A/N: Well, this is the last story. I read the reviews from the last
chapter of Without You and it's official, I confused EVERYONE! And without
tryin too. Go me, Go me! lol I apologize for doing so. I truly didn't
mean to. I hope this sorts some of your questions out. And yes, I know
this was a rather short chapter. The next one will probably be longer.
Well, READ ON!!!
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I looked at him confused as his smile faded. "I can't do this," Jeff said sadly.
"What?" I asked shocked.
"Jeff, what the hell are you doin?" Matt exclaimed.
"I can't marry you after what you told me," he said shaking his head.
"Jeff, don't do this, please!" I begged.
"You made the biggest mistake of your life. You would have done better to not have told me," Jeff said as tears began to roll down his cheeks. "I loved you so much. I was willing to marry you even knowing that you cheated on me with one of my good friends, just DAYS before our wedding."
"What?!" Matt yelled. "You cheated on him?!"
"I should have known this was going to happen eventually between you and Shane. I should have never left the WWE. I should have never left you two to be together. I was SO stupid!" Jeff yelled.
"No Jeff, don't!" I cried grabbing his hand as he started to walk away.
"Don't touch me, don't talk to me, just don't. I want you out of my house and out of my life," he cried walking away. I collapsed to the ground and cried.
"How could you do this?! You hurt my little brother like this?! And with my best friend," Matt yelled shaking his head at me.
"Matt, please, it was a mistake!" I cried.
"Yeah, no kidding. I think the day I met you was a mistake," he said.
"NO!" I screamed to him.
"Bitch," he muttered following his brother.
"Daddy," I cried reaching for him.
"I'm so disappointed in you," he said. Out of everything that someone could have said, those words from him hurt the most. I felt as if someone had shot me. He walked away as did half the guests.
"Adam," I said hoping he'd be my big brother and help me.
"Don't, just don't," he shook his head at me.
"Trish," I smiled up at her. She said nothing as she and Nora walked away. "Amy?"
"We were gonna be family. Real family. How could you do this?" she said with tears.
"I'm so sorry. You don't even know how sorry I am," I cried as she helped me stand.
"Sorry isn't going to get you out of this one," she said before leaving me. Jessy and Jesse hung their head as they walked by me. There was only one person left.
"You told him?!" Shane yelled.
"I couldn't have married him keeping it from him! Shane, please don't turn away from me now," I cried. He took me into his arms and held me tightly.
"I thought we agreed that this was going to be OUR secret," he said.
"I know, but I couldn't live with myself if I hadn't told him," I replied.
"Well, isn't this a fine mess we've gotten ourselves into," he joked.
"Shane, don't joke about this," I said.
"Sorry. Let's go to Matt and Amy's and sort all this shit out, okay Angel?" he asked. I nodded and we trudged through the field. We walked into the house and were bombarded by Matt.
"Get out of my house!" he ordered pushing both I and Shane out.
"Matt, please, let me in!" I pleaded.
"Not after what you did to my brother! I want you out!" he ordered. Shane walked away calmly and leaned up against his car as I fought hard to get into the house.
"Please, just let me in! I have no place else to go! At least let me change!" I begged.
"OUT!" he screamed, veins popping out of his neck.
"Matt, calm down and let her in to change," Amy said calmly holding her husband's hand tightly.
"Fine, but then I want her out," he growled storming into the house.
"Thank you Ames," I said.
"No problem. You're still one of my best friends. I'm gonna see what I can do about letting you stay here," she smiled.
"You're a Goddess," I said. She nodded at me and I quickly ran upstairs to my room to change into my other clothes. I was sitting on the bed, waiting for her, hoping for good news when she came in shaking her head. "I guess he's throwing me out too?"
"I'm sorry. I did get him to let you stay the nite. But he doesn't want to see you," she said as I started to cry again.
"I'm such a horrible person. I have no place to live Amy. I'm all alone," I cried onto her shoulder.
"I know. Everything will be fine though," she whispered. "I'm gonna go make sure Matt's not throwing things."
"Tell him that I still love him and he'll always be my big brother," I smiled to her as she left my room.
As soon as she left I grabbed a suitcase and pulled out all the clothes I had there, throwing them in the case. No one wanted me there any more so I was going to see to it that I wasn't going to be there. I was going to runaway, again. What else could I do? I had lost everyone because of the shit I did with Shane. Everything was my fault and there was nothing I could do to fix it, so running away was the only thing I knew to do.
"Case?" Shane said to me walking to my room slowly.
"Shane," I nodded at him not stopping my packing.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"I'm leaving," I replied.
"Leaving?" he asked.
"Yeah, leaving, for good. I'll be out of your life and everyone else's," I said looking at him.
"NO! You can't runaway! I won't let you!" he exclaimed.
"Shane, what else should I do?! I've fucked up everyone's life including yours. You should be glad to see me leave," I argued.
"I'm not letting you runaway again. Not by yourself," he said.
"Oh, what, are you going to come with me?" I asked sarcastically.
"As a matter of fact, yes. If you leave, I go with you," he said seriously.
"Shane, you have a job. A career that you love. If you leave you'll screw everything up for yourself," I tried to reason with him.
"You love that same job. I'm not letting you runaway by yourself," he said. "And that's final."
"Shane, you can't throw what you've accomplished away for me."
"You wanna bet?"
"I won't let you."
"You have no say in what I do. You're not leaving without me. It's too dangerous out there by yourself. So if you're going to leave, you're going to have protection."
"Well, I certainly can't stay here. I have no place to live, no family, no friends."
"What the hell am I?!"
"You're Shane."
"Thanks for noticing. But you're not alone. Not like you were before. You have me. And I'm gonna make sure you know that I'm there for you."
"Fine. I don't have the energy or strength to argue with you," I sighed closing the case.
"Good. So where are we off to?"
"Go pack some things and come back to pick me up at 3:00 in the morning when everyone's asleep and we'll sneak out of here. I don't know where to go, but we'll go anyways," I said.
"Alright. I'll be here. I'll flash the headlights to let you know that I'm here," he said running out of the room.
"Here I go again," I sighed.
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I had avoided Matt all nite and everyone else as well. Everyone had crashed early due to all the shit that had happened. I sat by my window waiting patiently for Shane. If he didn't show by 3, I was going to jump in my mustang and go without him. I wasn't going to wait around. Then right on the button, Shane flashed his lights. I grabbed my stuff and sighed as I looked around the room for the last time. I had my Simba and the kangaroo Shane had given me. Those were the things I knew I'd need most, along with all the CD's Jeff had made me. Pictures were thrown in my bags carefully, mostly of Jeff and I. I knew I wouldn't love anyone else like I loved him. I just hoped a part of him realized how much I truly did love him. I quietly left the house, leaving Luna behind. That was hard. She meant the world to me. But there was no way I could take her on a trip to God only knows where. I didn't leave a note or anything, just left. I threw my bags in the trunk of the car and sat in the passenger seat.
"Ready?" Shane asked.
"Just one stop, please?" I requested taking off my engagement ring.
"Are you sure you want to do that?" Shane asked. I nodded at him and we drove to Jeff's.
I climbed out of the car and saw most, if not all, of my stuff sitting on the deck. Tears instantly sprang forward. I quietly walked in the house and up the stairs, into the bedroom. Jeff was fast asleep, hugging a pillow. I looked up at the ceiling, at the Amy Brown picture he had given me, and my heart broke. As crazy as this is going to sound, a song stuck in my head. It was the song that always seemed to be going when Angel and Buffy had a problem or even just spoke to each other on Buffy the Vampire Slayer. And I suppose the song fit perfectly for the moment. I crawled into the bed next to him carefully and wrapped my arms around his waist.
"Mmm, Casey," he moaned continuing to sleep. He shifted a bit and I smiled as most of his hair pulled out of his ponytail. I placed a soft kiss on his lips and smoothed his hair back out of his face. "I love you."
"I love you too," I whispered as I climbed out of the bed. I looked at him for the last time and placed my engagement ring on the nitestand. "I never wanted any of this to happen. Jeff, you're the world to me. You'll always be in my heart." Backed out of the room and ran down the stairs.
"You okay?" Shane asked placing his hand on my knee as I fastened my belt.
"No, but I will be," I replied resting my head on the window as we drove away.
I had fallen asleep not much after we left Cameron. I didn't know where we were when I woke, but the sun was shining and Shane had turned the radio up loudly, singing along, terribly off key. I sat up, my neck cramped up badly, and squinted from the sunlight.
"Mornin sunshine," he smiled at me.
"Stop bein so chipper," I growled.
"Sorry," he laughed. "How was your nap?"
"Nap?! Dude, I've been asleep for 8 hours. That's longer than a nap."
"Ah, true," he said.
"So, where are we?" I asked looking around at the endless highway scenery.
"Well, we just crossed into Nashville," he answered. "So, what do we do?"
"Go to the airport and cash in my honeymoon tickets."
"Are you sure you want to do that?"
"Positive. I mean they won't be any use to Jeff and I now," I joked sadly. "So where do you wanna go?"
"Got your passport?"
"Always."
"Italy," he smiled.
"You read my mind," I smiled.
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I looked at him confused as his smile faded. "I can't do this," Jeff said sadly.
"What?" I asked shocked.
"Jeff, what the hell are you doin?" Matt exclaimed.
"I can't marry you after what you told me," he said shaking his head.
"Jeff, don't do this, please!" I begged.
"You made the biggest mistake of your life. You would have done better to not have told me," Jeff said as tears began to roll down his cheeks. "I loved you so much. I was willing to marry you even knowing that you cheated on me with one of my good friends, just DAYS before our wedding."
"What?!" Matt yelled. "You cheated on him?!"
"I should have known this was going to happen eventually between you and Shane. I should have never left the WWE. I should have never left you two to be together. I was SO stupid!" Jeff yelled.
"No Jeff, don't!" I cried grabbing his hand as he started to walk away.
"Don't touch me, don't talk to me, just don't. I want you out of my house and out of my life," he cried walking away. I collapsed to the ground and cried.
"How could you do this?! You hurt my little brother like this?! And with my best friend," Matt yelled shaking his head at me.
"Matt, please, it was a mistake!" I cried.
"Yeah, no kidding. I think the day I met you was a mistake," he said.
"NO!" I screamed to him.
"Bitch," he muttered following his brother.
"Daddy," I cried reaching for him.
"I'm so disappointed in you," he said. Out of everything that someone could have said, those words from him hurt the most. I felt as if someone had shot me. He walked away as did half the guests.
"Adam," I said hoping he'd be my big brother and help me.
"Don't, just don't," he shook his head at me.
"Trish," I smiled up at her. She said nothing as she and Nora walked away. "Amy?"
"We were gonna be family. Real family. How could you do this?" she said with tears.
"I'm so sorry. You don't even know how sorry I am," I cried as she helped me stand.
"Sorry isn't going to get you out of this one," she said before leaving me. Jessy and Jesse hung their head as they walked by me. There was only one person left.
"You told him?!" Shane yelled.
"I couldn't have married him keeping it from him! Shane, please don't turn away from me now," I cried. He took me into his arms and held me tightly.
"I thought we agreed that this was going to be OUR secret," he said.
"I know, but I couldn't live with myself if I hadn't told him," I replied.
"Well, isn't this a fine mess we've gotten ourselves into," he joked.
"Shane, don't joke about this," I said.
"Sorry. Let's go to Matt and Amy's and sort all this shit out, okay Angel?" he asked. I nodded and we trudged through the field. We walked into the house and were bombarded by Matt.
"Get out of my house!" he ordered pushing both I and Shane out.
"Matt, please, let me in!" I pleaded.
"Not after what you did to my brother! I want you out!" he ordered. Shane walked away calmly and leaned up against his car as I fought hard to get into the house.
"Please, just let me in! I have no place else to go! At least let me change!" I begged.
"OUT!" he screamed, veins popping out of his neck.
"Matt, calm down and let her in to change," Amy said calmly holding her husband's hand tightly.
"Fine, but then I want her out," he growled storming into the house.
"Thank you Ames," I said.
"No problem. You're still one of my best friends. I'm gonna see what I can do about letting you stay here," she smiled.
"You're a Goddess," I said. She nodded at me and I quickly ran upstairs to my room to change into my other clothes. I was sitting on the bed, waiting for her, hoping for good news when she came in shaking her head. "I guess he's throwing me out too?"
"I'm sorry. I did get him to let you stay the nite. But he doesn't want to see you," she said as I started to cry again.
"I'm such a horrible person. I have no place to live Amy. I'm all alone," I cried onto her shoulder.
"I know. Everything will be fine though," she whispered. "I'm gonna go make sure Matt's not throwing things."
"Tell him that I still love him and he'll always be my big brother," I smiled to her as she left my room.
As soon as she left I grabbed a suitcase and pulled out all the clothes I had there, throwing them in the case. No one wanted me there any more so I was going to see to it that I wasn't going to be there. I was going to runaway, again. What else could I do? I had lost everyone because of the shit I did with Shane. Everything was my fault and there was nothing I could do to fix it, so running away was the only thing I knew to do.
"Case?" Shane said to me walking to my room slowly.
"Shane," I nodded at him not stopping my packing.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"I'm leaving," I replied.
"Leaving?" he asked.
"Yeah, leaving, for good. I'll be out of your life and everyone else's," I said looking at him.
"NO! You can't runaway! I won't let you!" he exclaimed.
"Shane, what else should I do?! I've fucked up everyone's life including yours. You should be glad to see me leave," I argued.
"I'm not letting you runaway again. Not by yourself," he said.
"Oh, what, are you going to come with me?" I asked sarcastically.
"As a matter of fact, yes. If you leave, I go with you," he said seriously.
"Shane, you have a job. A career that you love. If you leave you'll screw everything up for yourself," I tried to reason with him.
"You love that same job. I'm not letting you runaway by yourself," he said. "And that's final."
"Shane, you can't throw what you've accomplished away for me."
"You wanna bet?"
"I won't let you."
"You have no say in what I do. You're not leaving without me. It's too dangerous out there by yourself. So if you're going to leave, you're going to have protection."
"Well, I certainly can't stay here. I have no place to live, no family, no friends."
"What the hell am I?!"
"You're Shane."
"Thanks for noticing. But you're not alone. Not like you were before. You have me. And I'm gonna make sure you know that I'm there for you."
"Fine. I don't have the energy or strength to argue with you," I sighed closing the case.
"Good. So where are we off to?"
"Go pack some things and come back to pick me up at 3:00 in the morning when everyone's asleep and we'll sneak out of here. I don't know where to go, but we'll go anyways," I said.
"Alright. I'll be here. I'll flash the headlights to let you know that I'm here," he said running out of the room.
"Here I go again," I sighed.
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I had avoided Matt all nite and everyone else as well. Everyone had crashed early due to all the shit that had happened. I sat by my window waiting patiently for Shane. If he didn't show by 3, I was going to jump in my mustang and go without him. I wasn't going to wait around. Then right on the button, Shane flashed his lights. I grabbed my stuff and sighed as I looked around the room for the last time. I had my Simba and the kangaroo Shane had given me. Those were the things I knew I'd need most, along with all the CD's Jeff had made me. Pictures were thrown in my bags carefully, mostly of Jeff and I. I knew I wouldn't love anyone else like I loved him. I just hoped a part of him realized how much I truly did love him. I quietly left the house, leaving Luna behind. That was hard. She meant the world to me. But there was no way I could take her on a trip to God only knows where. I didn't leave a note or anything, just left. I threw my bags in the trunk of the car and sat in the passenger seat.
"Ready?" Shane asked.
"Just one stop, please?" I requested taking off my engagement ring.
"Are you sure you want to do that?" Shane asked. I nodded at him and we drove to Jeff's.
I climbed out of the car and saw most, if not all, of my stuff sitting on the deck. Tears instantly sprang forward. I quietly walked in the house and up the stairs, into the bedroom. Jeff was fast asleep, hugging a pillow. I looked up at the ceiling, at the Amy Brown picture he had given me, and my heart broke. As crazy as this is going to sound, a song stuck in my head. It was the song that always seemed to be going when Angel and Buffy had a problem or even just spoke to each other on Buffy the Vampire Slayer. And I suppose the song fit perfectly for the moment. I crawled into the bed next to him carefully and wrapped my arms around his waist.
"Mmm, Casey," he moaned continuing to sleep. He shifted a bit and I smiled as most of his hair pulled out of his ponytail. I placed a soft kiss on his lips and smoothed his hair back out of his face. "I love you."
"I love you too," I whispered as I climbed out of the bed. I looked at him for the last time and placed my engagement ring on the nitestand. "I never wanted any of this to happen. Jeff, you're the world to me. You'll always be in my heart." Backed out of the room and ran down the stairs.
"You okay?" Shane asked placing his hand on my knee as I fastened my belt.
"No, but I will be," I replied resting my head on the window as we drove away.
I had fallen asleep not much after we left Cameron. I didn't know where we were when I woke, but the sun was shining and Shane had turned the radio up loudly, singing along, terribly off key. I sat up, my neck cramped up badly, and squinted from the sunlight.
"Mornin sunshine," he smiled at me.
"Stop bein so chipper," I growled.
"Sorry," he laughed. "How was your nap?"
"Nap?! Dude, I've been asleep for 8 hours. That's longer than a nap."
"Ah, true," he said.
"So, where are we?" I asked looking around at the endless highway scenery.
"Well, we just crossed into Nashville," he answered. "So, what do we do?"
"Go to the airport and cash in my honeymoon tickets."
"Are you sure you want to do that?"
"Positive. I mean they won't be any use to Jeff and I now," I joked sadly. "So where do you wanna go?"
"Got your passport?"
"Always."
"Italy," he smiled.
"You read my mind," I smiled.
