The sunlight had long spilt over the edge of Raven's window, but only
now did she realize it.
Raven leaned up, an immediate pain drilling into her brain. She massaged her temples, moaning softly.
Someone had removed her cape, leaving her long sleeved shirt (A/N: Shirt? Oh I don't know what it is.) underneath. It was hanging on a hook nearby the door. Only then did Raven realize she was in her own room.
"Boy am I lucky to be here." Raven muttered, the sound of her own voice sending tendrils of pain shooting through her head. Along with the pain came a swarm of images that flooded into her mind, momentarily drowning out her thoughts. The fight played over and over, until she finally drove it away.
"I need air." She moaned slowly, standing up and donning her cape. Anything to hide her face would help her now.
She made her way slowly down the hallway, stumbling at first. Her head was floating; it had taken a large amount of energy to produce her raged attack. It was now energy she didn't have.
As she made her way across the hall to the kitchen something stopped her. A hulking Cyborg was in her way, eyeing her thoughtfully. Behind him the toaster glowed, casting an almost sinister red light behind him.
'Who knew a toaster could look so scary.' The voice mumbled softly inside of her.
'Be quiet. You've done enough already." Raven answered back inside of her own mind.
"Did you go along with him? I mean, he really wasn't forcing you to do that?" Cyborg asked softly.
Raven dropped her head and nodded. "Who stopped me?" she asked after a moment, ignoring Cyborg's words as they burned into her mind.
"Beast Boy did." Cyborg said after a moment. (A/N: Sorry guys, some of you thought it was Robin but I don't write RobinXRaven fics, I don't like that pairing. Sorry)—"Then you pretty much blacked out, so he took you up to your room while Robin led us on a wild goose chase for Slade."
Raven shrugged, Cyborg continuing to stare at her. Raven despised the stare, she felt so guilty. She needed something to get rid of that horrible stare.
Her attention centered on the toaster, summoning power into her mind she focused on the knob of the toaster, pushing it up. The toaster flipped upwards, spitting toast out the top. Cyborg turned around, going to prepare his toast.
Raven flew from the room, hoping desperately not to run into any more of the Titans. Questions bothered her.
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Spitting the toothpaste froth from his brushed fangs Beast Boy straightened up, smiling at his reflection in the mirror.
He turned and exited his bathroom, glancing out a nearby window which cast light upon his cluttered room. His window faced the front of Titan Tower, showing the waves crashing against the weather worn rocks. There he spotted Raven. She was meditating by the troubled shore meditating a few feet off the ground in her cross-legged position, her back faced to his window.
"She's gotta be feelin' pretty bad." Beast Boy said to himself softly. He reasoned out immense pain and guilty feelings in his brain, then decided he would go see Raven. Maybe she wouldn't be so mad at him.
Beast Boy flung himself out the door, scrambling out the hall way and rushing around the corner. He passed Starfire, who was continuously knocking on Raven's door to her empty room in the hall. He blew past Cyborg who was closely inspecting the toaster.
He opened the doors quietly, softly padding to Raven. Once he was a few feet from her he stopped, wary of how Raven would react.
"Raven?" he called, taking a few more steps forward, "What are ya doin'?
"What does it look like I'm doing?" Raven growled. She drifted slowly to the ground, landing in the same sitting position as she had been in the air.
"You.... Err.... Feeling all right?" he asked, stepping close enough to put his hand on her shoulder. He did not, however, remembering the night that she had left.
"Yes, I guess I am, but......" she trailed off, removing her hood. Her eyes were downcast. She sighed slowly.
"But what?" Beast Boy asked, sitting down beside her. For once she didn't pull away, didn't yell at him or make a snide comment about anyone. In fact, she didn't seem to care.
"Everyone's mad at me, aren't they?" Raven asked softly. She didn't look up, but instead stared at her hands.
Beast Boy was taken back by this question. This wasn't Raven. Raven kept to herself mostly, and the only questions she asked were laced with sarcasm.
"Nah," Beast Boy lied," Everyone forgives you."
"I ran in to Cyborg on the way here." Raven said, narrowing her eyes at him," Do you really think that I'm that clueless?"
"Oh." Beast Boy shrugged apologetically," Well, maybe they are still are a bit mad at you, but they'll forgive you. And besides, I'm not mad at you."
"I feel so relieved." Raven scoffed, rolling her eyes. Yet for a split second she smiled.
"No, but seriously." Beast Boy asked, more pressing this time," What's on your mind?"
Raven was silent for a moment, her face unmoving, her emotions masked by her stoic face. Then it broke, the corners of her eyes pulling up.
"When Robin was apprenticed to Slade he resisted. He didn't want to do it. But I went along willingly. I didn't even protest!" Raven said her voice at almost a yelling pitch.
Beast Boy stayed silent, watching Raven cautiously. It was either interrupt her and make her angry with him, or let her simmer down so he could talk to her. Frankly, he'd rather not get hurt.
Raven took a deep breath and leaned back on her hands. "I should have drove you away so I could meditate more." She mumbled, more of an apology than anything else.
Beast Boy looked at her sadly. He put his hand over Raven's which rested on the rock. Surprisingly she didn't pull away.
"So you made a mistake," Beast Boy said," Everyone does, at least I do, all the time. They'll forget eventually."
"But I made a big mistake." Raven said softly, looking down at his hand on hers," Robin must be mad."
"Well, you did lose on of his long pole thingummies. But I think he has an infinite supply of them so I don't think he'll mind that much." Beast Boy shrugs.
"Don't be stupid. I mean how mad at me is he about Slade?" Raven growled, suppressing a small laugh," He has to be fuming."
"He'll get over it. I think he realizes how bad you feel. And besides, you did fight against Slade afterwards, which has to count for something." Beast Boy shrugs.
"By the way, thanks. You know, for stopping me." Raven said sheepishly, looking rather embarrassed.
"No sweat. You would have to run out of things to throw eventually. I was afraid one of us was gettin' flung next." Beast Boy chuckled," And besides, what are friends for?"
Raven nodded blankly, a smile gracing the tip of her lips. However, her violet eyes were sad, radiating with remembrance as images flashed through her mind.
Beast Boy put his arm around her, trying to comfort her in any way he could. He hated the look on her face. The smile was so blank and desolate. He pulled her closer in, and to his surprise she didn't resist.
'Push him and dump a rock on him.' The voice commanded, a touch of anger echoing it.
'Shut up.' Raven yelled at the voice inside of herself.
For once she felt secure; with his heart beat so close to her ear. For once it actually seemed to her that someone cared.
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Cyborg ground his teeth on a piece of burnt toast. The toaster hadn't been working well, so he had put it in for longer. When it had caught on fire he had sort of gotten the drift.
He looked out the window and froze. Down on the rocks were beast Boy and Raven, sitting close together. She was leaning on him, and he had his arm around her. Most of all, he wasn't dead.
"No way." He mumbled to himself, rubbing his eyes to make sure what he was seeing was real. "Man," he mumbled to himself," I gotta get me a dog or something. Soon I'm gonna be left alone."
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But down on the rocks Raven never would have dreamed anyone was watching her. In fact, she was perfectly comfortable where she was. How would Slade had put it, 'Good for what ails you.'
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A/N: So that's it. There's my story. Sorry it took forever to get this chapter up. People kept bothering me. No names mentioned, you know who you are Amy and Mike. No back talk, I don't want to hear it. People called for a mushy last chapter and there it was. Some people will criticize, and I respect that. By the way, keep an eye for a sequel to this story entitled 'Submission.' Basically it's the aftermath of this story. How Raven tries to gain the trust of the Titans back, and how she finally falls prey for what she's kept hidden for so long. Unfortunately an old pain of hers comes back with a vengeance. Can't reveal too much, but it will hopefully be good. Hope you enjoyed it.
The GhostWriter
(Maybe I should change the unappreciated part?)
Raven leaned up, an immediate pain drilling into her brain. She massaged her temples, moaning softly.
Someone had removed her cape, leaving her long sleeved shirt (A/N: Shirt? Oh I don't know what it is.) underneath. It was hanging on a hook nearby the door. Only then did Raven realize she was in her own room.
"Boy am I lucky to be here." Raven muttered, the sound of her own voice sending tendrils of pain shooting through her head. Along with the pain came a swarm of images that flooded into her mind, momentarily drowning out her thoughts. The fight played over and over, until she finally drove it away.
"I need air." She moaned slowly, standing up and donning her cape. Anything to hide her face would help her now.
She made her way slowly down the hallway, stumbling at first. Her head was floating; it had taken a large amount of energy to produce her raged attack. It was now energy she didn't have.
As she made her way across the hall to the kitchen something stopped her. A hulking Cyborg was in her way, eyeing her thoughtfully. Behind him the toaster glowed, casting an almost sinister red light behind him.
'Who knew a toaster could look so scary.' The voice mumbled softly inside of her.
'Be quiet. You've done enough already." Raven answered back inside of her own mind.
"Did you go along with him? I mean, he really wasn't forcing you to do that?" Cyborg asked softly.
Raven dropped her head and nodded. "Who stopped me?" she asked after a moment, ignoring Cyborg's words as they burned into her mind.
"Beast Boy did." Cyborg said after a moment. (A/N: Sorry guys, some of you thought it was Robin but I don't write RobinXRaven fics, I don't like that pairing. Sorry)—"Then you pretty much blacked out, so he took you up to your room while Robin led us on a wild goose chase for Slade."
Raven shrugged, Cyborg continuing to stare at her. Raven despised the stare, she felt so guilty. She needed something to get rid of that horrible stare.
Her attention centered on the toaster, summoning power into her mind she focused on the knob of the toaster, pushing it up. The toaster flipped upwards, spitting toast out the top. Cyborg turned around, going to prepare his toast.
Raven flew from the room, hoping desperately not to run into any more of the Titans. Questions bothered her.
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Spitting the toothpaste froth from his brushed fangs Beast Boy straightened up, smiling at his reflection in the mirror.
He turned and exited his bathroom, glancing out a nearby window which cast light upon his cluttered room. His window faced the front of Titan Tower, showing the waves crashing against the weather worn rocks. There he spotted Raven. She was meditating by the troubled shore meditating a few feet off the ground in her cross-legged position, her back faced to his window.
"She's gotta be feelin' pretty bad." Beast Boy said to himself softly. He reasoned out immense pain and guilty feelings in his brain, then decided he would go see Raven. Maybe she wouldn't be so mad at him.
Beast Boy flung himself out the door, scrambling out the hall way and rushing around the corner. He passed Starfire, who was continuously knocking on Raven's door to her empty room in the hall. He blew past Cyborg who was closely inspecting the toaster.
He opened the doors quietly, softly padding to Raven. Once he was a few feet from her he stopped, wary of how Raven would react.
"Raven?" he called, taking a few more steps forward, "What are ya doin'?
"What does it look like I'm doing?" Raven growled. She drifted slowly to the ground, landing in the same sitting position as she had been in the air.
"You.... Err.... Feeling all right?" he asked, stepping close enough to put his hand on her shoulder. He did not, however, remembering the night that she had left.
"Yes, I guess I am, but......" she trailed off, removing her hood. Her eyes were downcast. She sighed slowly.
"But what?" Beast Boy asked, sitting down beside her. For once she didn't pull away, didn't yell at him or make a snide comment about anyone. In fact, she didn't seem to care.
"Everyone's mad at me, aren't they?" Raven asked softly. She didn't look up, but instead stared at her hands.
Beast Boy was taken back by this question. This wasn't Raven. Raven kept to herself mostly, and the only questions she asked were laced with sarcasm.
"Nah," Beast Boy lied," Everyone forgives you."
"I ran in to Cyborg on the way here." Raven said, narrowing her eyes at him," Do you really think that I'm that clueless?"
"Oh." Beast Boy shrugged apologetically," Well, maybe they are still are a bit mad at you, but they'll forgive you. And besides, I'm not mad at you."
"I feel so relieved." Raven scoffed, rolling her eyes. Yet for a split second she smiled.
"No, but seriously." Beast Boy asked, more pressing this time," What's on your mind?"
Raven was silent for a moment, her face unmoving, her emotions masked by her stoic face. Then it broke, the corners of her eyes pulling up.
"When Robin was apprenticed to Slade he resisted. He didn't want to do it. But I went along willingly. I didn't even protest!" Raven said her voice at almost a yelling pitch.
Beast Boy stayed silent, watching Raven cautiously. It was either interrupt her and make her angry with him, or let her simmer down so he could talk to her. Frankly, he'd rather not get hurt.
Raven took a deep breath and leaned back on her hands. "I should have drove you away so I could meditate more." She mumbled, more of an apology than anything else.
Beast Boy looked at her sadly. He put his hand over Raven's which rested on the rock. Surprisingly she didn't pull away.
"So you made a mistake," Beast Boy said," Everyone does, at least I do, all the time. They'll forget eventually."
"But I made a big mistake." Raven said softly, looking down at his hand on hers," Robin must be mad."
"Well, you did lose on of his long pole thingummies. But I think he has an infinite supply of them so I don't think he'll mind that much." Beast Boy shrugs.
"Don't be stupid. I mean how mad at me is he about Slade?" Raven growled, suppressing a small laugh," He has to be fuming."
"He'll get over it. I think he realizes how bad you feel. And besides, you did fight against Slade afterwards, which has to count for something." Beast Boy shrugs.
"By the way, thanks. You know, for stopping me." Raven said sheepishly, looking rather embarrassed.
"No sweat. You would have to run out of things to throw eventually. I was afraid one of us was gettin' flung next." Beast Boy chuckled," And besides, what are friends for?"
Raven nodded blankly, a smile gracing the tip of her lips. However, her violet eyes were sad, radiating with remembrance as images flashed through her mind.
Beast Boy put his arm around her, trying to comfort her in any way he could. He hated the look on her face. The smile was so blank and desolate. He pulled her closer in, and to his surprise she didn't resist.
'Push him and dump a rock on him.' The voice commanded, a touch of anger echoing it.
'Shut up.' Raven yelled at the voice inside of herself.
For once she felt secure; with his heart beat so close to her ear. For once it actually seemed to her that someone cared.
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Cyborg ground his teeth on a piece of burnt toast. The toaster hadn't been working well, so he had put it in for longer. When it had caught on fire he had sort of gotten the drift.
He looked out the window and froze. Down on the rocks were beast Boy and Raven, sitting close together. She was leaning on him, and he had his arm around her. Most of all, he wasn't dead.
"No way." He mumbled to himself, rubbing his eyes to make sure what he was seeing was real. "Man," he mumbled to himself," I gotta get me a dog or something. Soon I'm gonna be left alone."
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But down on the rocks Raven never would have dreamed anyone was watching her. In fact, she was perfectly comfortable where she was. How would Slade had put it, 'Good for what ails you.'
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A/N: So that's it. There's my story. Sorry it took forever to get this chapter up. People kept bothering me. No names mentioned, you know who you are Amy and Mike. No back talk, I don't want to hear it. People called for a mushy last chapter and there it was. Some people will criticize, and I respect that. By the way, keep an eye for a sequel to this story entitled 'Submission.' Basically it's the aftermath of this story. How Raven tries to gain the trust of the Titans back, and how she finally falls prey for what she's kept hidden for so long. Unfortunately an old pain of hers comes back with a vengeance. Can't reveal too much, but it will hopefully be good. Hope you enjoyed it.
The GhostWriter
(Maybe I should change the unappreciated part?)
