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Shaoran x Tomoyo, aren't they cute together? It's sappy, and fluffy, and if you've read the other chapters you know by now. ^_^
Thanks lots to Serenity Blossom and D a r k n e s s in H e a r t for reviewing!!
~~~~~Chapter 4: Acacian Holiday~~~~~
Tomoyo's POV
Okay, so maybe the whole 'I'm all better! Come in for tea!' thing was a little obvious. But I got to spend an extra half hour with the man of my dreams, didn't I? And, as much as I love him, I admit that he's never been the brightest crayon in the box. Hopefully I was subtle enough that he didn't catch on. It's not like we talked about much or anything. Normal, everyday conversation.
He asked me to treat him as a true friend! To confide in him, if I wanted to! And he offered to take me wherever I wanted to go! So sweet... he's so sweet! Just because I haven't been my usual self lately!
I wonder if that means he knows there's more wrong than I'm letting on?
That could be bad. I mean, it's not that I don't trust him, but I can't exactly talk to him about my troubles when he's the cause of them. Not that he's to blame. Not at all, it's entirely my fault. He can't help being so adorable, so kind, so handsome... and it's my fault for not being able to deal with it.
But if he asks, what am I going to say?! It's damn hard to lie while looking into warm, chocolate brown eyes.
I *am* going to tell someone... It would probably help, considering how freaking much this is affecting me. Maybe Meilin, I know that she's close to Shaoran and all, but I also know that I can tell her anything. And, considering her past relationship with him, it would give me someone to commiserate with.
Damn, what's wrong with me anyway?! Why do I sound the suffering heroine of a cheesy romance movie? This can't be me! Something's taken over my mind!
But, it usually works out in the end for them, doesn't it? Maybe it will for me too!
What am I *thinking*?! I know I'm stronger than this! And I know I'm not as asinine as to spend two whole hours getting dressed in the morning just to impress a boy!
...I'm not, right? There has to be another reason for it... one I can't think of at the moment... and it was really more like an hour and a half, if you round down...
Anyway. 10 am, bright and early (for a weekend at least) I had coffee with Sakura and Shaoran. Not too interesting, lots of small talk and plans for the day. The amusement park! Shaoran honestly wants to cheer me up! I feel so bad for making them, for making *him*, worry. There's nothing wrong with me. I'm just the idiot that fell for the one guy she can never get. No big, happens all the time.
It does! I know it does! So why does it hurt so much?!
Back to the present, Tomoyo. You'd better start acting normal; after all, they took you to the amusement park to cheer you up.
When did I start talking to myself?
"So, what ride do you want to go on first, guys?"
"Ah, how about, that one!"
"Roller coaster it is! This was a great idea, Shaoran-kun, Tomoyo-chan!"
So he didn't tell her why we decided to come here? He didn't tell her that it was because he wanted to make me feel better? That's a relief. I was afraid it had just been an act of pity. I guess not, though. Shaoran truly wanted to do something to make me happy. After all, he's not really getting anything from it if he doesn't tell anyone but me, is he? Sigh. Su-te-ki!
Gods, am I ever getting ditzy.
"That was a really long line... at least we're up next, right?"
"Yeah! This is going to be *so* much fun!"
"Sakura-chan, you're always so cheerful!"
"I know, Tomoyo-chan, but it's true! I love roller coasters!"
"Aa, let's just get on the ride already."
"Gee, Shaoran-kun! Seems that *somebody* isn't too fond of them!"
"Ah, really? I'm awfully sorry, Shaoran-kun, I didn't know..."
"I-iie! I don't mind them at all!"
"Okay then..."
Ah, I feel bad... I didn't know he hated roller coasters. I'll have to try to apologize again, later, if he really doesn't enjoy it. Meanwhile, though, I'll just enjoy the ride... especially since I'm sitting between him and Sakura! My two favorite people in the whole world! I'm so glad we came; this is definitely cheering me up!
"That was great!"
"Yeah, it was, Sakura-chan!"
"Aa, it was okay."
"You enjoyed it, Shaoran-kun?"
"Aa."
"I'm so relieved! I was afraid you would be upset with me for asking you to ride it with us..."
"No, of course not! I mean, don't worry about it. Anything I really don't want to do, I'll tell ya, ok?"
Perfect smile. Gods, he's got a great smile! Ah! I'm melting! I'm melting! Don't melt, Tomoyo!
"Promise?"
"Yeah, promise."
"So where are we going next, you two?!"
"What do you want to do, Sakura-chan?"
"Let's go play some games!"
It took an hour, but Shaoran won Sakura and I matching dolls. After he won the first, I told him that I didn't need one, that it was all right, but he insisted. He is *not* making this easy for me! I wonder if he knows how easy he is to fall in love with? I wonder if he knows what he's doing to me? I don't think so.
If he did, he'd look at the situation and realize what it's doing to me. He's too nice to consciously let me suffer. Unless... No, he and Sakura are still very much in love. After all, they've been together 15 years haven't they? They're going to get married someday, too, I'm sure of it. Sakura told me when we were just children that she wanted me to be the maid of honor in her wedding. If I had only known then how hard that would be for me, I wouldn't have agreed so quickly. I'm not one to cry at weddings, but I think I'll make an exception.
Okay! Optimism! Optimism! Gotta cheer up, that's the point of the trip, remember?
"We're going off to get drinks, okay, Tomoyo-chan? What would you like?"
"Just a bottle of water, please!"
"'Kay, be right back!"
"Hey, sweetheart."
Um, scary guy. Very scary guy. He's not talking to me, is he?
"You! With the braids!"
Uh, braids? Did I... crap, yep, I've got braids.
"What's wrong? I won't hurt you..."
"U-um, do you mean me? I- I don't know you, do I?"
"Yeah, you. What's a pretty girl like you doing here all by herself? And, no, you don't know me *yet*... so how about we go over there and get better acquainted?"
"I- um- well, you see, I don't really have much time right now, I'm waiting for my friends..."
"Friends? I don't see anyone! So why don't you just come with me, beautiful... I promise I won't hurt you. As long as you do what I want, that is."
Shaoran! Sakura! Someone! Wait, why can't I handle this myself? Why do I always need someone to save me? Gotta try to save myself!
"I'm sorry, I'm not interesting in making any new friends today..."
"I said that I wouldn't hurt you if you did what I wanted... this isn't what I want..."
"Aah- what- what are you..."
Lucky me, dragged away by some big scary guy with a knife on my special day with my friends... this is definitely not good...
"Teme! What the hell do you think you're doing!?"
"What's it to you, brat?! And why the fuck do you have a *sword* at an amusement park!?"
Shaoran...
"Just get away from her! Now! K'so..."
"You want a fight, kid?!"
"Tch, kid? You don't wanna underestimate me, bastard! I'm no kid, and I'm damn good with a sword..."
"Okay, okay! Your little bitch of a girlfriend isn't all that pretty anyway..."
Girlfriend?
"Tomoyo... daijoubu ka?"
Ooh, my knight in shining armor... my hero! Is this my cue to swoon?
"Yes, yes, I'm fine... thank you, Shaoran-kun. I'm sorry to cause so many problems...! I should have been able to defend myself better in a situation like that and all..."
"No, I'm sorry I left you alone... there are so many damn creeps around here... I'm sorry..."
Okay, I really feel bad making him save me like that... I must seem completely useless... he probably feels like he's babysitting, first having to cheer me up, then having to save me from the mean bad-guy...
"Really, I must seem like easy prey... just standing there, obviously with no clue how to defend myself..." I laugh, gotta lighten the mood somehow, right?
"Tch... He didn't pick you because you were an easy target... he picked you 'cause you're gorgeous... that damn bastard..."
He did *not* just say that. No way. Did he?
"A-ah, really? You mean that?"
He blushed and looked away. Hmm, I'll take that as a yes...
"Thanks..."
Okay, there's a huge difference between thinking someone's attractive and being madly in love with them. But, hey, it's a start, isn't it? Even if Shaoran doesn't love me, even if he loves Sakura, hearing him say I'm gorgeous is more than enough to make me lightheaded.
...I can't believe he said that!
~~~~~Okay, I know I'm making up adjectives, but the flower of the chapter's acacia, and it represents concealed love.
Review! Please?
Shaoran x Tomoyo, aren't they cute together? It's sappy, and fluffy, and if you've read the other chapters you know by now. ^_^
Thanks lots to Serenity Blossom and D a r k n e s s in H e a r t for reviewing!!
~~~~~Chapter 4: Acacian Holiday~~~~~
Tomoyo's POV
Okay, so maybe the whole 'I'm all better! Come in for tea!' thing was a little obvious. But I got to spend an extra half hour with the man of my dreams, didn't I? And, as much as I love him, I admit that he's never been the brightest crayon in the box. Hopefully I was subtle enough that he didn't catch on. It's not like we talked about much or anything. Normal, everyday conversation.
He asked me to treat him as a true friend! To confide in him, if I wanted to! And he offered to take me wherever I wanted to go! So sweet... he's so sweet! Just because I haven't been my usual self lately!
I wonder if that means he knows there's more wrong than I'm letting on?
That could be bad. I mean, it's not that I don't trust him, but I can't exactly talk to him about my troubles when he's the cause of them. Not that he's to blame. Not at all, it's entirely my fault. He can't help being so adorable, so kind, so handsome... and it's my fault for not being able to deal with it.
But if he asks, what am I going to say?! It's damn hard to lie while looking into warm, chocolate brown eyes.
I *am* going to tell someone... It would probably help, considering how freaking much this is affecting me. Maybe Meilin, I know that she's close to Shaoran and all, but I also know that I can tell her anything. And, considering her past relationship with him, it would give me someone to commiserate with.
Damn, what's wrong with me anyway?! Why do I sound the suffering heroine of a cheesy romance movie? This can't be me! Something's taken over my mind!
But, it usually works out in the end for them, doesn't it? Maybe it will for me too!
What am I *thinking*?! I know I'm stronger than this! And I know I'm not as asinine as to spend two whole hours getting dressed in the morning just to impress a boy!
...I'm not, right? There has to be another reason for it... one I can't think of at the moment... and it was really more like an hour and a half, if you round down...
Anyway. 10 am, bright and early (for a weekend at least) I had coffee with Sakura and Shaoran. Not too interesting, lots of small talk and plans for the day. The amusement park! Shaoran honestly wants to cheer me up! I feel so bad for making them, for making *him*, worry. There's nothing wrong with me. I'm just the idiot that fell for the one guy she can never get. No big, happens all the time.
It does! I know it does! So why does it hurt so much?!
Back to the present, Tomoyo. You'd better start acting normal; after all, they took you to the amusement park to cheer you up.
When did I start talking to myself?
"So, what ride do you want to go on first, guys?"
"Ah, how about, that one!"
"Roller coaster it is! This was a great idea, Shaoran-kun, Tomoyo-chan!"
So he didn't tell her why we decided to come here? He didn't tell her that it was because he wanted to make me feel better? That's a relief. I was afraid it had just been an act of pity. I guess not, though. Shaoran truly wanted to do something to make me happy. After all, he's not really getting anything from it if he doesn't tell anyone but me, is he? Sigh. Su-te-ki!
Gods, am I ever getting ditzy.
"That was a really long line... at least we're up next, right?"
"Yeah! This is going to be *so* much fun!"
"Sakura-chan, you're always so cheerful!"
"I know, Tomoyo-chan, but it's true! I love roller coasters!"
"Aa, let's just get on the ride already."
"Gee, Shaoran-kun! Seems that *somebody* isn't too fond of them!"
"Ah, really? I'm awfully sorry, Shaoran-kun, I didn't know..."
"I-iie! I don't mind them at all!"
"Okay then..."
Ah, I feel bad... I didn't know he hated roller coasters. I'll have to try to apologize again, later, if he really doesn't enjoy it. Meanwhile, though, I'll just enjoy the ride... especially since I'm sitting between him and Sakura! My two favorite people in the whole world! I'm so glad we came; this is definitely cheering me up!
"That was great!"
"Yeah, it was, Sakura-chan!"
"Aa, it was okay."
"You enjoyed it, Shaoran-kun?"
"Aa."
"I'm so relieved! I was afraid you would be upset with me for asking you to ride it with us..."
"No, of course not! I mean, don't worry about it. Anything I really don't want to do, I'll tell ya, ok?"
Perfect smile. Gods, he's got a great smile! Ah! I'm melting! I'm melting! Don't melt, Tomoyo!
"Promise?"
"Yeah, promise."
"So where are we going next, you two?!"
"What do you want to do, Sakura-chan?"
"Let's go play some games!"
It took an hour, but Shaoran won Sakura and I matching dolls. After he won the first, I told him that I didn't need one, that it was all right, but he insisted. He is *not* making this easy for me! I wonder if he knows how easy he is to fall in love with? I wonder if he knows what he's doing to me? I don't think so.
If he did, he'd look at the situation and realize what it's doing to me. He's too nice to consciously let me suffer. Unless... No, he and Sakura are still very much in love. After all, they've been together 15 years haven't they? They're going to get married someday, too, I'm sure of it. Sakura told me when we were just children that she wanted me to be the maid of honor in her wedding. If I had only known then how hard that would be for me, I wouldn't have agreed so quickly. I'm not one to cry at weddings, but I think I'll make an exception.
Okay! Optimism! Optimism! Gotta cheer up, that's the point of the trip, remember?
"We're going off to get drinks, okay, Tomoyo-chan? What would you like?"
"Just a bottle of water, please!"
"'Kay, be right back!"
"Hey, sweetheart."
Um, scary guy. Very scary guy. He's not talking to me, is he?
"You! With the braids!"
Uh, braids? Did I... crap, yep, I've got braids.
"What's wrong? I won't hurt you..."
"U-um, do you mean me? I- I don't know you, do I?"
"Yeah, you. What's a pretty girl like you doing here all by herself? And, no, you don't know me *yet*... so how about we go over there and get better acquainted?"
"I- um- well, you see, I don't really have much time right now, I'm waiting for my friends..."
"Friends? I don't see anyone! So why don't you just come with me, beautiful... I promise I won't hurt you. As long as you do what I want, that is."
Shaoran! Sakura! Someone! Wait, why can't I handle this myself? Why do I always need someone to save me? Gotta try to save myself!
"I'm sorry, I'm not interesting in making any new friends today..."
"I said that I wouldn't hurt you if you did what I wanted... this isn't what I want..."
"Aah- what- what are you..."
Lucky me, dragged away by some big scary guy with a knife on my special day with my friends... this is definitely not good...
"Teme! What the hell do you think you're doing!?"
"What's it to you, brat?! And why the fuck do you have a *sword* at an amusement park!?"
Shaoran...
"Just get away from her! Now! K'so..."
"You want a fight, kid?!"
"Tch, kid? You don't wanna underestimate me, bastard! I'm no kid, and I'm damn good with a sword..."
"Okay, okay! Your little bitch of a girlfriend isn't all that pretty anyway..."
Girlfriend?
"Tomoyo... daijoubu ka?"
Ooh, my knight in shining armor... my hero! Is this my cue to swoon?
"Yes, yes, I'm fine... thank you, Shaoran-kun. I'm sorry to cause so many problems...! I should have been able to defend myself better in a situation like that and all..."
"No, I'm sorry I left you alone... there are so many damn creeps around here... I'm sorry..."
Okay, I really feel bad making him save me like that... I must seem completely useless... he probably feels like he's babysitting, first having to cheer me up, then having to save me from the mean bad-guy...
"Really, I must seem like easy prey... just standing there, obviously with no clue how to defend myself..." I laugh, gotta lighten the mood somehow, right?
"Tch... He didn't pick you because you were an easy target... he picked you 'cause you're gorgeous... that damn bastard..."
He did *not* just say that. No way. Did he?
"A-ah, really? You mean that?"
He blushed and looked away. Hmm, I'll take that as a yes...
"Thanks..."
Okay, there's a huge difference between thinking someone's attractive and being madly in love with them. But, hey, it's a start, isn't it? Even if Shaoran doesn't love me, even if he loves Sakura, hearing him say I'm gorgeous is more than enough to make me lightheaded.
...I can't believe he said that!
~~~~~Okay, I know I'm making up adjectives, but the flower of the chapter's acacia, and it represents concealed love.
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