Somewhere I Belong

Author's note: This takes place when Lupin arrives at Hogwarts for the first time. He's young and bitter, knowing that his parents let him leave to be rid of him. He's a tad paranoid, which would be quite natural considering he's a werewolf.

This was a request from Sarah, I hope you like it.

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[When this began]

They look at me

[I had nothing to say]

They do

[And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me]

Don't look at them

[I was confused]

Don't ruin it

[And I let it all out to find]

Don't ruin this chance, this once in a lifetime chance

[That I'm not the only person with these things in mind]

All they really wanted was to be rid of me

[Inside of me]

Wanted to be rid of the freak

[But all the vacancy the words revealed]

I don't understand

[Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel]

No matter how many books I read, I never will

[Nothing to lose]

It's not fair

[Just stuck/Hollow and alone]

Why me?

[And the fault is my own]

All I wanted was to escape

[And the fault is my own]

Escape the screams

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[I want to heal]

It hurts so much

[I want to feel]

The scars ache for so long

[What I thought was never real]

They are looking

[I want to let go of the pain I've held so long]

Looking at my face

[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]

Please stop!

[I want to heal]

I know I'm pale

[I want to feel]

I know I'm skinny

[Like I'm close to something real]

I know I'm a freak

[I want to find something I've wanted all along]

Strange

[Somewhere I Belong]

Worthless

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[And I've got nothing to say]

Only two weeks left

[I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face]

The scars are not healed yet

[I was confused]

Not on the outside

[Looking everywhere/Only to find that it's]

Or the inside

[Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind]

Where will they take me?

[So what am I]

What will they do?

[What do I have but negativity]

How can they hide it?

['Cause I can't justify the]

Hide me?

[Way everyone is looking at me]

Why can't it just stop?

[Nothing to lose]

Why does it have to go on?

[Nothing to gain/Hollow and alone]

I can't take much more

[And the fault is my own]

I'm not strong enough

[The fault is my own]

I'm weak

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[I will never know]

He

[Myself until I do this on my own]

That boy

[And I will never feel]

Those boys

[Anything else until my wounds are healed]

They look at me

[I will never be]

What do they want?

[Anything 'til I break away from me]

What do they want?!

[And I will break away]

Please stop it!

[I'll find myself today]

Leave me alone!

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[I want to heal]

I don't want friends

[I want to feel like I'm]

I don't need friends

[Somewhere I belong]

It hurts so much