Vivian spent a couple of hours reviewing Annie's journals. She felt like she shouldn't read any of it, but she knew she had to do it.
(Various entries from the journals)
Entry 1
I told him that I loved him this morning. It was early, and we just made love. It wasn't even like we consciously did it. Our bodies just seemed to find each other in the darkness. When I am in his arms I feel so safe. That must be why I said it. I felt like I could tell him anything in that moment and it would be OK. But he didn't respond. I could tell by the way he was breathing that he was still awake. I know that we are working, and maybe he just feels like this isn't the time for falling in love. But I can't help it. I've never felt like this before.
Entry 2
Kevin knows about us. I can tell by the way he looks at me. And he is giving Danny such a hard time. Danny is losing his temper with Kevin. Kevin seems jealous, but I'm not sure why. Kevin asked me to get close to Ferrar, and I wonder if it is because he knows it will bother Danny. Danny told Kevin that me getting involved with Ferrar was bad idea. It was too soon for me. But Kevin didn't back down.
Entry 3
I had sex with Ferrar last night. I was trying to find out when the next deal was going to go down and he started to kiss me. I was afraid to say no. I couldn't push him away with out him knowing something was wrong. So I let him…and I tried not to let him see me cry. I also got the information we needed from him. When I went home, Danny asked me how it went. I told him about the information, and then went to take a shower. I don't know how long I was in the shower before Danny came in. I was sitting on the floor of the tub. He turned off the cold water, wrapped me in a towel and carried me to bed. He knows. He lay next to me, and stroked my hair while I cried.
Entry 4
Danny and I haven't made love since Ferrar, but I still sleep in his bed. We don't talk about what I am doing. Kevin doesn't miss an opportunity to rub it in. Danny has come close to hitting him many times. Kevin is the only thing we fight about. I tell Danny he just needs to calm down. Kevin could ruin his career. Danny is starting not to care. He wants out, but I don't know what I'll do if he leaves me.
Entry 5
The Ferrar case is over. We turned all the evidence over to the US Attorney. Ferrar was indicted. Danny is transferring. He told me I should leave as well, but he didn't ask me to go with him to NY. He suggested going home to Chicago. Why doesn't he love me? When he looks into my eyes, I swear he does love me. I know there are things in his past he never talks about. Maybe there is someone else.
Entry 6
I've decided to stay with the DEA. If I can't be with Danny it doesn't really matter where I am. I've been assigned to a new case. Danny and I spent one last night together before he left. He thought I was asleep as he sat beside me and kissed me on my forehead. Then he walked out of my life. I cried that whole day, but then I had a new assignment to keep me busy. Kevin seemed elated that Danny was gone.
Entry 7
Kevin made a pass at me. We were meeting in his car and he tried to kiss me. He told me how much he cared about me, and how Danny wasn't good enough for me. He told me that Danny never cared about me. He just wanted a sex partner. I know in my heart that it's not true, but with the way Danny left – my head is telling me maybe Kevin is right. I told Kevin to stay away from me or I would file a complaint. He hasn't touched me since.
After reading most of the entries, Vivian went to Jack's office to tell him her conclusions.
"Jack, do you have a minute?"
"Yes. Come in."
"I just read through the journals. I think Agent Riley is in a lot of trouble. I don't think there is any way she took off."
"Why do you say that?"
"What did Danny tell you about his relationship with her?"
"He said they worked together, and they were friends."
"Jack, she's in love with him. If she left on her own, he would be her first call."
"I guess I should have pressed Danny a little harder. I'll talk to him."
"There's something else. Agent Allen was jealous of their relationship. I think, at this point, he is our prime suspect."
After finishing his talk with Vivian, Jack found Danny at his desk.
"Hey Jack, I was just about to head out to question a couple of informants Annie worked with. They may be able to give me something," Danny said as he was putting on his jacket.
"Danny, I just talked to Vivian."
Danny stopped dead in his tracks. "I should have told you. I'm sorry. I just thought I could keep it private."
"Yeah, well, that wasn't very smart. You can't go out in the field and work on this case. . ."
Danny interrupted, "Jack, don't do this. I can help find her. I have to."
"You'll do what you can from the office. That's it. Brief Viv on the informant leads, she'll check it out." Jack walked away.
Dejected, Danny sat down and raked his hands through his hair. He pulled out the picture of he and Annie that Vivian gave to him. He lightly touched her face. He knew deep down that he was responsible for whatever has happened to her – and now he couldn't even help find her.
