Taking Over Me by Evanescence
You don't remember me but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do...
Kyp stared out the viewport, watching the blackness of hyperspace as it swirled
around him. Here he was, on board Mara Jade's Jade Shadow. Jaina's
former master had lent the craft to her niece for the journey to Csilia.
Mainly, Kyp knew, she wanted a full report from Jaina as to what Soontir Fel
had to say about a ship with the name 'Jade' in the title. Mara had, after all,
crashed another such named ship into a 'few' of Fel's ships, single-handedly sparking
destroying the Chiss fleet under the General's command.
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
He looked away from the viewport, tired of staring into the nothingness
presented there. A soft sound from his door and a gentle brush in the Force
sent his attention to the door as it slid open. Jaina, dressed in a plain set
of pants and a tank top, entered the room, casting a glance around it. She
seemed to have something on her mind, for it took her a minute to finally rest
her gaze on Kyp.
The Jedi Master merely waited, watching her. She offered him a weak smile then
moved to sit down next to him as Kyp shifted over to make room for her petite
form. Jaina sighed softly, and Kyp offered her a reassuring smile. Yet on the
inside...on the inside, Kyp felt his heart beginning to start a fresh crack.
Force he loved Jaina... But it could never be.
Have you forgotten all I know
and all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
Even as he watched her, silently offering comfort in their bond, Kyp kept part
of him locked away to only himself. That was the part of him that ached to be
the one Jaina called upon to support her, the one to sit laughing with her as
they watched children with a mix of their features tumble in the grass...
Quickly he stifled the thoughts, knowing he wouldn't be able to keep them
blocked from his bond with Jaina if he continued into them. Jag Fel was the one
who was meant to be with Jaina, the one the Force had destined her to be with.
Kyp sighed faintly, turning to look at her. She was still silently staring at
her hands. Raising one of his own, he took both hers in his, smiling
reassuringly. "What's wrong, Jaina?"
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
Kyp saw her shrug ever so slightly, yet he could sense the unsettled emotions
swirling around in her mind, feel them in their bond. At last she seemed to
collect her thoughts.
"I'm worried, Kyp." That was a pretty obvious thing, though Kyp
didn't point this out to her. As of late, Jaina had taken to snapping at anyone
who she thought was patronizing her. Instead, he just listened to her, all the
while hearing his heart cracking in the background. "What if we come back
and Dad still isn't over this?"
She turned to look at him and Kyp saw tears beginning to collect in her eyes.
I look in the mirror and see your face
if I look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over
He reached over to her and quickly pulled Jaina into a hug, his arms all but
engulfing her. Jaina's forehead rested against his shoulder as she shed the
tears silently. After a few minutes, in which time no sound was heard other
than a slight sob from Jaina every now and then, Kyp finally released Jaina,
pulling away slightly.
"Jaina, he won't stay mad at you. This is your father we're talking
about." As he said it, Kyp realized with a mental frown that those weren't
the most comforting words. His brow furrowed as he mentally thought out the
double meaning in them. This was her father they were talking about
here...
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
Jaina looked up at him, a slight grin on her face. "Kyp, that doesn't
help." She reached up with one hand to wipe her cheeks, her other hand
falling to her lap. With a sigh, Jaina shook her head and was silent for
another few seconds. Then she merely shrugged. "I guess I can't worry
about it now... I don't want to be a miserable guest for Jag's family."
She heaved a sigh and stood up. One step was taken towards the door before Jaina
turned again, came back to Kyp, and kissed him on the cheek. Thanks Kyp,
she said to him, this time through their bond.
And with that, Jaina left the cabin. Kyp watched her form as it retreated back
to the cockpit. The cockpit and Jagged Fel. He sighed again, unable to banish
the image of them together. But even as he watched it in his mind's eye, he
knew it would never be attainable. Slowly, as if liquid were drenching it, the
picture faded. Soon it was merely a watermark of wishes that would not be fulfilled.
Taking over me
your taking over me
taking over me
taking over me