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Kagome sighed and rubbed her temples. It had been three days since she had run in with Inuyasha and his mother had invited her to attend some kind of charity function since she had an extra ticket. 'I'll give you two guesses as who's going to be there' She told her inner self. 'and he sure as hell isn't going to be Santa Claus.
But of course being the nice person she was she didn't refuse, she had agreed to go, even told herself she could bring Inutasha along. Now she knew she couldn't do that, if Inuyasha saw her then he would know that he was the father and he would demand his daughter, and he had the money to take her away. So instead of give everyone that heartbreak she had quickly wiped that thought from her mind, telling herself Inuyasha must never know of his daughter, if she wanted to keep up her happy existence. Her daughter was all she lived for now, she didn't want to lose her. Even that it panged her to see so much Inuyasha in her, she was just glad 'Tasha hadn't inherited the golden eyes, she didn't think she would've lived a day after her daughter was born if she had had golden eyes, it would've hurt to much.
She pushed those thoughts from her brain and stood up when she heard the knock on her door, it was Sango who had been invited to go to, she was glad she didn't want to face this alone. She smiled as her best friend opened the door and stepped in, she was wearing a dark pink, lavender off the shoulder dress that ended at her knees with pink pumps.
She looked down at her own dress, wondering if she should of dressed up a bit more, but she figured the white spaghetti strap dress was fine, it ended at her knees like her friend, revealing the white high heels she had worn to top off the outfit.
Sango smiled seeing the look on her friends face, sometimes she wanted to kill Inuyasha for what he had done, but she knew it would've just hurt Kagome more to see Inuyasha hurt so she had restrained herself, but if he was there tonight she didn't think she would be able to hold herself back.
"You ready Kag? The banquet is in ten minutes and we need to hurry if we want to be at the convention center on time." She said taking a step towards her friend.
Kagome just nodded and side stepped her, knowing she was going to try and give some comfort, which Kagome really didn't want right now, she steeled herself, and when she spoke her voice was flat and emotionless. "Then we better get going."
She brushed past Sango and out the door, heading towards the front of the apartment. Inutasha was with her mother so she knew she would be ok, as long as Inuyasha didn't make any surprise visits to the shrine while she was gone.
She heard Sango follow and bit back a scream, instincts told her to turn and run back into the house to avoid any more pain but her stubbornness kept her feet walking, and before she knew it she was in the car and on her way to what she knew would be a life changing situation.
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Inuyasha sighed and looked around, his mother had dragged him to this stupid thing then abandoned him with the lech, just great. He looked over at Miroku who had been his best friend since kindergarten, but hadn't seen since he had left for america. Their last parting was anything but friendly, Miroku literally beat him to a bloody pulp for hurting Kagome like that, but they had gotten over it, Miroku only throwing a few more punches, which he easily dodged, when he stepped off the plane. Then it had been back to best friends.
He nearly laughed when he saw him get smacked by some poor blonde in a short dress after he had gropped her, things never changed. He was nearly happy about that until the blonde turned and smiled at him seductively, he groaned and walked away, hearing her huff behind him and another smack after a shout of 'Hentai.'
He rolled his eyes and searched the crowd for his mother and smiled when she waved him over. He was talking to a girl with shoulder blade length brown hair, and another with shoulder length black hair, he prayed to god she wasn't going to try and set him up with complete strangers again.
He forced a smile on his face and came up behind the girls, "Hello mother." He blinked in confusion when the one with black hair stiffened and he took in her scent unconsciously, his eyes nearly popped out of his head 'Kagome...' he wanted to wrap her in his arms right then and there and apologize over and over again, and ask why she ran off earlier. But of course he couldn't and he knew why she ran. He had hurt her badly, nearly ten times as much as he had hurt himself.
His mother just smiled as if nothing was happening and took him by the hand pulling him to her side, making him brush against Kagome, her felt her shiver and he himself felt a flash where he just wanted to throw her to the ground right then and there, rip of her clothes and......he mentally slapped himself to get those thoughts out of his head. 'God Miroku is rubbing off on me more than I thought.' He told himself while forcing a smile towards his mother.
She turned him around to face the girls and his heart gave a lurch when he saw the pained expression on Kagome's face, he gave a glance to the other girl and saw hatred in her eyes. 'Oh great Sango's here? Either I'm going to die or Miroku's going to get the living shit beat outta him again.' He nearly groaned but bit his tongue when he saw Kagome start backing away as if she was going to leave.
"Awe yes Kagome, you and Inuyasha know each other I'm sure." Her eyes twinkled with mischief and Kagome just glared at her. How in all hells did she think she could say something like that and get away with it. Of course she knew him she gave birth to his son for heavens sake.
Inuyasha just ignored his mother and continued staring at Kagome, she turned her attention and nearly cried when she looked in his eyes. That's why she was glad her daughter didn't have her fathers eyes, she came undone by even the smallest glance in them. Like a deer caught in the headlights of a car she couldn't move, couldn't force herself to look away. She saw lust in his eyes but she didn't care how he looked at her, she just wanted him to come back to her. It was like everyone else and everything else had disappeared and everything was right with the world, Inuyasha never left, Inutasha and never grown up without a father, and she had never cried herself to sleep every night for the past five years.
She barely acknowledged Sango and Inuyasha's mother leaving, all she saw was those eyes, where all her happiness and all her sorrow lay.
She felt a hand slip into hers and she looked over and followed the arm up to a shoulder then up a neck and to a face. She nearly cried out of relief, but nearly screamed out of frustration. Koga stood there glaring at Inuyasha. "What the hell are you doing here dog shit, I thought you were in america."
She heard Inuyasha growl behind her and bit her lip pulling Koga away making an excuse, she didn't want to see these to fight like they did right before Inuyasha left. "Come on Koga dance with me." The wolf demon growled at Inuyasha one more time before following Kagome to the dance floor, keeping his hand clinging tightly to hers. The song was slow and just to piss off the hanyou he pulled the girl closer and wrapped his arms tightly around her smirking when he saw Inuyasha's eyes flash with anger.
Inuyasha couldn't believe it HIS woman was dancing with Koga. His biggest rival since elementary school. A voice in the back of his mind told him he was being unfair, Kagome had a chance to dance with or date anyone she pleased, he was the one who left her and all. But the stubborn side of him still considered her his mate, and he would never let her go without a fight.
He stalked over to the dancing couple and snatched one of Kagome's hands in his, tugging her out of the grips of Koga.
"Hey dog breath just where the hell do you think you're going with my woman." He shut up when he saw the glares of both Kagome and Inuyasha boring into him.
Kagome tried to yank her hand out of Inuyasha's larger one so she could go find Sango and leave. "Inuyasha let me go right now."
"Kagome we need to talk." She heard him nearly whisper and tried even harder to get her hand back.
"There's nothing to say Inuyasha, everything that needed saying was said five years ago now excuse me I want to enjoy myself tonight." She gave one more tug and got her hand free, but before she could even turn around he had grabbed both her wrists in one hand and was dragging her outside to a patio.
She shook her head and tried desperately to get from his grasp, this wasn't happening, she couldn't' be alone with him. He would break her heart again, her mind cried, yet her heart said it didn't care just as long as she could have him just one more time.
The tears started streaming down her face when they stopped and Inuyasha carefully shut the door to block the noise from the inside.
"Kagome..." Inuyasha started then seeing her tears swallowed pulled together his courage and pulled her into a tight embrace. How long had he waited to hold her like this again? How many times had he dreamed about it, nearly gotten hit by a car crossing the street by remembering how soft her skin was, how good she smelt?
She was to weak to fight, to tired of fighting. She put her hands against his chest as if to push away but ended up just clenching her fists against his shirt and clinging on for her dear life. She didn't want time to go on, she wanted time to stop. For them to just stand there like this forever like he had never broken her heart, like he had stayed.
But of course she knew that wasn't true. "Inuyasha." Her voice held fear, she was pleading with him silently to just go away, but she also wanted him to stay she was so confused she didn't know what to do anymore.
"Kagome, god I'm so sorry it shouldn't of been like that, I shouldn't of been a dumbass and left you like that, god I'm sorry." His voice was muffled by her hair, but she heard, and that just sent a new wave of tears down her face.
"Don't do this Inuyasha, don't act like you care again, we'll both just be hurt in the end." She said quietly, as emotionless as she could but he heard her fear.
He breathed in her scent again and smirked when he heard a song drifting through the closed door. It was the first song they had ever danced to, and he had known the lyrics by heart since then. He started singing in a low baritone voice his face still buried in her hair.
"I'm not a perfect person, There are many things I wish I didn't do.
But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you.
And so I have to say before I go.
That I just want you to know,
I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new,
And the reason is you."
Kagome could feel her heart beating at time with his, could feel her hands move up and wrap around his neck even though she didn't tell them to. She loved his voice, she remembered when they would just lie together in the dark and he would sing to her, his singing always soothed her frayed nerves, especially after her nightmares.
"I'm sorry that I hurt you,
It's something I must live with everyday.
And all the pain I put you through,
I wish I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears,
that's why I need you to hear.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you."
He paused for a second to breathe in her scent again. This song matched how he felt perfectly, and he just hoped the meaning got across Kagome
"I'm not a perfect person." He continued
"I never meant to do those things to you.
And so I just have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know,
I found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
And the reason is you." He looked into her eyes and nearly whispered the last part.
"I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And that reason is you."
He pressed his lips against her as what was meant to be a quick peck, but her purr brought him back down, crushing his mouth against hers and licking her lips demanding entrance, which she happily gave, tangling their tongues together. He loved the taste of her, the feel of her mouth against him, of her body pressed against his. Didn't she feel that they were the perfect fit, that they were definitely mates? He had already claimed her body, but he had never marked her. He knew now why because he was afraid she would hate him for being a hanyou like the rest, even though she had promised in not only words, but in actions and touches that it would never be so.
He smiled against the kiss when he heard her moan and grabbed her hips pushing her a little rougher than her planned against the wall. His mouth left hers and trailed down her chin, then to a spot on her neck that he knew would get her heart racing faster then it already was. He nipped at the vein lightly the licked the abused flesh, continuing down to her bare shoulder where he stopped to catch his breath. He could hear Kagome's heart beating, feel her breath come in shallow ragged breaths and nearly smirked to himself knowing he could still do this to her.
She took deep breaths trying to calm her frayed nerves. How after all these years was he still able to do this to her? How after all these years did her heart race at just the thought of him touching her like he used to. God she really was weak. She weakly pushed him away and took a step back seeing him frown.
"Don't do this Inuyasha, no matter now much we may want it we can't go back to how it was, not after...." She trailed off when she realized she had almost told him about Inutasha. No he must never know he had a daughter, then he would be pissed and try to take the only joy she had away from her.
He frowned again and tried to take her back in his embrace, he wanted to taste her again, hear her heart beat pick up as he touched her more. But she just stepped away from him again and opened the door.
"Inuyasha it's better for us to just stay out of each others way, to not try and get tangled back together. It will just end in heartbreak." With that she rushed back inside in search of Sango, she just wanted to go get her daughter and hold her in the comfort of her arms. She reached up and unconsciously rubbed the spot where he had been biting and nuzzling her and gasped. There was a small bite mark, not very noticeable but still there. He had marked her, now he would never leave her alone. She nearly broke into sobs right then and there.
Inuyasha watched her go with a saddened expression. Then he realized something was wrong with her scent, she smelled like another demon. He pondered that for a second and realized it wasn't Koga, Koga smelled worse. He growled, if any demon dared touch his mate then they'd be dead meat. Not like they would any more anyway because he had marked her, small mark but still there. He smirked. 'I'll get you back Kagome, one way or another.
a/n: ok yea I felt like changing this chapter a bit so I did, so what do you think did you like this chapter of the other chapter more? And do any of you have any ideas for the next chapter I'm drawing a blank here ;.; Oh yea I don't own the song it's by hoobastank I just thought it fit the situation well ^.^
Kagome sighed and rubbed her temples. It had been three days since she had run in with Inuyasha and his mother had invited her to attend some kind of charity function since she had an extra ticket. 'I'll give you two guesses as who's going to be there' She told her inner self. 'and he sure as hell isn't going to be Santa Claus.
But of course being the nice person she was she didn't refuse, she had agreed to go, even told herself she could bring Inutasha along. Now she knew she couldn't do that, if Inuyasha saw her then he would know that he was the father and he would demand his daughter, and he had the money to take her away. So instead of give everyone that heartbreak she had quickly wiped that thought from her mind, telling herself Inuyasha must never know of his daughter, if she wanted to keep up her happy existence. Her daughter was all she lived for now, she didn't want to lose her. Even that it panged her to see so much Inuyasha in her, she was just glad 'Tasha hadn't inherited the golden eyes, she didn't think she would've lived a day after her daughter was born if she had had golden eyes, it would've hurt to much.
She pushed those thoughts from her brain and stood up when she heard the knock on her door, it was Sango who had been invited to go to, she was glad she didn't want to face this alone. She smiled as her best friend opened the door and stepped in, she was wearing a dark pink, lavender off the shoulder dress that ended at her knees with pink pumps.
She looked down at her own dress, wondering if she should of dressed up a bit more, but she figured the white spaghetti strap dress was fine, it ended at her knees like her friend, revealing the white high heels she had worn to top off the outfit.
Sango smiled seeing the look on her friends face, sometimes she wanted to kill Inuyasha for what he had done, but she knew it would've just hurt Kagome more to see Inuyasha hurt so she had restrained herself, but if he was there tonight she didn't think she would be able to hold herself back.
"You ready Kag? The banquet is in ten minutes and we need to hurry if we want to be at the convention center on time." She said taking a step towards her friend.
Kagome just nodded and side stepped her, knowing she was going to try and give some comfort, which Kagome really didn't want right now, she steeled herself, and when she spoke her voice was flat and emotionless. "Then we better get going."
She brushed past Sango and out the door, heading towards the front of the apartment. Inutasha was with her mother so she knew she would be ok, as long as Inuyasha didn't make any surprise visits to the shrine while she was gone.
She heard Sango follow and bit back a scream, instincts told her to turn and run back into the house to avoid any more pain but her stubbornness kept her feet walking, and before she knew it she was in the car and on her way to what she knew would be a life changing situation.
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Inuyasha sighed and looked around, his mother had dragged him to this stupid thing then abandoned him with the lech, just great. He looked over at Miroku who had been his best friend since kindergarten, but hadn't seen since he had left for america. Their last parting was anything but friendly, Miroku literally beat him to a bloody pulp for hurting Kagome like that, but they had gotten over it, Miroku only throwing a few more punches, which he easily dodged, when he stepped off the plane. Then it had been back to best friends.
He nearly laughed when he saw him get smacked by some poor blonde in a short dress after he had gropped her, things never changed. He was nearly happy about that until the blonde turned and smiled at him seductively, he groaned and walked away, hearing her huff behind him and another smack after a shout of 'Hentai.'
He rolled his eyes and searched the crowd for his mother and smiled when she waved him over. He was talking to a girl with shoulder blade length brown hair, and another with shoulder length black hair, he prayed to god she wasn't going to try and set him up with complete strangers again.
He forced a smile on his face and came up behind the girls, "Hello mother." He blinked in confusion when the one with black hair stiffened and he took in her scent unconsciously, his eyes nearly popped out of his head 'Kagome...' he wanted to wrap her in his arms right then and there and apologize over and over again, and ask why she ran off earlier. But of course he couldn't and he knew why she ran. He had hurt her badly, nearly ten times as much as he had hurt himself.
His mother just smiled as if nothing was happening and took him by the hand pulling him to her side, making him brush against Kagome, her felt her shiver and he himself felt a flash where he just wanted to throw her to the ground right then and there, rip of her clothes and......he mentally slapped himself to get those thoughts out of his head. 'God Miroku is rubbing off on me more than I thought.' He told himself while forcing a smile towards his mother.
She turned him around to face the girls and his heart gave a lurch when he saw the pained expression on Kagome's face, he gave a glance to the other girl and saw hatred in her eyes. 'Oh great Sango's here? Either I'm going to die or Miroku's going to get the living shit beat outta him again.' He nearly groaned but bit his tongue when he saw Kagome start backing away as if she was going to leave.
"Awe yes Kagome, you and Inuyasha know each other I'm sure." Her eyes twinkled with mischief and Kagome just glared at her. How in all hells did she think she could say something like that and get away with it. Of course she knew him she gave birth to his son for heavens sake.
Inuyasha just ignored his mother and continued staring at Kagome, she turned her attention and nearly cried when she looked in his eyes. That's why she was glad her daughter didn't have her fathers eyes, she came undone by even the smallest glance in them. Like a deer caught in the headlights of a car she couldn't move, couldn't force herself to look away. She saw lust in his eyes but she didn't care how he looked at her, she just wanted him to come back to her. It was like everyone else and everything else had disappeared and everything was right with the world, Inuyasha never left, Inutasha and never grown up without a father, and she had never cried herself to sleep every night for the past five years.
She barely acknowledged Sango and Inuyasha's mother leaving, all she saw was those eyes, where all her happiness and all her sorrow lay.
She felt a hand slip into hers and she looked over and followed the arm up to a shoulder then up a neck and to a face. She nearly cried out of relief, but nearly screamed out of frustration. Koga stood there glaring at Inuyasha. "What the hell are you doing here dog shit, I thought you were in america."
She heard Inuyasha growl behind her and bit her lip pulling Koga away making an excuse, she didn't want to see these to fight like they did right before Inuyasha left. "Come on Koga dance with me." The wolf demon growled at Inuyasha one more time before following Kagome to the dance floor, keeping his hand clinging tightly to hers. The song was slow and just to piss off the hanyou he pulled the girl closer and wrapped his arms tightly around her smirking when he saw Inuyasha's eyes flash with anger.
Inuyasha couldn't believe it HIS woman was dancing with Koga. His biggest rival since elementary school. A voice in the back of his mind told him he was being unfair, Kagome had a chance to dance with or date anyone she pleased, he was the one who left her and all. But the stubborn side of him still considered her his mate, and he would never let her go without a fight.
He stalked over to the dancing couple and snatched one of Kagome's hands in his, tugging her out of the grips of Koga.
"Hey dog breath just where the hell do you think you're going with my woman." He shut up when he saw the glares of both Kagome and Inuyasha boring into him.
Kagome tried to yank her hand out of Inuyasha's larger one so she could go find Sango and leave. "Inuyasha let me go right now."
"Kagome we need to talk." She heard him nearly whisper and tried even harder to get her hand back.
"There's nothing to say Inuyasha, everything that needed saying was said five years ago now excuse me I want to enjoy myself tonight." She gave one more tug and got her hand free, but before she could even turn around he had grabbed both her wrists in one hand and was dragging her outside to a patio.
She shook her head and tried desperately to get from his grasp, this wasn't happening, she couldn't' be alone with him. He would break her heart again, her mind cried, yet her heart said it didn't care just as long as she could have him just one more time.
The tears started streaming down her face when they stopped and Inuyasha carefully shut the door to block the noise from the inside.
"Kagome..." Inuyasha started then seeing her tears swallowed pulled together his courage and pulled her into a tight embrace. How long had he waited to hold her like this again? How many times had he dreamed about it, nearly gotten hit by a car crossing the street by remembering how soft her skin was, how good she smelt?
She was to weak to fight, to tired of fighting. She put her hands against his chest as if to push away but ended up just clenching her fists against his shirt and clinging on for her dear life. She didn't want time to go on, she wanted time to stop. For them to just stand there like this forever like he had never broken her heart, like he had stayed.
But of course she knew that wasn't true. "Inuyasha." Her voice held fear, she was pleading with him silently to just go away, but she also wanted him to stay she was so confused she didn't know what to do anymore.
"Kagome, god I'm so sorry it shouldn't of been like that, I shouldn't of been a dumbass and left you like that, god I'm sorry." His voice was muffled by her hair, but she heard, and that just sent a new wave of tears down her face.
"Don't do this Inuyasha, don't act like you care again, we'll both just be hurt in the end." She said quietly, as emotionless as she could but he heard her fear.
He breathed in her scent again and smirked when he heard a song drifting through the closed door. It was the first song they had ever danced to, and he had known the lyrics by heart since then. He started singing in a low baritone voice his face still buried in her hair.
"I'm not a perfect person, There are many things I wish I didn't do.
But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you.
And so I have to say before I go.
That I just want you to know,
I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new,
And the reason is you."
Kagome could feel her heart beating at time with his, could feel her hands move up and wrap around his neck even though she didn't tell them to. She loved his voice, she remembered when they would just lie together in the dark and he would sing to her, his singing always soothed her frayed nerves, especially after her nightmares.
"I'm sorry that I hurt you,
It's something I must live with everyday.
And all the pain I put you through,
I wish I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears,
that's why I need you to hear.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you."
He paused for a second to breathe in her scent again. This song matched how he felt perfectly, and he just hoped the meaning got across Kagome
"I'm not a perfect person." He continued
"I never meant to do those things to you.
And so I just have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know,
I found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
And the reason is you." He looked into her eyes and nearly whispered the last part.
"I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And that reason is you."
He pressed his lips against her as what was meant to be a quick peck, but her purr brought him back down, crushing his mouth against hers and licking her lips demanding entrance, which she happily gave, tangling their tongues together. He loved the taste of her, the feel of her mouth against him, of her body pressed against his. Didn't she feel that they were the perfect fit, that they were definitely mates? He had already claimed her body, but he had never marked her. He knew now why because he was afraid she would hate him for being a hanyou like the rest, even though she had promised in not only words, but in actions and touches that it would never be so.
He smiled against the kiss when he heard her moan and grabbed her hips pushing her a little rougher than her planned against the wall. His mouth left hers and trailed down her chin, then to a spot on her neck that he knew would get her heart racing faster then it already was. He nipped at the vein lightly the licked the abused flesh, continuing down to her bare shoulder where he stopped to catch his breath. He could hear Kagome's heart beating, feel her breath come in shallow ragged breaths and nearly smirked to himself knowing he could still do this to her.
She took deep breaths trying to calm her frayed nerves. How after all these years was he still able to do this to her? How after all these years did her heart race at just the thought of him touching her like he used to. God she really was weak. She weakly pushed him away and took a step back seeing him frown.
"Don't do this Inuyasha, no matter now much we may want it we can't go back to how it was, not after...." She trailed off when she realized she had almost told him about Inutasha. No he must never know he had a daughter, then he would be pissed and try to take the only joy she had away from her.
He frowned again and tried to take her back in his embrace, he wanted to taste her again, hear her heart beat pick up as he touched her more. But she just stepped away from him again and opened the door.
"Inuyasha it's better for us to just stay out of each others way, to not try and get tangled back together. It will just end in heartbreak." With that she rushed back inside in search of Sango, she just wanted to go get her daughter and hold her in the comfort of her arms. She reached up and unconsciously rubbed the spot where he had been biting and nuzzling her and gasped. There was a small bite mark, not very noticeable but still there. He had marked her, now he would never leave her alone. She nearly broke into sobs right then and there.
Inuyasha watched her go with a saddened expression. Then he realized something was wrong with her scent, she smelled like another demon. He pondered that for a second and realized it wasn't Koga, Koga smelled worse. He growled, if any demon dared touch his mate then they'd be dead meat. Not like they would any more anyway because he had marked her, small mark but still there. He smirked. 'I'll get you back Kagome, one way or another.
a/n: ok yea I felt like changing this chapter a bit so I did, so what do you think did you like this chapter of the other chapter more? And do any of you have any ideas for the next chapter I'm drawing a blank here ;.; Oh yea I don't own the song it's by hoobastank I just thought it fit the situation well ^.^