Title: Feelings
Author: Spike's Heart
Email: spikes_heart@yahoo.com
Pairing: Buffy/Spike
Rating: PG
Setting: All Roads Lead To Rome – post Damage AtS
Disclaimer: If they were mine, I'd treat them nicer than Joss ever did.
Feedback: Yes, please!
Archive: Ask me, nicely.
Warning: None
A/N: It's my therapy session, my issues.
Summary: Buffy reflects on having Spike back in her life.
Feelings
Attempting to turn over in her sleep, Buffy awakens to the sensation of being stuck. Notices that she's being held against something firm and cool… Spike! She smiles at the realization. He's back… really, really back.
They're both fully dressed, having fallen asleep in the middle of an hours long conversation. They'd agreed that while sex would have been a delightful release, they were too unsure of what they really meant to each other to risk obscuring the exploration with old patterns.
Taking the time to see the man in her arms, Buffy started from the top. Beautiful mess of bedhead curls, long, sooty eyelashes quivering as he dreamed, beautiful lips still slightly swollen from the one physical act they allowed themselves. Strong arms encircling her waist, angry pink scars running around both forearms… reminding her of what was almost lost. She would never take comfort in his arms again without being grateful.
Such a new thing for them… restraint, and not in that hands chained overhead to the bedboard kind of way. To look and to see, to observe and to feel... to connect.
This time, it would be real.
