The Gift
Journal entry June 5th 2005.
Today was the day. Kim wanted to give me my graduation gift early for some reason. We were at Bueno Nacho when she handed me the box.
"Kind of small isn't it KP?" I asked as I took it in my hand.
"Its what's inside that matters Ron."
I tore off the wrapping paper and opened the box. What did I find inside?
"It's a condom Ron. For our first time." She smiled.
"What do you mean Kim?"
"I know you probably weren't expecting this but I wanted my first time to be with someone special, someone that I could trust to treat me right."
So naturally she had come to me, her best friend. Did she seriously believe that she was going to be my first? I never told her how many times Zita and I hooked up when we were dating. Or how I was currently involved with one of her fellow cheerleaders. What was she going to do use me for practice? To make herself feel better when she went to Josh.
"I…uh. When did you want to do this KP?" I had to keep myself from laughing, while sounding as inept as I could.
"How about tonight Ron? My mom and Dad are gone, and the tweebs, well I can send them away to a movie or something." She sounded excited.
"Make it tomorrow night Kim, come over to my place, say around 7. My folks will be out of town so you don't have to worry about knocking, just come in. I'll be waiting in my room for you."
June 6th 2005
She was as punctual as ever, right on 7 o'clock. She walked into my room, trying to be sultry or something really swaying her hips. It was funny to see her acting like this since she never did around me before. I was sitting on the edge of the bed fully dressed, which probably shocked her. I guess she expected me to be standing there with my cock in my hand ready for action.
"What's up Ron? Why are you still dressed?"
Typical Kim, can't see what's right in front of her. "Kim, I wanted to make this a special night not just a wham bam thank you ma'am. Why don't you dance a bit? Get me in the mood."
"You need to be in the mood for this?" She moved her hand up and down over her body.
"Just trying to do my part Kim, I want this night to be perfect."
She got my meaning she started to dance around a little putting her hands all over her body, rubbing herself and pulling her clothes off. I hoped she wouldn't notice the web cam I had setup on my computer. She didn't. She had herself most of the way undressed and I have to say I was actually getting turned on. She could tell and moved in closer, on her knees between my legs. Her face was right up in my crotch, I figured that would be a good time to ask.
"Kim do you love me?" That's a sure fire buzz kill for sex.
"Ron. I wasn't sure of it before but, I realize now that I do. I do love you."
I made my move, held out my left hand letting the condom package dangle between my fingertips. She licked her lips, smiling a little smile. That quickly faded when she watched me crumple the package in my fist and toss it in the trashcan.
"What? Why did you do that Ron?"
"Get dressed and get out. Out of my room and out of my life." Sure it was harsh but she deserved it.
She started to cry. "Ron why are you doing this? I thought you loved me too."
"I did love you, once. But that was a long time ago."
"…"
"you remember the day don't you?"
She didn't. So I refreshed her memory.
"The day outside the theatre, before I dated Zita. You said it so well - 'you and me…on a date?' Like I was some sort of fucking leper, a pariah to be shunned."
"Ron…please."
"Goodbye Kim. Now get OUT!"
She grabbed up her clothes and ran out of my room. I don't know if she even stopped to get dressed before she ran outside. That would have been a sight to see, little miss perfect running down the street naked and crying.
Of course I'll always have the video, and the look on her face at graduation when Bonnie told her how much she enjoyed the show. Maybe I shouldn't have sent that video to Rockwaller, but I couldn't resist.
Well that's it for this entry maybe I'll write some more later.
