Title: Interesting Author: Lady Lance Rating: PG Pairing: None, implied possible Shindou Hikaru/ Touya Akira Summary: Waya wants to become interesting for Shindou Author Notes: I'm back :-D It's been almost a year since I've written anything, and it's Hikaru no Go instead of Harry Potter, but I'm back! Feedback always welcome. Flames will be mocked on my livejournal.

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Shindou.

Shindou.

Shindou!

I swear, if I hear someone mention his name one more time I might scream. It's not that I hate Shindou—I don't, he's one of the best friends I've made in the world of Go and I know he doesn't mean to get the attention that he does. It's just that next to him, I feel invisible. Unimportant. Ochi does too.

The day we had the match to determine the last two team members for the Hokuto Cup still haunts me. I remember watching as they discussed Shindou and Yashiro's match, how animated they were about the moves they made. How disappointed they were that they both couldn't play on the team. Sensei's belated, obviously half-hearted, congratulations to Ochi. Touya Akira all but ignoring us, I know how much that stings Ochi. He's always getting stronger, but it never seems to be enough for Touya to acknowledge him as someone worthy being a rival. I don't even think about trying to get him to acknowledge me that way, I know I'm still not near his level. Nowadays I don't even feel as if I'm near Shindou's level, even though I'm progressing nicely towards 3-dan status, while he still has a few more months before he'll be able to make 2-dan.

What am I saying? I know that one's ranking has nothing to do with one's strength. Shindou is someone special. He has a gift, that's plain to see, otherwise he would have never advanced so quickly, but still, to have everyone from Ogata Juudan to Kurabawa Honinbou to Kurata 6-dan to Touya Akira bending over backwards tracking his progress is still unsettling.

Shindou is changing. He still comes to Morishita-sensei's sessions, but he now spends most of his time with Touya Am I not helpful enough anymore? I may not be able to read as deeply as he does, but that doesn't mean I'm totally useless either. I guess I could deal with that if it weren't for the rumors that the two were doing...other things.

Going out to eat. Hikaru visiting the Touya residence to play both Touya Akira and Touya Kouyo matches. He's also started to attend Ogata's study sessions when the two get in particularly heated fights over a move and want a third opinion. Why not wait and ask Morishita-sensei?

I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous. I...

I'm jealous.

Jealous of the attention that Touya Akira gets from Shindo. I want Shindou to look at me like that, with that intensity that he normally reserves for Go. I want that gaze fixed up on me. I want his hands caressing me like he does the stones. I want... What difference does it make what I want. I'm not going to get it.

Not until I'm good enough to beat Touya Akira.

Even if it takes me another five or even ten years I will become as good as him, and *then* Shindou will look upon me with the passion reserved for Touya. I will be a force to be reckoned with. I will no longer be invisible. I will be someone to follow.

I will be interesting for you, Shindou. You will want me the way the way you want Touya Akira. And when that day comes I will take you back and make you forget all about him, for I will be your new rival. I will be an even better friend and confidant than he is turning out to be, and maybe if I am truly blessed I will become your lover.

Yes. The day is coming, I can taste it.

Just you wait, Shindou.

Just you wait and see.