She was surprised and hopeful. But, she knew even if she gave him every detail of their relationship there was no guarantee he would ever remember and it would just be like hearing a story about someone else life. "Ok." She began. "A few years ago I walked into Jakes. Do you remember Jakes?" She asked. He nodded. "Well I was looking for trouble and boy did I find it...."
He listened closely as she spoke hoping something would trigger a memory. He could remember the people who she spoke about, his sister, Emily, Lucky, the kid who had stayed above his garage, for some reason Lucky's name made him tense. She spoke for a hour going through their meeting at Jakes and how he had saved her. He watched her closely memorizing the way she spoke, the smile that came to her face and the faraway look in her eyes as she seemed lost in the memories. She seemed so familiar, but at the same time was a complete stranger. She finally paused coming out of her daze and looked at him. Searching his eyes for any sort of recognition. She smiled sadly when she found none.
"It's ok." she said. Knowing he still had no clue who she was other than what she had told him.
He knew she was hurt and hated that he was the cause. Why did he care so much for this stranger he wondered. She stood to leave and bent down to hug him before she realized what she was doing and pulled away he grabbed her and hugged her.
"Will you come back tomorrow?" He asked as she reached the door.
She smiled. "Sure." She said giving him one more smile before she left. Once outside she turned to look at him through the window. His eyes were closed and he appeared to be sleeping. "No bailing." She whispered before she walked down the hall.
Penthouse:
She walked into the penthouse and was bombarded with questions from Carly, Sonny and even Michael."How was he? Did he remember anything? Did he ask about me?" She sunk into the couch exhausted. Carly came and sat next to her handing her Adela. She smiled down at her baby. Thank god for Sonny and Carly she thought. They had been great. They took care of Adela while she was in the hospital and insisted that they stay with them until She found a place. Liz had argued at first not wanting to be a burden but, with everything going on she needed the help. Rick wouldn't except that it was over and Staying in the penthouse and having Francis guard her helped keep him away. Carly was great with Adela, Liz was so scared she would do something wrong and hurt her but, Carly was there for her to answer her questions and reassure her. She finally answered there questions.
"He seemed better today, He still doesn't remember though." she added sadly.
"Mommy said I can go see him tomorrow." Michael told her excitedly.
"I'm sure he'll love that." She told him.
After Sonny and Michael left Carly turned to her. "Do you want to talk about it" She asked.
"He wanted me to tell him about us." She started. "He asked how we met, I told him but it was so hard to look at him afterwards and know it was just a story to him." The tears she fought the entire way home stung her eyes.
"But, he wants to know that's good. I mean he didn't want to know anything about Courtney." Carly confided.
"I guess but, I mean I need to face the fact that he may never remember." She admitted sadly.
"But your not giving up on him are you?" Carly asked.
"I can't" She answered. "I don't know how."
The next Day:
She waited outside while Carly, Sonny, Michael and, Morgan all visited with Jason. She looked up as they exited. Carly gave her a reassuring smile "He's waiting for you."
"Do you want us to wait for you?" Sonny asked.
"No, I might be a while." She answered.
"Ok, well we'll see you at home then." Carly added.
Walked into the room to see Jason sitting with his eyes closed. Not sure if he was awake she sat down and waited.
"Snow!" He yelled causing her to jump.
"What?" She asked.
"You smell like snow." He said.
"Snow doesn't.... What?" Did he remember saying that to her.
"What's wrong?" He asked concerned.
"Nothing, you just used to say that to me." She was afraid to get her hopes up. "Did you remember?"
"No, I just, I think you smell like snow." He said.
"Snow doesn't smell." She said with a sad smile. She was disappointed he didn't remember but, it also gave her hope. Even if he never remembered their past he was still the same Jason she knew the crazy man who thought snow smelled.
"Yes it does." He argued.
"Fine I give up. You win I smell like snow." She said, giving him a real smile for the first time since he woke up.
"So, Besides Jakes where else did we go together." He asked.
She smiled. "Nowhere."
"Nowhere?" He questioned. Waiting for her to continue.
"You took me on the road to nowhere and showed me the wind." She said lost in the memories.
"You say snow doesn't smell but claim to be able to see the wind." He asked bring her out of her daze.
"Yes." She answered. "I can show you, I painted you the wind."
"You paint?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'll bring it tomorrow." She answered.
"Ok, will you tell me about this road to nowhere?"
"Well." She began. "You can only find it on a motorcycle speeding so fast you can't even hear your own thoughts. It was our escape from everything. One night......."
