Goodbyes: Artemis
Disclaimer: Not mine, will never be mine, I never claimed it was mine.
By: Selenity Jade (Jadesama@aol.com)
Rating: PG13
'Princess...' Watching Mina's sleeping form, I move towards the window. Mina seems to be feeling better now. I wonder what happened. She seems at peace. Still sad and lonely but like she knows something I do not. Sitting on the sill, I look out at the night. So quiet tonight. Tears come, and for once, I do not stop them. I'm alone for all purposes. I can cry now. I'm not trying to comfort Luna or Mina anymore. I can let out the pain.
Pain is a fickle thing. Emotional pain hurts so much more than physical. It hurts in a different way. I feel so useless. The Queen is gone. And with her the hope of the world. Mina is to be Regent now and I know she never wanted that. How I wish my charge didn't have to feel this pain. The pain of loss and loneliness. The pain I feel. I was never as close to Usagi-chan as the others. I was closer to Mina or Luna. But I feel the pain too. I love our princess too. She lit up the world and made everything okay. I may be Mina's guardian but I was to help Luna with her charge too. I wasn't only Mina's. I was Usagi's too.
She left us so abruptly. Poor Endymion. He is devastated. I doubt if he'll survive this. Hell, if it wasn't for Rei-chan and her promise to Usagi, he would have jumped off the nearest bridge or building the moment after the fight.
How alone everyone feels now. How alone I feel. She gave us something irreplaceable. She gave us life and love. She gave us hope. I sigh sadly. And I never told her she meant a lot to me. I never told her I care about her, like I care for Mina. Luna feels like she failed. But I feel like I failed too. I failed in making sure the Senshi were together. Making sure they fought together and for each other. I failed in keeping the princess alive. I failed in that. But most of all I failed in telling her how special she was to all of us. I failed in telling her that I love her. Looking towards the moon, I feel the soft peace the moon gives off. But it doesn't affect me. It can't now.
How could I let this happen? How could I? I hate myself for not being able to help anyone in this hopeless situation. I can't even help myself. Why didn't I tell her? Why didn't I tell her I love her long before she died?
"Usagi-chan..." I sob out quietly, so I don't wake Mina. "Usagi-chan, you were so important to everyone. Yet, now, you are so far away. Why does fate have to be so cruel? Why can't people just be happy? Why couldn't you have survived? I guess there will never be an answer to that. The world is falling apart. I can't keep it together anymore. I don't even want to try. Without you, we all lost hope. We all lost what is most dear to us. You. Usagi-chan, I never told you what you mean to me. I never told you I love you. I never told you any of that. Now, you'll never hear it. Never hear the words from any of us. We all regret not telling you things. I most of all regret not telling you that you were a wonderful warrior. I regret not telling you I'm proud of you and your mother would be too. I regret not telling you I love you. I'm sorry. So sorry, Usagi-chan." I sob quietly. Feeling the emptiness.
"Don't be, Artemis. I knew all along." Smiling, I stand up. I should have known. Should have known she'd find away to offer comfort even in death.
"Thanks, Usagi-chan." Stretching, I go over to Mina. Purring, I lay beside her head. This must have been what eased her guilt and pain. 'Thank you for that too, Usagi-chan,' I say silently. Letting sleep overcome me, my last thought is that maybe...just maybe, life isn't over after all.
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AN: Um, well, YOU try to write from a cat's point of view! Gee! I know, not that great, but what can I say? Still little practice ficcies :P I wouldn't even be posting them if it weren't for the fact that people keep wanting me to. ^_^
Lovies!
Disclaimer: Not mine, will never be mine, I never claimed it was mine.
By: Selenity Jade (Jadesama@aol.com)
Rating: PG13
'Princess...' Watching Mina's sleeping form, I move towards the window. Mina seems to be feeling better now. I wonder what happened. She seems at peace. Still sad and lonely but like she knows something I do not. Sitting on the sill, I look out at the night. So quiet tonight. Tears come, and for once, I do not stop them. I'm alone for all purposes. I can cry now. I'm not trying to comfort Luna or Mina anymore. I can let out the pain.
Pain is a fickle thing. Emotional pain hurts so much more than physical. It hurts in a different way. I feel so useless. The Queen is gone. And with her the hope of the world. Mina is to be Regent now and I know she never wanted that. How I wish my charge didn't have to feel this pain. The pain of loss and loneliness. The pain I feel. I was never as close to Usagi-chan as the others. I was closer to Mina or Luna. But I feel the pain too. I love our princess too. She lit up the world and made everything okay. I may be Mina's guardian but I was to help Luna with her charge too. I wasn't only Mina's. I was Usagi's too.
She left us so abruptly. Poor Endymion. He is devastated. I doubt if he'll survive this. Hell, if it wasn't for Rei-chan and her promise to Usagi, he would have jumped off the nearest bridge or building the moment after the fight.
How alone everyone feels now. How alone I feel. She gave us something irreplaceable. She gave us life and love. She gave us hope. I sigh sadly. And I never told her she meant a lot to me. I never told her I care about her, like I care for Mina. Luna feels like she failed. But I feel like I failed too. I failed in making sure the Senshi were together. Making sure they fought together and for each other. I failed in keeping the princess alive. I failed in that. But most of all I failed in telling her how special she was to all of us. I failed in telling her that I love her. Looking towards the moon, I feel the soft peace the moon gives off. But it doesn't affect me. It can't now.
How could I let this happen? How could I? I hate myself for not being able to help anyone in this hopeless situation. I can't even help myself. Why didn't I tell her? Why didn't I tell her I love her long before she died?
"Usagi-chan..." I sob out quietly, so I don't wake Mina. "Usagi-chan, you were so important to everyone. Yet, now, you are so far away. Why does fate have to be so cruel? Why can't people just be happy? Why couldn't you have survived? I guess there will never be an answer to that. The world is falling apart. I can't keep it together anymore. I don't even want to try. Without you, we all lost hope. We all lost what is most dear to us. You. Usagi-chan, I never told you what you mean to me. I never told you I love you. I never told you any of that. Now, you'll never hear it. Never hear the words from any of us. We all regret not telling you things. I most of all regret not telling you that you were a wonderful warrior. I regret not telling you I'm proud of you and your mother would be too. I regret not telling you I love you. I'm sorry. So sorry, Usagi-chan." I sob quietly. Feeling the emptiness.
"Don't be, Artemis. I knew all along." Smiling, I stand up. I should have known. Should have known she'd find away to offer comfort even in death.
"Thanks, Usagi-chan." Stretching, I go over to Mina. Purring, I lay beside her head. This must have been what eased her guilt and pain. 'Thank you for that too, Usagi-chan,' I say silently. Letting sleep overcome me, my last thought is that maybe...just maybe, life isn't over after all.
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AN: Um, well, YOU try to write from a cat's point of view! Gee! I know, not that great, but what can I say? Still little practice ficcies :P I wouldn't even be posting them if it weren't for the fact that people keep wanting me to. ^_^
Lovies!