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Grissom gently wiped the tears away from her eyes, 'Please don't cry. Talk to me.. Please Ally' His hand reached up to push her hair behind her ear. 'Tell me why?'.

'Why what?' she replied turning away from him, unable to meet his gaze.

'Why did you shut me out after...'. He swallowed. 'after he died.'

'You didn't understand Gil, you don't know what it was like for me' her eyes closed. She could still see him in her mind.

'It hurt me too..' He reached across to stroke her hair. 'I loved him..' He started, swallowing hard, tears welling up in his eyes. 'Did you know that?'

Alek turned to face him. 'I know.' She reached across, her thumb caressed his cheek brushing away the tears. His hand gently held hers his eyes fixed on the scar, remembering the night he got that call all too well. The panic stricken drive to the hospital, where he found her lying in a bed close to death.

'Why did you.' his voice trailed off he couldn't bear to say the words.

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Nick set about making dinner while trying not to picture Sara in the shower. He smiled remembering the events of the past few hours. He was stirring the eggs when he felt someone's hands caressing his backside. 'Sara.. What are you doing?' She responded to his question with a squeeze. He turned to face her pulling her into his arms.

'I was just uh..' She smiled showing the gap in her teeth. 'inspecting your goodies.. I always try before I buy'

Nick smiled 'Oh really, and what do you think?'

Sara smirked her eyes sparkling 'Oh I definitely think I'm interested'

Nick raised his eyebrows, he leaned forward gently pressing his lips on hers. 'mmmm' he moaned as his tongue again explored her mouth, as his hands traveled down to her behind. He gave a gentle squeeze. Sara's eyes opened a look of mock horror on her face. 'What?' Nick said laughing. 'You mean I can't inspect your.. how did you put it? Goodies..'

Sara laughed. 'So goodie boy where is my breakfast?' she teased. 'Well, I was busy cooking it until you decided to try before you buy' Nick replied with a grin.

Sara laughed 'Ok ok.. I'll set the table.' Nick smiled at her, as she bent down to retrieve plates from the cupboard next to the fridge, he couldn't resist pinching her backside. 'Nick!' Sara turned and swatted his hands.

'Well it's ready' Nick carefully divided the omelette between the two plates. They sat in silence eating their food, both pondering the events of the last twelve hours.

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Alekxandra looked at Grissom. 'I shut YOU out?' she said anger flashing in her eyes as she pulled away from him. He looked at her confused. She got off the bed and walked out into the lounge. Grissom followed close behind.

He reached out touching her arm trying to stop her. She pulled away walking over to her keys sitting on his kitchen bench. Grissom followed his hand touched her shoulder and she turned around. He gently but firmly held her by the shoulders. 'Tell me' He said.

'You really want to know?' she practically spat at him. He nodded his eyes frantically searching hers for the answers.

'I tried to help you' His hands rubbed her shoulders.

'Oh is that what you call it?' Alek could feel her blood pressure rising. Grissom looked at her now more confused than ever. 'By sending me to shrinks? By looking at me with pity in your eyes? And by analyzing me so much that I felt like a bug under your fucking microscope?' by now she was yelling at him. She broke from his hold and walked to the door.

'I wanted to help you..' He started before Alek interrupted him.

'I didn't need you to help me or save me or whatever else you were trying to do Gil' she looked at him sadly. 'I needed you to love me' she whispered as she opened the door and walked out leaving Grissom standing open mouthed at her revelation.

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Nick and Sara finished their breakfast and thoughts soon turned to work. Sara spoke first, 'Can we..' She looked at Nick 'keep this to ourselves for a while?'.

Nick looked at her and grinned. 'Why?' he teased 'Afraid Greggo will spit in your coffee?'

Sara laughed 'No. I just want to enjoy this with you alone for a while' she finished looking at Nick shyly. He reached across and held her hands in his nodding. 'We'd better get going' she sighed. Realizing for the first time in months she didn't want to go to work.

'I'll leave first' said Nick grabbing his bag and heading for the door. Sara followed him opening the door, he turned to kiss her goodbye, their lips gently brushing. Sara touched his cheek. 'I'll see you soon' He smiled back got in his Tahoe and headed to the lab. Sara closed the door and followed him a few minutes later.

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Gil Grissom stood staring at his front door, bewildered by what had just transpired. He considered whether or not it was wise to try and find Alekxandra. He sighed knowing all too well that it was better to let her cool down. He looked at his watch. 7.30 might as well go into the lab he thought. He showered and headed out the door.

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Warrick sat in the breakroom talking to Catherine when Sara entered closely followed by Nick. 'Well well' said Catherine 'Nice of you two to join us'

'Hey I'm on time' Nick started. Catherine just laughed.

'Woah settle down there cowboy I was just teasing' she said.

Sara smirked at Nick. 'Where's Grissom?' she asked realizing the shift had started and he was nowhere to be seen.

Warrick grinned 'Probably off racing his bugs or something'

'He's not coming in tonight' Catherine said. The three younger CSI's stared at her in disbelief. 'What? He had something he needed to do.' She stated.

'Right' said Nick.

'Alright let's get this show on the road' Catherine handed Nick and assignment slip. 'You and Warrick have a DB at a house in Henderson, possible robbery gone wrong' Nick and Warrick nodded at her as they headed out the door arguing over who was going to drive.

Sara laughed 'Boys will be boy's' Catherine laughed. 'What am I doing tonight?'

'We've got a case leftover from dayshift' Catherine replied.

'Oh goody. Ecklies leftovers' Sara said.

'Come on we've got an autopsy to attend' Catherine said and the two women headed off to the morgue.

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Grissom arrived at the lab about an hour after the shift started, he slipped into his office virtually unnoticed. He sat in his chair looking at the files spread across his desk, he put on his glasses and began to go over the first file. As hard as he tried to concentrate the words swam in front of his eyes. He removed his glasses and rubbed his eyes as he reached into his drawer for his bottle of Amerge. He looked into the drawer his eyes drawn to a photo long forgotten in the bottom. He threw the pills onto his desk and sat back looking at the photo. It was him and Alek, their arms around each other smiling happily. He sat for a moment staring remembering. Someone at the door shook him out of his thoughts. 'Come in' he said quickly placing the photo back in his drawer.

Catherine opened the door and peered inside. 'You look like shit' she said noticing the bottle of Amerge on his desk. 'I didn't think you were coming in tonight?'

'I wasn't' he said sighing swallowing two pills. Catherine looked at him, he could feel her eyes boring into him.

'What happened now Gil' she said sitting in the chair opposite him.

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