Disclaimer: I don't own "High Wire Escape Artist" or "Sad Exchange" either…
Notes: Basically all of the song goes to the plot well…
Chapter 33: Beyond RepentanceSquall grabbed her hand as she froze in her place. It had begun again, her transformation. The count had already been upped to 20, why should Latisha take over now?
[High Wire Escape Artist]
Bleed out all empathy this vessel has no spirit left to
hold on to lies I've lived in full
How long can I hold tight with every movement
Tension binds and denies my true nature
Oceania gripped her clothes tightly, fighting herself.
The balance has
shifted warped sick and twisted
Latisha began to win, and Oceania started to fade into the background.
Grabbing at
angels when I fall
He called out her former name, and called upon her good side, but she lost complete control.
Because I am more
than this idol endless recital
For all my demons to applaud
I am free
Latisha laughed at Squall when she gained control. Her piercing laugh hurt his ears, like a banshee cry in the wind.
Hide myself from
it all while every fear is
Screaming night into dawn until I find
She tossed him into the cave, and set off on her hunting trip, searching for blood, and power.
I have to believe them (lies)
In order to attain fulfillment
I have to succumb to (lies)
All my inner fears that tear at me
I will never believe them (lies)
I'm sick of the weakness that controls me-now that I've fallen-I will not repent
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Squall nursed his scratched arm, and waited for her impatiently on her bed. After awhile he began pacing the floor.
Hours later Oceania came in, and headed straight for the water. She could barely stand, and she stumbled many times along the way. Squall walked to her, but she paused, and looked at him despairingly, to be left alone. She let herself fall into the water, and waded in it. In a seething rage she began to yell in her head at Latisha.
[Sad Exchange]
Quietly thinking to myself
Sharing half our mind instead of noneThe shakings just begun
The pleasantries are gone
This sad exchange leases neither one of us
Oceania: I hate you…
So we finally gave up
Meanings tend to give out
The Time was gone to act out
This living torture, living torture
O: You've ruined my life…
Latisha: You've ruined it too. We are one.
No talking when I want you to listen
No talking cause it's living torture, living torture
O (beyond pissed): Shut the f--- up! Listen to me, and do as I say you b---h!
Don't know why, don't know why, we can't stand aside
(I don't want your many face we don't seem right)
If I had known back then
Whatever I know now
I'd think I'd have answers but I don't know why
So we finally gave up
The meanings tend to give out
The time was gone to act out
But here I am and I'm still living
O: You drove him away from me…
L: We drove him away. You blame me for our doings. We are the same person, so you can't blame just half.
No talking when I want you to listen
No talking cause it's a living torture, living torture.
No talking when I want you to listen
Don't tell me what I'm trying to say to you
O: Shut up! You are only going to take over when I want, okay?! When I want! Not when you want!
L: So I have to obey?
Both of us know
What it sounds like in my mind
Now both of us know
What it sounds like in my mind
Now both of us know
Now both of us know
L: You hate me for what he decided about us. I understand, but understand that I am you.
O: Shut up, and only come out when I say.
No talking when I want you to listen
No talking cause it's a living torture, living torture
No talking when I want you to listen
Don't try to tell me what I'm trying to say to you
L: Fine, but I get to come out when I want sometimes.
O: No.
L: When you are angry?
O (realizes she has to compromise): …Fine.
Quietly thinking to ourselves
This sad exchange pleases neither one of us