True Compassion
A/N: yeah I have been gone for a while… o well… I am to busy reading to write…not that ya'll care but w/e *shrugs* just tell me what you think okay?
Summary: Lily knows that she has to make a choice; stay with James, whom she loves, and face the danger of Voldemort, who is already after James and all his friends, … or leave him and live safely. Sort of a diary entry thing…I think.
I have no idea why I ever thought I could do this. It was so ignorant of me to think to that I could just read a book and suddenly be ready to join a whole new world. Okay so I read more that like 50 books but that's beside the point. The point is I got through four years of the very incomplete picture of the world I declared myself a part of, but I had no idea what I had gotten myself into.
Magic… what does it make you think… unicorns, mermaids, enchanted castles, and kind fatherly old wizards, right? Well that's what you see at first glance, but when you look a second time you discover that there is much more to it than you first thought, and you start to regret ignoring the bothersome cliché that your mother has been telling you about for more than 15 years…look before you leap. I, being young, foolish, and perhaps a bit too eager to get away from the life I knew and hated, leapt, I went in on first glance and waited until now to look around, comprehend what I had gotten into.
This isn't one of those 30-day trials where you can try the product for free and, then finding yourself completely unsatisfied, send it back. No, this is for life, and it doesn't come with a warranty. It isn't all unicorns and mermaids, this is a packaged deal, you get the good, the great, the exceptional, the extraordinary, the absolutely fantastic wonderful only-happens-in-fairy-tails part, but you also get the bad, the terrible, the worse than death bit of the deal, and you discover that you can't back out.
They deal you a candy-coated wonderland with sugar on top and make you think that you can raise the stakes as high as you want because all you see is the good stuff. You're on top of the world. The they pull out the card that they've kept in their hand the whole time, all the evil and malevolent parts of the world that have been sitting at the bottom of the deck just waiting to bring about your demise, then you look at the pile of chips you so foolishly tossed into the center of the table without so much as a second thought and realize that you've been digging your own grave…and you're about to lie in it.
And at 15 years old and in my 5th year at the school that has taught me all about the good of magical society I am now part of, I finally begin to see past the false reality that struggles to cover the evil that I never saw. It's not a game anymore. Not when people are disappearing and no one knows where or why, not when good-hearted men and women transform into monsters you never thought you'd know…as though they have become the physical manifestation of the opposite of their selves… eating death, not when there is disaster lurking in every shadowed hall, not when, like a pesky virus, the whole situation is bound to get worse before it gets better, and not when I find my self stuck right in the middle of the whole damned thing.
My boyfriend, whom I love, and his best friends, whom I have come to regard as brothers, are in danger. They sit at the top of the hit list of the most terrible sorcerer my new world has ever seen, and even if staying by them means almost certain death, I must say that it is the easiest decision I have ever had to make. I am with them to the end, whenever and however it befalls me. And you can bet your bottom dollar that Lily Marie Evans will go down fighting… if she goes down at all.
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