A/N: Sorry for the lack of updates, I'm completely blank when it's coming
to all my stories. This was so hard for me to do. But here it is. I used
the songs "Falls on Me" by Fuel and "Everything" by Fefe Dobson. Lol I
hope ya'll check out that new story of mine, The Mysterious One. That
one's been floating in my mind for quite sometime and I decided to get it
out there. Oh, and just to let you know, I hate this chapter. Lol
Seriously, I don't like it, but I was coming up empty, so I figured this
was better than nothing. I think that's it. READ ON!!!
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"Oh my God! That dress is beautiful!" I exclaimed as Trish, my maid of honor, held up my wedding dress. "How'd you guys get my size and measurements and stuff?"
"See that's, that's, where things get weird," she chuckled.
"Oh no," I laughed.
"Yeah, um, while you were knocked out from surgery, we um, had Shane get your measurements," she laughed.
"That's definitely bizarre," I said as she held the dress up to me.
"Well, here's another bizarre fact about this dress." I looked at her through the mirror and smiled. "It's the one you wore for your and Jeff's wedding."
"No, no way!"
"Yeah, we had it altered a bit. Made it more modern and gave it more of your personality. Maggie from wardrobe helped out a lot. We took the top and separated it from the skirt, making it a two piece. Then we cut the back off from the front of the top. Then we sewed ribbons into the front in the wedding colors, black, blue, and green, and that's how we're tying the top. We replaced the straps with the same ribbons and attached them to this one strip of white from the original back," Trish explained.
"Trish, you went to a lot of work for this. Thank you. I really do appreciate it," I said hugging her.
"Do we look hot or what?!" Amy exclaimed as she, Crystal, and Nora walked into the large hotel room already dressed for the wedding in simple full length spaghetti strap dresses in dark blue.
"Very hot," I laughed. "I want you all to know how special ya'll are to me. I wish I could have gotten you all a little gift."
"Shane covered that," Trish said handing me a large box. "He said for you to open the box today and give out each of the gifts, and then put in the video tape."
"Do you know what the gifts are?" I questioned.
"Not a clue. That was all his idea," Trish replied.
"And Jeff gave me this to give to you. But he wants you to open it with Shane," Amy smiled. "So we'll just leave it in the limo when we go to the church."
I nodded at her and opened the box, handing each girl a small wrapped box. I smiled as they opened them. "He got us charm bracelets?" Crystal questioned as she held out a silver bracelet with two charms already on it, a 'C' for her initial and a wedding ring with mine and Shane's initials engraved in it. "I fully expected to pull out some sort of sex toy or something," she laughed clasping the jewelry around her wrist.
"Well, Case, put in the tape," Nora smiled as they took seats on the beds. I nodded and after pushing play on the VCR I took a seat between Amy and Trish.
Shane sat in front of the camera and smiled. He took a breath and started speaking. "Well, I'm glad to see you got the tape. That means Trish did her job. And I hope you all like your wedding party gifts. Now to the reason I made this tape. Casey, I want to thank you for being in my life from that first phone call till now. We've been through so much, nothing could break us apart now. The moment that I knew I loved you, wasn't exactly the moment I said that I loved you. Even though I did love you then. This moment that I'm talking about, was the moment I knew I wanted to marry you. It was Thanksgiving, well, the day after, when your mom decided to pay us a little visit at Titan Towers. I was so worried that they were going to take you away. And that I wasn't going to see you ever again. That's when I knew I wanted you in my life forever. And now I have you forever. I apologize for anything stupid I may do in the future and anything stupid that I did in the past. I love you Casey. I love you SO much. And I know you'll be the most beautiful bride to ever walk down that isle today. I'll be waiting, maybe not patiently, but waiting none the less for you today. I love you." And the camera was shut off. The tape popped out and I continued to sit there.
"That was sweet," Nora said taking out the tape.
"That's the man I married. I'm going to be with him for the rest of my life," I smiled faintly.
"Does that scare you?" Crystal asked.
"More than anything in this world. But knowing that he loves me and that I love him and who he is, makes it all better. Makes me feel safe and secure. I feel differently than I did on mine and Jeff's wedding. Almost, I don't know, at peace, I suppose," I sighed.
"Casey, that means you're ready to be with him. Ready to leave your single life behind and take a chance at true love," Amy smiled.
"Now I know why you were so scared for your wedding," I laughed. "It does go away, right?"
"Of course. You're the one that told me that. Right when you see him, and when you say your 'I do's', and when you have that first kiss, all your fears go away," Amy said.
"Bbbut, I don't know if I can walk, I can barely stand. My heart is racing, so so fast. I feel like my chest is going to cave in," I said taking deep shallow breaths.
"That's love sweetie. When you can't breathe, when you don't think you can move one step, when you think that you're going to pass out, that's called love," Crystal smiled. "You're in love."
"Come on, let's get you into your dress," Trish said holding up the dress. I took a deep breath and nodded.
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"Goin to the chapel and we're GONNA get marrrried," we all sang in the limo as we rode towards the church, almost a ½ hour late.
"Feeling any better?" Nora questioned.
"Not really. If anything I'm getting worse. I think I'm getting butterflies," I crunched up my face as I grabbed my stomach.
"Yeah, I know that feeling," Amy laughed. "Just remember what you told me on my wedding day. It applies to you too."
"I know, I just keep saying, "I love him, he loves me" over and over again in my head," I laughed
"Well, I have an announcement," Trish said. We all directed our attention to her. "Chad and I are going to try to have a baby."
"Shane and I too!" I exclaimed happily.
"No way! What the hell changed your mind about a baby?" Trish asked.
"Shane and I sat down and had a long discussion. He convinced me everything was going to be alright. So we started trying a week ago," I replied.
"Ya know, we should get pregnant together. That would be so much fun!" Trish suggested.
"Oh my God, that's a great idea! We definitely should do that. Be pregnant together, eat weird foods together, wear really ugly clothes together," I laughed.
"Oh it's SO on!" Trish smiled as we hugged in the limo.
"Well congratulations girls," Crystal smiled. "I also have an announcement."
"Uh-oh," we all smiled.
"Shannon and I are going to have another baby," she said.
"Congratulations Crystal! Oh my God! Willow's going to be a big sister," Nora smiled.
"Willow will love that," Amy laughed. "Now she won't have all her Daddy's attention."
"Oh she'll deal," Crystal rolled her eyes. "Yeah, so I'm 3 months pregnant."
"That's great. Too bad you couldn't have waited," I smirked.
"Sorry bout that, should have let me know ahead of time," she shook her head as the limo came to a stop.
"Well ladies, here we are," the driver announced as he opened the door. I climbed out of the car carefully and held up my dress as we all walked into the beautiful large church.
"Bout damn time ya'll got here," Matt sighed as he walked up to us in his tux.
"Is Shane freakin out?" I laughed.
"Just slightly. And you're already married!" he laughed. "Anyways, are you girls ready?"
"We're ready," Trish nodded. "Casey?"
I looked at them all and at Matt. I smiled and nodded. "As ready as I'll ever be."
I looked up at Daddy as he walked me down the aisle. Shane stood next to his brother with a large grin on his face as he fought to keep his tears at bay. Dad let me go, kissed my check and sat down next to Sara before Shane took my hand. I looked into his brown eyes and all my fears drifted away. I took a deep breath and the ceremony started. It was mostly a blur, I remember bits and pieces, like exchanging the rings, Shane crying, and saying our 'I do's'. But that was about all.
"I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss your bride."
Shane put his hands on my face and pulled me towards him, "I love you," he said before kissing me.
"I love you too," I returned the kiss. We turned to face our family and friends as we held hands.
"I give you Mr. and Mrs. Gregory Helms!" They stood as we walked down the isle quickly.
"Don't do that to me!" Shane exclaimed as we walked outside into the fall sunlight.
"Do what?" I smiled.
"Show up late like that. God, I thought you weren't going to show up," he shook his head as he held me tightly.
"Yeah right! I'm already married to you! What difference would it make if I hadn't shown up?"
"Well, I don't know, this all just makes it feel official," he smiled at me. I reached up and kissed him softly. "I love you so much."
"I love you too," I said as people started filing out of the building. Most walked out and congratulated us while the others headed off to the reception. After greeting the people that stuck around and doing the wedding pictures, Shane and I got in one limo while the other's got in another. Shane and I sipped champagne as I had my legs stretched out over his lap and my shoes thrown on the floor.
"You looked beautiful in that dress. It's definitely you," he smiled.
"Yeah, they did a good job with it all, didn't they?" I said. "Trish and I have decided that we're going to have a baby together."
He gave me a strange look and laughed. "Well, I don't exactly know how that's going to happen, but I sure as hell won't mind watching it being made."
My mouth dropped as I slapped his arm. "You ass! You know what I meant. Trish and Chad are going to have a baby and we're going to have a baby. SEPARATELY!!!"
"I know, just thought it'd be fun to bust your chain," he laughed as he noticed a package sitting on one of the seats. "What's that?"
"Oh, that's a gift from Jeff. We're supposed to open it together," I replied as I reached for it.
"Well, go ahead and open it," Shane said. I ripped it open and smiled when I saw what he had given me. It was the Amy Brown picture he had given me before I went to buy my wedding dress for our wedding, the "Always" painting.
"Jeff's sweet," I said.
"Yeah, that's really nice of him," Shane smiled kissing my cheek. I rested my head on his shoulder as we continued our way to the reception.
***********
"And here is your wedding party!" the DJ announced as everyone lined up in front of the doors to the reception hall. "Flower girl Kalista Calloway and ring bearer Michael Copeland!" They walked out together, hand in hand, K pretty much pulling little Michael along. "Nora Greenwald and Jason Reso."
"Crystal Moore and Shannon Moore," the DJ said as they walked out arm in arm.
"Did you boys have fun last nite?" I whispered to Shane as he held onto my waist.
"Amy Hardy and Matt Hardy."
"Yeah, it was definitely interesting," he laughed.
"Strippers?" I questioned looking up at him. He leaned down and kissed my lips lightly.
"No, no strippers," he replied.
"And the Maid of Honor Trish Norris and Best man Michael Helms."
"Are you ready for this?" Shane asked me.
"As ready as I'll EVER be," I smiled at him.
"And your newlyweds, Mr. and Mrs. Gregory Helms!" we walked out together holding hands. We smiled at all our guests and walked onto the dance floor. "And they'll have their customary first dance."
'I wanna, li-li-li-lick you from yo' head to yo' toes
And I wanna, move from the bed down to the down to the to the flo'
Then I wanna, ahh ahh - you make it so good I don't wanna leave
But I gotta, kn-kn-kn-know what-what's your fan-ta-ta-sy.'
"You didn't!" I exclaimed slapping his chest. He started laughing as he pulled me into him and the music started to change.
'I've seen you hanging round
This darkness where I'm bound
And this black hole I've dug for me
And silently within
With hands touching skin
The shock breaks my disease
And I can breathe'
"No, I didn't. It was just a joke," he smiled.
"I was going to have to kill you if you had made that our first dance," I laughed interlocking my fingers with his.
'And all of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me it falls on me'
"So, is this your dream wedding?" he asked.
"Um, kinda. I mean it's great, I couldn't ask for better friends, but um, I definitely would have done some stuff differently," I replied.
"Like what?"
"Like the church. The colors. No green."
"Oh there so would have been green."
"No, not if I was planning it," I laughed.
'Your faith like the pain
Draws me in again
She washes all my wounds for me
The darkness in my veins
I never could explain
And I wonder if you ever see
Will you still believe?'
"I would have waited till Jessy had the baby or something like that. I don't know. There would have been some difference. But it was definitely a beautiful wedding," I smiled.
"Then you're happy?"
"Absolutely."
'Am I that strong
To carry on?
I might change your life
I might save my world
Could you save me?'
"But I would have been happy even if I didn't get a ceremony."
"Yes, but I know you were kinda upset about not getting one."
"I was, but ya know? Being married to you period makes me happy," I smiled as the song ended.
Being that it was a large wedding with many guests, it was hard to spend a lot of time with one specific person. It took a lot of energy to mingle with each person, but we did our best. Towards the middle of the reception, not getting a chance to eat any food, I had thrown my shoes off to the side and went on a man hunt for a certain orange haired man.
"Jeff, I've finally found you," I smiled as I walked up to him at the bar.
"Well, I've been here most of the nite," he said hugging me. "You look beautiful."
"Thank you," I blushed. "I wanted to thank you for the gift. It was perfect."
"It was nothing," he smiled listening to the music change. "Do you wanna dance?" I nodded at him and he took my hand, leading me towards the dance floor.
'Sometimes I give in to sadness
Sometimes I don't
At times I'm part of the madness
Sometimes I won't
Give in to you
You see in a way
I have been drifting down a river
To nowhere
And you've given me nothing'
"So, um, hmm, this is kinda weird, huh?" he said.
"A bit," I confessed. "I know it shouldn't feel this awkward, but it does."
"Yeah, why is that?"
"Maybe it's because we were once going to get married."
"Maybe it's because you're wearing a cut up version of the dress?" he laughed.
'But if you're ready to be my everything
If you're ready to see it through this time
And if you're ready for love then
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time'
"That could be it," I laughed. "I'm just glad we're friends again. I did miss you. But I guess I have my rock back."
"Yep, and just as sold as it was before."
"I'm glad."
"You and Shane look good together. You seem to just fit together like a puzzle."
'At times I feel myself smiling
At times I'm not
What's with the guilt that you styling baby
Talk don't look good on you
You see in a way
I have been looking for a reason to go there
And you're leading me nowhere'
"Well, we fit together, too," I sighed.
"I know, but things don't always work the way we think they should. Or the way anyone thinks they should. This happens to be one of those times," Jeff said pushing a curl of green hair out of my face.
'Are you waiting for a special occasion
To give me your heart
Cause I need a little confirmation
To make a real start
Don't wait till it's too late
Are you ready to show me?
Are you ready to love me?'
"I'm sorry for any heart break I may have caused you. Jeff you were always there for me. Through the darkest times and the lightest times. I could always count on you for everything. I love you so much."
"I love you too Casey. You'll always be my savior," he smiled. The song ended and he left me after kissing my cheek.
"It's good to see you and Jeff together again," Amy smiled as she and Matt walked up to me.
"Yeah, it's good to be seen together," I smiled.
"He really does love you Case," Matt said rubbing my shoulder.
"And I love him. But like I told someone before, they never said that once you've found your soul mate you'd marry them." I shrugged my shoulders and walked away.
That nite, Shane and I spent the nite at a very nice hotel and had a short honeymoon, working on the family thing. He promised me that we'd eventually have a real honeymoon when things with work slowed down. But it didn't really matter to me. It finally felt official. I had Shane and he had me. That's all we needed was each other.
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"Oh my God! That dress is beautiful!" I exclaimed as Trish, my maid of honor, held up my wedding dress. "How'd you guys get my size and measurements and stuff?"
"See that's, that's, where things get weird," she chuckled.
"Oh no," I laughed.
"Yeah, um, while you were knocked out from surgery, we um, had Shane get your measurements," she laughed.
"That's definitely bizarre," I said as she held the dress up to me.
"Well, here's another bizarre fact about this dress." I looked at her through the mirror and smiled. "It's the one you wore for your and Jeff's wedding."
"No, no way!"
"Yeah, we had it altered a bit. Made it more modern and gave it more of your personality. Maggie from wardrobe helped out a lot. We took the top and separated it from the skirt, making it a two piece. Then we cut the back off from the front of the top. Then we sewed ribbons into the front in the wedding colors, black, blue, and green, and that's how we're tying the top. We replaced the straps with the same ribbons and attached them to this one strip of white from the original back," Trish explained.
"Trish, you went to a lot of work for this. Thank you. I really do appreciate it," I said hugging her.
"Do we look hot or what?!" Amy exclaimed as she, Crystal, and Nora walked into the large hotel room already dressed for the wedding in simple full length spaghetti strap dresses in dark blue.
"Very hot," I laughed. "I want you all to know how special ya'll are to me. I wish I could have gotten you all a little gift."
"Shane covered that," Trish said handing me a large box. "He said for you to open the box today and give out each of the gifts, and then put in the video tape."
"Do you know what the gifts are?" I questioned.
"Not a clue. That was all his idea," Trish replied.
"And Jeff gave me this to give to you. But he wants you to open it with Shane," Amy smiled. "So we'll just leave it in the limo when we go to the church."
I nodded at her and opened the box, handing each girl a small wrapped box. I smiled as they opened them. "He got us charm bracelets?" Crystal questioned as she held out a silver bracelet with two charms already on it, a 'C' for her initial and a wedding ring with mine and Shane's initials engraved in it. "I fully expected to pull out some sort of sex toy or something," she laughed clasping the jewelry around her wrist.
"Well, Case, put in the tape," Nora smiled as they took seats on the beds. I nodded and after pushing play on the VCR I took a seat between Amy and Trish.
Shane sat in front of the camera and smiled. He took a breath and started speaking. "Well, I'm glad to see you got the tape. That means Trish did her job. And I hope you all like your wedding party gifts. Now to the reason I made this tape. Casey, I want to thank you for being in my life from that first phone call till now. We've been through so much, nothing could break us apart now. The moment that I knew I loved you, wasn't exactly the moment I said that I loved you. Even though I did love you then. This moment that I'm talking about, was the moment I knew I wanted to marry you. It was Thanksgiving, well, the day after, when your mom decided to pay us a little visit at Titan Towers. I was so worried that they were going to take you away. And that I wasn't going to see you ever again. That's when I knew I wanted you in my life forever. And now I have you forever. I apologize for anything stupid I may do in the future and anything stupid that I did in the past. I love you Casey. I love you SO much. And I know you'll be the most beautiful bride to ever walk down that isle today. I'll be waiting, maybe not patiently, but waiting none the less for you today. I love you." And the camera was shut off. The tape popped out and I continued to sit there.
"That was sweet," Nora said taking out the tape.
"That's the man I married. I'm going to be with him for the rest of my life," I smiled faintly.
"Does that scare you?" Crystal asked.
"More than anything in this world. But knowing that he loves me and that I love him and who he is, makes it all better. Makes me feel safe and secure. I feel differently than I did on mine and Jeff's wedding. Almost, I don't know, at peace, I suppose," I sighed.
"Casey, that means you're ready to be with him. Ready to leave your single life behind and take a chance at true love," Amy smiled.
"Now I know why you were so scared for your wedding," I laughed. "It does go away, right?"
"Of course. You're the one that told me that. Right when you see him, and when you say your 'I do's', and when you have that first kiss, all your fears go away," Amy said.
"Bbbut, I don't know if I can walk, I can barely stand. My heart is racing, so so fast. I feel like my chest is going to cave in," I said taking deep shallow breaths.
"That's love sweetie. When you can't breathe, when you don't think you can move one step, when you think that you're going to pass out, that's called love," Crystal smiled. "You're in love."
"Come on, let's get you into your dress," Trish said holding up the dress. I took a deep breath and nodded.
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"Goin to the chapel and we're GONNA get marrrried," we all sang in the limo as we rode towards the church, almost a ½ hour late.
"Feeling any better?" Nora questioned.
"Not really. If anything I'm getting worse. I think I'm getting butterflies," I crunched up my face as I grabbed my stomach.
"Yeah, I know that feeling," Amy laughed. "Just remember what you told me on my wedding day. It applies to you too."
"I know, I just keep saying, "I love him, he loves me" over and over again in my head," I laughed
"Well, I have an announcement," Trish said. We all directed our attention to her. "Chad and I are going to try to have a baby."
"Shane and I too!" I exclaimed happily.
"No way! What the hell changed your mind about a baby?" Trish asked.
"Shane and I sat down and had a long discussion. He convinced me everything was going to be alright. So we started trying a week ago," I replied.
"Ya know, we should get pregnant together. That would be so much fun!" Trish suggested.
"Oh my God, that's a great idea! We definitely should do that. Be pregnant together, eat weird foods together, wear really ugly clothes together," I laughed.
"Oh it's SO on!" Trish smiled as we hugged in the limo.
"Well congratulations girls," Crystal smiled. "I also have an announcement."
"Uh-oh," we all smiled.
"Shannon and I are going to have another baby," she said.
"Congratulations Crystal! Oh my God! Willow's going to be a big sister," Nora smiled.
"Willow will love that," Amy laughed. "Now she won't have all her Daddy's attention."
"Oh she'll deal," Crystal rolled her eyes. "Yeah, so I'm 3 months pregnant."
"That's great. Too bad you couldn't have waited," I smirked.
"Sorry bout that, should have let me know ahead of time," she shook her head as the limo came to a stop.
"Well ladies, here we are," the driver announced as he opened the door. I climbed out of the car carefully and held up my dress as we all walked into the beautiful large church.
"Bout damn time ya'll got here," Matt sighed as he walked up to us in his tux.
"Is Shane freakin out?" I laughed.
"Just slightly. And you're already married!" he laughed. "Anyways, are you girls ready?"
"We're ready," Trish nodded. "Casey?"
I looked at them all and at Matt. I smiled and nodded. "As ready as I'll ever be."
I looked up at Daddy as he walked me down the aisle. Shane stood next to his brother with a large grin on his face as he fought to keep his tears at bay. Dad let me go, kissed my check and sat down next to Sara before Shane took my hand. I looked into his brown eyes and all my fears drifted away. I took a deep breath and the ceremony started. It was mostly a blur, I remember bits and pieces, like exchanging the rings, Shane crying, and saying our 'I do's'. But that was about all.
"I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss your bride."
Shane put his hands on my face and pulled me towards him, "I love you," he said before kissing me.
"I love you too," I returned the kiss. We turned to face our family and friends as we held hands.
"I give you Mr. and Mrs. Gregory Helms!" They stood as we walked down the isle quickly.
"Don't do that to me!" Shane exclaimed as we walked outside into the fall sunlight.
"Do what?" I smiled.
"Show up late like that. God, I thought you weren't going to show up," he shook his head as he held me tightly.
"Yeah right! I'm already married to you! What difference would it make if I hadn't shown up?"
"Well, I don't know, this all just makes it feel official," he smiled at me. I reached up and kissed him softly. "I love you so much."
"I love you too," I said as people started filing out of the building. Most walked out and congratulated us while the others headed off to the reception. After greeting the people that stuck around and doing the wedding pictures, Shane and I got in one limo while the other's got in another. Shane and I sipped champagne as I had my legs stretched out over his lap and my shoes thrown on the floor.
"You looked beautiful in that dress. It's definitely you," he smiled.
"Yeah, they did a good job with it all, didn't they?" I said. "Trish and I have decided that we're going to have a baby together."
He gave me a strange look and laughed. "Well, I don't exactly know how that's going to happen, but I sure as hell won't mind watching it being made."
My mouth dropped as I slapped his arm. "You ass! You know what I meant. Trish and Chad are going to have a baby and we're going to have a baby. SEPARATELY!!!"
"I know, just thought it'd be fun to bust your chain," he laughed as he noticed a package sitting on one of the seats. "What's that?"
"Oh, that's a gift from Jeff. We're supposed to open it together," I replied as I reached for it.
"Well, go ahead and open it," Shane said. I ripped it open and smiled when I saw what he had given me. It was the Amy Brown picture he had given me before I went to buy my wedding dress for our wedding, the "Always" painting.
"Jeff's sweet," I said.
"Yeah, that's really nice of him," Shane smiled kissing my cheek. I rested my head on his shoulder as we continued our way to the reception.
***********
"And here is your wedding party!" the DJ announced as everyone lined up in front of the doors to the reception hall. "Flower girl Kalista Calloway and ring bearer Michael Copeland!" They walked out together, hand in hand, K pretty much pulling little Michael along. "Nora Greenwald and Jason Reso."
"Crystal Moore and Shannon Moore," the DJ said as they walked out arm in arm.
"Did you boys have fun last nite?" I whispered to Shane as he held onto my waist.
"Amy Hardy and Matt Hardy."
"Yeah, it was definitely interesting," he laughed.
"Strippers?" I questioned looking up at him. He leaned down and kissed my lips lightly.
"No, no strippers," he replied.
"And the Maid of Honor Trish Norris and Best man Michael Helms."
"Are you ready for this?" Shane asked me.
"As ready as I'll EVER be," I smiled at him.
"And your newlyweds, Mr. and Mrs. Gregory Helms!" we walked out together holding hands. We smiled at all our guests and walked onto the dance floor. "And they'll have their customary first dance."
'I wanna, li-li-li-lick you from yo' head to yo' toes
And I wanna, move from the bed down to the down to the to the flo'
Then I wanna, ahh ahh - you make it so good I don't wanna leave
But I gotta, kn-kn-kn-know what-what's your fan-ta-ta-sy.'
"You didn't!" I exclaimed slapping his chest. He started laughing as he pulled me into him and the music started to change.
'I've seen you hanging round
This darkness where I'm bound
And this black hole I've dug for me
And silently within
With hands touching skin
The shock breaks my disease
And I can breathe'
"No, I didn't. It was just a joke," he smiled.
"I was going to have to kill you if you had made that our first dance," I laughed interlocking my fingers with his.
'And all of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me it falls on me'
"So, is this your dream wedding?" he asked.
"Um, kinda. I mean it's great, I couldn't ask for better friends, but um, I definitely would have done some stuff differently," I replied.
"Like what?"
"Like the church. The colors. No green."
"Oh there so would have been green."
"No, not if I was planning it," I laughed.
'Your faith like the pain
Draws me in again
She washes all my wounds for me
The darkness in my veins
I never could explain
And I wonder if you ever see
Will you still believe?'
"I would have waited till Jessy had the baby or something like that. I don't know. There would have been some difference. But it was definitely a beautiful wedding," I smiled.
"Then you're happy?"
"Absolutely."
'Am I that strong
To carry on?
I might change your life
I might save my world
Could you save me?'
"But I would have been happy even if I didn't get a ceremony."
"Yes, but I know you were kinda upset about not getting one."
"I was, but ya know? Being married to you period makes me happy," I smiled as the song ended.
Being that it was a large wedding with many guests, it was hard to spend a lot of time with one specific person. It took a lot of energy to mingle with each person, but we did our best. Towards the middle of the reception, not getting a chance to eat any food, I had thrown my shoes off to the side and went on a man hunt for a certain orange haired man.
"Jeff, I've finally found you," I smiled as I walked up to him at the bar.
"Well, I've been here most of the nite," he said hugging me. "You look beautiful."
"Thank you," I blushed. "I wanted to thank you for the gift. It was perfect."
"It was nothing," he smiled listening to the music change. "Do you wanna dance?" I nodded at him and he took my hand, leading me towards the dance floor.
'Sometimes I give in to sadness
Sometimes I don't
At times I'm part of the madness
Sometimes I won't
Give in to you
You see in a way
I have been drifting down a river
To nowhere
And you've given me nothing'
"So, um, hmm, this is kinda weird, huh?" he said.
"A bit," I confessed. "I know it shouldn't feel this awkward, but it does."
"Yeah, why is that?"
"Maybe it's because we were once going to get married."
"Maybe it's because you're wearing a cut up version of the dress?" he laughed.
'But if you're ready to be my everything
If you're ready to see it through this time
And if you're ready for love then
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time'
"That could be it," I laughed. "I'm just glad we're friends again. I did miss you. But I guess I have my rock back."
"Yep, and just as sold as it was before."
"I'm glad."
"You and Shane look good together. You seem to just fit together like a puzzle."
'At times I feel myself smiling
At times I'm not
What's with the guilt that you styling baby
Talk don't look good on you
You see in a way
I have been looking for a reason to go there
And you're leading me nowhere'
"Well, we fit together, too," I sighed.
"I know, but things don't always work the way we think they should. Or the way anyone thinks they should. This happens to be one of those times," Jeff said pushing a curl of green hair out of my face.
'Are you waiting for a special occasion
To give me your heart
Cause I need a little confirmation
To make a real start
Don't wait till it's too late
Are you ready to show me?
Are you ready to love me?'
"I'm sorry for any heart break I may have caused you. Jeff you were always there for me. Through the darkest times and the lightest times. I could always count on you for everything. I love you so much."
"I love you too Casey. You'll always be my savior," he smiled. The song ended and he left me after kissing my cheek.
"It's good to see you and Jeff together again," Amy smiled as she and Matt walked up to me.
"Yeah, it's good to be seen together," I smiled.
"He really does love you Case," Matt said rubbing my shoulder.
"And I love him. But like I told someone before, they never said that once you've found your soul mate you'd marry them." I shrugged my shoulders and walked away.
That nite, Shane and I spent the nite at a very nice hotel and had a short honeymoon, working on the family thing. He promised me that we'd eventually have a real honeymoon when things with work slowed down. But it didn't really matter to me. It finally felt official. I had Shane and he had me. That's all we needed was each other.
