~I don't own Cardcaptor Sakura~

Shaoran x Tomoyo sap.

I decided to put this up at the same time as chapter 7, 'cause 7 was way too short. ^^

~~~~~Chapter 8: Angelical Assistance~~~~~

Shaoran's POV

Okay, I'm gonna tell her.

Don't know how, don't know when, don't actually even know what the hell I'm thinking, deciding this- I mean, there's no chance she actually likes me- but Meilin's right. Gotta go for it or I'm gonna regret it. Even if I could bring myself to get over Tomoyo- which will probably happen sometime around, let's see, *never*- I would still have to end this 'engagement' to Sakura. I love Sakura to death and all, but I definitely don't want to *marry* the girl. That would be just wrong. Like incest or something. Ew.

So, yeah, now that I've decided I'm going to tell Tomoyo how I feel, I've got to spend some time building up an immunity to rejection. Great, that'll be fun. How the hell is one supposed to prepare for that anyway?

Maybe I should ask Sakura what she thinks about the whole situation. Maybe Meilin's wrong. Maybe it's better *not* to tell her.

Who am I kidding? I'm just afraid. And that's not something I'm used to admitting, even to myself.

I'll still ask Sakura, she'll know what to do. And I hope she'll have some suggestions about how to tell her. They've been best friends forever, after all. Okay, maybe I should call now, before I lose my nerve again.

Damnit, Shaoran, get a grip on yourself! You aren't this weak. You don't let stuff get to you. Especially not romantic garbage like this. If Tomoyo doesn't like you, fine. There are lots of other girls out there.

Ha, sure. Almost believed myself that time.

Ah, what the hell, scared stiff or not, I'll tell Tomoyo anyway. It's worth a shot, isn't it?

So, about calling Sakura.

ring, ring, ring

ring, ring, ring

ring, ring, ring

"Hi! You've reached Sakura! Sorry, I'm out... leave a message!"

beep

click

Damn, she's not there! Gods, it's probably just as well. What was I thinking, telling Sakura would change things... permanently. There's no way in hell that she would try to discourage me from getting together with Tomoyo, and, if I decided not to say anything, she'd never leave me alone about it.

There are two things standing between myself and Tomoyo- my fear, and Tomoyo.

It's up to her, my love life is in her hands, whether she knows it or not. And I know she's going to think I'm a total creep if I ask her out. After all, I'm Sakura's 'boyfriend', aren't I?

Damnit, where's Sakura!? I need to talk to her!

ring, ring

My cell phone?

"Hey, Shaoran!"

"Oh... Meilin."

"Don't sound so happy to hear from me!"

"Well, I was hoping Sakura would call."

"Ah, talk to her yet? And, you're going to tell Tomoyo, right?! Right?!"

"Aa. I am. I think."

"You think!? No thinking involved! You tell her! End of story!"

"Yes, Meilin."

"Seriously! What is *wrong* with you!?"

"Well, I was pretty damn determined before, but all of a sudden I lost my confidence."

"And what the hell made that happen?!"

"Uh, I was thinking, and, she's gonna hate me when I tell her I love her... she still thinks I love Sakura."

"...You and Sakura haven't told *anyone* about the change in your relationship, have you."

"No use causing problems... we kinda figured we'd end up together anyway..."

"That's it, I'm calling Kinomoto... I've got three-way calling, don't hang up."

"Ah, sure, whatever, Meilin."

ring, ring, ring

ring, ring, ring

ring, ring, ring

"Hi! You've reached..."

"Where the hell *is* that girl!?"

"Dunno, around, I guess."

"Doesn't she have a cell phone?"

"Oh, yeah, forgot about that."

"Shaoran, you idiot!"

"Thanks, Meilin. You always know how to make me feel better."

"Yeah, yeah, I know. So I'm gonna go now, okay? Call Kinomoto. And then call me back."

"Aa. Talk to you soon."

"Yeah, soon."

ring, ring, ring

ring, ring

"Hello?"

"Sakura!"

"Shaoran? What's up?"

"Sorry, I know you're out, but do you have some time?"

"Sure! I'm just shopping, anyway. Actually, I'm kinda near your house, want me to stop by?"

"If you don't mind, that'd be great."

"Kay, see you soon."

Great, she's coming over. It'll be easier to talk to her in person, won't it? I hate talking on the phone, after all. Wait, no, won't that make it harder?! I'm gonna have a hard time controlling that damn blush thing of mine. Well, whatever. Sakura's used to me by now.

ding dong

"Hey, Sakura!"

"Shaoran! So, what's the matter?"

"Nothing's the matter, really... it's more of a question than a problem. But I do have something to tell you, too."

"Okay! Shoot!"

"Um, I... I'vefallenforTomoyoandIdon'tknowwhattodoaboutitcauseIdon'tthinkshelikesmeandshedefinitelythinkswe'restilltogetherandI'mafraidtotellher!WhatshouldIdo?MeilinsaidIshouldtellherorI'mgonnaregretitandIknowIwillbutIstilldon'twanna!" blush

"Erm...excuse me?"

"Do I really hafta say it again?"

"Well, I caught something about Tomoyo and Meilin and being afraid of something."

"Okay. I think that I'm in love with Tomoyo. I called Meilin and she told me to confess."

"Ohmigod, you're in love with Tomoyo?! That is *too* cute! Ohmigod, ohmigod, ohmigod! You should have told me before! I would have tried to set you up! Wow! ...So when are you going to tell her?!"

"I don't want to... because... I'm afraid."

"Shaoran...I can't believe I just heard you admit you're afraid of something."

"I know! My brain's turned to mush or something! This is starting to drive me crazy! I don't even know what the hell's going on anymore! I am *not* acting like myself lately!"

"That's because you're in lo~ove." Wink. Oh, God, maybe this wasn't a good idea, after all.

"Don't make fun of me. I'm serious."

"Yeah, I know, I can tell."

"So what should I do?"

"You okay with the whole family part of it? Because I know that's the only thing you seem to think about, lately."

"Yeah, Meilin and I talked about that. I think I'm okay with it. She said I would regret it if I spent my life thinking only about the family and ignoring my own needs, and she's right."

"Couldn't have said it better myself. Although, I must admit, I'm a little upset you told Meilin before you told me..."

"About that... I'm sorry, Sakura. It's not that I don't trust you, you know I do, I can tell you anything. It's just that I was afraid you would tell me to confess without thinking about the consequences of it, seeing you're such a hopeless romantic and all."

"Got that right, and I'm definitely all for you confessing, but I know you better than you think. I wouldn't tell you to do something without thinking it would best for you."

"Sakura... thanks. I really am sorry I didn't tell you first."

"Hey, no harm done. So, when and how are you gonna tell Tomoyo?"

"That... is what I was hoping you could help me with."

"No problem! This is gonna be fun."

~~~~~angelica represents inspiration and magic.