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A/N: hey guys I know it's been a while but lack of inspiration and cruel, sadistic assignment schedules have been taking up most of my time. Hopefully this chapter will make up for my absence! This is DEFINITELY R!!!! Oh and the song is Bring me to life by evanescence.

Chapter 24: Taking back my life

Neither Buffy nor Spike could explain how they had gotten from the door of his crypt down to the lower level and lost all of their clothes in the process without actually having stopped their frantic kissing. This wasn't just a 'God I'm horny!' kiss, or an 'I'm glad to see you!' kiss. This was pure, unadulterated passion. Months of repressed longing and forced abstinence freeing one from the necessity of breathing and the other from worrying about being gentle. Lips were bruised and bitten, tongues duelled furiously, yet despite the fury, neither doubted the fierce love radiating from the other in that kiss.

How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb

When they finally broke apart their foreheads rested together as they stared into each other's eyes, seeing down into the fiery depths that now consumed them both. Buffy had to gasp as she beheld the raging emotions swirling in the blue orbs, darkened with lust and desire.

without a soul

my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home


Spike could look into those eyes forever and never tire of the sight. But now was not the time for lingering gazes and tender 'I love yous'. They'd done all of that already, now it was time to show her just what she did to him.


(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside

(Save me)

Before Buffy knew what was happening she was roughly pushed onto the edge of the bed with a lusty vampire between her legs, eager to get to work. Buffy's eyes were squeezed tightly shut, hands grasping at the sheets. The first brush of his lips made her fall back onto the bed, hips arching towards him with a small whimper. His tongue flicked her throbbing clit, and then ran along both of her feminine lips before thrusting into her hot core. "Please." she begged as his tongue continued to explore. He stopped suddenly only to attack her clit with his blunt teeth and tongue. He latched onto the swollen nub, suckling it, flicking it over and over. She started to move her hips, rubbing against his face as her orgasm built to a fiery crescendo. She flew over the precipice, white lights flashing behind her eyes. So powerful was her climax that she couldn't form a coherent word as a pleasure filled scream tore from her throat. It had definitely been too long!


call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

Spike rose up to smirk at her, male pride spread over his face as he took in the twitching form of the slayer. God she was beautiful after she came…well she was always beautiful, but never had he seen her look more radiant. When she came back to her senses she raised her head to look at him, grinning. "Was that good luv?" He purred, knowing what the answer was. Buffy however didn't answer. Spike was somewhat shocked when she wrapped her legs around his waist and flipped him over her so he landed on the other side of the bed, Buffy now straddling him.

"Very good." Buffy finally breathed, smiling down at him as he gazed up at her, a look of awe on his face. "Now I'm going to show you how good!" Spike's eyes rolled back as Buffy wriggled back, then bending forward she licked the tip of his cock, wrapping her small hand around the base. The low growl of pleasure and the thrusting of his hips was all she needed to know he was enjoying her ministrations. She lavished the tip with her tongue, then sucked it into her mouth.

"Fuck, Buffy" Spike whimpered as she took more of him slowly into her mouth. She began bobbing her head, running her tongue and teeth over him as she tried to pleasure him as he always did her and it wasn't long before "Buffy, I'm cumming" was growled. He tried to pull her away, but Buffy would have none of it, swallowing all he had to offer.

Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

When he had taken the requisite few seconds for his vampire stamina to recover Spike roughly grabbed Buffy by the shoulders and pulled her up for a punishing kiss, each of them tasting themselves as their tongues met.

"Do you have any idea what you do to me?" Spike panted as he finally let Buffy up for air.

"Only the same that you do to me." She breathed in return. She locked her gaze with his once more so he would see the sincerity with which she said these next words. Spike instantly knew what she was going to say was important to her somehow, that she needed to get it out. He just watched and waited. "You make me feel alive Spike." She told him at last. "I've been so numb since I…came back…but when I'm with you it's like I'm more alive than I've ever been, even before I died. I need you. Always."


(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)

"You'll always have me Buffy." Spike replied, reaching up to gently run the backs of his fingers over her cheek. Buffy leaned into his touch and brought her hand up to his, lacing their fingers together. "I'm never going anywhere."

"I know that." She told him gently, "But…" She trailed off, nibbling her lower lip nervously, drawing a frown from Spike.

"But what luv?" He coaxed gently.

Buffy took a deep breath, gathering her courage before she spoke her next words.

"I want you to claim me Spike."


call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

Spike blinked. Very slowly. Had she really just said what he thought she'd said?

"Spike did you hear me?" she asked with a puzzled frown. "I sad I wanted you to claim me."

Fuck yes she really had said it!!!!

She wanted him to claim her, to make her his for as long as they lived…or unlived in his case. In all his years with Dru he'd never claimed her. He'd wanted to but she'd belonged to Angelus…who had never claimed the golden goddess now watching him worriedly for any kind of reaction. Hell yes he wanted to claim her, had ever since he'd realised he was in love with her. But did she know what she was asking?

"Buffy, if I claim you there's no hiding, there's no pretending to the Scooby's that there's nothing between us anymore. It's a permanent thing Buffy…and with the biting it's also kind of visible!" He told her calmly.

Buffy simply smiled. "I know that Spike. That's why I asked. I don't want to hide anymore, I can't hide anymore."

Shocked was an understatement of Spike's reaction. Overjoyed also figured into the equation, but hadn't it only been a week ago that she'd been so eager to avoid the tears and recriminations of going public? "Why now Buffy?" He asked, hoping she'd give him the answer he longed to hear.

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life


"You're the reason I'm alive spike. If not for you I'd be nothing…and I need the world to see that. I need to be with you all the time instead of hiding with you whenever we can escape for five minutes. If we do this then they'll know we're for real." She explained.

"So you just want me to do it to convince your friends I'm not just using you for incredibly wonderful sex?" Spike teased, smirk firmly in place.


Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

"I want it because I love you," She told him firmly, and then seemed to waver. "Unless you don't want to…eep!"

Buffy's sentence was cut off as she was suddenly flipped over onto her back with Spike now pinning her to the bed. Buffy suddenly felt the hardness she had in her mouth moments before now deep within her core. Spike grabbed her hands and pulled them above her head as he thrust into her, capturing both wrists in one hand. He brought his other hand between them, moving down into her folds to stroke her throbbing clit. Already on edge from their heightened emotions, she could feel her climax building already, her head smashing up into the mattress as she yelled out in mindless pleasure. She felt his fangs pierce the delicate skin of her neck as he continued to pump into her, thrusting up into her to the hilt.

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything

The sudden double penetration sparked something in Buffy that she had never felt before. The primal scream was ripped from her throat as the intensity of her climax built into that rarest of all pleasures, the multiple orgasm, shaking her to her very core. Fire works exploded behind her eyes, her limbs became lead and weightless at the same time. She bucked and thrashed beneath him wildly, his hard thrusts never ceasing.


Without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life


Never in his wildest dreams would Spike have ever believed this was possible. The sweet blood of the slayer coursing down his throat yet he didn't want to drain her dry, to extinguish that fire he loved with every fibre of his being. God if he made her feel alive then what the hell was she doing to him? He pumped once, twice more into her white hot core before he was following her into the oblivion induced by mind numbing pleasure, ripping his fangs from her neck as he roared out his release for the world to hear.


(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark

"Mine" He growled against her ear as reality came swimming back, gently lapping at his mark on her neck to close the wound.

"Yours." She breathed in return.

"Always."

"Forever."


(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

It was done. Their second union hadn't been gentle and it hadn't been tender. This time there would be plenty of time for hearts and flowers later. This had been about passion and the totality of their joining, about the power of their love.  He was hers and she was his and nothing could ever come between them again. As Spike shifted back into his human features to gaze at the flushed beauty beneath him, her love for him shining in her eyes, he knew he wouldn't have it any other way.


(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Spike smiled and rolled off of her onto his back, pulling her against him where she pillowed her head on his chest, drawing idle patterns on his cool skin.

"Love you." She mumbled sleepily, the exertion their acts catching up with her at last.

"Love you too kitten." He replied equally as sleepily, squeezing her just that little bit closer for emphasis and placing a soft kiss on the top of her head

"Oh my God!" Came a shocked voice from the steps leading to the upper level. Both Spike and Buffy shot up at the unexpected intrusion, suddenly feeling much more awake.

"Riley?"

A/N: Was that evil? Was that chapter very crap? – I'm not great at smut! I know the whole claiming thing has been done before but I just wanted to emphasise 'yes they do love each other that much!' I'm not planning on making a big deal out of it other than the whole – totally devoted thing…okay I'll stop with the insane rambling now...l love you all and please let me know what you think!