Numb
Author's note: This is dedicated to all the "good Draco"-fans out there (even though I don't agree with you, Draco is a slimy, evil little git). If he'd be good, this is how I think he'd feel. (the last chorus is supposed to be repeated, but I decided to skip that because it became too much and I was just ranting on without any ideas, so it didn't turn out well the first time. I hope you won't mind)
Draco thinks about his father and his legacy (feel free to choose when in time)
[lyrics]
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[I'm tired of being what you want me to be]
You never gave me choice
[Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface]
If I could only make you see the real me
[I don't know what you're expecting of me]
Behind this mask I wear
[Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes]
All you want to see is you
[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
Please let me out of here
[Every step that I take is another mistake to you]
I can't breathe with you here
~*~
[I've become so numb]
How many times do I have to die?
[I can't feel you there]
How many times are you going to kill me?
[Become so tired]
I can't do this much longer
[So much more aware]
I'm not as strong as you think
[I'm becoming this]
I'm becoming something I hate
[All I want to do]
Something you like
[Is be more like me]
I'm drifting away
[And be less like you]
Into you
~*~
[Can't you see that you're smothering me]
Just leave me alone with myself for once
[Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control]
Let me release the tears
['Cause everything that you thought I would be]
Free me from this pain
[Has fallen apart right in front of you]
Before I break in front of you
[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
I can't fight back
[Every step that I take is another mistake to you]
I have nowhere else to go
[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
They won't take me in
[And every second I waste is more than I can take]
They won't understand
~*~
[I've become so numb]
Seeing my future in you scares me
[I can't feel you there]
I've waited for a saviour for too long now
[Become so tired]
But I can't save myself any longer
[So much more aware]
I'll die here again
[I'm becoming this]
Until you see that I'm not like you
[All I want to do]
How wonderful to close my eyes
[Is be more like me]
And rest for the rest of eternity
[And be less like you]
Far away from you
~*~
[And I know I may end up failing too]
Some day I'll let you know
[But I know you were just like me]
I'll make you see
[With someone disappointed in you]
What you've seen in you, but never seen in me
~*~
[I've become so numb]
Let me run away
[I can't feel you there]
Let me find myself
[Become so tired]
And I'll betray you for your betrayal
[So much more aware]
I've seen them
[I'm becoming this]
They all have something I don't have
[All I want to do]
True smiles
[Is be more like me]
And I have something they don't have
[And be less like you]
Tears of true pain
Author's note: This is dedicated to all the "good Draco"-fans out there (even though I don't agree with you, Draco is a slimy, evil little git). If he'd be good, this is how I think he'd feel. (the last chorus is supposed to be repeated, but I decided to skip that because it became too much and I was just ranting on without any ideas, so it didn't turn out well the first time. I hope you won't mind)
Draco thinks about his father and his legacy (feel free to choose when in time)
[lyrics]
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
*~*~*~*~*
[I'm tired of being what you want me to be]
You never gave me choice
[Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface]
If I could only make you see the real me
[I don't know what you're expecting of me]
Behind this mask I wear
[Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes]
All you want to see is you
[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
Please let me out of here
[Every step that I take is another mistake to you]
I can't breathe with you here
~*~
[I've become so numb]
How many times do I have to die?
[I can't feel you there]
How many times are you going to kill me?
[Become so tired]
I can't do this much longer
[So much more aware]
I'm not as strong as you think
[I'm becoming this]
I'm becoming something I hate
[All I want to do]
Something you like
[Is be more like me]
I'm drifting away
[And be less like you]
Into you
~*~
[Can't you see that you're smothering me]
Just leave me alone with myself for once
[Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control]
Let me release the tears
['Cause everything that you thought I would be]
Free me from this pain
[Has fallen apart right in front of you]
Before I break in front of you
[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
I can't fight back
[Every step that I take is another mistake to you]
I have nowhere else to go
[Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
They won't take me in
[And every second I waste is more than I can take]
They won't understand
~*~
[I've become so numb]
Seeing my future in you scares me
[I can't feel you there]
I've waited for a saviour for too long now
[Become so tired]
But I can't save myself any longer
[So much more aware]
I'll die here again
[I'm becoming this]
Until you see that I'm not like you
[All I want to do]
How wonderful to close my eyes
[Is be more like me]
And rest for the rest of eternity
[And be less like you]
Far away from you
~*~
[And I know I may end up failing too]
Some day I'll let you know
[But I know you were just like me]
I'll make you see
[With someone disappointed in you]
What you've seen in you, but never seen in me
~*~
[I've become so numb]
Let me run away
[I can't feel you there]
Let me find myself
[Become so tired]
And I'll betray you for your betrayal
[So much more aware]
I've seen them
[I'm becoming this]
They all have something I don't have
[All I want to do]
True smiles
[Is be more like me]
And I have something they don't have
[And be less like you]
Tears of true pain
