Hey everyone, I know it's been forever since I've updated. I'm really sorry. I've just been in a long-term brain cramp. I've been really busy with school; I've got tons of grades to bring up! This chapter was written on the fly, just some random stuff. I hope you like it, and please review to let me know!

Chapter 8 – Unsure

Lizzie drove around the twists and turns of the road going far over the speed limit. Remembering where she was going, she slowed down. Her tears made her vision blurry before they rolled down her cheeks and dripped into her lap. She tightly gripped the steering wheel and kept her foot firmly on the gas pedal. She saw her destination come into view and slowed down as she put on her turn signal.

She slowly drove around the area she knew so well. She looked out her window at all of the head stones of those lost. As she made her way to the one she was looking for, she thought about how their families felt. Were they as distraught as she? Were they left with an extra load of responsibility that they may not be able to handle? As she saw the all too familiar headstone come into view, she stopped the car and sat in it for a few minutes.

She slowly climbed out of the car and took her time as she walked over to the site of her mother's burial. She read the names and dates of the headstones in her path. So young, so vital, so tragic. She considered their families and realized she really wasn't alone and there were people out there who were feeling what she was feeling.

She slowly approached the stone and just looked at it. Her tears had stopped falling as she sat in the car, but fresh ones began to form.

"Hey mom, how are you?" She asked as she sat down next to her mother. She ran her fingers over the smooth surface of the stone as she spoke.
"I've really missed you and so has everyone else. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I can't seem to get anything right. Gordo is mad at me, I haven't seen Matt in weeks, everyone stares at us like we're mutants. I'm just so confused. I don't know what to do with this anger inside me. I'm even mad at Miranda just because she's happy." She said as she looked at the ground.
"I guess you saw what happened today. I'm sorry I let it happen. It was an accident, but it was such a huge accident. I never should have let it happen. Maybe I'm not ready for such a huge responsibility." She said quietly as she pulled on pieces of grass.
"I don't know if I can handle a kid, mom. I wasn't ready for this. I don't know what to do with her. I don't know if I could ever forgive myself for what happened today. I don't know if Gordo will ever forgive me." She said with her eyes downcast.
"He will." She heard from behind her. She jumped up and turned around quickly to see where the sound originated. She saw Gordo standing a few feet away with a small, shy smile on his face.
"Lizzie, I'm sorry I got so mad and yelled at you. I overreacted and I just didn't know what to do. I mean, just thinking about what could've happened..." Gordo trailed off.
"You had every right to be mad at me Gordo. I made a huge mistake that could have cost us everything. I deserve much worse than you yelling at me." She said as fresh tears formed in her eyes.
"No you don't. This is new for us both. I'm sure we'll both make mistakes and we'll learn from them. We're raising a kid; it's bound to happen. With all the good comes the bad. We'll get through it though. Trust me, Lizzie." He said as he held his hand out to her.
She slowly walked towards him and took his hand. He drew her into his body and into a tight embrace. Lizzie's tears ceased their falling and Gordo began to lead her back to her car.
"Hold on a minute Gordo, I have to say bye to my mom." Lizzie said as she pulled away from him.
"Tell her I said hey." He told her with a smile as she headed back towards the headstone.
"Come tell her yourself." Lizzie said as she walked back and took his hand with a smile and pulled him with her.
They arrived back where Gordo had found her and just stood there quietly for a few minutes.
"Hey, Mrs. McGuire, I just wanted to let you know that we're all doing fine. I know you're looking down on us. Please help us get through this. We love you." Gordo said as he looked intently at the large stone.
"I love you mom." Lizzie said as they headed back towards the cars.
They each got in their individual cars and headed back for the house where Miranda and Jaden were both waiting.

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