Somewhere I Belong
Author's note: This takes place when Lupin arrives at Hogwarts for the first time. He's young and bitter, knowing that his parents let him leave to be rid of him. He's a tad paranoid, which would be quite natural considering he's a werewolf.
This was a request from Sarah, I hope you like it.
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[When this began]
They look at me
[I had nothing to say]
They do
[And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me]
Don't look at them
[I was confused]
Don't ruin it
[And I let it all out to find]
Don't ruin this chance, this once in a lifetime chance
[That I'm not the only person with these things in mind]
All they really wanted was to be rid of me
[Inside of me]
Wanted to be rid of the freak
[But all the vacancy the words revealed]
I don't understand
[Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel]
No matter how many books I read, I never will
[Nothing to lose]
It's not fair
[Just stuck/Hollow and alone]
Why me?
[And the fault is my own]
All I wanted was to escape
[And the fault is my own]
Escape the screams
~*~
[I want to heal]
It hurts so much
[I want to feel]
The scars ache for so long
[What I thought was never real]
They are looking
[I want to let go of the pain I've held so long]
Looking at my face
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
Please stop!
[I want to heal]
I know I'm pale
[I want to feel]
I know I'm skinny
[Like I'm close to something real]
I know I'm a freak
[I want to find something I've wanted all along]
Strange
[Somewhere I Belong]
Worthless
~*~
[And I've got nothing to say]
Only two weeks left
[I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face]
The scars are not healed yet
[I was confused]
Not on the outside
[Looking everywhere/Only to find that it's]
Or the inside
[Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind]
Where will they take me?
[So what am I]
What will they do?
[What do I have but negativity]
How can they hide it?
['Cause I can't justify the]
Hide me?
[Way everyone is looking at me]
Why can't it just stop?
[Nothing to lose]
Why does it have to go on?
[Nothing to gain/Hollow and alone]
I can't take much more
[And the fault is my own]
I'm not strong enough
[The fault is my own]
I'm weak
~*~
[I will never know]
He
[Myself until I do this on my own]
That boy
[And I will never feel]
Those boys
[Anything else until my wounds are healed]
They look at me
[I will never be]
What do they want?
[Anything 'til I break away from me]
What do they want?!
[And I will break away]
Please stop it!
[I'll find myself today]
Leave me alone!
~*~
[I want to heal]
I don't want friends
[I want to feel like I'm]
I don't need friends
[Somewhere I belong]
It hurts so much
Author's note: This takes place when Lupin arrives at Hogwarts for the first time. He's young and bitter, knowing that his parents let him leave to be rid of him. He's a tad paranoid, which would be quite natural considering he's a werewolf.
This was a request from Sarah, I hope you like it.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
[When this began]
They look at me
[I had nothing to say]
They do
[And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me]
Don't look at them
[I was confused]
Don't ruin it
[And I let it all out to find]
Don't ruin this chance, this once in a lifetime chance
[That I'm not the only person with these things in mind]
All they really wanted was to be rid of me
[Inside of me]
Wanted to be rid of the freak
[But all the vacancy the words revealed]
I don't understand
[Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel]
No matter how many books I read, I never will
[Nothing to lose]
It's not fair
[Just stuck/Hollow and alone]
Why me?
[And the fault is my own]
All I wanted was to escape
[And the fault is my own]
Escape the screams
~*~
[I want to heal]
It hurts so much
[I want to feel]
The scars ache for so long
[What I thought was never real]
They are looking
[I want to let go of the pain I've held so long]
Looking at my face
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
Please stop!
[I want to heal]
I know I'm pale
[I want to feel]
I know I'm skinny
[Like I'm close to something real]
I know I'm a freak
[I want to find something I've wanted all along]
Strange
[Somewhere I Belong]
Worthless
~*~
[And I've got nothing to say]
Only two weeks left
[I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face]
The scars are not healed yet
[I was confused]
Not on the outside
[Looking everywhere/Only to find that it's]
Or the inside
[Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind]
Where will they take me?
[So what am I]
What will they do?
[What do I have but negativity]
How can they hide it?
['Cause I can't justify the]
Hide me?
[Way everyone is looking at me]
Why can't it just stop?
[Nothing to lose]
Why does it have to go on?
[Nothing to gain/Hollow and alone]
I can't take much more
[And the fault is my own]
I'm not strong enough
[The fault is my own]
I'm weak
~*~
[I will never know]
He
[Myself until I do this on my own]
That boy
[And I will never feel]
Those boys
[Anything else until my wounds are healed]
They look at me
[I will never be]
What do they want?
[Anything 'til I break away from me]
What do they want?!
[And I will break away]
Please stop it!
[I'll find myself today]
Leave me alone!
~*~
[I want to heal]
I don't want friends
[I want to feel like I'm]
I don't need friends
[Somewhere I belong]
It hurts so much
