Finding New
Chapter 5: Forgotten Loneliness
By: Nikumu Chan
Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket
Author's note: Okay, okay, I know this is kind of sad and angsty but I sort of like it that way . . . is that a problem? Gomen ne but it kind of fits for the way I want this story to turn out! Please read, enjoy, and review!
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Tohru stared at her vacant house, just now getting a good look at it after the damage was done. There were branches in her yard that she hadn't noticed before, several broken windows that she's over looked, and a lot of roof damage.
"It . . . wasn't like this . . . when you found me . . . was it, Yuki-kun?" she asked quietly.
"It was, Honda-san."
"How could I not have noticed?"
"You weren't paying attention, Honda-san."
Tohru nodded and entered her silent home. She hated that silence. The only sound that echoed through her house were footsteps; it was to quiet for her. She shook her head, trying to block out the images of the night before.
She slowly made her way to her room and slowly sat of her cozy bed, staring at the floor. She felt the loneliness come back as she sat there, staring into nothing.
Tohru didn't feel someone sit to her left . . .
She felt tears well in her eyes again. Her mother was really gone. There was no one here to come home to, to hug and greet her when she came home from school, to help her with homework when she didn't understand, to . . . love her, no one was here anymore. A tear found its way down her cheek.
Tohru didn't see someone stare sadly at her . . .
Her mother wasn't to make her dinner at night. She wasn't there to tuck her in. She wasn't there to comfort her when she felt horrible. She wasn't there to ease the pressures of school work. She wasn't there to tell her everything was going to be okay or that she was safe. She wasn't there to tell her she loved her, that, above everything else, she would miss the most. All in all, she would miss her mother's love for her. More tears fell down her cheeks.
Tohru didn't hear someone call her name . . .
Tohru tore her gaze away from the floor to the photograph of her mother that sat on her nightstand. With her mother gone, she'd never hear those three words again. She'd never hear 'I love you'. She'd never hear 'Good night, sleep well'. She'd never hear her mother's comforting, loving voice . . . ever again. She cried.
Tohru did feel someone's hand slide into her own . . .
Okaa-san . . .
She gasped and whipped her head to the left . . . it was . . .
Yuki . . .
It wasn't her mother but, strangely, she didn't feel disappointed. All lonesomeness flew from her when she saw the soothing look in his eyes. She smiled through her still flowing tears. He was trying to make her feel better! As long as she had known him, she had never seen a look like that from him . . . to anyone!
A thought struck her . . . how long had she known him, exactly? She'd never kept track.
She saw Yuki hesitantly brush away her tears and her smile widened.
"Honda-san," he mumbled gently, "Why are you crying?"
Tohru's smile disappeared. He must think she was a cry-baby by now!! "It's stupid, really," she muttered hoarsely. Clearing her throat and abruptly raising from her bed, Tohru shuffled around her room, mumbling to herself and picking things up here and there, leaving Yuki to watch her blankly.
He reached out, softly grasping her hand, earning a surprised gasp from the girl, and gently pulled her back to sit on the bed. "It's not stupid if it caused this," he assured her, motioning to her tear-stained cheeks.
Tohru flushed and looked away. "It's nothing; really, it's too complicated to explain. I'm sorry, Yuki-kun." She said, getting up again only to be delicately pulled down again.
Tohru sighed inwardly. "Yes, Yuki-kun?" she asked softly; a hint of irritation could be heard if one was to listen very closely.
"What are you apologizing for? You didn't do a thing wrong,"
"I've cried in front of you two times today. I juts feel foolish and it makes me feel better to apologize."
"But why apologize when no wrong was done? Crying is not a crime, you know."
"I know that, Yuki-kun, but I just feel stupid so I apologize. I made a fool of myself."
"No, you didn't, Honda-san. A fool can only be defined at that neko."
"Why do you call him a cat, Yuki-kun?" Perfect topic change!
"Because he is,"
"What do you mean?"
Yuki sighed. "His Zodiac member is the cat."
"But, the cat isn't a part of the Zodiac, is it?"
"No,"
"Then, how . . .?"
"There's always an oddball in the bunch, Honda-san,"
Tohru didn't know how to answer so she simply nodded. She felt Yuki's grip loosen from her wrist.
"Go ahead and pack up your belongings, Honda-san."
Tohru nodded again and began bustling through the shelves and drawers of her room, scoping out items of need.
Tohru made sure the first thing she picked up was the picture of her mother that she kept on her bedside table.
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Fifteen minutes passed by the time Tohru finished her packing.
Tohru and Yuki emerged from Tohru's home, Yuki carrying several bags full of the girl's possessions. "Yuki-kun, are you sure you don't want me to carry those?"
"Yes, Honda-san, I am," he replied; with his free hand, gripped Tohru's hand and began to lead her back to the Sohma's house.
Tohru smiled. With Yuki with her she didn't have to feel lonely.
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Done with another chapter!! That's five chapters in 3 days! *glances at clock that reads 12:51 AM* Make that 4 days -.-;; I better get to bed! Good thing there's no school on Monday . . . thank God! Okay, well, I'm off to bed now, please review!
Chapter 5: Forgotten Loneliness
By: Nikumu Chan
Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket
Author's note: Okay, okay, I know this is kind of sad and angsty but I sort of like it that way . . . is that a problem? Gomen ne but it kind of fits for the way I want this story to turn out! Please read, enjoy, and review!
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Tohru stared at her vacant house, just now getting a good look at it after the damage was done. There were branches in her yard that she hadn't noticed before, several broken windows that she's over looked, and a lot of roof damage.
"It . . . wasn't like this . . . when you found me . . . was it, Yuki-kun?" she asked quietly.
"It was, Honda-san."
"How could I not have noticed?"
"You weren't paying attention, Honda-san."
Tohru nodded and entered her silent home. She hated that silence. The only sound that echoed through her house were footsteps; it was to quiet for her. She shook her head, trying to block out the images of the night before.
She slowly made her way to her room and slowly sat of her cozy bed, staring at the floor. She felt the loneliness come back as she sat there, staring into nothing.
Tohru didn't feel someone sit to her left . . .
She felt tears well in her eyes again. Her mother was really gone. There was no one here to come home to, to hug and greet her when she came home from school, to help her with homework when she didn't understand, to . . . love her, no one was here anymore. A tear found its way down her cheek.
Tohru didn't see someone stare sadly at her . . .
Her mother wasn't to make her dinner at night. She wasn't there to tuck her in. She wasn't there to comfort her when she felt horrible. She wasn't there to ease the pressures of school work. She wasn't there to tell her everything was going to be okay or that she was safe. She wasn't there to tell her she loved her, that, above everything else, she would miss the most. All in all, she would miss her mother's love for her. More tears fell down her cheeks.
Tohru didn't hear someone call her name . . .
Tohru tore her gaze away from the floor to the photograph of her mother that sat on her nightstand. With her mother gone, she'd never hear those three words again. She'd never hear 'I love you'. She'd never hear 'Good night, sleep well'. She'd never hear her mother's comforting, loving voice . . . ever again. She cried.
Tohru did feel someone's hand slide into her own . . .
Okaa-san . . .
She gasped and whipped her head to the left . . . it was . . .
Yuki . . .
It wasn't her mother but, strangely, she didn't feel disappointed. All lonesomeness flew from her when she saw the soothing look in his eyes. She smiled through her still flowing tears. He was trying to make her feel better! As long as she had known him, she had never seen a look like that from him . . . to anyone!
A thought struck her . . . how long had she known him, exactly? She'd never kept track.
She saw Yuki hesitantly brush away her tears and her smile widened.
"Honda-san," he mumbled gently, "Why are you crying?"
Tohru's smile disappeared. He must think she was a cry-baby by now!! "It's stupid, really," she muttered hoarsely. Clearing her throat and abruptly raising from her bed, Tohru shuffled around her room, mumbling to herself and picking things up here and there, leaving Yuki to watch her blankly.
He reached out, softly grasping her hand, earning a surprised gasp from the girl, and gently pulled her back to sit on the bed. "It's not stupid if it caused this," he assured her, motioning to her tear-stained cheeks.
Tohru flushed and looked away. "It's nothing; really, it's too complicated to explain. I'm sorry, Yuki-kun." She said, getting up again only to be delicately pulled down again.
Tohru sighed inwardly. "Yes, Yuki-kun?" she asked softly; a hint of irritation could be heard if one was to listen very closely.
"What are you apologizing for? You didn't do a thing wrong,"
"I've cried in front of you two times today. I juts feel foolish and it makes me feel better to apologize."
"But why apologize when no wrong was done? Crying is not a crime, you know."
"I know that, Yuki-kun, but I just feel stupid so I apologize. I made a fool of myself."
"No, you didn't, Honda-san. A fool can only be defined at that neko."
"Why do you call him a cat, Yuki-kun?" Perfect topic change!
"Because he is,"
"What do you mean?"
Yuki sighed. "His Zodiac member is the cat."
"But, the cat isn't a part of the Zodiac, is it?"
"No,"
"Then, how . . .?"
"There's always an oddball in the bunch, Honda-san,"
Tohru didn't know how to answer so she simply nodded. She felt Yuki's grip loosen from her wrist.
"Go ahead and pack up your belongings, Honda-san."
Tohru nodded again and began bustling through the shelves and drawers of her room, scoping out items of need.
Tohru made sure the first thing she picked up was the picture of her mother that she kept on her bedside table.
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Fifteen minutes passed by the time Tohru finished her packing.
Tohru and Yuki emerged from Tohru's home, Yuki carrying several bags full of the girl's possessions. "Yuki-kun, are you sure you don't want me to carry those?"
"Yes, Honda-san, I am," he replied; with his free hand, gripped Tohru's hand and began to lead her back to the Sohma's house.
Tohru smiled. With Yuki with her she didn't have to feel lonely.
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Done with another chapter!! That's five chapters in 3 days! *glances at clock that reads 12:51 AM* Make that 4 days -.-;; I better get to bed! Good thing there's no school on Monday . . . thank God! Okay, well, I'm off to bed now, please review!
