Sorry it's been so long. Here's the third chapter...finally.
This one has a bit more of a serious-no pun intended-note to it. Hope you all enjoy.
Chapter 3:
(A/N: This chapter takes place a few months after the last one. They've already been practicing for a while, and know most of their songs fairly well.)
Remus shuffled through his trunk until he found the old worn leather folder. He pulled it out, and sat down on his bed. He quickly shuffled through the papers inside, till he found the old yellowed piece of parchment.
Remus rolled it up, and stuck it in the pocket of his robe. After depositing the folder back into his trunk he headed downstairs to the common room. At the bottom of the stairs he took a deep breath, to steel his nerves and headed over to Sirius.
Sirius looked up from his Quidditch book, a wide smile spreading over his face.
"What's up, Moony?" He asked, his smile disappeared when he saw the look on the others face.
"Can I talk to you for a minute, Sirius?"
"Sure." He set the book down and stood up, following Remus to the portrait hole. Remus pushed it open, and started walking down the corridor. After a few minutes they reached their destination. A secret passageway that led to an old abandoned classroom where they've been practicing.
Sirius sat down on a stool, and turned to Remus. "What did you want to talk to me about?"
"Sirius...are you really serious about wanting to do this band?" He asked slowly.
"Of course I am. I thought you would've figured that out by now."
"How...how far are you planning on going with this though?" He asked.
Sirius looked at him strangely. "All the way, Moony."
Remus looked down at his fidgeting hands in his lap. Silence reigned in the room for a few minutes.
"Sirius...can...can I show you something?" He asked hesitantly. Sirius didn't pause in answering.
"Of course you can Remus." Remus could tell Sirius meant it. Recently he'd only used his real name, when it was a serious moment.
Remus pulled the roll of parchment out of his pocket, and handed it to Sirius.
"It's...it's a song I wrote a few years ago. I...I've never shown it to anyone before now. If...if you like it we could sing it...if you wanted." Nervous wasn't even close to describing how Remus felt at that moment.
Sirius took the parchment from Remus' shaking fingers. He began reading.
I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feel like I've been buried underneath the weight of the world
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm running, shaking
Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, I hate this
But I'm going through changes, changes
When he finished reading he was frozen to the spot for a moment. This...this was how Remus felt. A felt a tear slide out of the corner of his eye. He'd tried everything he could for Remus. He'd done everything in his power to make him feel even half as loved as he was, and Remus still felt this way.
Was it his fault? Had he failed some way in showing Remus how much he wanted to help him...how much he cared...or even loved, him? Sirius knew there was no way he'd ever completely understand what Remus went through, and is still going through, but he tried.
Another thought suddenly occurred to Sirius. Maybe he was able to show Remus how he felt...maybe that was why Remus was sharing this with him...
Sirius looked up, and saw Remus anxiously waiting for his reaction. When Remus saw the tear streak, his breath caught.
"Sirius..." Remus frowned. "You're crying...?"
Sirius reached up a tentative hand, and felt his cheek. "I guess I am." He stated, looking at his moist fingers.
Remus stepped forward quickly and put his hand against Sirius' face, trying to dry the tears.
"I...I'm so sorry Sirius. I didn't want you to cry." Remus felt tears come to his own eyes.
"No." Sirius said sternly. "Don't apologize." Remus looked into his eyes with surprise, and was even more shocked to see how close they were.
"Sirius...?" Sirius moved closer, so him and Remus were breathing the same air. They were so close. Their lips were only inches apart. His eyes suddenly widened, and he jerked away. Was he about to kiss him? He had almost ruined everything between them by kissing Remus. He wouldn't let that happen again.
Remus looked up, slightly hurt, when Sirius moved away.
Sirius stood up and handed the parchment back to Remus.
"I think it's a great song. I can't wait until we sing it." He said in an unintentional cold voice. He turned and walked away heading back to the Gryffindor common room.
Once the door was closed, Remus collapsed on the floor, and began sobbing.
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So...what did you think? Was it too angsty? Sorry again that it took so long to get out. Well, review everyone. I'll write the next chapter soon. I promise.
R&R
This one has a bit more of a serious-no pun intended-note to it. Hope you all enjoy.
Chapter 3:
(A/N: This chapter takes place a few months after the last one. They've already been practicing for a while, and know most of their songs fairly well.)
Remus shuffled through his trunk until he found the old worn leather folder. He pulled it out, and sat down on his bed. He quickly shuffled through the papers inside, till he found the old yellowed piece of parchment.
Remus rolled it up, and stuck it in the pocket of his robe. After depositing the folder back into his trunk he headed downstairs to the common room. At the bottom of the stairs he took a deep breath, to steel his nerves and headed over to Sirius.
Sirius looked up from his Quidditch book, a wide smile spreading over his face.
"What's up, Moony?" He asked, his smile disappeared when he saw the look on the others face.
"Can I talk to you for a minute, Sirius?"
"Sure." He set the book down and stood up, following Remus to the portrait hole. Remus pushed it open, and started walking down the corridor. After a few minutes they reached their destination. A secret passageway that led to an old abandoned classroom where they've been practicing.
Sirius sat down on a stool, and turned to Remus. "What did you want to talk to me about?"
"Sirius...are you really serious about wanting to do this band?" He asked slowly.
"Of course I am. I thought you would've figured that out by now."
"How...how far are you planning on going with this though?" He asked.
Sirius looked at him strangely. "All the way, Moony."
Remus looked down at his fidgeting hands in his lap. Silence reigned in the room for a few minutes.
"Sirius...can...can I show you something?" He asked hesitantly. Sirius didn't pause in answering.
"Of course you can Remus." Remus could tell Sirius meant it. Recently he'd only used his real name, when it was a serious moment.
Remus pulled the roll of parchment out of his pocket, and handed it to Sirius.
"It's...it's a song I wrote a few years ago. I...I've never shown it to anyone before now. If...if you like it we could sing it...if you wanted." Nervous wasn't even close to describing how Remus felt at that moment.
Sirius took the parchment from Remus' shaking fingers. He began reading.
I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feel like I've been buried underneath the weight of the world
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm running, shaking
Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, I hate this
But I'm going through changes, changes
When he finished reading he was frozen to the spot for a moment. This...this was how Remus felt. A felt a tear slide out of the corner of his eye. He'd tried everything he could for Remus. He'd done everything in his power to make him feel even half as loved as he was, and Remus still felt this way.
Was it his fault? Had he failed some way in showing Remus how much he wanted to help him...how much he cared...or even loved, him? Sirius knew there was no way he'd ever completely understand what Remus went through, and is still going through, but he tried.
Another thought suddenly occurred to Sirius. Maybe he was able to show Remus how he felt...maybe that was why Remus was sharing this with him...
Sirius looked up, and saw Remus anxiously waiting for his reaction. When Remus saw the tear streak, his breath caught.
"Sirius..." Remus frowned. "You're crying...?"
Sirius reached up a tentative hand, and felt his cheek. "I guess I am." He stated, looking at his moist fingers.
Remus stepped forward quickly and put his hand against Sirius' face, trying to dry the tears.
"I...I'm so sorry Sirius. I didn't want you to cry." Remus felt tears come to his own eyes.
"No." Sirius said sternly. "Don't apologize." Remus looked into his eyes with surprise, and was even more shocked to see how close they were.
"Sirius...?" Sirius moved closer, so him and Remus were breathing the same air. They were so close. Their lips were only inches apart. His eyes suddenly widened, and he jerked away. Was he about to kiss him? He had almost ruined everything between them by kissing Remus. He wouldn't let that happen again.
Remus looked up, slightly hurt, when Sirius moved away.
Sirius stood up and handed the parchment back to Remus.
"I think it's a great song. I can't wait until we sing it." He said in an unintentional cold voice. He turned and walked away heading back to the Gryffindor common room.
Once the door was closed, Remus collapsed on the floor, and began sobbing.
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So...what did you think? Was it too angsty? Sorry again that it took so long to get out. Well, review everyone. I'll write the next chapter soon. I promise.
R&R