Kokoro no Hitan
That day, White Haru died. He was lost forever.
Hatori pried me away from Kagura as me took her pulse and checked her breathing. His eyes looked empty as he sat back on his heels and shook his head. She was gone, and nothing could bring her back.
"Doushite....Why did she die...She was doing...She was doing so well....Why did she leave us?!" I was yelling now. I didn't want to admit she was gone, not when I had finally found out how I felt, not when I was just about to tell her, not when Yuki didn't matter anymore!
It was then that I realized how she must've felt, how lost and alone, and how much pain must have filled her heart.
I was kneeling on the ground, sitting on my heels, tears streaming down her face. I was in shock. All I could do was sit there, with an empty look on my face, as the numbness flowed though my body and ate at my heart.
-Hatsuharu Sohma
~~~
I ran through the halls toward the outside of the house when I heard Hatsuharu screaming. I stopped in shock on the porch as I stared out at the courtyard and saw Haru leaning over Kagura's very still form.
After I got over the initial shock, I ran toward them as fast as I could. I didn't want to believe what I was seeing. It couldn't be true.
I pushed Haru away when I reached her, the first thing I was looking for was a pulse. There was none. I checked her breathing just to be sure. Nothing. I shook my head. She was gone.
I looked at Haru. He was just sitting there, staring out into space, clearly in shock. After all, we had all expected Kagura to get better, no one had expected this.
"She just...she just gave up...She gave up on life...," I said softly, under my breath. I didn't realized I had said it out loud until Haru looked at me. And then I didn't know what to say.
-Hatori Sohma
~~~
'She just gave up on life.' The words echoed inside my mind endlessly.
Why hadn't I noticed before, that everything she did was a lie? Why couldn't I see her heart? Why?
Now it was too late. Now she was gone forever, when I had finally figured out my own heart, hers was lost.
It was then that White Haru died. That Black Haru became who I truly was.
Maybe I was just trying to cover up the pain, forget anything had ever happened. Maybe it was my way of hiding the truth. Whatever it was, I haven't been able to look at things the same way since.
The pain subsided and was taken over by anger. A rage aimed at Kyo, fueled by Kagura's death. It was his fault, all his fault.
I abandoned my white jacket. It was White Haru's anyway. My color was black, and black alone. Black like my soul, like the rage that consumed my heart, the blindness that was my sight. I would get Kyo back. He would pay for what he did.
I found a black trenchcoat and put it on over my black shirt and pants.
The jacket fluttered out behind me like black wings as I walked to that Sohma residence far from my own, with only one thing in mind, that Kyo would pay for Kagura's death, for the blackness that was now my soul.
-Hatsuharu Sohma
~~~
A/N: *runs and hides far away, and is talking through a megaphone* *waits for bombs to drop* I'm very sorry to all of you who wanted this to be a Kagura/Kyo fic. *runs into bomb shelter* But I can promise you that it's going to be at least 18 chapters long! See you next chapter ! (I hope...)
That day, White Haru died. He was lost forever.
Hatori pried me away from Kagura as me took her pulse and checked her breathing. His eyes looked empty as he sat back on his heels and shook his head. She was gone, and nothing could bring her back.
"Doushite....Why did she die...She was doing...She was doing so well....Why did she leave us?!" I was yelling now. I didn't want to admit she was gone, not when I had finally found out how I felt, not when I was just about to tell her, not when Yuki didn't matter anymore!
It was then that I realized how she must've felt, how lost and alone, and how much pain must have filled her heart.
I was kneeling on the ground, sitting on my heels, tears streaming down her face. I was in shock. All I could do was sit there, with an empty look on my face, as the numbness flowed though my body and ate at my heart.
-Hatsuharu Sohma
~~~
I ran through the halls toward the outside of the house when I heard Hatsuharu screaming. I stopped in shock on the porch as I stared out at the courtyard and saw Haru leaning over Kagura's very still form.
After I got over the initial shock, I ran toward them as fast as I could. I didn't want to believe what I was seeing. It couldn't be true.
I pushed Haru away when I reached her, the first thing I was looking for was a pulse. There was none. I checked her breathing just to be sure. Nothing. I shook my head. She was gone.
I looked at Haru. He was just sitting there, staring out into space, clearly in shock. After all, we had all expected Kagura to get better, no one had expected this.
"She just...she just gave up...She gave up on life...," I said softly, under my breath. I didn't realized I had said it out loud until Haru looked at me. And then I didn't know what to say.
-Hatori Sohma
~~~
'She just gave up on life.' The words echoed inside my mind endlessly.
Why hadn't I noticed before, that everything she did was a lie? Why couldn't I see her heart? Why?
Now it was too late. Now she was gone forever, when I had finally figured out my own heart, hers was lost.
It was then that White Haru died. That Black Haru became who I truly was.
Maybe I was just trying to cover up the pain, forget anything had ever happened. Maybe it was my way of hiding the truth. Whatever it was, I haven't been able to look at things the same way since.
The pain subsided and was taken over by anger. A rage aimed at Kyo, fueled by Kagura's death. It was his fault, all his fault.
I abandoned my white jacket. It was White Haru's anyway. My color was black, and black alone. Black like my soul, like the rage that consumed my heart, the blindness that was my sight. I would get Kyo back. He would pay for what he did.
I found a black trenchcoat and put it on over my black shirt and pants.
The jacket fluttered out behind me like black wings as I walked to that Sohma residence far from my own, with only one thing in mind, that Kyo would pay for Kagura's death, for the blackness that was now my soul.
-Hatsuharu Sohma
~~~
A/N: *runs and hides far away, and is talking through a megaphone* *waits for bombs to drop* I'm very sorry to all of you who wanted this to be a Kagura/Kyo fic. *runs into bomb shelter* But I can promise you that it's going to be at least 18 chapters long! See you next chapter ! (I hope...)