She gets up now with her lunch tray and slowly makes her way to deposit to be washed. One of kids at the popular table tries to trip her but all he manages to do is make her stumble. Her reflex's are too good for her to fall. She looks into his playful blue eyes and glares which to her surprise widens so she quickly shifts her gaze and continues. Hearing the sounds behind with words like "Freak, Loser, What a nutcase". She takes a deep breathe to avoid going over there to confront them her way and takes another step. She starts muttering to herself "Your better than them, don't go over there, deep breathe." She deposits her tray and walks slowly out of the cafeteria.

She first heads to the toilet to calm herself down and stays in there for five minutes before heading to her final destination.

The library is refuge where no one seems to go often. When she walks in it iss peacefully quiet and she smiles at a way to annoy Giles. She opens her mouth and says loudly "Hey G man what's ya up to, big bad in, or just more big pointless research." Giles looks up from the table and clears his throat and takes his glasses to clean them and says " Buffy I have told you time and again not to call me that." She smirks at him and says "Yeah well what can I say, I just love to annoy you." She slumps in the chair opposite to him and watches him continue to translate a book. She sighs and says "You gonna tell me what I am fighting or am I just gonna sit here looking pretty." He clears his throaht once again and looks up at the stacks and back at Buffy again who is suddenly looking embarrassed at what the watcher is implying. She whispers quickly "Is someone in here because that has never happened when I am in here". When she finish she hears the voice before she sees the owner of it. He says " Well Well Summers actually has a voice and much to contary belief the library doesn't belong to you". Spike walks out holding a book and goes over their table with a smirk on his face. She looks down and says "Hi Will". His smirk very quickly fades and says "Its Spike now, Summers best you remember that. Come on now book scan, need my bloody fag before class." She looks up and there is a spark in her eye and she says in her best library voice "My name isn't summers (before he opens his mouth she continues) it isn't freak, or loser, or nutcase, it isn't anything you or your (does quotation marks in the air) friends come up with. IT is Buffy you remembered it when you were 13 are you having trouble with it now?". Instead of loseing his smirk as expected, it became more of a grin as he said "Well hmm Buffy I seem to remember when you were 11 and wanted to be Jane so you sure you are Buffy, You forget I know you".

She looks into his smirk and tried not to show all her emotions and said quietly "You really don't". This time his smirk fades and says "Yeah well you don't know me ethier". She smiles and says "Oh yes I do. You underneath all this façade are still the same person as I knew. You put up this show of being a egotistical, conniving, mean, doesn't care about anyone but Drusilla, prick but under all that you are still the William who climbed up my terrace when his mum died and cried himself to sleep in my arms. You are still that person who protected me when my dad decided to become violent and then left my mum. But you know what you weren't there when something you could never even fathome happened to me on my 13th birthday, you weren't there to comfort me when I cried myself to sleep, you weren't there when I had to cover the bruises or go to the doctors to get pills to help me sleep while at the same time lying about my age. You weren't there oh wait you were there when I was being teased about the clothes I wore to cover said bruises and now scars. You stopped having the right to talk to me a long time ago. I am 17 years old and I wear these because I am too scared to not. I am not a freak because I don't have friends, I am not a loser because I get good grades. I do those things because I am scared ok." Her face is wet from the tears she cried but she ran from the shocked faces of her former best friend and her watcher.