A/N Thank  you to everyone for your great reviews.. A couple more chapters and I guess this will finally be finished…. This is my first go at putting song lyrics in a story… words separated by these ~ indicate lyrics… so here goes… Oh and PeTiTcAt you'll just have to wait and see….

Disclaimer:  same ole same ole not bloody mine.

'I'm afraid Sara' Grissom's voice was barely a whisper.  'I can't lose you both'.   Sara opened her mouth to speak but couldn't.  The doors opened and they walked out of the elevator towards the ICU waiting room where the others were waiting for them.  Catherine was sitting with her head resting on Warricks shoulder and Nick was beside them.  They turned to look when they heard the elevator.

'Has anyone called Ally's mother?' Catherine's voice was still shaky.  Grissom shook his head, no and he pulled his cell phone from his pocket.  Catherine stood placing her hand on his.  'Let me do it Gil' Grissom allowed her to take his phone and walked to the opposite end of the hall to make the call.

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When Alekxandra opened her eyes, she realized she could move.  She looked down at her arm, raising it realizing it was no longer broken, her hand went to her stomach but it too was intact.  Sitting up she looked at her surroundings, it looked like she was in some kind of swamp.  She stood up and began to take a closer look around, when she heard someone behind her.  She turned to see a small figure shrouded in brown. 

I can't be dead… This is way too weird… She thought as she watched the figure shuffle towards her.

'Dead not are you' the small figure replied, as it got closer.

Yoda? You have got to be kidding me she thought.

'Hmm kidding you I am not hmm' the small figure stood before her and removed the hood from its face.

'So If I'm not dead.. What the hell am I doing here?' She looked at the small creature that had begun to shuffle away.

'Coming are you hmm?' He called to her.

Jeezuz I need some serious therapy Alek thought as she began to follow.

'Heard that I did' it called as she kept walking.

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The CSI's sat in the waiting room for what seemed like an eternity even though only a few hours had passed.  Warrick was next to Catherine, her head resting on his shoulder.  Nick and Sara had gone to try and find coffee and something for the others to eat.  Grissom sat alone on a chair in the corner, his head in his hands.  He had not said a word since Catherine had told him that Alekxandra's mother would be on the next flight.

Nick and Sara returned with coffee and sandwiches.  Warrick and Catherine took them gratefully, but Grissom did not move.  He did nothing to even acknowledge that the others had returned.  Catherine and Sara exchanged a worried look.  Sara sighed 'I'll go' she picked up a coffee and a sandwich and walked over to where Grissom sat.  She gently touched his shoulder offering him the coffee when he looked up.  He shook his head no and turned away again.

Sara sighed as she sank into the chair next to him.  'You have to eat sometime Grissom, Alekxandra is going to need you and you'll be no good to her unless you look after yourself.'

'It doesn't look good Sara' was his somber reply.

Sara nodded 'I know.. but doing this to yourself won't make it any better' she replied softly. 

Grissom turned to take the food and coffee from Sara when they heard the elevator doors open.  Four nurses wheeled a bed with various IV's and monitors connected to it followed by a doctor.  Grissom felt his heart begin to race when he realized it was her. 

'Are you Alekxandra Franks family?' the doctor asked.

'We're her co-workers' Warrick replied.

'Is she going to be ok?' Catherine asked.

'I can't discuss this with you, she has a Gil Grissom listed as an emergency contact.  Do you have any idea where I could reach him?' the doctor looked apologetic.

'I'm over here' Grissom's voice sounded old and haggard, he stood and walked towards the doctor, Sara following close behind.  'Why don't you just tell us all how she is.  It'll save me repeating it to them.' He motioned to the others.

'As you know her injuries are quite severe.  She's lost a lot of blood, we've removed her spleen, set her broken wrist and we had to remove her left ovary.' The doctor allowed what he had said to sink in before he continued.

Warrick pulled Catherine a little closer as Nick pulled Sara into his arms.

'At the moment she cannot breathe on her own and is on a ventilator.  As you would expect she is in a coma.'

'Do you have any idea how long until she will wake?' Nick kept his voice steady.

'To be honest we don't know if she will, her body has endured a lot of trauma.  If she makes it through the night we'll have a better idea.  They're settling her into room 4.  You can see her but only two at a time.' The doctor looked at Grissom.  'Has her family been contacted?'

Grissom made no reply.  'Her mother will be here tomorrow morning' Catherine answered for him.

'Thank you.  I am sorry I don't have better news for you' the doctor smiled apologetically and walked away.

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Alekxandra followed Yoda towards a hut.  'So if I'm not dead then what the hell is this place?'

'Impatient are you so' Yoda muttered as he walked inside.

'I just want to know what is going on' she persisted as she walked into the hut.

'Choices to make you have' Yoda settled on a small chair.

'Choices?' she asked confused.

Before he could answer a small child came running towards her. 

'Mummy!  Mummy!' He called.

She looked at the child who was no more than 7 or 8 years old, who looked back at her with his green eyes.

'Jamie?' she whispered as the child pulled her closer.

'Yes Mummy.. It's me.. I have missed you soo much' the small child held her close.

She looked at Yoda who was sitting watching her.  'What is this?  What's happening?'

'I knew one day you'd come to me Mummy' the small child beamed at her.

'Rest you must now' Yoda replied standing and walking towards a room that contained a bed.  Jamie followed Alekxandra, she sat down on the bed, confusion clouding her mind. 

'It's ok Mummy' Jamie said.  'Tomorrow you'll understand' he curled up on the bed beside her and soon fell asleep.  She lay watching him for a long time before she too drifted into a dreamless sleep.

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They stood watching the doctor walk away.  Grissom had made his way down the hall to Alekxandra's room, he stood as if he was rooted to the floor unable to make the final few steps past the door.

'Cath, why don't I take you home and you can get some sleep' Warrick looked over at Grissom. 

Catherine nodded slowly 'Just let me talk to him first okay?'  Warrick nodded and she walked over to where Grissom was standing looking through the glass panel in the door.  Inside you could see Alekxandra's seemingly lifeless body lying on the bed connected to many machines.

Catherine gently touched his shoulder and he turned briefly to look at her.  'Why don't you go in?' she spoke softly.

'I don't know if I can do it Catherine' his voice was raw and filled with emotion.

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I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes

A little righteous and too proud

I just want to find a way to compromise

'Cause I believe that we can work things out

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Catherine reached forward and pushed the door open.  'I know you can' she gave him a gentle push towards the door.  He stepped inside the door closing behind him. 

Warrick gently touched Catherine's shoulder.  'Let's go home, I spoke to the nurse and she'll call us if anything happens.'

Slowly they walked out to the car park.

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I thought I had all the answers never giving in

But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie

How am I gonna be strong without you I need you by my side

If we ever say we'd never be together and we ended with goodbye

Don't know what I'd do, I'm lost without you

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He sank slowly into the chair beside Alekxandra's bed, he scanned her body his mind taking in her injuries.  He reached for her hand, it was cool, and not the warmness he remembered.

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I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you

I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

How my ever gonna get rid of these blues

Baby I'm so lonely all the time

Everywhere I go I get so confused

You're the only thing that's on my mind

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Sara and Nick stood at the door watching Grissom.  Sara felt her heart breaking as she watched him.  Nick put his arm around her shoulders and pulled her closer.

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Oh my bed's so cold at night and I miss you more each day

Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie

How am I gonna be strong without you I need you by my side

If we ever say we'd never be together and we ended with goodbye

Don't know what I'd do, I'm lost without you

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Grissom sat, tears streaming down his face as he held her hand.  The beep of the machines and the ventilator let him know she was still alive.  Still here with him.

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If only I could hold you now make the pain just go away

Can't stop the tears from running down my face, oh

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie

How am I gonna be strong without you I need you by my side

If we ever say we'd never be together and we ended with goodbye

Don't know what I'd do, I'm lost without you

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Sara began to cry, tears streaming down her cheeks.

'Come on Sara, let's go home and get some sleep' Nick touched her cheek, brushing the tears away.  Sara nodded and slowly followed him towards the car.

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I keep trying to find my way but all I know is

I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you

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Grissom rubbed Alekxandra's fingers as if this act could bring life back to her battered body.  He brought her hand to his lips kissing her fingers gently.  'You have to make it Ally.  I can't live without you.' Fresh tears spilled from his blue eyes.  'I love you too much for it to end this way.'

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A/N Ok so I'm a big star wars fan as well.  I figured it'd be the kinda weird crap my consciousness would do to me.. Plus everyone does the white light crap…The song is 'Lost without you' by the amazingly talented Delta Goodrem from her album Innocent Eyes.  Well I hope this is enough to keep you all going while I work on the next chapter.. Drop me a line and let me know.