Hi everyone! Here's the next chapter! I'm sorry it took me a little longer this time around, but hey, I have to let my hands rest. ^_^ I hope you enjoy is, and please as always review! ;)
Everything that has been happening, mostly the bad stuff, lingers in the back of Sakura's mind like a memento. Her feelings were jumbled all around her. She felt trapped, with no way to escape. Plus she had been betrayed by her own emotions. Turning down Syaoran was the worst mistake she had ever made. Now she can't take it back, but she would give anything if she could.
After all the drama, in the end, Eriol might not have liked her. He may have only used her to get to Tomoyo. However that assumption didn't sound like the way she thought he would act. Maybe he does like her, but still likes Tomoyo in the process. It could be the case, since he never showed any signs of not liking her when they went out.
She missed Syaoran. Although they only spent a few precious moments together, she yearned for more. The only thing she could do about it is stopping him, but she has no idea where his dorm is located. The only person she knows who does is Tomoyo, but she doesn't want to crawl back for her help. Look what happened the last time she did that, her best friend stole her boyfriend. To add even more obstacles, she still thinks Sakura has a boyfriend. So what would she think if she did asked where Syaoran lives? Not a very good idea.
Sakura sat in Calc class, staring at the clock. The longer she stared the slower time went. It was like torture going on forever. She wanted to get out of class and try to find Syaoran. Yet she knew that the minute she gets out of school, she'll just go home. She has no energy to chase after him. She's too weak to want to do anything. All the pain and crying has made her into pudding just wobbling around.
She closed her eyes, trying to remember the feeling she received from him touching her the way he did. His leather hands turned to silk as they caressed her. He was gentle and so huggable. Just thinking of it put a smile on her face and warmth in her heart. She wanted to feel that way again. She wanted to be with him.
Once the class was over, she stood up to leave. She walked down the gravel path when she was met with a frantic Tomoyo, waving a paper with writing on it. She stopped walking, watching her friend run toward her.
"Sakura!" she cried, her cheeks red and wet eyes. She looked as if she had been crying or it could have been because she was running as if she was in a marathon.
When she reached her, she bent down, trying to catch her breath. After a few seconds, she straightened and handed Sakura the paper.
"What's this?" Sakura asked, turning it over in her hand.
Tomoyo pointed to the name at the bottom of the letter. "It's a note addressed to me from Syaoran, but I think it was meant for you originally." She nudged her arm and said, "Go on and read it."
"All right, Tomoyo," she said, and began to read.
Dear Tomoyo,
I'm happy to have met you. You have been such a great friend to me over the past couple of weeks. You have given me so much, and I have nothing to give in return. However you're not into materialistic things.
I don't regret many things I've done throughout my life, but that was only until I met Sakura. I regret not trying to fight for her. After I first seen her, although I was drunk at the time, she had this shining aura surrounding her. I'm sorry to confess this to you, since you may or not have had a crush on me. I think you kind of figured that I liked her anyway when I started to bring her up in our conversations randomly.
Hong Kong seems so far away, much like Sakura. I feel that I could never reach her the way that guy does, I forget what his name is, and yet I don't care. All I'm concerned about is that she's with him and not with me. I told her how I felt, but she seemed more confused about her own feelings that she looked over mine.
I truly don't want to leave, but I'm left with no other choices. Everything is cheaper in Hong Kong and it's where my family is located. Maybe I'll come back to Japan when I'm done with college, hopefully by then Sakura…
Never mind. There is no way on earth that she will ever be ready for me. She liked another and I can't change that without beating someone up. However that's out of reach for me.
I should finish packing, since I'm leaving in a week, so I will end this letter. Thanks for being a friend to me, and tell Sakura I only cared for her in the end.
- Syaoran Li.
Sakura folded the paper and put it in her pocket. His words pierced through her chest, straight to her heart. She smiled. Not once did she feel like crying, which surprised her. Tears couldn't show how much the letter meant to her. It meant that Syaoran really does care for her no matter how much she hurt his feelings. She no longer wanted to runaway from facing what's right under her nose. A coward she was, but she doesn't want to sit on the fence any longer.
"Tomoyo!" she gasped, and grabbed a hold of her hand. "I need your help. It's very urgent!"
Tomoyo nodded, but then stopped. "Sakura, what about your boyfriend? Are you cheating on him with Syaoran?"
Sakura looked at the ground. Her thoughts could not decide on whether or not to tell her about Eriol. She knew she had to if she wanted to set things straight. Plus, a rumor of her cheating on a guy would not be a good one to have spread about the school.
"Well," she started, fidgeting with her fingers. Come on, Sakura. Open your mouth and just tell her. What would she care anyway? What do you care? You know the fling with Eriol wouldn't last, so let Tomoyo have him as it was meant to be. Syaoran truly cares for you, so prove you feel the same and stand up to her!
She swallowed her nervousness and blocked the voices in her head. "Tomoyo, my boyfriend was Eriol, but it was more of a dating relationship. Nothing happened between us," she explained. "However I only thought I cared for him, but honestly, I liked Syaoran instead."
Tomoyo was silent, for once. She only looked at Sakura with a blank expression, which made it hard to tell how she felt about it.
Sakura closed her eyes and said, "I'm sorry, Tomoyo. I know how much Eriol has meant to you since last summer. On the other hand, I had to do it for myself, to see if a guy could actually get to like me." She opened her eyes and looked at her. Her face still showed no sign of emotion, just a blank stare. "I realized, though that I was wrong with liking Eriol. He's not the guy for me, instead he's the guy for you."
Tomoyo finally showed some indication of life when she blinked. She folded her arms, looking deep in thought. After a few silent moments, she finally said, "Sakura, I didn't realize on how much of a sweet person you are. I can't do this to you anymore." A smile crept across her face as she snapped her fingers. She lifted her hands up to her face, as if she were going to shout, and she did. "Hey, Eriol! You can come out now!"
"What? Eriol?" she said, quickly turning to her head to see Eriol walking up behind her. He smiled and waved as he did it everyday.
Sakura didn't understand what was going on. She must have missed something, because the two of them stood there smiling at her. "What is going on, you guys?" she asked, looking bewildered. "Please tell me."
Tomoyo looked at Eriol and smiled. "Well, Sakura, you have been manipulated by the great Eriol and beautiful me!" she replied, and laughed. "Don't look at me like that, your face will stay like that."
She rolled her eyes, and stomped her foot on the ground. "Stop with the games already. Just tell me the meaning of all this!"
"Okay, okay," Eriol said. "Tomoyo came to me one day and asked if I would do her a favor. I told her that I would. She wanted me to ask you out so you would feel better about yourself and all that stuff. I--"
"Stop." Sakura glared at the two of them. "So what you are saying is that you never really wanted to go out with me in the first place? You only did it because Tomoyo asked you to just to make me happy?"
He nodded, but Tomoyo slapped the back of his head, which caused him to shout. "Idiot! I swear, guys are so insensitive," Tomoyo said, mostly to herself, and then looked at Sakura. "I hated seeing you sad all the time. It made me kind of depressed, which is really hard to do."
Sakura didn't want to listen to her. Her best friend put up a guy to ask her out just to liven her spirits. She may have had good intentions, but she chose a horrible way to do it.
"So, I guess Syaoran liking me is just a lie. The letter is probably a lie as well, right?" she asked, curling her hands into fists. "I can't believe this!"
Tomoyo shook her head. "No, Sakura. Syaoran does care for you! I can tell you I was jealous at first, but then I realized how much you liked him after I seen him leave your apartment the one morning after your date with Eriol. I swear I would never con Syaoran into pretending to like you."
"You say that, but it's exactly what you did with Eriol," she said, and started to walk away.
They both called out to her, but she kept walking. She did not want to talk anymore. She was betrayed by her best friend and guy friend. But somehow, she did not let that destroy the feelings in her heart. Whether or not Tomoyo told Syaoran to like her, she still wanted to tell him how she feels before he leaves.
With all her might, that's exactly what she set off to do. (Even though she's not sure where he lives.)
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To Be Continued…
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