First off, I did not update chapter five every day to just get more reviews, I'm not like that. There was something wrong with FF.net and it was screwing up the chapter, so I was trying to fix it so it would show correctly, which is why it said it was uploaded a lot. And the reason it took so long to get this chapter up is that for some reason, I was unable to login. Has anyone else been having problems with the site? Anyway, please review!
This is the reason why I kept myself from getting involved in a relationship. I start to like a guy, and then all of the sudden another likes me. Before all this happened, I only had to worry about one, but now I have two to fret about. What am I going to do?
Obviously Eriol likes me in some way, or else he would not date me, unless he feels pity for me. Syaoran on the other hand is difficult. True he did say that he liked me a lot, but how do I know if he's being true. He has lied to me in the past, and liars are known to lie more than once. I would like to think he's being sincere, because after all it's nice to be liked in that way. Although no matter how sincere he is, it still does not take away the fact that Eriol is sort of my boyfriend in the first place.
Yet the greatest revenge I could ever conjure up is me being happy with another person other than Syaoran. Circumstance is my greatest downfall when something good turns into something bad.
Sakura sat in a little café, waiting for her bus to come. Over the past couple of days, she has neither seen or spoken to Eriol or Syaoran. She didn't want to see them, for she would expect herself to chose between them. She doesn't want to put herself in that situation; she has big enough problems the way it is.
She wished she could talk it over with Tomoyo, but that would be a disaster. For one, Tomoyo has been with both of the guys, and secondly, she may also care for one of them still. So the only person she could talk about it with is herself.
"Oh, Sakura. Look what you've gotten yourself into," she said to herself, looking into her cup of tea. She wanted so badly to jump inside the cup and hide there forever. It would be a lot better than staying in reality.
Her heart radiated pain throughout her body. It became almost unbearable. She could not believe that she would feel so much hurt after Syaoran had spilled his feelings for her. At first, she did not care what he thought about her, since she did not think much of him. Except now, it's different. She no longer thought of him as a looser that has nothing going for him. In her eyes, she sees him in a different way. He has some charm that never wants to leave her mind, and the way he touched her that one night. It felt so real and comfortable being with him. Although she had just met him, she'd rather be that way with him rather than Eriol.
Eriol did not seem like the type to try to get in her mind than her pants. She respected that, since most guys only want the latter part. However, it did not give her chills all over her body like the thought of Syaoran being as close as can be to her.
The bus finally came and she hopped on. As it sped through town, she stared out the window. Couples walked hand-in hand looking happy and in love. That made her think about her current situation even more. She did not want to set her mind on it anymore, but there is no way to avoid it. Everywhere she turned, something or someone reminded her of it. It's a constant memento like a blinking neon sign flashing before her.
The bus dropped her off in front of her apartment, where she was met with a frantic-looking Tomoyo. Once she seen her, she knew something was wrong. She didn't know if she should expect the worst or if it was simply nothing that Tomoyo is exaggerating.
"Sakura!" Tomoyo shouted, and ran towards her. She looked like she was at the point of crying her eyes out. "I'm so glad you're here!"
"What's wrong, Tomoyo?" she asked, wondering about it herself.
She grabbed Sakura's shoulders and shook her as if she were trying to wake her. "Something unspeakable has happened! I can't believe you didn't tell me!"
Instantly, Sakura thought that she knew about her and Syaoran or maybe Eriol. She is the last person she would ever want to know about it. She wanted to die at that moment. Betraying a friend is one of the worst things a person could do. And she has done it, twice. She couldn't look at her anymore. She felt terrible.
"Hey, what's the matter, Sakura?" Tomoyo asked, tilting her head so their eyes met. "Do you know what you did that was so wrong?"
Sakura nodded. She opened her mouth to spill everything about the two guys and how she was sorry that she betrayed her. However the moment her mouth opened, Tomoyo covered it with her hand.
"Don't apologize," she assured, and smiled. She removed her hand and giggled. "I understand why you didn't want to tell me."
She couldn't believe that Tomoyo is taking it so well. She thought there would at least be some hair pulling or shouting, but there was none of that. Instead, the only hair tugging was that of Sakura pulling on strands of her hair nervously and the only screaming was coming from a TV in a shop window.
"You do?" Sakura repeated, her voice echoing in her head.
She nodded. "Yep. I know exactly why," she said, and then put her arm around her shoulder. "You want to keep him a secret."
Sakura stared in bewilderment. "Eh?"
"You know," she said, nudging her side. "Your boyfriend."
Boyfriend… She knows I have a boyfriend? But how could she? It's not obvious is it? Of course not, that's like saying one could tell if a person is a virgin or not by the way they walked. It's preposterous. The only other person to know about it is of course Eriol and Syaoran….Syaoran… Could he be the one that informed her? God, I hope not.
"My boyfriend?" Sakura said. "What do you mean?"
Tomoyo guided her to a bench and they sat down. "I was talking to Syaoran the other day. I don't even know how you came up in the conversation, but he started to talk about you. It was rather weird, since when you two first met, it didn't seem like you guys got along at all. Anyway, he mentioned something about you having a boyfriend and how he doesn't approve… or something." She stopped and then leaned back on the bench. Her smile faded away as a bleak mask sketched over her face. "I was upset that I was hearing it from him and not you."
Sakura closed her eyes, begging the tears to stay away. She felt so much hurt for everything. It hurt so badly that she couldn't hold it back any longer. Her arms quickly wrapped around her friend, startling them both.
She didn't cry, but she did feel as if she was going to have rivers streaming down her face. It was hard for her to show so much emotion all at the same time, plus she didn't want to make a scene in front of her apartment building.
Tomoyo didn't push her away, in its place she patted her back in assurance. "Whatever it is, Sakura, it will be okay."
Sakura pulled away, looking her over. "What do you mean?"
She smiled mischievously and said, with a wink, "I know more than you think."
And with that, Sakura smiled. She did not know what she meant by it, but it didn't bother her. She was just glad that her friend didn't forget about her, like she had originally thought.
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