Figure.09

Author's note: This describes Snape's feelings when he becomes a Death Eater. In my fanon, he's already doubting and thinking of turning to Dumbledore's side, but he's not sure if he can do it without getting caught. BTW, I firmly believe that Snape was in love with Lily so the girl he's thinking about is her.

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[Nothing ever stops all these thoughts]

It's too late now

[And the pain attached to them]

Isn't it?

[Sometimes I wonder why this is happening]

I can't do anything to stop it

[It's like nothing I can do will distract me when]

Your eyes are like fires

[I think of how I shot myself in the back again]

They burn inside me forever

['Cause from the infinite words I could say]

They led me here tonight

[Put all the pain you gave to me on display]

Loured me into the trap you set up for me

[But didn't realize]

You knew this would happen

[Instead of setting it free]

Knew I'd come if you called

[I took what I hated and made it part of me]

Knew I'd do anything for you

[It never goes away]

But you're wrong

[And now]

I won't

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[You've become a part of me]

Eyes of fire on my naked skin

[You'll always be right here]

Shapes of fire formed in the darkness

[You've become a part of me]

The final step is taken

[You'll always be my fear]

I'm lost in you

[I can't separate myself from what I've done]

I can't go back now

[I've given up a part of me]

I'm marked

[I've let myself become you]

Forever marked

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[Hearing your name]

You will be the death of me

[The memories come back again]

I know that you're laughing

[I remember when it started happening]

Cruel laugh echoing inside me

[I'd see you in every thought I had and then]

Your promise is already broken

[The thoughts slowly found words attached to them]

I guess I knew from the beginning

[And I knew as they escaped away I was committing myself to them]

You will be the death of me

[And every day I regret those things]

I don't care anymore

['Cause now I see]

I will get my revenge one day

[That I took what I hated and made it a part of me]

You will be the death of me

[It never goes away]

The death of them

[And now]

Of her

~*~

[You've become a part of me]

It hurts so much

[You'll always be right here]

The pain will never fade

[You've become a part of me]

The shame will never vanish

[You'll always be my fear]

You've cursed me

[I can't separate myself from what I've done]

I can't fight back

[I've given up a part of me]

I can't stand up to you

[I've let myself become you]

But I can lie

~*~

[Get away from me]

I will lie my way out

[Gimme my space back, you gotta just go]

You will never know

[Everything comes down to memories of you]

They will never see

[I've kept it in but now I'm letting you know]

They are only drones

[I've let you go]

Mindless idiots with nothing to lose

[Get away from me]

Except their lives

[Gimme my space back, you gotta just go]

Survival of the fittest

[Everything comes down to memories of you]

They will not last

[I've kept it in but now I'm letting you know]

They cannot deceive you

[I've let you go]

But I can

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[I've let myself become you]

I carry the only weapon

[I've let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you]

I alone can defeat you

[Giving up a part of me]

I will show her I love her

[I've let myself become you]

I will make the mark fade