Buffy awoke to see Faith in a chair next to the bed holding her hand. She
was wondering why when the night's events suddenly came to her. Faith
little talk before Buffy went to sleep also came to her mind. She knew
Faith loved her. that wasn't what surprised her. What had surprised her
was how devoted to her Faith was. It made her happy and scared at the same
time. She was happy because it meant that Faith's love for her was deep
and genuine. What scared her was how far Faith could potentially go to
save her if she ever got in a lot of trouble. Faith had told her herself
that she would die for Buffy. and kill. Buffy decided she would have to
watch her back around Faith and when she is in mortal danger, make sure
Faith isn't around. Unbeknownst to Faith, Buffy felt the exact way about
her. It was ironic that in the past she attempted to kill Faith and now
she would die for her. So now she was in a jam. she had to protect Faith
without letting Faith protect her. How? She didn't know. She was going
to think of some solutions when she noticed Faith was awake.
"Hey, B. I'm glad you are awake. I was worried you wouldn't," Faith said with fear in her voice, but a completely blank expression.
"Na. you know me Faith. tough as nails," Buffy said realizing it was a weak attempt at reassurance.
Faith just stared at her blankly. Buffy began to get uneasy under her gaze. She broke the silence and said; "Besides I have been hurt worse than this many times in the past." She began to get up when Faith put her hand on Buffy and sat in the bed next to her with the same blank expression. Buffy wondered what she was thinking. Then she realized what it probably was considering the speech Faith had given her when she thought Buffy was unconscious.
"You blame yourself for Spike leaving and trying to hurt me, don't you?" Buffy asked and Faith just stared and then spoke in a flat tone, " Yes. It's my fault. It should have been me. I was the one who took you away from him."
Buffy saw that there was pain in Faith's eyes. She knew Faith wouldn't admit any of the things she told her last night while she awake or that she was hurting. So instead of trying to console her or prove her wrong, Buffy sat up and pulled Faith to her in a strong embrace. Faith understood what Buffy was doing and was grateful for it. She hugged Buffy back and found herself crying. She was not crying because she felt sorry for herself in anyway, but she understood that she would never be able to completely protect Buffy. She also realized that they were slayers, which meant that their lifelines were shorter than the average person. No slayer had ever lived passed the age of 30. One mistake could end it all. She could try to protect her, but she knew that it was impossible for Faith to stop everything, for her to be around Buffy all the time. She just simply couldn't do it. It saddened her that, though she wanted to live in a fantasy world where she and Buffy were together forever and didn't have to carry the burdens of the evil in the world, it was impossible. In that moment, however, she found that she didn't care what happened to anyone else. She and Buffy were together and it didn't matter if the First itself were in the house, she would not let go of Buffy. Faith hoped that if she just stayed like this for a while, her wish would come true and all the evil would disappear and she and Buffy could be left alone and Buffy wouldn't get hurt. Though deep down she knew that it was impossible. the only way another slayer could be called was if she died, which she would have no problem doing, except that that would mean leaving Buffy. That was one thing she could not do, unless it was the only thing to do.
Buffy was stroking her head and whispering reassuring words to Faith as she sobbed into Buffy's breast. She couldn't stand to see her like this. All Buffy wanted to do was take all her pain and make it go away. But that was impossible. She thought about bringing up what Faith had said the night before, but decided it would be better to keep it to herself. She would probably eventually bring it up, but not now. Not while Faith was so vulnerable.
MEANWHILE.
Willow decided to check on Buffy. She knew that she would be all right, but at the same time she still didn't trust Faith. She acted like she did for Buffy, but Willow knew that it would take a long time before she could trust herself and her friends around Faith again. At times she found herself wanting to shake Buffy and yell, "She is evil! Remember what she did to you and us? You can't trust her! How can you say you love her when she hurt you so much?" Other times she found herself wanting to tell Faith to leave and never come back.
"Excuse me, I'm gonna go check on Buffy," Willow said to Xander and Angel who were watching the potentials train.
"Look, Willow, Buffy is fine. You don't have to check her. Besides I checked on her and Faith about and hour ago and they were both asleep," Angel said looking suspiciously at Willow. He trusted her deeply, but not when it came to Faith.
"Oh, shut up, Dead boy. Willow can check on Buffy any time she wants," Xander said.
"Well I didn't mean. I mean. ok." Angel said turning away.
"Thanks, Xand. I'll be back in a little while," said Willow. She went indoors and started for Buffy's room. Strange thoughts came to mind while walking toward the room. *What if I find Faith trying to smother Buffy? * *What if Faith is beating her up? * *What if all this stuff about loving Buffy is just a front to get close to us so that she can kill us? * These thoughts were making her grow angry. Finally she reached the room prepared for the worst for some reason. She heard strange sounds coming from the door, which only made her more scared for Buffy. She opened the door expecting to have to pull Faith off of Buffy and hurt her, but instead saw Buffy sitting up on the bed holding Faith, who was crying.
Faith immediately stopped and retreated back into her shell that Buffy had been able to break down. Buffy gave Willow a harsh look. "I'm sorry for interrupting. I was just checking on you and I heard strange noises so I came in here and." Willow trailed off.
"No problem Willow. I was just about to leave anyway. I'm gonna go train Buffy. Bye," said Faith as she quickly exited the room.
"You embarrassed her. She opened up to me. This is the first time I have ever seen her like this. Why did you feel the need to check on me?" Buffy asked clearly angry at Willow for barging in.
"Um. well like I said. I heard weird noises coming from your room. and I just wanted to see how you were," Willow said forgetting to add the main reason and Buffy could tell.
"No, you knew I would be fine. I am a slayer. I'm fine, just a little sore. No, the real reason you came up here was because you still don't trust her. Am I right? Is that why you came to check on me? To see if the person I love was trying to kill me?" Buffy asked Willow. She responded with a downcast expression and a slight nod of her head. "Well you need to learn to trust her like everyone else. Even Xander trusts her more than you! Think that while I go and try to get her talk to me again," Buffy said and quickly changed. Then she walked out of the room and into the basement where Faith was training.
Willow just stood there. She understood that she made a mistake. She hadn't ever seen Faith cry either. Maybe Buffy was right.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hi again! I'm sorry I haven't updated in a long time. When I got back from my long vacations I received several projects and essays. Not to mention all the regular make-up work. So thanks to:
Denise: Thanks! Don't worry. I am thinking of a little more than a peck next chap! Hope you liked this one!
Clint: Thank you! More Faith/Buffyness to come I promise! Hope you like this one!
Demonblues: Thanks! I'm glad you still like my story! I hope you like this 1 2!
Joshua: Thanks for reviewing. I'm glad you like it and I hope you like this one also!
Terry: Thank you very much. I'm glad you liked the last chap! Hope you like this one too!
BrownEyes: I am happy you liked it. Thank you and I hope you like this one too!
Hugo: Thanks for reviewing, I'm glad you like it. I hope you like this one also!
Thanks again to everybody! I had a great time at my vacation! I promise I won't that long ever again to update. Sorry about that. So do you like this one? I had trouble writing it for some reason. that's why it sucks so much. Sorry. Anyone have any suggestions? I have the next chapter pretty much mapped out and it will be up soon, but after that I have no idea, so any help is appreciated. So please review, Bye!
"Hey, B. I'm glad you are awake. I was worried you wouldn't," Faith said with fear in her voice, but a completely blank expression.
"Na. you know me Faith. tough as nails," Buffy said realizing it was a weak attempt at reassurance.
Faith just stared at her blankly. Buffy began to get uneasy under her gaze. She broke the silence and said; "Besides I have been hurt worse than this many times in the past." She began to get up when Faith put her hand on Buffy and sat in the bed next to her with the same blank expression. Buffy wondered what she was thinking. Then she realized what it probably was considering the speech Faith had given her when she thought Buffy was unconscious.
"You blame yourself for Spike leaving and trying to hurt me, don't you?" Buffy asked and Faith just stared and then spoke in a flat tone, " Yes. It's my fault. It should have been me. I was the one who took you away from him."
Buffy saw that there was pain in Faith's eyes. She knew Faith wouldn't admit any of the things she told her last night while she awake or that she was hurting. So instead of trying to console her or prove her wrong, Buffy sat up and pulled Faith to her in a strong embrace. Faith understood what Buffy was doing and was grateful for it. She hugged Buffy back and found herself crying. She was not crying because she felt sorry for herself in anyway, but she understood that she would never be able to completely protect Buffy. She also realized that they were slayers, which meant that their lifelines were shorter than the average person. No slayer had ever lived passed the age of 30. One mistake could end it all. She could try to protect her, but she knew that it was impossible for Faith to stop everything, for her to be around Buffy all the time. She just simply couldn't do it. It saddened her that, though she wanted to live in a fantasy world where she and Buffy were together forever and didn't have to carry the burdens of the evil in the world, it was impossible. In that moment, however, she found that she didn't care what happened to anyone else. She and Buffy were together and it didn't matter if the First itself were in the house, she would not let go of Buffy. Faith hoped that if she just stayed like this for a while, her wish would come true and all the evil would disappear and she and Buffy could be left alone and Buffy wouldn't get hurt. Though deep down she knew that it was impossible. the only way another slayer could be called was if she died, which she would have no problem doing, except that that would mean leaving Buffy. That was one thing she could not do, unless it was the only thing to do.
Buffy was stroking her head and whispering reassuring words to Faith as she sobbed into Buffy's breast. She couldn't stand to see her like this. All Buffy wanted to do was take all her pain and make it go away. But that was impossible. She thought about bringing up what Faith had said the night before, but decided it would be better to keep it to herself. She would probably eventually bring it up, but not now. Not while Faith was so vulnerable.
MEANWHILE.
Willow decided to check on Buffy. She knew that she would be all right, but at the same time she still didn't trust Faith. She acted like she did for Buffy, but Willow knew that it would take a long time before she could trust herself and her friends around Faith again. At times she found herself wanting to shake Buffy and yell, "She is evil! Remember what she did to you and us? You can't trust her! How can you say you love her when she hurt you so much?" Other times she found herself wanting to tell Faith to leave and never come back.
"Excuse me, I'm gonna go check on Buffy," Willow said to Xander and Angel who were watching the potentials train.
"Look, Willow, Buffy is fine. You don't have to check her. Besides I checked on her and Faith about and hour ago and they were both asleep," Angel said looking suspiciously at Willow. He trusted her deeply, but not when it came to Faith.
"Oh, shut up, Dead boy. Willow can check on Buffy any time she wants," Xander said.
"Well I didn't mean. I mean. ok." Angel said turning away.
"Thanks, Xand. I'll be back in a little while," said Willow. She went indoors and started for Buffy's room. Strange thoughts came to mind while walking toward the room. *What if I find Faith trying to smother Buffy? * *What if Faith is beating her up? * *What if all this stuff about loving Buffy is just a front to get close to us so that she can kill us? * These thoughts were making her grow angry. Finally she reached the room prepared for the worst for some reason. She heard strange sounds coming from the door, which only made her more scared for Buffy. She opened the door expecting to have to pull Faith off of Buffy and hurt her, but instead saw Buffy sitting up on the bed holding Faith, who was crying.
Faith immediately stopped and retreated back into her shell that Buffy had been able to break down. Buffy gave Willow a harsh look. "I'm sorry for interrupting. I was just checking on you and I heard strange noises so I came in here and." Willow trailed off.
"No problem Willow. I was just about to leave anyway. I'm gonna go train Buffy. Bye," said Faith as she quickly exited the room.
"You embarrassed her. She opened up to me. This is the first time I have ever seen her like this. Why did you feel the need to check on me?" Buffy asked clearly angry at Willow for barging in.
"Um. well like I said. I heard weird noises coming from your room. and I just wanted to see how you were," Willow said forgetting to add the main reason and Buffy could tell.
"No, you knew I would be fine. I am a slayer. I'm fine, just a little sore. No, the real reason you came up here was because you still don't trust her. Am I right? Is that why you came to check on me? To see if the person I love was trying to kill me?" Buffy asked Willow. She responded with a downcast expression and a slight nod of her head. "Well you need to learn to trust her like everyone else. Even Xander trusts her more than you! Think that while I go and try to get her talk to me again," Buffy said and quickly changed. Then she walked out of the room and into the basement where Faith was training.
Willow just stood there. She understood that she made a mistake. She hadn't ever seen Faith cry either. Maybe Buffy was right.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hi again! I'm sorry I haven't updated in a long time. When I got back from my long vacations I received several projects and essays. Not to mention all the regular make-up work. So thanks to:
Denise: Thanks! Don't worry. I am thinking of a little more than a peck next chap! Hope you liked this one!
Clint: Thank you! More Faith/Buffyness to come I promise! Hope you like this one!
Demonblues: Thanks! I'm glad you still like my story! I hope you like this 1 2!
Joshua: Thanks for reviewing. I'm glad you like it and I hope you like this one also!
Terry: Thank you very much. I'm glad you liked the last chap! Hope you like this one too!
BrownEyes: I am happy you liked it. Thank you and I hope you like this one too!
Hugo: Thanks for reviewing, I'm glad you like it. I hope you like this one also!
Thanks again to everybody! I had a great time at my vacation! I promise I won't that long ever again to update. Sorry about that. So do you like this one? I had trouble writing it for some reason. that's why it sucks so much. Sorry. Anyone have any suggestions? I have the next chapter pretty much mapped out and it will be up soon, but after that I have no idea, so any help is appreciated. So please review, Bye!
