~I don't own Cardcaptor Sakura~
Shaoran x Tomoyo
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Lots of thanks to all my reviewers (oh my gosh i have so many reviews now... ^_^ im soooooo happy! you guys are the best)
Simplicity~ haha wow you reviewed like 2 hours after i put up the chapter... i'm impressed! thanks~! i promised in the first chapter that i wouldnt kill Tomoyo off (at least i think i did...) so dont worry~ and that whole eriol thing is a really good idea. wasnt my plan... but it sounds really cool ^_^ i mean theres a little bit of similarity between your idea and mine... but *shh!* thats a secret for now ^_^
Ellie~ haha i know the chapter was confusing... like it says in my profile, if i had to summarize myself in a sentence it would be 'subject to violent mood swings'. see what happens when im not excessively cheerful?! lol seriously, though, its part of the plot (sort of.) it should all make sense with this chapter ^_^
Dark_Syaoran~ glad you think confusion is good ^_^ i was hoping you guys would be confused. suspense is great!
Kichi-chan~ yay, a new reviewer!!!! ^_^ thanks so much for reading... glad you were touched by it so far. hopefully it will make sense soon...
Serenity Blossom~ you love surprises in stories? thats so cool! i do too... hence why i was (at least attempting to) put one in this story. glad you liked the chapter~!
Lil-ChiBi-person~ and another new reviewer ^_^ yay!!!!! thanks for reading, so happy you like it so far! and thank you soooo much for putting me on your favorites ^_^ thats so nice of you~!!! (excited)
AnimeGal~ glad you liked it, and im really happy to hear you say you thought i did it well! ^_^ thanks so much! dont worry im not *that* mean, id never end it like that... i couldnt do that to you guys... besides, im a sucker for happy endings~! (and, honestly, theres probably a long way to go before it ends...)
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~~~~~Chapter 23: Rosemary~~~~~
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~~I will keep my promise.
I will always watch over you, Shaoran...~~
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*gasp* "Ah... I..."
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Where am I?
It's soft... dark. I'm... awake? Alive?
A dream.
Where... where am I?
Forget that. More importantly...
Where's Shaoran?
This isn't my room...
Is this another dream?
Please, stop already!
That one was bad enough... I can't take another.
Shaoran...
.
If I'm here... even if it's a dream, may as well look around...
Can't be worse than the last one, can it?
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I'm on... a bed? Wait...
I know where I am.
I know this room...
Shaoran's bedroom.
Shaoran's *bedroom*?!
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"::S-shaoran?::"
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No answer.
.
"Shaoran?"
.
Still no answer... guess he isn't here?
Wait... why don't I just turn on the light?
.
No, he's not here.
My clothes...
I was wearing this yesterday.
I *am* awake.
...But why am I in Shaoran's room? And where is he?
What time is it, anyway? Past 6?
How long have I been here?
Why did I fall asleep?
Maybe I ought to go home...
Although I think I ought to wait a minute. My head still feels foggy... I don't think I can stand, yet.
That dream... How could I... why did...
What does it mean?
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A knock.
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"Tomoyo?"
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Shaoran...
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"Y-yes?"
"You're awake? May I come in?"
"Oh! Of course..."
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He looks... worried. Like he hasn't gotten much sleep.
Sleep... where was he sleeping? In here? With me?
Oh, my... I...
Wait, no... the other side of the bed is still made.
But... what?
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"Tomoyo... are you okay? I heard you through the door, you seemed to be having a nightmare... and then... I thought you called my name..."
"Shaoran... Oh, Shaoran!"
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I can't help it, I'm crying into his chest as he wraps his arms around me, wet tears running down my face, drenching his shirt.
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"Shaoran... I... I..."
"What is it? A dream? ...A nightmare upset you this much?"
"Y-yes... I... Shaoran... do you love me?"
"Of course I do, Tomoyo-chan... you know that."
"I mean, love me enough that you wouldn't ever leave me and never speak to me again, not for anything?"
"I wouldn't... couldn't ever do such a thing to you, Tomoyo..."
"A-All right... thank you... I love you... I love you so much, Shaoran."
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It may not exactly be the right time for it, but I need him. I don't mean to... but I almost attack him, kissing him hard... he seemed surprised, at first, but now he's beginning to soften it, to comfort me even in our kiss... Oh, Shaoran, if you only knew how much you meant to me... would you still be kissing me like this? Would you still be this gentle, slowly exploring my mouth with your tongue? Would you still lead me on like this?
Please. I love you. I need you.
Take me. Take anything you want from me. ...Take my life, it's yours.
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"I love you too, it's all right. You know, if you want to talk about anything, you can always tell me. All right?"
"Yes... thank you... Oh, I love you, Shaoran..."
.
I can't exactly tell him about the dream... for so many reasons. First of all, he'll realize how dependent I've become on him. Not that it isn't true... But, still, it's not really something he needs to know, considering the fact that it would influence his decisions. We were friends before this relationship... and, should it end, I'd like to think we'd remain friends after it. Second, he would think I wanted him to choose between me and his family... and pick me. Shaoran's family's really important to him... and I'm just his girlfriend. I don't even really know if he loves me the way I love him, if he needs me the way I need him. But, worst of all, he might think I would get suicidal if he *didn't* want to stay with me, or if he chose his family over me... I can't put pressure on him like that. That wouldn't be fair, or right. If he wants to leave me behind, well... that's his choice to make, and I really shouldn't try to influence it with suicide threats. I don't want that. I want him to be happy.
The fact that I *would* die without him is utterly and entirely besides the point.
.
But it's all right now. Shaoran's here. Shaoran loves me, he just told me so. I can't doubt him. I won't.
Even if I was dreaming the first time, I refuse to make the same mistake twice.
Shaoran loves me.
No matter what happens, I can handle the future.
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"Are... are you all right now, Tomoyo?"
"Yeah... sorry to worry you, and to wake you up, Shaoran..."
"No problem! I wasn't really sleeping, anyway."
"Yeah, I noticed. *giggle* Half of the bed's still made!"
"The... the bed?" Shaoran's eyes got wide. Um... yeah, where else would he sleep? There's only one bedroom in his house, and it's not like we're not both *fully dressed* in *street clothes*...
"Um... is there something I'm missing here?"
"N-no... I just, I mean... I thought... you..." He's stuttering! Did I say something wrong?
"Coherent sentences, Shaoran. *giggle* You can do it!"
"I, well, I thought you'd freak if you woke up and found me in the same bed as you... I was sleeping on the couch."
"The *couch*?"
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Oh, my... Shaoran, could he possibly be any sweeter? Sleeping on a couch in his own house so as not to upset me? ...When he's got a bed easily big enough for two people? He was that worried about what my reaction would be! I can't believe it... He would rather suffer than merely explain in the morning? Sure, I would have been a little worried... but it's not like I wouldn't believe him...
Oh, Shaoran...
Is it any wonder I love him?
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"Oh, Shaoran. Honestly, you didn't have to do that... what time did you get to sleep, anyway? And, why am I here?"
"Well, uh, you fell asleep when we were watching that movie... and it's what, 6:30? I guess that means I got like 3 hours of sleep..."
"*Three*!? That's it... come over here."
"Um?"
"We're going back to sleep."
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Pulling him down next to me, I try to make myself comfortable, cuddling into his side... you know, I always wanted to sleep with Shaoran. Like this, I mean. Entirely innocent, but incredibly romantic.
He makes me feel safe.
He seems a little hesitant as he puts his arms around me, but, whatever. Is he afraid of me or something? Or is he just worried he'll break me?
Shaoran, there's such a thing as caring too much.
I love you. I need you.
.
You chase away the nightmares.
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~~~~~rosemary says 'your presence revives me' (I know Ophelia says its for remembrance ^_^ but, like i said in the beginning, theyve got lots of meanings...)
oh, and by the way, i have no idea as to the meanings of dreams, so the fact that she died isnt supposed to be symbolic or anything ^_^
Shaoran x Tomoyo
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Lots of thanks to all my reviewers (oh my gosh i have so many reviews now... ^_^ im soooooo happy! you guys are the best)
Simplicity~ haha wow you reviewed like 2 hours after i put up the chapter... i'm impressed! thanks~! i promised in the first chapter that i wouldnt kill Tomoyo off (at least i think i did...) so dont worry~ and that whole eriol thing is a really good idea. wasnt my plan... but it sounds really cool ^_^ i mean theres a little bit of similarity between your idea and mine... but *shh!* thats a secret for now ^_^
Ellie~ haha i know the chapter was confusing... like it says in my profile, if i had to summarize myself in a sentence it would be 'subject to violent mood swings'. see what happens when im not excessively cheerful?! lol seriously, though, its part of the plot (sort of.) it should all make sense with this chapter ^_^
Dark_Syaoran~ glad you think confusion is good ^_^ i was hoping you guys would be confused. suspense is great!
Kichi-chan~ yay, a new reviewer!!!! ^_^ thanks so much for reading... glad you were touched by it so far. hopefully it will make sense soon...
Serenity Blossom~ you love surprises in stories? thats so cool! i do too... hence why i was (at least attempting to) put one in this story. glad you liked the chapter~!
Lil-ChiBi-person~ and another new reviewer ^_^ yay!!!!! thanks for reading, so happy you like it so far! and thank you soooo much for putting me on your favorites ^_^ thats so nice of you~!!! (excited)
AnimeGal~ glad you liked it, and im really happy to hear you say you thought i did it well! ^_^ thanks so much! dont worry im not *that* mean, id never end it like that... i couldnt do that to you guys... besides, im a sucker for happy endings~! (and, honestly, theres probably a long way to go before it ends...)
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~~~~~Chapter 23: Rosemary~~~~~
.
~~I will keep my promise.
I will always watch over you, Shaoran...~~
.
*gasp* "Ah... I..."
.
Where am I?
It's soft... dark. I'm... awake? Alive?
A dream.
Where... where am I?
Forget that. More importantly...
Where's Shaoran?
This isn't my room...
Is this another dream?
Please, stop already!
That one was bad enough... I can't take another.
Shaoran...
.
If I'm here... even if it's a dream, may as well look around...
Can't be worse than the last one, can it?
.
I'm on... a bed? Wait...
I know where I am.
I know this room...
Shaoran's bedroom.
Shaoran's *bedroom*?!
.
"::S-shaoran?::"
.
No answer.
.
"Shaoran?"
.
Still no answer... guess he isn't here?
Wait... why don't I just turn on the light?
.
No, he's not here.
My clothes...
I was wearing this yesterday.
I *am* awake.
...But why am I in Shaoran's room? And where is he?
What time is it, anyway? Past 6?
How long have I been here?
Why did I fall asleep?
Maybe I ought to go home...
Although I think I ought to wait a minute. My head still feels foggy... I don't think I can stand, yet.
That dream... How could I... why did...
What does it mean?
.
A knock.
.
"Tomoyo?"
.
Shaoran...
.
"Y-yes?"
"You're awake? May I come in?"
"Oh! Of course..."
.
He looks... worried. Like he hasn't gotten much sleep.
Sleep... where was he sleeping? In here? With me?
Oh, my... I...
Wait, no... the other side of the bed is still made.
But... what?
.
"Tomoyo... are you okay? I heard you through the door, you seemed to be having a nightmare... and then... I thought you called my name..."
"Shaoran... Oh, Shaoran!"
.
I can't help it, I'm crying into his chest as he wraps his arms around me, wet tears running down my face, drenching his shirt.
.
"Shaoran... I... I..."
"What is it? A dream? ...A nightmare upset you this much?"
"Y-yes... I... Shaoran... do you love me?"
"Of course I do, Tomoyo-chan... you know that."
"I mean, love me enough that you wouldn't ever leave me and never speak to me again, not for anything?"
"I wouldn't... couldn't ever do such a thing to you, Tomoyo..."
"A-All right... thank you... I love you... I love you so much, Shaoran."
.
It may not exactly be the right time for it, but I need him. I don't mean to... but I almost attack him, kissing him hard... he seemed surprised, at first, but now he's beginning to soften it, to comfort me even in our kiss... Oh, Shaoran, if you only knew how much you meant to me... would you still be kissing me like this? Would you still be this gentle, slowly exploring my mouth with your tongue? Would you still lead me on like this?
Please. I love you. I need you.
Take me. Take anything you want from me. ...Take my life, it's yours.
.
"I love you too, it's all right. You know, if you want to talk about anything, you can always tell me. All right?"
"Yes... thank you... Oh, I love you, Shaoran..."
.
I can't exactly tell him about the dream... for so many reasons. First of all, he'll realize how dependent I've become on him. Not that it isn't true... But, still, it's not really something he needs to know, considering the fact that it would influence his decisions. We were friends before this relationship... and, should it end, I'd like to think we'd remain friends after it. Second, he would think I wanted him to choose between me and his family... and pick me. Shaoran's family's really important to him... and I'm just his girlfriend. I don't even really know if he loves me the way I love him, if he needs me the way I need him. But, worst of all, he might think I would get suicidal if he *didn't* want to stay with me, or if he chose his family over me... I can't put pressure on him like that. That wouldn't be fair, or right. If he wants to leave me behind, well... that's his choice to make, and I really shouldn't try to influence it with suicide threats. I don't want that. I want him to be happy.
The fact that I *would* die without him is utterly and entirely besides the point.
.
But it's all right now. Shaoran's here. Shaoran loves me, he just told me so. I can't doubt him. I won't.
Even if I was dreaming the first time, I refuse to make the same mistake twice.
Shaoran loves me.
No matter what happens, I can handle the future.
.
"Are... are you all right now, Tomoyo?"
"Yeah... sorry to worry you, and to wake you up, Shaoran..."
"No problem! I wasn't really sleeping, anyway."
"Yeah, I noticed. *giggle* Half of the bed's still made!"
"The... the bed?" Shaoran's eyes got wide. Um... yeah, where else would he sleep? There's only one bedroom in his house, and it's not like we're not both *fully dressed* in *street clothes*...
"Um... is there something I'm missing here?"
"N-no... I just, I mean... I thought... you..." He's stuttering! Did I say something wrong?
"Coherent sentences, Shaoran. *giggle* You can do it!"
"I, well, I thought you'd freak if you woke up and found me in the same bed as you... I was sleeping on the couch."
"The *couch*?"
.
Oh, my... Shaoran, could he possibly be any sweeter? Sleeping on a couch in his own house so as not to upset me? ...When he's got a bed easily big enough for two people? He was that worried about what my reaction would be! I can't believe it... He would rather suffer than merely explain in the morning? Sure, I would have been a little worried... but it's not like I wouldn't believe him...
Oh, Shaoran...
Is it any wonder I love him?
.
"Oh, Shaoran. Honestly, you didn't have to do that... what time did you get to sleep, anyway? And, why am I here?"
"Well, uh, you fell asleep when we were watching that movie... and it's what, 6:30? I guess that means I got like 3 hours of sleep..."
"*Three*!? That's it... come over here."
"Um?"
"We're going back to sleep."
.
Pulling him down next to me, I try to make myself comfortable, cuddling into his side... you know, I always wanted to sleep with Shaoran. Like this, I mean. Entirely innocent, but incredibly romantic.
He makes me feel safe.
He seems a little hesitant as he puts his arms around me, but, whatever. Is he afraid of me or something? Or is he just worried he'll break me?
Shaoran, there's such a thing as caring too much.
I love you. I need you.
.
You chase away the nightmares.
.
~~~~~rosemary says 'your presence revives me' (I know Ophelia says its for remembrance ^_^ but, like i said in the beginning, theyve got lots of meanings...)
oh, and by the way, i have no idea as to the meanings of dreams, so the fact that she died isnt supposed to be symbolic or anything ^_^
