Post 'Damage', Spike broods (for lack of better word) about life,
unlife...and fairytales.
Once upon a time
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"She's just an innocent victim" "So were we, once upon a time" "Once upon a time" Damage
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Fairytales. They're simple really, pretty lass meets dashing prince, defeat the obvious bad guy, run of into the sunset together. The end.
Beginning. Middle. End.
So easy. Its all there, straight forward, no messing just follow the simple steps, and the only reason you bother with the beginning and middle, is to get to the end. 'Cause that's what we all want right? A fairytale ending?
Of course, fairytales fail to mention the struggle, heartache, and loss you have to get past first. Its all so easy in stories. The bad guys are clearly marked, the world works to your advantage, and the good guys never die. None of this grey area crap, that apparently plays such a major part in my life.
Life certainly wasn't a fairytale for that poor kid, what was she about 17, super strong, and majorly fucked up.
Things never turn out like they should.
Its times like this I wish I could change things, give everyone the happiness that they deserve. Joyce didn't get a happy ending, she was such a lovely woman, and far to young to die of cancer.
Tara shouldn't of died how she did, murdered at 21, she was always such a sweet girl, and Red shouldn't of had to go through that.
Demons Demons with souls Humans Humans with souls who don't give a shit Slayers Homicidal slayers Lunatic slayers Death Destruction War Disease Apocalypse
...this world is fucked up.
Books, with their pretty pictures. They don't mention the part where the innocent guy gets murdered, or looses his soul, or gets kidnapped by the government, or changes everything for the love of a girl he should hate. We are all trapped inside our own fairytale.
I never wanted to be murdered. I never wanted to be a vampire, I never wanted to be brought back ... Ironic really, I never wanted to die. I did though, I done lots of bad shit, and I loved every minute of it. Do I hate what I become? Yes. But do I regret it? No, I can't say I regret everything.
I've seen and done things other people will never have to a chance to do. My memories, my experiences, well, they'd make a damn good story book. Maybe I wasn't the character I should have been, but I was part of it all the same.
We are all trapped inside our own fairytale. Mine had a sappy beginning, quite sad really, a fascinating plot...as for the end. I don't know really I guess only time will tell.
I'm not sure though, do I get to decide my ending, or is it out of my hands, written on some mouldy scrap of paper somewhere?
I never cared much for fairytales, they always seemed to unrealistic, never could keep my interest for long. Doesn't mean I'm not curious though... to how it's going to end.
Will I make peace with the world... find my redemption ? Yeah right.
Will I end up burning in the fiery depths somewhere? Probably.
Will I find peace, here with Angel at 'Wolfram and Hart'? Not a chance in hell.
Will I find peace in Rome, with Bu...lets not go there, its doubtful.
Will I find any peace? A guy can hope, I don't know what the future will bring, I don't know how it all works, or where I'll end up. I'll stay here though, my arms can tingle some more and I'll keep playing 'hero'...and maybe one day I'll find my 'happily ever after', 'cause even those who don't believe in their sunset ending can secretly hope.
Once upon a time
*****
"She's just an innocent victim" "So were we, once upon a time" "Once upon a time" Damage
*****
Fairytales. They're simple really, pretty lass meets dashing prince, defeat the obvious bad guy, run of into the sunset together. The end.
Beginning. Middle. End.
So easy. Its all there, straight forward, no messing just follow the simple steps, and the only reason you bother with the beginning and middle, is to get to the end. 'Cause that's what we all want right? A fairytale ending?
Of course, fairytales fail to mention the struggle, heartache, and loss you have to get past first. Its all so easy in stories. The bad guys are clearly marked, the world works to your advantage, and the good guys never die. None of this grey area crap, that apparently plays such a major part in my life.
Life certainly wasn't a fairytale for that poor kid, what was she about 17, super strong, and majorly fucked up.
Things never turn out like they should.
Its times like this I wish I could change things, give everyone the happiness that they deserve. Joyce didn't get a happy ending, she was such a lovely woman, and far to young to die of cancer.
Tara shouldn't of died how she did, murdered at 21, she was always such a sweet girl, and Red shouldn't of had to go through that.
Demons Demons with souls Humans Humans with souls who don't give a shit Slayers Homicidal slayers Lunatic slayers Death Destruction War Disease Apocalypse
...this world is fucked up.
Books, with their pretty pictures. They don't mention the part where the innocent guy gets murdered, or looses his soul, or gets kidnapped by the government, or changes everything for the love of a girl he should hate. We are all trapped inside our own fairytale.
I never wanted to be murdered. I never wanted to be a vampire, I never wanted to be brought back ... Ironic really, I never wanted to die. I did though, I done lots of bad shit, and I loved every minute of it. Do I hate what I become? Yes. But do I regret it? No, I can't say I regret everything.
I've seen and done things other people will never have to a chance to do. My memories, my experiences, well, they'd make a damn good story book. Maybe I wasn't the character I should have been, but I was part of it all the same.
We are all trapped inside our own fairytale. Mine had a sappy beginning, quite sad really, a fascinating plot...as for the end. I don't know really I guess only time will tell.
I'm not sure though, do I get to decide my ending, or is it out of my hands, written on some mouldy scrap of paper somewhere?
I never cared much for fairytales, they always seemed to unrealistic, never could keep my interest for long. Doesn't mean I'm not curious though... to how it's going to end.
Will I make peace with the world... find my redemption ? Yeah right.
Will I end up burning in the fiery depths somewhere? Probably.
Will I find peace, here with Angel at 'Wolfram and Hart'? Not a chance in hell.
Will I find peace in Rome, with Bu...lets not go there, its doubtful.
Will I find any peace? A guy can hope, I don't know what the future will bring, I don't know how it all works, or where I'll end up. I'll stay here though, my arms can tingle some more and I'll keep playing 'hero'...and maybe one day I'll find my 'happily ever after', 'cause even those who don't believe in their sunset ending can secretly hope.
