Jakuten

Disclaimer: Don't own DBZ. I only wish I did. I'd be rich! *Grins*

By: Selenity Jade (Jadesama@aol.com)

Chapter Eleven: Hysterics
Rating: R

Buruma sighed irritably as she lay on the beach in front of her capsule house. Bardock and Nappa had disappeared last night, a couple days before she was supposed to go into 'heat' as Vejiita called it. He said it was because she was going to start smelling very good to them and he didn't want them around. Then this morning her stupid mate disappeared with barely a word. He only told her to stay put.

Her tail flicked in the sand beside her and she looked at it curiously. Vejiita hadn't touched her since that night he told her she was going into heat, but she often found him eyeing her blue tail. Maybe it was turning him off or something. She sighed again.

She felt... weird. Restless, irritable, and slightly depressed. She felt energetic and she had the strangest urge to go into the jungle around their houses and hide. She craved red meat, too. That was beyond weird for her, normally she liked her meat very well done.

She frowned. She wanted her mate. She wanted him to touch her, which he wouldn't do. He slept in the same bed, but refused all her advances. It was starting to hurt her terribly. Then he disappeared today. Only said two words to her: stay here.

Did she do something wrong? Was it her blue tail? She glared at the limb that continued to thrash violently in the sand beside her, clearly showing her irritation. She closed her eyes, stretched, and soaked up the warm sunlight.

She must have dozed off, because the next thing she remembered was snapping her eyes open and feeling a strange sense of dread in her stomach. She sat up and looked around warily. She shivered slightly. Something was around there. And it was watching her.

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Vejiita's head snapped up. He growled, feeling his mate's unease and fear. He powered up and leapt into the air, heading for their little island.

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Buruma stared wide-eyed at the large man before her. She tried to smile faintly, backing away, her tail twitching in nervousness. "Um... hi?" she said.

The man smiled cruelly. "Hi."

She cleared her throat. "You, uh, need something?" she asked.

His grin widened. "Glad you asked," he said. He glanced at her tail and blinked. "Blue? You're a Saiyajin!?"

She nodded. "Yes," she said. "Now I am at any rate. What do you want?"

"But I remember you! You were human!"

She nodded. "Yes."

His brow furrowed. "How?"

"A wish was made that kind of went awry."

"Huh?"

"The wish was to make me and my friend age as Saiyajin... it turned us Saiyajin instead. Now, what are you doing here? What do you want?"

He laughed. "Why, I want revenge, of course," he told her. "On that green guy and my brother." He frowned. "They killed me, remember?"

Buruma sighed and opened her mouth to reply, snapping it shut as she glanced out of the corner of her eye, seeing her mate land beside her. "Vejiita," she said softly.

He smirked at her and turned to the unwanted visitor. "Radditzu," he greeted irritated. "I was actually expecting you. After the others showed up, I was surprised it took you so long." Vejiita shook his head. "I *really* want to know how you are doing it."

Radditzu blinked. "Huh? Vejiita-sama? What's going on?"

"Let me guess... you don't know how you got here, just that you are, right?"

Radditzu nodded. "Yes. Did you end up killing my brother?"

Vejiita scowled. "A lot has happened, Radditzu, but now isn't exactly the time." He turned to the blue-haired Saiyajin. "Onna, get on that stupid phone contraption and call Kakarotto. Have him come here."

She nodded and hurried into their capsule house. Vejiita looked away from her and eyed his fellow Saiyajin in disdain.

"She's blue," Radditzu commented.

"No shit," Vejiita sneered.

"This is Earth, is it not? How is it that you did not kill everyone? And why are you having my brother come here?"

Vejiita glowered at the low-class Saiyajin. He hated having to explain his weakness to these idiots. He hated telling them he couldn't defeat the fool Kakarotto. He hated explaining he now had a mate, a blue-haired mate that had once been human. He hated explaining he had chosen her while she was human. He hated explaining at all. "You need to get off this island as soon as possible and Kakarotto is the fastest way," Vejiita said.

"Huh?"

Vejiita growled irritably. "I don't want to explain. Ask your idiotic brother or something," he barked.

"Can I kill him? Please?" Radditzu asked hopefully.

Vejiita chuckled. "I've been trying for years. You won't succeed."

The longhaired Saiyajin blinked. "What? He wouldn't have won against me if it weren't for that stupid green man helping him! How is it possible that you cannot defeat him?"

Vejiita smirked. "You'll see." He tensed as he felt his mate rejoin them. He glanced at her, noticing immediately the slight scent she was giving off. She was close, damn it. Too close. He looked at Radditzu, who appeared to be studying the female. When the larger man's gaze flicked to the Onna's tail, he scowled. He knew the blue limb was entrancing, but did all of them *have* to stare at it? "Well?" he asked her.

"He said he'd be here in a-"

"Hey, Vejiita! Buruma!" a cheery voice exclaimed happily from behind them, causing Buruma to jump in surprise and Vejiita to glare at him. Goku looked at his brother curiously. "Radditzu, you too?"

The longhaired Saiyajin blinked. "Too?"

"Kakarotto, teleport him to Nappa and your father," Vejiita ordered.

Goku blinked and smiled. "Sure, Vejiita." He glanced at Buruma and cocked his head. "You smell good, Buruma," he told her.

Buruma blinked. "Thanks?"

Vejiita growled. "Of course she smells good, fool! She'll be in heat soon. Get. Off. My. Island. Now," he hissed slowly.

Goku smiled happily and moved to walk over to his brother. Radditzu looked at the three of them, his brow furrowed in confusion before his eyes grew wide. "Wait! My father?"

Vejiita rolled his eyes. "Just go! I would like you two away from my mate now."

Radditzu's eyes grew wider. "Your mate?" he squeaked out in surprise, and a little fear. The thought had crossed his mind to take her, after all.

Vejiita attempted to calm his irritation. 'Damn fools.' "Kakarotto, take him and go. Oh, and I'd take your mate away from the others if I were you. She'll be going into heat too."

"She will?"

Buruma noticed Vejiita's jaw clench and decided to interfere before they ended up with an all out fight. "Son-kun, just do as Vejiita asked, please? He's a little grumpy."

"Asked? Buruma, you know he didn't ask. He just demanded," Goku stated happily.

Buruma rolled her eyes. "Son-kun," she warned.

"Okay, okay, I'm going," he said with a wink. He grabbed his brother's arm, much to Radditzu's displeasure, and both disappeared.

Vejiita snorted. "Finally," he muttered to himself before turning to his blue-haired mate. He watched her for a moment and then turned away. "I'll be back."

::Jiita?:: she asked in his mind, clearly sending her nervousness.

He glanced at her questioningly.

::What's wrong?:: she asked softly.

He blinked in surprise. "Wrong? Nothing, Onna. Why?"

She looked away. ::You won't even touch me, Jiita. Before, you couldn't get enough.::

He cocked his head at her. ::Don't be foolish, Onna. Nothing is wrong. You're going into heat,:: he said as if that explained everything.

She frowned. ::What does that have to do with it?::

He blinked again. ::It has everything to do with it, idiot.::

She looked down at her feet. ::But... is something wrong with me?::

His eyes grew wide. "Onna, don't be ridiculous. What's wrong with you? You're never this... insecure," he said gruffly. He then blinked in understanding. "Oh, damn. I forgot. Onna, don't worry so much. It's hormones."

Her head snapped up. "Hormones?" she hissed angrily.

He smirked. "Calm down, idiot," he ordered softly and walked over to her. He leaned down slightly and nipped her nose tenderly. "I forgot the other stuff Saiyajin females go through during this time. No, Onna, I don't want to not touch you. It has nothing to do with you. You are my mate and we have bonded, you'll always be the only female I want. You're going into heat. I have to refrain from mating you until you do. Nothing to worry about."

"Why?"

He growled softly and stepped away from her. "Onna, I'll explain later. I've got to go now."

She glared at him. "Damn it! I'm fucking bored! I haven't seen you in forever! I'm stuck, alone, on this goddamn island! Hell, I was beginning to talk to myself!"

"Look, Onna, I know you're confused and frustrated... and probably horny, too," he muttered. "I will explain. Later. I *really* have to go."

She stomped her foot childishly. "Damn it, Vejiita! I'm lonely! If you leave me here again, I'm getting in my air car and going back to Capsule Corporation. At least there, I have my parents to talk to! It'd be a hell of a lot better than staying on the island with a *mate* I never see, never talk to, and never touch!"

He growled. "Onna, you aren't going anywhere," he told her quietly in that gruff voice of his.

She arched an eyebrow. "Oh, really? What could I possible have here that would make me stay?"

He snarled and stalked over to her again, pressing her against a tree, amazingly gentle. He pressed his body to her. Her eyes widened. "Feel that, Onna?" he hissed, pressing his hips further into hers. "Feel that? I fucking want you, damn it, but I cannot do a damn thing about it. Not now. I have to stay away from you until you go into heat. Understand?" he snarled. She nodded nervously. "You aren't going anywhere. By tomorrow, you'll be too horny to see straight. I want you to stay away from all males, Saiyajin or no. Understand?" She nodded again. "Good," he said softly and slowly released her. "I *need* to go now, Onna. If you want to talk, call me telepathically. You do remember how to do that, don't you?" he mocked gently. To his horror, her eyes filled with tears and she collapsed to her knees. "Onna? What's wrong with you now?"

He heard a soft sniffle and she curled herself into a tight ball. "You hate me," she wailed softly.

He stared at her in surprise. "Stupid! What in the fuck is wrong with you? You know better, Onna! I don't hate you!"

"Yes, you do," she sobbed.

He knelt in front of her. "Onna, why do you say I hate you?" he asked gently, yet gruffly, forcing himself to stay calm. Her tears tore him up inside and he wanted to yell at her, shake her, comfort her, and run the hell away from the irrationally emotional female at his feet. He glanced at the limp tail that lay beside her crumpled form. His frown deepened.

"Because," she said softly. "I'm not good enough! You won't explain things to me! Bardock commented that I should be able to feel you at all times! All times! And I can't! You hate me, that's why I can't feel you, because you block me! Because you hate me!" she wailed.

He stared at his mate, strangely frightened. He knew enough of Saiyajin females going through heats to know this should not be happening. She was *too* emotional and insecure. Sometimes the females were a bit insecure and emotional, but they didn't just break down into a sobbing mess. "Onna?" he whispered. "I don't hate you and I'm not blocking you. I can't block that bond. A Saiyajin cannot block a bond. You are blocking it, Onna. You were human, remember? A Saiyajin lives with telepathy and the bond is natural, to some extent, to us. Humans try to block out foreign thoughts and feelings. You are blocking it, not I. I could not even if I hated you, which I do not."

She wept harder. "Yes, you do. I know you do! You hate me. I'm weak, loud, annoying, and I'm not even a good Saiyajin. I'm blue for shit's sake!" she screamed. "I'm freakish to you."

He stared at his sobbing mate. "Buruma?" he ventured, using her name as he rarely did. "Actually, your coloring is exotic and very much a turn on. Our race is a race of dark colored people. Our hair is always black or dark brown, while our eyes are always black. Your blue tail, eyes, and hair are very unusual, yes, but I do not find you freakish. Just different and it pleases me, Onna."

She wailed again. "No, it doesn't! I saw how the others looked at my tail! It's repulsive!"

Vejiita blinked rapidly in complete surprise. He had been unusually gentle and nice to her, and he wasn't normally, mate or no, but he was trying to be careful of her mating hormones. But, even with hormones, it should have calmed her by now! What was wrong with her? He was beginning to get scared. Actually frightened for his mate, for him. Hormones would make her emotional, maybe bitchy, but not completely make her a different person! He steeled himself and grabbed her tail gently, much to her surprise. "Onna, your tail is not repulsive. It's beautiful. Stop crying," he ordered softly.

She started to cry harder. "No!" she screeched, causing Vejiita to wince. She yanked her tail away from him and ran into the forest. He watched after her for a moment, his brow furrowed. This was not his Onna. She had her moments of emotional weakness, but she had been inconsolable. He glanced at their capsule house and frowned. She would be fine in the forest for the moment, he decided. He had long ago made sure no large predators were on the island, worried for his mate. She wasn't a fighter and he didn't want to come back one day to find her in the stomach of one of those giant lizard-like dinosaurs.

He took a deep breath and walked towards the house, steeling himself for what he was about to do. He didn't like it and for anybody but his Onna, he wouldn't even dream of doing this. But, damn it if he wasn't scared to death. Something was wrong with her. Maybe it was because she wasn't used to coming into heat, once being human and all, and it's completely messing up her mind.

He opened the door to the capsule house and made his way to the kitchen. He stared at the contraption that hung on the wall before scowling and picking it up. He pressed a few, never before used by him, buttons that he did know, despite his aversion to this thing. He hated phones. Besides, whom the hell did he want to call? He was the Saiyajin no Ouji. He didn't need anyone.

Except your mate, his mind reminded him. He scowled.

The other end rang twice before someone answered it. "Hello?" a young voice sounded to him.

"Brat, get Kakarotto," he ordered gruffly.

"Vejiita?"

"Of course, idiot," he growled.

"I didn't know you knew how to use the phone, let alone actually knew our number," the boy said in confusion.

"Brat, I'm not in the mood. Get. Kakarotto. Now!" he snarled.

"Okay, okay," he muttered. "Hold on." Pause. "DAD!!"

Vejiita pulled the phone away from his ear with a wince. Damn brat. He pulled the phone back just in time to hear Kakarotto answer it. "Vejiita? You know how to use the phone?" the annoyingly cheery voice asked.

Vejiita rolled his eyes. "Of course I do! What did you do with Radditzu?" Vejiita asked suddenly very nervous about asking what he really called about.

"He's here with Nappa and Bardock. They're talking about what's happened since they've been... well, you know, dead."

Vejiita barked a laugh. "Figures, have they got to the part about the Legendary Supersaiyajin yet?"

Goku laughed. "Oh, yeah. I had to show Radditzu. He wanted a demonstration."

"Figures," Vejiita snorted. "That's not why I called, anyway. Is your mate acting weird?"

"Weird?" he repeated. "No, I've made her stay away from the others, she does smell good, better than usual, too! But I made her stay inside and she's pretty normal. Except a little frisky," he added.

Vejiita grunted. "I don't care about that, idiot. Are you still mating her?"

"Huh?"

"Are you still fucking her, moron!?"

"Well, yeah. I though you didn't care about that-"

"I don't, Kakarotto. The idea of you and that... ugly harpy mating is quite disgusting."

"Then why did you ask?"

Vejiita glowered at the wall. "You should hold off on mating her until she is completely in her heat if you want to impregnate her. Better chance."

"Um, okay. I wasn't really thinking about that, although I would love another son or even a daughter-"

"Shut up, Kakarotto!" he roared. "I don't care about that either!"

Vejiita could almost hear his rival scratch his head in confusion. "Um, Vejiita? Why are you telling me that if you didn't care?"

Vejiita rolled his eyes. He felt for his mate through their bond, checking on her, glowering when he felt next to nothing except a vague sense of despair and self-hatred. "Kakarotto, is your mate emotional? More so than usual?"

"No, she's fine. Just frisky as I told you."

Vejiita actually sighed. "Fucking wonderful," he muttered.

"Vejiita, what's wrong? Why are you asking me this stuff?"

Vejiita clenched his jaw. "The Onna is acting very weird."

"Weird? How?"

"I haven't... mated with her in a week. Tell anyone and you die, Kakarotto, but I was planning to impregnate her. I didn't tell her, obviously. After you left a little while ago, she and I had a bit of a talk, and she just broke down and was wailing and crying."

"You want to be a daddy?" Goku asked incredulously.

"NO!" Vejiita snarled. "No, I have no damn urge for brats. I hate those little... things," he spat.

"Then why-?"

"Because she's a female! *She* wants brats and a family," he hissed. "That isn't the point, Kakarotto!"

"Okay," he said slowly. "What's the point?"

"She freaked out saying things and crying and wailing, collapsing on the ground. I couldn't make her stop!"

"What kind of things did she say?" he asked seriously for once.

"That I hated her, I thought she was freakish because she has a blue tail, that the others thought the same way," he muttered. "That I was blocking the bond because I hated her."

"But you don't hate her, do you?"

"Of course not, you fucking moron!" Vejiita roared. "Everything she said was untrue, Kakarotto! But no matter what I said, she wouldn't calm down. I was even being... *nice*," he hissed.

"You were? You know how to be nice?"

Vejiita growled. "You will never see me being nice, Kakarotto, so just shut up! I called because I thought maybe it was because she wasn't used to going into heat and that's why, but if your mate is fine, apparently that is not the reason. Damn it," he muttered. "What else could it be?"

"Where is she now?"

"In the forest. She ran off."

"Alone?! Vejiita-"

"Don't be a moron, Kakarotto. There are no predators around here and I'm keeping an eye on her. She's fine."

"Maybe it's just PMS," his rival said.

Vejiita blinked at his stupidity. "Kakarotto, sometimes you are so dense it amazes even me. She can't have PMS! She's going into heat not her monthly period! She isn't human anymore, stupid. Saiyajin don't have PMS!"

"I don't know how to help you, Vejiita. Maybe I should talk to her or something?"

Vejiita snarled. "You aren't coming near her! After a few more hours, even you will try to mate her! And I didn't call for your help, imbecile. I called to see if your mate was being as crazy as mine! I'll find out her problem on my own!"

"Uh, Vejiita? Maybe you shouldn't..."

"Why not? She's *my* mate!"

"Yeah, but maybe she is the way she is because of you?"

Vejiita growled. "Are you accusing me of hurting my own mate? Of causing her enough pain to make her act like this? That everything she accuse me of is true?" he asked dangerously.

"No, no! Not that, I just mean, well, you aren't the most open guy, and I imagine to Buruma it is a very stressful situation. She's used to guys who tell her what they feel, at least tell her something of what they feel. She's had quite a few shocks lately. Being with you, not knowing exactly how you feel is hard enough. Then all of sudden she's Saiyajin now, going into heat, alone on an island, hurt because you won't tell her why you aren't sleeping with her anymore, and all that together just snapped inside."

Vejiita sighed. "Kakarotto, mind your own business. That cannot possibly be the reason."

"Why not?"

"Because, you idiot, even insecurities over what I do and do not feel about her would not change the fact that she *knows* that, if nothing else, I don't hate her and I don't hate her blue tail!"

"Oh."

"Keep everyone away from here. I'm going to find out what is wrong with my mate."

"Okay, bye, Vejiita."

Vejiita grunted and hung up the phone. He made his way out of the house and headed towards where he felt his mate was. When he reached the large tree that she was leaning against, he felt his heart tighten again. She was still crying. Heartbreaking, painful sobs. He suddenly cursed silently at her for awakening his dead heart after all these years. It wouldn't bother him that she was hurting then. He sniffed experimentally, scowling when he automatically reacted to the powerful scent of her. She was getting close. Tomorrow, he guessed.

He padded softly to her and crouched down in front of her. "Buruma?" Her shaking increased at the sound of his voice and his frown deepened. "Buruma, I'm... sorry. If I acted like I hated you, I never meant to. I don't hate you. I've told you that I don't and I'm... sorry I did not realize sooner that you thought that way." She only sobbed harder. He placed a hand on her arm, starting in surprise when she flinched from him violently. "Onna? What's wrong?"

When she still didn't answer him, he sighed. He wrapped his arms around her, shocked when she fought against his embrace. "Onna, damn it! What's wrong!?" he demanded angrily, refusing to let her out of his arms. Her scent was becoming steadily enticing, but he pushed away his reaction to it. He didn't need that right now.

She suddenly wrapped her arms around his neck, squeezing with all her strength. "Please..." she whispered faintly.

"What? What do you want, Onna? Tell me and I'll give it to you."

"I want to go home," she whispered.

He nodded against her hair and picked her up gently. He carried her back through the forest, carefully distancing himself from the reaction of being so near her was causing him. It was one of the only times he was thankful for the training he received under Furiza.

"Jiita?" she whimpered.

"Hn?"

"Fuck me?"

He blinked in complete shock. "Onna, such language coming from you? And we aren't fighting. What was it you called it earlier? Lovemaking, wasn't it?"

She nodded against her shoulder. "But it isn't really... You don't love me, so how can it be lovemaking?" she muttered.

He repressed the growl that rose in his throat. "Onna, I can't. I'll explain it later, I promise. I can't mate you now."

He could feel her shaking harder in his embrace. "Please? I can't stand it anymore! I can't stand it!" she whined softly.

His eyes widened and he had the incredible urge to smack his forehead. Of course she wouldn't be used to the incredible need to mate! She was, at one time, a human female! "Onna, shhhh," he muttered, thinking. Maybe he could... no! Damn it! He sighed.

"Jiita..." she whined pressing herself to him.

His breath caught in his throat and a soft purr escaped him to his horror. "Onna! Stop it," he snapped. "I can't mate you right now. Just... relax and when we get home I'll fix your problem." Somehow.

She wiggled in his arms and he paused, looking down at her. That, he quickly realized, was a big mistake. She captured his lips with her own, roughly, desperately, and demandingly. His quickly responded, he had after all been suffering as well. He knelt down, still cradling his mate, as they kissed. He leaned over to lay her back on the ground, covering her with his body.

His hands quickly worked to remove her of her clothing, as she did the same to him, growling in irritation when he came to her bra. That little article of clothing was quickly rendered trash with a quick pull by the Saiyajin no Ouji. He smirked at her start of surprise, but soon found the tables turned on him when he found she had been quite busy. She was trying to rid him of his spandex suit and he blinked. He stayed her hand. "No, Onna," he muttered, and kissed her again.

This time, he forced the kiss to stay tender and gentle, not animalistic passion. He gently trailed his hands over her body, smiling softly as she purred and arched against him. He knelt over her and trailed kisses down her neck, taking time to lick at the bite mark on her neck before venturing lower. He gasped in shock and pleasure as her hand had found its way to the base of his tail. He quickly reached around and captured her hand, stopping the delicious pleasure she was giving him. "No, no, Onna," he chided gently.

She pouted.

He chuckled lowly, nipping her nose. "Onna, no mating, not now," he murmured.

Vejiita unclenched his teeth and took a deep breath as he watched her, her eyes closed, her bare breasts rising and falling rapidly as she tried to control herself. When she opened her crystal blue eyes, he smirked tenderly. "Better?" he asked softly and nuzzled her neck, purring softly.

She nodded slowly. "But I still want you," she said quietly.

He barked out a laugh and lifted off her. "Of course, stupid. Tomorrow morning you won't have to wait any longer, okay? Hold out until then and I'll make it worth your while, I promise."

She smiled faintly at him and looked around for her clothes. When she found them, they were obviously worthless. Torn into pieces. She sighed and gave Vejiita a look.

"You wanted it, remember?" he pointed out as he crossed his arms.

"So? You didn't *need* to get me undressed like that! You were almost as desperate as I was," she pointed out, holding the clothes out as proof.

He shrugged. "But I controlled it. Let's go, Onna, I need to get away from you." He paused. "You feel better, right?"

She looked at him and turned away, trying to used the destroyed clothing as covering.

"Onna? Do you still think I hate you? That I hate your tail?"

She nodded quickly and started to walk towards their cabin.

He caught her before she could take more than three steps. "Onna," he hissed, grabbing her arm and forcing her to look at him. "What more do I have to do to prove it to you? I don't hate you or your tail! Where did you get this idea?" When she didn't answer, he growled and shook her gently. "Buruma, I told you I do not hate you. I can't hate you. And your tail is beautiful. Where did you get the idea that I hate you?"

She blinked up at him, her eyes moistening. "My dreams."

He started. "Dreams? You're freaking out on me because of fucking dreams?!"

She sniffled and tried to pull away from him. He growled and picked her up gruffly, caring her naked form to their home. When he entered the capsule house, he deposited her gently on the bed, crawling over her and pinning her on her back. To his horror, she smirked softly and pressed her naked body to his, rubbing against him. He held onto his control by will alone, pushing her down to the bed. "Knock it off, Onna. I can't mate you. Tell me about these dreams," he ordered.

She shrugged. "Just dreams. Dreams that soon you'll hate me so much you'll kill me. Dreams that you hate me because of my tail. Dreams that you let Nappa have me and he rapes me over and over and-"

"Stop it!" he roared, pushing her to the bed harder. "None of that will happen. Nothing like that. Do you understand me? What the hell is up with you? You've known since you and that human broke up, Onna, that I do not hate you. You've known that! Your blue tail would make no difference in how I feel towards you. I don't hate you. I can't hate you. I won't kill you, ever!" he snarled, shaking her for emphasis. "I swear to you, no harm will come to you by my hand! Ever, Onna. I won't let Nappa or any other male, female, or thing have you. Why are you having these thoughts? I thought I made it clear, Onna. I thought I told you I don't hate you."

"Maybe," she whispered.

"But?"

"You may not hate me... but you don't necessarily like me, either."

He rolled his eyes. "Of course I like you, you idiot! I wouldn't have mated you if I didn't! I sure the hell wouldn't have let myself bond you if I didn't! Damn it, Onna! Why do you refuse to listen to me? Why do you refuse to fucking believe me?"

She looked away from him. "Because."

He snarled and forced her to look at him. "Stop blocking our bond, Onna. Stop blocking it and I'll let you see what I feel for you. Stop blocking it and you can know for sure."

"But-"

"Scared? Scared I'm lying to you? Scared to find out you're wrong? What's the matter, Buruma? I thought you were brave. I thought you were the Onna I mated with. How could *my* mate have been reduced to a sobbing mess who's too scared to find out how I feel about her? Fucking do it, Onna. Open the bond, Onna. Open it and see me for who I am. Find out what I feel. Feel everything. Fucking do it!" he roared.

She gulped and nodded. Closing her eyes, she attempted to reach out to him with her mind.

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AN: Oh, you guys should have expected Radditzu's appearance... if you didn't... I'd have to worry about you. :P

Lovies!