Kokoro no Hitan
A/N: *jaw drops* *sniffle* People are actually reading my fic. *sniffle* That makes me so happy! *gets teary eyed* Yeah I know, I'm nuts, but the fics I'm always interested in writing, no one reads. And the fanfics I lose interest in, people want me to finish. It's very frustrating. *nods* Well, since you all asked for it, here it is! (Minor side note: I have no idea how much longer this fanfic is going to be...Again...Aw, well! Enjoy!)
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I had lived with Harusaki as far back as I could remember, tough I know stuff happened before then. I remember someone telling me that because me and Haru were born so close, that it was a sign we should be together, and it's been that way ever since. Even though I've only lived with him for two years, it feels like I've known him for so much longer, and I don't know why. He's told me he feels the same way, and he's constantly asking me not to leave him again. In puzzlement I'd ask him what he meant, but he'd never know, it was just a feeling that he had. Maybe it had to do something with how we felt we knew each other for longer, which is weird, because we've been living with each other practially since we were born.
I don't know. It's weird. And there're times, when I accidentally call him 'Hatsuharu' and he turns around and goes 'what?' But...that's not his name...and I know it's not...and yet....I don't know. It's weird. It happened around Hatori a couple of times when he was doing his work, and he turned around in his chair and stared at us. All we could do was stare back and go "what?" He'd then shake his heard and turn back around, muttering something about "reincarnations," whatever that means.
But it's all alright! Or it was, anyway, until my life fell apart. Well, not literally, that would be kind-of hard. But...you see...I found out something...Something I don't think I was supposed to know, but over-heard the grown ups talking about it at the New Year's Eve party.
I was leaving. And Haru wasn't coming with me. I wouldn't of cared if I was going to live at this "Shigure's House," but what about Haru? What about us staying together? It didn't make any sense. I wanted to stay with Uncle Hatori and Haru, but what I thought didn't matter. Even I, as young as I am, know that Akito is the one that controls what goes on around and at...or in... the Sohma house. I didn't have a word in it. But that wouldn't stop me from kicking and screaming...and crying too.
-Kaga Sohma
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The cat.
Something about him. There's something about him. Something I don't like.
As I walked away from him, holding Kaga's hand, I felt a burning in my heart, like a fire was growing there. I could feel something shift inside of me. Something about him....
"Nee, Kaga?"
She looked at me, an innocent look on her face. "Hai?"
"Sore neko. That cat...There's somthing about him...Something I don't like...I don't know what it is," I raised my hand to my face, then lowered it. "But I don't like him." I put a hand on each of her shoulders. "Promise me you'll stay away from him."
Kaga looked at me, a little scared, a little confused. Then she smiled. And nodded. "Hai."
I sighed. That was a relief. I grasped her hand in my own again, and smiled myself. "Good. Then let's go."
-Harusaki Sohma
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"Tohru, there's something I have to tell you."
I turned around, and, noticing it was Shigure, excused myself from the conversation I was having with Ri-chan-san's mother. She, of course, backed up, bowing, saying it was her fault and to please forgive her. I tried to convince her otherwise, but in the end, I had to give up, because by then she was beyond speaking distance.
"Hai, Shigure?" I turned to face him. Ri-chan-san's mother had disappeared in the crowd.
There was a solemn, almost sad look on his face. My heart skipped a beat. "A-ano...Daijoubu?"
He tried to smile. It didn't work. It wasn't real. "Someone else is moving into the Shigure house."
I smiled. "Really, who?" This could be fun! I wonder who it could be! It would have to be one of the zodiac, right? But who...
"Kaga." My heart skipped a beat.
"A-ano...could you please repeat that, Shigure-san?"
"The boar. Kaga."
It was then that my face drained of all color.
"Nee, Tohru. It's all right. Hatori just wants her to be around an older female, someone she can look up to. She can't live with him any longer."
"Excuse me, but, may I know? What happened to her parents?"
Shigure looked at the floor. "They rejected her. The same thing happened with the ox, Harusaki. They were....They both were born very shortly after the deaths of the two other juunishi with their symbols, and so...there parents....couldn't deal with it...Kaga's parents already have another child...And they're doing their best to forget about 'the mistake' that they made with their first one. Harusaki's parents took things differently. They had their memories erased."
Pictures flashed through my mind. It had been years since I had seen them. I thought they had finally been gone for good. Hatsuharu....Kagura....
My knees started to tremble and I thought I was going to fall, but I leaned on a table next to me for support.
Shigure noticed this and took a step forward, looking straight at me. "Tohru..."
I shook my head. "Daijoubu. Please don't worry, it's okay. I'm fine. I just need to sit down...to rest for a bit...Maybe that's why members outside the Sohma family aren't allowed to this party. It's a bit strenuous, I guess, for people like me."
He didn't follow me to the chairs lined against the wall on the opposite side of the room. I sat down and put my elbows on my knees, then rested my face in my hands. Looking down at the floor through my fingers, all I could think was, Oh Mom, help me. What do I do now?
Of course, my moment of deep thought didn't last for long. I small face was soon looking up at me from the floor. "What'cha doin'?" The gray-brown eyes and brown hair scared me more than the actual words.
I jumped back, or at least tried to, all I ended up doing was slamming my back into the back of the chair.
"Are you alright?" The little girl cocked her head to one side, and then smiled. "My name's Kaga, what's yours?"
-Tohru Honda
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A/N: You wanna know something funny? I broke all the guidelines I had set for this fanfic before I started to write it. Hmn...Let's see...First off, Kagura wasn't gong to die...Second, Hatsuharu was NOT going to fall in love with Kagura, no matter what, because that would just be really wrong...It was also not supposed to be that long, like around ten chapters....There weren't going to be any reincarnations and it was going to have a happy ending with the original characters....If anything, it was going to be a Kagura/OC fanific! I had planned that to happen, and what the person was going to be like and everything, and then...Well...It didn't happen that way. There's more to this list, but I can't tell you them because it would spoil the ending! Oh, and, by the way, Hatsuharu is my favorite character too. See ya next chapter!
-Tigress of the Moon
A/N: *jaw drops* *sniffle* People are actually reading my fic. *sniffle* That makes me so happy! *gets teary eyed* Yeah I know, I'm nuts, but the fics I'm always interested in writing, no one reads. And the fanfics I lose interest in, people want me to finish. It's very frustrating. *nods* Well, since you all asked for it, here it is! (Minor side note: I have no idea how much longer this fanfic is going to be...Again...Aw, well! Enjoy!)
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I had lived with Harusaki as far back as I could remember, tough I know stuff happened before then. I remember someone telling me that because me and Haru were born so close, that it was a sign we should be together, and it's been that way ever since. Even though I've only lived with him for two years, it feels like I've known him for so much longer, and I don't know why. He's told me he feels the same way, and he's constantly asking me not to leave him again. In puzzlement I'd ask him what he meant, but he'd never know, it was just a feeling that he had. Maybe it had to do something with how we felt we knew each other for longer, which is weird, because we've been living with each other practially since we were born.
I don't know. It's weird. And there're times, when I accidentally call him 'Hatsuharu' and he turns around and goes 'what?' But...that's not his name...and I know it's not...and yet....I don't know. It's weird. It happened around Hatori a couple of times when he was doing his work, and he turned around in his chair and stared at us. All we could do was stare back and go "what?" He'd then shake his heard and turn back around, muttering something about "reincarnations," whatever that means.
But it's all alright! Or it was, anyway, until my life fell apart. Well, not literally, that would be kind-of hard. But...you see...I found out something...Something I don't think I was supposed to know, but over-heard the grown ups talking about it at the New Year's Eve party.
I was leaving. And Haru wasn't coming with me. I wouldn't of cared if I was going to live at this "Shigure's House," but what about Haru? What about us staying together? It didn't make any sense. I wanted to stay with Uncle Hatori and Haru, but what I thought didn't matter. Even I, as young as I am, know that Akito is the one that controls what goes on around and at...or in... the Sohma house. I didn't have a word in it. But that wouldn't stop me from kicking and screaming...and crying too.
-Kaga Sohma
~~~
The cat.
Something about him. There's something about him. Something I don't like.
As I walked away from him, holding Kaga's hand, I felt a burning in my heart, like a fire was growing there. I could feel something shift inside of me. Something about him....
"Nee, Kaga?"
She looked at me, an innocent look on her face. "Hai?"
"Sore neko. That cat...There's somthing about him...Something I don't like...I don't know what it is," I raised my hand to my face, then lowered it. "But I don't like him." I put a hand on each of her shoulders. "Promise me you'll stay away from him."
Kaga looked at me, a little scared, a little confused. Then she smiled. And nodded. "Hai."
I sighed. That was a relief. I grasped her hand in my own again, and smiled myself. "Good. Then let's go."
-Harusaki Sohma
~~~
"Tohru, there's something I have to tell you."
I turned around, and, noticing it was Shigure, excused myself from the conversation I was having with Ri-chan-san's mother. She, of course, backed up, bowing, saying it was her fault and to please forgive her. I tried to convince her otherwise, but in the end, I had to give up, because by then she was beyond speaking distance.
"Hai, Shigure?" I turned to face him. Ri-chan-san's mother had disappeared in the crowd.
There was a solemn, almost sad look on his face. My heart skipped a beat. "A-ano...Daijoubu?"
He tried to smile. It didn't work. It wasn't real. "Someone else is moving into the Shigure house."
I smiled. "Really, who?" This could be fun! I wonder who it could be! It would have to be one of the zodiac, right? But who...
"Kaga." My heart skipped a beat.
"A-ano...could you please repeat that, Shigure-san?"
"The boar. Kaga."
It was then that my face drained of all color.
"Nee, Tohru. It's all right. Hatori just wants her to be around an older female, someone she can look up to. She can't live with him any longer."
"Excuse me, but, may I know? What happened to her parents?"
Shigure looked at the floor. "They rejected her. The same thing happened with the ox, Harusaki. They were....They both were born very shortly after the deaths of the two other juunishi with their symbols, and so...there parents....couldn't deal with it...Kaga's parents already have another child...And they're doing their best to forget about 'the mistake' that they made with their first one. Harusaki's parents took things differently. They had their memories erased."
Pictures flashed through my mind. It had been years since I had seen them. I thought they had finally been gone for good. Hatsuharu....Kagura....
My knees started to tremble and I thought I was going to fall, but I leaned on a table next to me for support.
Shigure noticed this and took a step forward, looking straight at me. "Tohru..."
I shook my head. "Daijoubu. Please don't worry, it's okay. I'm fine. I just need to sit down...to rest for a bit...Maybe that's why members outside the Sohma family aren't allowed to this party. It's a bit strenuous, I guess, for people like me."
He didn't follow me to the chairs lined against the wall on the opposite side of the room. I sat down and put my elbows on my knees, then rested my face in my hands. Looking down at the floor through my fingers, all I could think was, Oh Mom, help me. What do I do now?
Of course, my moment of deep thought didn't last for long. I small face was soon looking up at me from the floor. "What'cha doin'?" The gray-brown eyes and brown hair scared me more than the actual words.
I jumped back, or at least tried to, all I ended up doing was slamming my back into the back of the chair.
"Are you alright?" The little girl cocked her head to one side, and then smiled. "My name's Kaga, what's yours?"
-Tohru Honda
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A/N: You wanna know something funny? I broke all the guidelines I had set for this fanfic before I started to write it. Hmn...Let's see...First off, Kagura wasn't gong to die...Second, Hatsuharu was NOT going to fall in love with Kagura, no matter what, because that would just be really wrong...It was also not supposed to be that long, like around ten chapters....There weren't going to be any reincarnations and it was going to have a happy ending with the original characters....If anything, it was going to be a Kagura/OC fanific! I had planned that to happen, and what the person was going to be like and everything, and then...Well...It didn't happen that way. There's more to this list, but I can't tell you them because it would spoil the ending! Oh, and, by the way, Hatsuharu is my favorite character too. See ya next chapter!
-Tigress of the Moon