Note: This one chapter is rated PG-13.
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Mom, why did you leave? Why did you want to get away from me? I was your son, your precious son that you always claimed to love so much more than anything else. I tried to be good for you, I didn't want you to hate me. So, why did you not want to keep me? Why? I thought everything was okay, wasn't it? And now, I guess Yuki is doing the same thing; he's rejecting me. Twice. I guess that's how it's supposed to be for the Cat, right? Well, I lived without you, and now I can try to live without Yuki, even though I really don't want to. Because Yuki means much more to me than what he even knows himself. The things he's taught me, and the things I've learned to appreciate because him, cannot be explained yet. But I doubt I've had that influence on him at all.
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"Yuki, um, can I come in?" Shigure said. Yuki looked up.
"Oh, uh, yeah. What is it?" Yuki asked.
"Oh, it's nothing; just uh, is something wrong? I mean, not with you necessarily, but primarily Kyo. Have you noticed anything strange about him lately? He's been rather reserved if that's possible, and just sort evasive. What I mean is, did something happen between you and Kyo?" Yuki looked confused as would be the normal reaction he would give to something like this, not yet revealing what had been happening between them.
"Uh, no, nothing should be wrong," Yuki's first answer was. Shigure gave a smile and made a small sigh.
"You know Yuki, you have a lot more influence on Kyo than you even know." Yuki continued to look confused.
"Uh, Shigure, what are you getting at?" Yuki asked suspiciously.
"Oh, nothing. Just, Yuki, despite what Kyo shows you -that constant bitchy attitude- he really doesn't hate you as much as he makes you think he does. I think he might even like you a little bit," Shigure said. Yuki looked utterly shocked that Shigure would even imply such a thing.
"No! I mean,...no. It's not even rational to assume that any emotion besides that of hate could either one of us feel for the other," Yuki insisted. Shigure gave a laugh.
"My, I'm surprised you deny it so fervently. Not that I can blame you though, you've at least hated Kyo ever since you were but little children. But now you're almost grown, your feelings for him must have matured as well, am I right?" Shigure said with a little smile like he was prying for a juicy secret. "It's nothing to be ashamed of, you know. If your feelings of hate for Kyo have lessened even a little than before, it's still an improvement; it's not bad. In fact, it's good," Shigure continued. Yuki sighed.
"Shigure, don't assume things that you can't back up. You have no evidence- "
"Then why did I see you kiss him?" Yuki turned abruptly to Shigure, an almost shocked or frightened look in his eye. Suddenly, Yuki sighed.
"You saw it then? How? Why were you watching us?" Yuki asked softly. Shigure gave a kind laugh.
"Yuki, I live here, remember? And I can't help if I saw you, though I don't deny I wasn't trying to not see you two," Shigure said apathetically.
"Fine then; I can't deny it any longer what I've been feeling for Kyo. And I know Kyo feels the same but..." Yuki drifted off.
"But what? He's pushed you away?"
"I...I don't know. He- he thinks that I love Tohru, which I do, but...not in the same way; Tohru is like a sister now, I don't want her that way any more, but Kyo still thinks I do. So, he pushes me away whenever I try to tell him how I feel, because he thinks...I don't know what he's thinking anymore," Yuki said solemnly. Shigure smiled supportively at Yuki.
"Good Yuki, I'm proud of you. You need to tell Kyo how you feel about this, but this time, don't let him run away. Kyo's just like that sometimes when he doesn't want to be somewhere, or in some situation, but you can't let him run. You, Yuki, have to find some way to make him believe you wholeheartedly you're not in love with Tohru anymore," Shigure said. Yuki looked at Shigure like he was crazy.
"You can't make that guy believe me! He's got himself hypnotized! He won't believe me if I write it in blood!" Yuki said.
"You might be surprised," Shigure said. "Kyo loves you-"
"How the hell do you know that?!"
Ooh, touchy, touchy. Fine. Kyo has feelings for you, so he'll be able to find some way to rationalize it out in his mind, because he wants to believe what you're going to tell him," Shigure said as if it was only a simple matter that needed not require much thought. Yuki scoffed.
"Fine, I'll go do my little 'I love you' speech," Yuki said with a pout.
"That's my boy!" Shigure cheered. Yuki gave Shigure a dark look.
"I will see you later," Yuki said sternly and stopped upstairs.
~~~~~~~ the next day
(Kyo's POV)
I was staring idly at the open pages of "Greek and African Philosophy". I cared little now for what it had to say, or what lesson it meant to teach; I was in my room, laying on the futon, sulking. Suddenly, the door flew open and I shot up. Yuki was standing there, looking calm. He straightened his sleeves and stepped towards me.
"Listen Kyo, it's 8 a.m. and nobody's in the house," Yuki started. I waited for his point; his eyes weren't hiding anything I could tell he was going to be completely open with me.
"What is it?" I asked. Yuki sighed and prepared to tell me what he had to say.
"Listen, Kyo, I want to tell you something. I know that you think that I'm still in love with Tohru, and I've tried to tell you otherwise but... Listen, I just- Kyo, I just want to tell you exactly what I feel about you." Yuki situated himself comfortably on the floor next to me and cleared his throat as if preparing for a speech. He looked me straight in the eye. "I love you, Kyo. And...and I want you...I want you to be with me, and trust me. I don't...I don't hate you. But I hate the way how it feels when things aren't right between us. So, please, I want to tell you to believe me, because I don't love Tohru anymore. I swear. I only love you, Kyo, I only want you. Tohru is not my love any longer. We're just not meant to be," Yuki tried to explain to me. I contemplated his words in my mind for a moment even though I automatically knew my answer. For some reason now, the desperation and pleadingness in his eyes and voice told me he meant it and was telling the truth. I sighed and looked away for a moment. A silence settled around the room for a moment and neither one of us said a thing. "So, are you gonna' kiss me yet, or not?" Yuki suddenly said with a comical tone in his voice. I turned back to him and smiled.
"Don't move," I told him. I got on my knees and slowly touched his hair. Slowly, as if for the first time, I pressed my lips to his mouth gently and without desperation and passion, but great affection. Yuki covered my hand with his own and put the other on my face. Finally, I released his lips and settled back. "Yuki, I love you too. I love you more than you know; I love you so much it's crazy. I want to be with you, and I want to kiss you, and I want to tell you how much I'm in love with you, you stuck-up, idiot rat," I said with a laugh.
"And you're just as much a bastard as I am a stuck-up, idiot rat," Yuki said affectionately. I smiled at him.
"But still, how do I know that I'm the only one?" I asked comically. Yuki smiled devilishly.
"Because, I'd never call anyone stupid neko except you." Yuki suddenly stood up and began to temptinginly, seductively, unbotton his shirt. When it was half-way unbottoned he turned away from me and flung it off his shoulders. He looked back at me and licked his hand and brushed it behind his ears like a cat.
"Wait, Kyo," Yuki said. "Don't leave; hold on a moment," Yuki said as he disappeared from the room for a moment, leaving me stuck there on the floor.
(picture fades)
Did I Tell You I Can't Live Without You? The End
**** I just thought of that title now. Beautiful couple, aren't they? I think that was an appropriate ending, with a little bit of a hint of their...relationship. Thank you so much for reading and I have to say, I had fun writing this too as much as I hope you enjoyed it! *bows* Thank you!
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Mom, why did you leave? Why did you want to get away from me? I was your son, your precious son that you always claimed to love so much more than anything else. I tried to be good for you, I didn't want you to hate me. So, why did you not want to keep me? Why? I thought everything was okay, wasn't it? And now, I guess Yuki is doing the same thing; he's rejecting me. Twice. I guess that's how it's supposed to be for the Cat, right? Well, I lived without you, and now I can try to live without Yuki, even though I really don't want to. Because Yuki means much more to me than what he even knows himself. The things he's taught me, and the things I've learned to appreciate because him, cannot be explained yet. But I doubt I've had that influence on him at all.
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"Yuki, um, can I come in?" Shigure said. Yuki looked up.
"Oh, uh, yeah. What is it?" Yuki asked.
"Oh, it's nothing; just uh, is something wrong? I mean, not with you necessarily, but primarily Kyo. Have you noticed anything strange about him lately? He's been rather reserved if that's possible, and just sort evasive. What I mean is, did something happen between you and Kyo?" Yuki looked confused as would be the normal reaction he would give to something like this, not yet revealing what had been happening between them.
"Uh, no, nothing should be wrong," Yuki's first answer was. Shigure gave a smile and made a small sigh.
"You know Yuki, you have a lot more influence on Kyo than you even know." Yuki continued to look confused.
"Uh, Shigure, what are you getting at?" Yuki asked suspiciously.
"Oh, nothing. Just, Yuki, despite what Kyo shows you -that constant bitchy attitude- he really doesn't hate you as much as he makes you think he does. I think he might even like you a little bit," Shigure said. Yuki looked utterly shocked that Shigure would even imply such a thing.
"No! I mean,...no. It's not even rational to assume that any emotion besides that of hate could either one of us feel for the other," Yuki insisted. Shigure gave a laugh.
"My, I'm surprised you deny it so fervently. Not that I can blame you though, you've at least hated Kyo ever since you were but little children. But now you're almost grown, your feelings for him must have matured as well, am I right?" Shigure said with a little smile like he was prying for a juicy secret. "It's nothing to be ashamed of, you know. If your feelings of hate for Kyo have lessened even a little than before, it's still an improvement; it's not bad. In fact, it's good," Shigure continued. Yuki sighed.
"Shigure, don't assume things that you can't back up. You have no evidence- "
"Then why did I see you kiss him?" Yuki turned abruptly to Shigure, an almost shocked or frightened look in his eye. Suddenly, Yuki sighed.
"You saw it then? How? Why were you watching us?" Yuki asked softly. Shigure gave a kind laugh.
"Yuki, I live here, remember? And I can't help if I saw you, though I don't deny I wasn't trying to not see you two," Shigure said apathetically.
"Fine then; I can't deny it any longer what I've been feeling for Kyo. And I know Kyo feels the same but..." Yuki drifted off.
"But what? He's pushed you away?"
"I...I don't know. He- he thinks that I love Tohru, which I do, but...not in the same way; Tohru is like a sister now, I don't want her that way any more, but Kyo still thinks I do. So, he pushes me away whenever I try to tell him how I feel, because he thinks...I don't know what he's thinking anymore," Yuki said solemnly. Shigure smiled supportively at Yuki.
"Good Yuki, I'm proud of you. You need to tell Kyo how you feel about this, but this time, don't let him run away. Kyo's just like that sometimes when he doesn't want to be somewhere, or in some situation, but you can't let him run. You, Yuki, have to find some way to make him believe you wholeheartedly you're not in love with Tohru anymore," Shigure said. Yuki looked at Shigure like he was crazy.
"You can't make that guy believe me! He's got himself hypnotized! He won't believe me if I write it in blood!" Yuki said.
"You might be surprised," Shigure said. "Kyo loves you-"
"How the hell do you know that?!"
Ooh, touchy, touchy. Fine. Kyo has feelings for you, so he'll be able to find some way to rationalize it out in his mind, because he wants to believe what you're going to tell him," Shigure said as if it was only a simple matter that needed not require much thought. Yuki scoffed.
"Fine, I'll go do my little 'I love you' speech," Yuki said with a pout.
"That's my boy!" Shigure cheered. Yuki gave Shigure a dark look.
"I will see you later," Yuki said sternly and stopped upstairs.
~~~~~~~ the next day
(Kyo's POV)
I was staring idly at the open pages of "Greek and African Philosophy". I cared little now for what it had to say, or what lesson it meant to teach; I was in my room, laying on the futon, sulking. Suddenly, the door flew open and I shot up. Yuki was standing there, looking calm. He straightened his sleeves and stepped towards me.
"Listen Kyo, it's 8 a.m. and nobody's in the house," Yuki started. I waited for his point; his eyes weren't hiding anything I could tell he was going to be completely open with me.
"What is it?" I asked. Yuki sighed and prepared to tell me what he had to say.
"Listen, Kyo, I want to tell you something. I know that you think that I'm still in love with Tohru, and I've tried to tell you otherwise but... Listen, I just- Kyo, I just want to tell you exactly what I feel about you." Yuki situated himself comfortably on the floor next to me and cleared his throat as if preparing for a speech. He looked me straight in the eye. "I love you, Kyo. And...and I want you...I want you to be with me, and trust me. I don't...I don't hate you. But I hate the way how it feels when things aren't right between us. So, please, I want to tell you to believe me, because I don't love Tohru anymore. I swear. I only love you, Kyo, I only want you. Tohru is not my love any longer. We're just not meant to be," Yuki tried to explain to me. I contemplated his words in my mind for a moment even though I automatically knew my answer. For some reason now, the desperation and pleadingness in his eyes and voice told me he meant it and was telling the truth. I sighed and looked away for a moment. A silence settled around the room for a moment and neither one of us said a thing. "So, are you gonna' kiss me yet, or not?" Yuki suddenly said with a comical tone in his voice. I turned back to him and smiled.
"Don't move," I told him. I got on my knees and slowly touched his hair. Slowly, as if for the first time, I pressed my lips to his mouth gently and without desperation and passion, but great affection. Yuki covered my hand with his own and put the other on my face. Finally, I released his lips and settled back. "Yuki, I love you too. I love you more than you know; I love you so much it's crazy. I want to be with you, and I want to kiss you, and I want to tell you how much I'm in love with you, you stuck-up, idiot rat," I said with a laugh.
"And you're just as much a bastard as I am a stuck-up, idiot rat," Yuki said affectionately. I smiled at him.
"But still, how do I know that I'm the only one?" I asked comically. Yuki smiled devilishly.
"Because, I'd never call anyone stupid neko except you." Yuki suddenly stood up and began to temptinginly, seductively, unbotton his shirt. When it was half-way unbottoned he turned away from me and flung it off his shoulders. He looked back at me and licked his hand and brushed it behind his ears like a cat.
"Wait, Kyo," Yuki said. "Don't leave; hold on a moment," Yuki said as he disappeared from the room for a moment, leaving me stuck there on the floor.
(picture fades)
Did I Tell You I Can't Live Without You? The End
**** I just thought of that title now. Beautiful couple, aren't they? I think that was an appropriate ending, with a little bit of a hint of their...relationship. Thank you so much for reading and I have to say, I had fun writing this too as much as I hope you enjoyed it! *bows* Thank you!