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Pretty please? With sugar on top? No? Bugger!
A/N: I couldn't leave it like that! Who seriously believes that Spike and Buffy will stay 'just good friends'? (Looks around but doesn't see a single hand in the air) Right, good for you! I promised Spuffy and it will be delivered...eventually!! Yes I know I am evil and nasty and a few other undesirable things but hopefully it will be worth it in the end! And Guess what kiddies! Angel goes bye bye this chapter! What? What do you mean I can't kill him or I can't use AtS references? You're sure? But I can still get rid of him right? Oh thank god! I know I say this every chapter but I really do appreciate the reviews and the reading in general! Sorry this update was a little slower than usual but I'm always soooo busy on Thursdays! The song is goodbye to you by Michelle branch.
Chapter 8: Heartbreak blues
Bring!
Bring!
Bring!
Spike picked up the alarm clock and threw it against the wall.
Bring!
Bring!
Wait! If it wasn't the alarm clock where the hell was that ringing coming from?
BRING!!!!!
Oh right, the phone! Spike looked at his watch through bleary eyes. Who the hell would call him at six in the morning? The sun had just come up and all self-respecting vampires were fast asleep.
BRING!!!!!!!!!!
It felt like the phone was practically yelling at him! He fumbled around on the bedside table for a few moments before finding his cell.
"Wah?" Spike mumbled sleepily into the receiver.
"Spike?" inquired a small voice, thick with tears. Spike was instantly awake, pulling himself into a sitting position and rubbing his eyes.
"Slayer, what's wrong? Has something happened?" He asked, worry evident in his voice.
"Angel." Was all he received as a reply before Buffy was taken over by a fit of sobbing. Spike tried to calm her, whispering soothing words and shush noises. He knew his ponce of a grandsire wasn't dead, he'd have felt it if that were the case. Granted their bond wasn't particularly strong anymore, but he still would have known. That meant that the harsh sobs coming out of the slayer meant only one thing – the bastard had gone and broken her heart all over again! Spike seethed at the thought that the big brooder had probably done it out of some misguided sense of nobility. It made him want to throw up...then tear the wanker a new one! He had a feeling however, that the slayer wouldn't appreciate the string of expletives that wanted to burst forth from his lips. Instead he just waited for her to tell him the whole story...
It had taken nearly two hours to drag everything out of her, and Spike felt no satisfaction when he found his original assessment of the situation had been pretty near dead on. He'd offered to torture Angel for her; only half joking, and he had at least gotten a weak chuckle for his efforts, but she had declined.
"It's not fair Spike." She was sniffling now. "What right does he have to make my decisions for me?"
"None at all ducks! The poof's always been like this – thinkin' he knows what's best and sod everyone else!" And it was true of both the souled and evil version –one of the many things that Spike hated about Angel. The list was becoming quite extensive!
"Do you think...was it..." Buffy trailed off and Spike waited patiently for her to finish. What she did finally say however, made Spike want to hunt the ponce down and rip him limb from limb!
"Do think it was something I did? Was it something about me?" she mumbled quietly.
"Don't you dear ever think any bloody thing of the sort slayer!" Spike practically shouted, furious that she could think such a thing. "Any bloke would be lucky to have you, and if he's a stupid enough wanker to let you go then he's the biggest fool on the face of the earth! You've done nothing to deserve this!"
Buffy sighed sadly. "You have to say that, you're my best friend."
"I'm evil pet!" Spike reminded her yet again. "I don't have to say anything I don't want to."
"You really think that?" she asked, and Spike was sure he detected the barest hint of hope in her voice.
"Luv, you're the hottest bird I know! And you actually have a personality to go with it!" He could hear her smiling on the other end of the line.
"Really?" She asked
"Well yeah!" He said, then added with a smile "Of course I don't actually know that many people but..."
"Hey!" protested the slayer, and then she laughed.
"I'm serious Buffy." He said, his tone becoming very sincere, using the name he so rarely called her for added emphasis. "You have nothing to reproach yourself for, don't let the bastard break you!"
"Thanks Spike." She said, and he could tell she was beginning to cheer up. "You always know what to say."
"Yeah well, don't tell anyone. I have a reputation to protect you know!" He told her gruffly, embarrassed at the praise.
"Okay." She laughed, "I won't tell anyone the Big Bad is really a Big Softie!"
"Thanks ever so!" he replied sarcastically...
"Spike?" She asked after several more minutes of banter.
"Yeah?"
"Will you come to Sunnydale and see me?" She asked hesitantly, knowing that it was a lot to ask.
Spike took a deep breath before answering. He hadn't been back to Sunnydale since he'd found out that Angel had come back. He'd been slowly putting himself back together over the last few months. He'd even managed to move back into his own room, but would he be able to hold himself together back in the town that had torn his unlife apart? The internal debate didn't last long however, he never could say no to the slayer. "Sure ducks, when do you want me to come down?"
"Well..." she paused to think, "we have a slight ascension going on at the moment, and Angel's not leaving town until that's over with...so I guess sometime during the summer would be best. A couple of weeks maybe?"
"Okay slayer, I guess I'll be seeing you then." Spike hoped his nervousness didn't show through his voice. If it did, Buffy gave no indication that she'd noticed.
"Yeah. I've missed having you around." She told him.
Spike smiled "I've missed you too!"
//Of all the things I've believed in//
//I just want to get it over with//
//Tears form behind my eyes//
//But I do not cry//
//Counting the days that pass me by//
Buffy watched the man she had loved for the last three years walk away from the charred remains of what used to be her high school, doing that walking into the wind thing she was so good at. *Poncey bugger* she could almost hear Spike think. It was easier to think in Spikisms, a lot less painful too!
//I've been searching deep down in my soul//
//Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old//
//It feels like I'm starting all over again//
//The last three years were just pretend//
Part of her hadn't truly believed he would leave, that he wouldn't change his mind at the last minute, run to her and tell her it had all been some really horrible joke. But there he was, walking away from her!
//And I said//
//Goodbye to you//
//Goodbye to everything//
//I thought I knew//
//You were the one I loved//
//The one thing that//
//I tried to hold on to//
*Guess you didn't know him as well as you thought you did huh?* said that oh so annoying little voice in the back of her head – the one dubbed Faith! She'd given him everything, hear body, her heart...hell she'd even given him her blood at the end...and still he walked away!
//I used to get lost in your eyes//
//And it seems that I can't live a day without you//
//Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away//
//To a place where I am blinded by the light//
//But it's not right//
No, it wasn't right! How could he claim she was the love of his life and leave her regardless of her own thoughts and feelings? Spike was right, there was definitely something wrong with that little equation – 'I love you so I'm leaving you!'
//Goodbye to you//
//Goodbye to everything//
//I thought I knew//
//You were the one I loved//
//The one thing that//
//I tried to hold on to//
She couldn't see him anymore, she couldn't even sense any vamps anywhere near at all. She wondered if she kept staring at the space she had seen him disappear he might suddenly reappear. *Yeah right, and denial is just a river in Egypt!*
//And it hurts to want everything//
//And nothing at the same time//
//I want what's yours//
//And I want what's mine//
//I want you//
//But I'm not giving in this time//
Finally she turned and headed in search of the scoobies. It was time for post-apocalypse celebrations. Sure Angel was gone, but they had all survived! *And hey, check out the lack of quivering wreck this time round!* Spike was right, once again – She was strong enough to get through this!
//Goodbye to you//
//Goodbye to everything//
//I thought I knew//
//You were the one I loved//
//The one thing that//
//I tried to hold on to//
//The one thing that//
//I tried to hold on to//
With that her thoughts turned away from the depression that was Angel and concentrated on the excitement she felt knowing she was going to see her best friend again soon. She looked at the ring that now never left her finger, a grin spread from ear to ear.
//And when the stars fall//
//I will lie awake//
//You're my shooting star//
A/N: I know that was kind of an Angel heavy chapter but he's gone now...although I can't promise he'll vanish into oblivion, I may have use for him yet. But never fear – I'm all about the Spuffy! Love you all your lovely reviews – more ASAP, promise!
A/N: I couldn't leave it like that! Who seriously believes that Spike and Buffy will stay 'just good friends'? (Looks around but doesn't see a single hand in the air) Right, good for you! I promised Spuffy and it will be delivered...eventually!! Yes I know I am evil and nasty and a few other undesirable things but hopefully it will be worth it in the end! And Guess what kiddies! Angel goes bye bye this chapter! What? What do you mean I can't kill him or I can't use AtS references? You're sure? But I can still get rid of him right? Oh thank god! I know I say this every chapter but I really do appreciate the reviews and the reading in general! Sorry this update was a little slower than usual but I'm always soooo busy on Thursdays! The song is goodbye to you by Michelle branch.
Chapter 8: Heartbreak blues
Bring!
Bring!
Bring!
Spike picked up the alarm clock and threw it against the wall.
Bring!
Bring!
Wait! If it wasn't the alarm clock where the hell was that ringing coming from?
BRING!!!!!
Oh right, the phone! Spike looked at his watch through bleary eyes. Who the hell would call him at six in the morning? The sun had just come up and all self-respecting vampires were fast asleep.
BRING!!!!!!!!!!
It felt like the phone was practically yelling at him! He fumbled around on the bedside table for a few moments before finding his cell.
"Wah?" Spike mumbled sleepily into the receiver.
"Spike?" inquired a small voice, thick with tears. Spike was instantly awake, pulling himself into a sitting position and rubbing his eyes.
"Slayer, what's wrong? Has something happened?" He asked, worry evident in his voice.
"Angel." Was all he received as a reply before Buffy was taken over by a fit of sobbing. Spike tried to calm her, whispering soothing words and shush noises. He knew his ponce of a grandsire wasn't dead, he'd have felt it if that were the case. Granted their bond wasn't particularly strong anymore, but he still would have known. That meant that the harsh sobs coming out of the slayer meant only one thing – the bastard had gone and broken her heart all over again! Spike seethed at the thought that the big brooder had probably done it out of some misguided sense of nobility. It made him want to throw up...then tear the wanker a new one! He had a feeling however, that the slayer wouldn't appreciate the string of expletives that wanted to burst forth from his lips. Instead he just waited for her to tell him the whole story...
It had taken nearly two hours to drag everything out of her, and Spike felt no satisfaction when he found his original assessment of the situation had been pretty near dead on. He'd offered to torture Angel for her; only half joking, and he had at least gotten a weak chuckle for his efforts, but she had declined.
"It's not fair Spike." She was sniffling now. "What right does he have to make my decisions for me?"
"None at all ducks! The poof's always been like this – thinkin' he knows what's best and sod everyone else!" And it was true of both the souled and evil version –one of the many things that Spike hated about Angel. The list was becoming quite extensive!
"Do you think...was it..." Buffy trailed off and Spike waited patiently for her to finish. What she did finally say however, made Spike want to hunt the ponce down and rip him limb from limb!
"Do think it was something I did? Was it something about me?" she mumbled quietly.
"Don't you dear ever think any bloody thing of the sort slayer!" Spike practically shouted, furious that she could think such a thing. "Any bloke would be lucky to have you, and if he's a stupid enough wanker to let you go then he's the biggest fool on the face of the earth! You've done nothing to deserve this!"
Buffy sighed sadly. "You have to say that, you're my best friend."
"I'm evil pet!" Spike reminded her yet again. "I don't have to say anything I don't want to."
"You really think that?" she asked, and Spike was sure he detected the barest hint of hope in her voice.
"Luv, you're the hottest bird I know! And you actually have a personality to go with it!" He could hear her smiling on the other end of the line.
"Really?" She asked
"Well yeah!" He said, then added with a smile "Of course I don't actually know that many people but..."
"Hey!" protested the slayer, and then she laughed.
"I'm serious Buffy." He said, his tone becoming very sincere, using the name he so rarely called her for added emphasis. "You have nothing to reproach yourself for, don't let the bastard break you!"
"Thanks Spike." She said, and he could tell she was beginning to cheer up. "You always know what to say."
"Yeah well, don't tell anyone. I have a reputation to protect you know!" He told her gruffly, embarrassed at the praise.
"Okay." She laughed, "I won't tell anyone the Big Bad is really a Big Softie!"
"Thanks ever so!" he replied sarcastically...
"Spike?" She asked after several more minutes of banter.
"Yeah?"
"Will you come to Sunnydale and see me?" She asked hesitantly, knowing that it was a lot to ask.
Spike took a deep breath before answering. He hadn't been back to Sunnydale since he'd found out that Angel had come back. He'd been slowly putting himself back together over the last few months. He'd even managed to move back into his own room, but would he be able to hold himself together back in the town that had torn his unlife apart? The internal debate didn't last long however, he never could say no to the slayer. "Sure ducks, when do you want me to come down?"
"Well..." she paused to think, "we have a slight ascension going on at the moment, and Angel's not leaving town until that's over with...so I guess sometime during the summer would be best. A couple of weeks maybe?"
"Okay slayer, I guess I'll be seeing you then." Spike hoped his nervousness didn't show through his voice. If it did, Buffy gave no indication that she'd noticed.
"Yeah. I've missed having you around." She told him.
Spike smiled "I've missed you too!"
//Of all the things I've believed in//
//I just want to get it over with//
//Tears form behind my eyes//
//But I do not cry//
//Counting the days that pass me by//
Buffy watched the man she had loved for the last three years walk away from the charred remains of what used to be her high school, doing that walking into the wind thing she was so good at. *Poncey bugger* she could almost hear Spike think. It was easier to think in Spikisms, a lot less painful too!
//I've been searching deep down in my soul//
//Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old//
//It feels like I'm starting all over again//
//The last three years were just pretend//
Part of her hadn't truly believed he would leave, that he wouldn't change his mind at the last minute, run to her and tell her it had all been some really horrible joke. But there he was, walking away from her!
//And I said//
//Goodbye to you//
//Goodbye to everything//
//I thought I knew//
//You were the one I loved//
//The one thing that//
//I tried to hold on to//
*Guess you didn't know him as well as you thought you did huh?* said that oh so annoying little voice in the back of her head – the one dubbed Faith! She'd given him everything, hear body, her heart...hell she'd even given him her blood at the end...and still he walked away!
//I used to get lost in your eyes//
//And it seems that I can't live a day without you//
//Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away//
//To a place where I am blinded by the light//
//But it's not right//
No, it wasn't right! How could he claim she was the love of his life and leave her regardless of her own thoughts and feelings? Spike was right, there was definitely something wrong with that little equation – 'I love you so I'm leaving you!'
//Goodbye to you//
//Goodbye to everything//
//I thought I knew//
//You were the one I loved//
//The one thing that//
//I tried to hold on to//
She couldn't see him anymore, she couldn't even sense any vamps anywhere near at all. She wondered if she kept staring at the space she had seen him disappear he might suddenly reappear. *Yeah right, and denial is just a river in Egypt!*
//And it hurts to want everything//
//And nothing at the same time//
//I want what's yours//
//And I want what's mine//
//I want you//
//But I'm not giving in this time//
Finally she turned and headed in search of the scoobies. It was time for post-apocalypse celebrations. Sure Angel was gone, but they had all survived! *And hey, check out the lack of quivering wreck this time round!* Spike was right, once again – She was strong enough to get through this!
//Goodbye to you//
//Goodbye to everything//
//I thought I knew//
//You were the one I loved//
//The one thing that//
//I tried to hold on to//
//The one thing that//
//I tried to hold on to//
With that her thoughts turned away from the depression that was Angel and concentrated on the excitement she felt knowing she was going to see her best friend again soon. She looked at the ring that now never left her finger, a grin spread from ear to ear.
//And when the stars fall//
//I will lie awake//
//You're my shooting star//
A/N: I know that was kind of an Angel heavy chapter but he's gone now...although I can't promise he'll vanish into oblivion, I may have use for him yet. But never fear – I'm all about the Spuffy! Love you all your lovely reviews – more ASAP, promise!
