a questioning eyebrow at her, I'm sure my anxiety was clearly present on my face. I was as a loss for words. My mind was a complete blank.
Tohru made a small gesture with her head towards the inside of the house, as if to say, "Why don't you invite her in, you dummy."
"Ano,...Kagura...come in."
She took one step forward into the house. "Thank you." She then must've realized that Tohru still needed to get into the house, so she took a few more steps forward, and then stepped to the side, still looking at the floor.
-Kyo Sohma
~~~
Tears threatened. I didn't know what to do. My face felt hot, my eyes about to overflow, and my heart about to break.
Tohru, why did you bring me here?...How is this going to help?...
-Kagura Sohma
~~~
Kyo was staring blankly at Kagura, and Kagura was still staring at her feet.
"A-ano...Why don't we all go sit down?"
Kyo seemed to break out of a trance, and then looked at me with a shocked expression on his face. But he either must've thought that it was a good idea, or that he had no choice, because he then led the way to the dining room.
This might be a little harder than I thought, I remember thinking.
Kagura sat next to me and Kyo sat across from her. Now she was staring at the table instead of at her feet.
"Nee, Kagura. Didn't you have something you wanted to tell Kyo?"
-Tohru Honda
~~~
Not anything he doesn't already know. A single tear escaped, caught on my eyelashes, and then dropped to the surface of the table, a single drop of water on the wooden surface.
I hoped that no one else saw it. But she expects me to say something...What?...What do I want to say?...I remember having thought. "I like you Kyo. I love you more than Tohru ever will, so why do you love her more than me?" Yeah, I'm sure that would go over great. I sighed. Here goes nothing.
"I love you Kyo. I've liked you ever since I was toddler, ever since when you used to seek my hand for comfort, instead of the other way around. And..." Another single teardrop fell. "And I always will." I looked up, straight at him, tears starting to flow. "I love you, and I always will. More than anyone else." And you'll always be the pain that I harbor in my heart. The tears flowed freely now. I didn't bother holding them back.
-Kagura Sohma
~~~
I was at a loss for words. I knew she felt this way, but to hear her say it like this, and in front of Tohru, emptied my mind of any coherent thoughts. Now what?....I have to say something!....
"Gomen, Kagura. You...You know I don't feel the same way..." What else can I say?...Why did Tohru drag her here like this?
-Kyo Sohma
~~~
See, Tohru? He told me something I already knew. I shakily rose to my feet, my knees shaking from exhaustion and my emotions. And then my legs collapsed under me and a brownish cloud surrounded me as a popping sound filled my ears. I now knelt on four knees instead of two. I had transformed. And I was too weak to run away.
Dammit...
And believe me, boars can cry too.
- Kagura Sohma
~~~
I didn't want to go. I was scared. So scared. And I didn't know what I would do if Kyo rejected me again. But she pushed me so much, in the end, I didn't have much of a choice. I was too weak to put up a fight anymore.
And so I found myself dragging my feet towards that Sohma house buried in the woods with a heart as reluctant as my footsteps.
My thoughts wandered aimlessly, making it seem like hours had passed before we finally reached Kyo's home.
A bittersweet smile fluttered across my lips for a moment as a stared at that house of memories. All the fun times I had had with Kyo, even though for him, most of them had been torture. And then I knew that my torture would soon begin as I took that last step towards the front door.
-Kagura Sohma
~~~
When I pulled back the front door, Kagura was the last person I expected to see.
She was staring at her feet, her head tilted down. A smiling, but clearly worried Tohru stood beside her.
I raised a questioning eyebrow at her, I'm sure my anxiety was clearly present on my face. I was as a loss for words. My mind was a complete blank.
Tohru made a small gesture with her head towards the inside of the house, as if to say, "Why don't you invite her in, you dummy."
"Ano,...Kagura...come in."
She took one step forward into the house. "Thank you." She then must've realized that Tohru still needed to get into the house, so she took a few more steps forward, and then stepped to the side, still looking at the floor.
-Kyo Sohma
~~~
Tears threatened. I didn't know what to do. My face felt hot, my eyes about to overflow, and my heart about to break.
Tohru, why did you bring me here?...How is this going to help?...
-Kagura Sohma
~~~
Kyo was staring blankly at Kagura, and Kagura was still staring at her feet.
"A-ano...Why don't we all go sit down?"
Kyo seemed to break out of a trance, and then looked at me with a shocked expression on his face. But he either must've thought that it was a good idea, or that he had no choice, because he then led the way to the dining room.
This might be a little harder than I thought, I remember thinking.
Kagura sat next to me and Kyo sat across from her. Now she was staring at the table instead of at her feet.
"Nee, Kagura. Didn't you have something you wanted to tell Kyo?"
-Tohru Honda
~~~
Not anything he doesn't already know. A single tear escaped, caught on my eyelashes, and then dropped to the surface of the table, a single drop of water on the wooden surface.
I hoped that no one else saw it. But she expects me to say something...What?...What do I want to say?...I remember having thought. "I like you Kyo. I love you more than Tohru ever will, so why do you love her more than me?" Yeah, I'm sure that would go over great. I sighed. Here goes nothing.
"I love you Kyo. I've liked you ever since I was toddler, ever since when you used to seek my hand for comfort, instead of the other way around. And..." Another single teardrop fell. "And I always will." I looked up, straight at him, tears starting to flow. "I love you, and I always will. More than anyone else." And you'll always be the pain that I harbor in my heart. The tears flowed freely now. I didn't bother holding them back.
-Kagura Sohma
~~~
I was at a loss for words. I knew she felt this way, but to hear her say it like this, and in front of Tohru, emptied my mind of any coherent thoughts. Now what?....I have to say something!....
"Gomen, Kagura. You...You know I don't feel the same way..." What else can I say?...Why did Tohru drag her here like this?
-Kyo Sohma
~~~
See, Tohru? He told me something I already knew. I shakily rose to my feet, my knees shaking from exhaustion and my emotions. And then my legs collapsed under me and a brownish cloud surrounded me as a popping sound filled my ears. I now knelt on four knees instead of two. I had transformed. And I was too weak to run away.
Dammit...
And believe me, boars can cry too.
- Kagura Sohma
~~~