(Chapter 25)

Lovelorn (Chapter 25)

A/n : sorry it took so long to post up another!

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Summary: if you expect me to summarise 24 chapters you got to be kidding

Spoilers: AU

We travelled up north and stayed in this little motel, near these mountains, it wasn't the busy season

So it was quite cheap, we thought we'd stay for a few days to a week. The place was isolated and far

Away from any main roads, the owners of the place kept to themselves and let us get on with our lives

Without any questioning. This made it easier when Eva and I left at wee hours of the morning to hike

up the mountain and not return till the next day. She thought me loads of things that I thought my

body wouldn't be able to do. But somehow with Eva training and guidance I found out that I could

run, like, fast as hell and she thought me how to always be aware of my surrounding and always keep

on top of myself and NEVER let my guard down. We spent hours up on the mountains where she

thought me techniques and moves to protect and defend myself. Everything that Zack had thought her

from his Manticore training were now being thought to me. I couldn't help laugh at the irony of the

fact that they had thought Zack, so that it would be to their advantages but now he was training the

other X5s so that they could protect themselves against Manticore. After the first week I had pretty

much caught on, I was actually kicking Eva ass, unlike the way she presumed it would be. and I don't

think she found it funny. But we stilled continued. We were both getting sick of the scenery and

thought it was time for us to move on, we carried on further North and into a small village. The

people weren't the most friendliest so we moved on after a couple of days. We kept on moving from

town to town, motel to motel. I got to know Eva better, now she opened up to me more since we were

alone and I think I too, in return opened up to her. She had dropped the Logan topic after our first day

and concentrated on my training, but now that we were more relaxed and confident with the fighting,

we started to move away from the whole idea of the trip to more of a personal, fun vacation. The

thought of it made me picture the look of Zack's face if he knew what we were doing instead of training

he would have being totally pissed and would have that ' I am disappointed in you' face, I told Eva and we

both cracked up laughing picturing the look of Zack's face if he saw us.

Eva did try to bring up Logan up in conversation, which at the time I was trying very hard to forget about and finally by the end of the week I felt I was succeeding only for it to be thrown back in my face when she decided to bring him 'casually ' in the conversation.

" So you feel differently about yourself now" we were sitting on our beds eating Chinese take out.

" well, if you mean in the sense of, if I was walking down a dark alley at night, yes I can safely say that I would feel knowing that could kick a guy three times my size ass without breaking a sweat." She laughed out loud in between putting another mouthful of stir fried noodles in her mouth.

"Well is that too, but I meant do you feel differently as a person about yourself, you know after having time to thing about stuff, and life." I listened carefully at what she was aiming at and I though to myself what she had meant. Did I feel differently about myself, and why?

" What do you mean?" another mouthful of noodles was taken in before she answered

" I mean, your personal life, have you sorted stuff through, like your parents and em,… Logan?" that question really boggled the mind, or my mind in this case. She was hesitating about my response, I could she her face starting to regret asking me the question. She thought that I was mad at her for bringing it up.

" I don't know, I mean if women could understand men, in a space of one week , we wouldn't be sitting here playing this game would we?. " I took a sip of my soda. " Everything seems so complicated, I know nothing about him, Logan that is. But a part of me seems to think I know everything there is to know, and I feel a sense of openness when i am around him" she looked at me and smiled

" what?"

"nothing"

"what ?"

"Nothing!"

" Eva, tell me now!"

" well, OK but you really seem to have a thing for him, I mean me just listening to you talk about him, makes me wish I had someone like that in my life. I know you don't like hearing it, but I wouldn't mention it if I didn't think it was there. I think you are in love with him"

" Love!" I laughed to myself, all my life I have spent it hiding, I didn't know the truth about myself but I did know that there was something different about me. And I didn't allow anyone near me, and I didn't love anyone " I wouldn't know what love was, if it walked up to me and put the smack down on my ass"

" That's just it!, you DON'T know what love is, so how do you know you aren't feeling it?" I thought about her question, she was right, i mean how did I know if I really had feelings for Logan? And if so how was I supposed to react to them?. Nah, Anyway, I am pretty sure I would know if I loved Logan or not, I mean how hard could it be. Either your in love with them or your not.

It was as simple as that. Right?

But how am I supposed to know?

A/n: ok I know you guys are like: oh my god get on with it already! But I really do have to take my time and explore where everyone is coming from. So be patient. And if you guys are reading this and are saying something bad bout the story please review! Cause if I know the truth then I will have ways of improving what you don't like so..... review, good or bad it don't matter! I wont get pissy!

Ps: do you think Logan should have some "accident" where he wont be able to use his legs or do you think he should be able to walk?????? Please tell me. So I can get on with the story!!!!!