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Shaoran x Tomoyo sap, etc.

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~~~~~Chapter 6: Moonflower~~~~~

Tomoyo's POV

My best friend's boyfriend, who I just so happen to be desperately in love with, thinks I'm gorgeous. No problem! I can deal with this just fine!

Okay... maybe I can't. This is what soap operas are made of! Is someone *trying* to make this harder for me?! What am I supposed to do now?!

I know he doesn't love me; he loves Sakura. I know that that's how things should stay. But it seems my body doesn't want to cooperate with my mind on this one. My mind turns to mush around him, I blush much too often. I keep having urges to kiss Shaoran when I see him talking, to tell him I love him. It's a damn good thing I'm not an impetuous person; but I don't know, lately I haven't been controlling my emotions as well as I'd like. And he is *definitely* not helping; does he always have to be so, so... perfect? Does he have to look so good every time I see him? Does he have to be so freaking wonderful?

I'm spacing out again. Definitely time to talk to someone. 'Talking about it helps' and all that, right? Maybe it'll all go away...

Where is Meilin's number anyway? Better call now, before I drown in my head.

ring, ring, ring

"Hello?"

"Hello, Meilin-chan?"

"Daidouji?!"

"Are you that surprised to hear from me? I *do* call you at least once a month, you know..."

"N-no, it's just... something reminded me of you the other day so I was just thinking about you! So! What's up? How have you been?"

"I'm fine, well, basically anyway. How about you?"

"I've been well, I miss you guys over in Japan a whole lot though!"

"You should come visit us sometime!"

"Yeah, I will, I will. As soon as I can take a vacation from work... probably in a couple of weeks."

"Oh, I can't wait! It'll be wonderful, I haven't seen you in so long!"

"Yeah, I know! Hey, Daidouji..."

"Yes?"

"You don't sound like your usual self... your cheerfulness sounds a little forced, ya know?"

"Oh, my, is it that obvious...?"

"Well, I know ya pretty well, you know! And, after all, I *am* Meilin! Nothing gets by me! Oh-ho-ho!"

"I should have known that! And, actually, now that you mention it... I did call to talk to you about something."

"And that something is?"

"Um... this is going to sound really strange..."

"Don't worry, you won't be the first to surprise me this week..."

"Hm? Oh, well, anyway... um, you see... I think... I think that maybe..."

"Come on, Daidouji! Spit it out already!"

"I'm in love with Shaoran..."

"!!!"

"I know! It's terrible! I mean, he's in love with Sakura, and she's in love with him, and they're the picture-perfect couple, and I'm just the third-wheel best friend bound to cause problems! I, I tried to get over him, I really did! I keep trying to convince myself that it's futile, because he loves her, and that it's only going to hurt me, and maybe them, in the end, but I can't help it! He's so handsome, and he's so kind... and, every single time I make an effort to get over him, he inadvertently does something that makes me love him even more!"

"Don't worry, it's not as bad as you think... but, go on, what kind of things do you mean?"

"Well, the other day, we were at Sakura-chan's house eating dinner, and I was somewhat out of sorts, and so I left early. But most of the reason I was out of sorts was because I was finding it hard not to stare at him, and not to blush when he talked to me, and not to do other things that would make my feelings for him blatantly obvious... and then he offered to walk me home! And, as if I wasn't happy enough about him walking me home, he told me that I could depend on him, and that I could call him Shaoran! And he said that, because he wanted to cheer me up, he would take me anywhere I wanted to go the next day when the three of us got together! So I asked to go to the amusement park, and we did... and he rode the roller coaster with us even though Sakura-chan said that he didn't like them too much, and he insisted on winning us both dolls, and he even saved me from a creepy guy that had been bothering me! And what's worse, although he didn't mean it as a compliment or anything, he said I was gorgeous!"

"He did!? He said you were gorgeous to your face? Wow! Compliments like that from Shaoran are realllly rare!"

"No, no! He didn't mean it like that; he just said that the man that was bothering me must have chosen me because I'm 'gorgeous'. I know he didn't mean it as anything, but I could have fainted I was so happy! And, oh, dear, I'm so sorry Meilin-chan, I'm just going on and on about this, please don't hate me for it! You were the only person I could call, you're the only friend I have that I trust as much as I trust them, and I obviously couldn't tell them, and I know you won't tell anyone! I can't help it, I guess I'm just an awful person anyway for falling for my best friend's boyfriend; I'm just destined to be a home-wrecker or something! I know they'd both hate me if they knew! What's wrong with me, anyway?!"

"Daidouji- no, Tomoyo-chan. First of all, there's nothing wrong with you. You don't choose who you fall in love with, after all. And, personally, I think you have wonderful taste for falling in love with Shaoran! Besides, he obviously cares about you, and I know Kinomoto does, so why would they hate you? They wouldn't throw away over 15 years of friendship for something like that, especially when the so called 'home-wrecker' is as paranoid as you are about keeping them together and yourself from destroying their relationship!"

"Meilin-chan..."

"I'm not finished yet! Tomoyo, do you even know if they're in love with each other?"

"Well, Shaoran-kun did confess to Sakura all those years ago, and they've been together ever since..."

"But do you know for a fact that they're in love with each other? A lot can happen in 15 years, especially when you're only children in the beginning..."

"Well, I mean, I'm not positive, but I have reason enough to believe..."

"Tomoyo, ask them, watch them, I don't care how you find out! Just *do* it! Before you give up on Shaoran, I want you to know whether or not he's actually taken, whether or not he and Sakura are actually in love. Because, if you don't make sure... if you don't take a chance... you'll never forgive yourself. I mean, if you don't do anything, ten years from now you could be saying, 'I should have gone for it, should have confessed to Shaoran, and then we would be living in a happy little plastic-perfect fairy-tale world'."

"Um... plastic-perfect... what?"

"Look, this overly romantic stuff isn't exactly my forte, especially considering my luck with guys... but you get the point, don't you!?"

"Yeah, thanks, Meilin-chan."

"Anytime, Tomoyo-chan. You can count on me! Promise! I just wonder why everyone wants my advice all of a sudden..."

"Excuse me? I didn't catch that last thing you said..."

"I didn't say anything! You must be hearing things, Tomoyo-chan!"

"Okay then, it was nice talking to you... I hope to see you soon, goodbye!"

"Yeah, we'll definitely have to get together sometime soon! Bye!"

~~~~~moonflower means 'I only dream of love'.