Merry Christmas all
Monica couldn't believe that her and chandler had been together for six weeks now she knew that she was beginning to fall hard he had already told her he loved her and she him. From what she had heard Chandler was not worth giving the time of day to, however, she did feel the effects of going out with someone so close to her profession.
One magazine that had unsuccessfully tried to get Chandler to work with them had said she was using him to get her restaurant good reviews.Cahndler had reassured her that he knew that wasn't true and it seemed like they were actually going someplace with this relationship.
Chandler let himself smile as he heard the message Monica had left for him that night she was wondering what to wear since he was bringing her out to dinner next Thursday Chandler was going away until Wednesday but wanted to make sure that she was in the city for the following Friday.
The next Wednesday as chandler was flying home from LA where he had been reviewing a restaurant he put on his laptop. He hated airplanes and decided to distract himself so he played with the laptop. He checked his calendar to see what time he was going to meet Monica at the next night.
Writing in Thursday he gasped as he realised that Thursday was the fifth of February not Friday as he had thought. HE started panicking on the plane and had to ask the man beside him for a glass of water to collect himself. He knew he wouldn't be able to go to dinner with Monica the next night it would just be impossible.
Monica arrived at Rachel's house the next day in tears. As Rachel opened the door she was taken aback at the state of Monica.
"Honey what's wrong"
"Chandler, that's what, he was gone for a week he didn't even call me he just rang me up cancelling tonight Rach and then says he loves me after all that, I mean Rach what is his game" Monica couldn't understand how Chandler could say he loved her and then blow her of.
"Honey maybe you should go over there and tell that boy what you want you tell him right now nobody treats my friend like that" Rachel said decidedly.
"Your right" Monica agreed "im worth more than that ill ring you and let you know how I got on"
Chandler just let the tears fall down his face as he sat staring at the photo album. It had been two years and he still couldn't get past it. Why did this have to happen. Hearing a knock at the door he began to pull himself together. Getting up to answer it he did not expect to see Monica come barging through.
As Monica stormed past Chandler she didn't even looked at him she was not going to let anything get in the way of her and the speech she had been working on for the last ten minutes.
"What dod you think you r doing playing me around, you go away for a week don't call, cancel our arrangements, you close yourself of from me and then you tell me that you love me. How is that loving me" she almost screamed at him. She looked up at him and was surprised to see he had tears streaming down his face.
"Chandler what is it" She asked sitting down on the couch she glanced down at the photo album on the couch and picked it up. "Who is this" she asked looking at a picture of Chandler with a girl of about five.
"That's Kaley she is well was my daughter she died two years ago, its her birthday on the fifth. today and I thought the fifth was tomorrow and that's why I cancelled" he finished with a whisper.
Monica couldn't believe it Chandler had a daughter she felt so ashamed as she realised how selfish she had been and Chandler had been sitting her suffering all day."Im sorry Chandler I didn't know I just thought..She trailed of
"I know I should have told you Monica and I was I was going to but I find it so hard to admit to myself she is gone I cant talk about it only a few people in my life know and I am glad you do too but I guess not like this" Chandler explained "Do you hate me for not letting you in"
Monica put her hand on Chandler leg "of course I don't hate you I have no idea what its like to lose a child and have no right to barge in here and demand an explanation of you im sorry that i made you tell me something your not ready to but I promise you that if you dso want to talk about it then I am here to listen to you"
"Thanks" Chandler said between sniffles. "But I think its about time I told someone else besides Joey about her and if your going to be in my life I want you to know about her and I do want you to be in my life Monica."
"So tell me about her" Monica added gently. She cupped Chandlers hand in hers aware that he would need the support.
"Well her name was Kaley I was going out with her mother Kathy for a year we broke up because it wasn't right and then I found out she was pregnant at first I was scared" he fiddled with his ring and let out a laugh "its funny I was so scared of her at first and she turned out to be the most special thing that ever happened me.Anyway she was born and I had her at weekends and the evenings."
Monica squeezed his hand knowing he needed the reassurance, Chandler smiled at Monica and continued.He told Monica about her first words and steps her first day at school the time she fell everything he could remember. Monica was still confused she didn't want to ask him outright but she couldn't help but wonder how his little girl had died. Sensing that Chandler was having a hard time talking about this she offered him a cup of tea or coffee.
"No if I stop talking I wont tell you everything and I do Monica I do I want you to be involved in my life."
"I want to be ap part of it too Chandler but if this is too hard for you, you can take a break for a minute or something" she said rubbing his thigh.
Chandler placed his hand on Monica hand and continued on "So I never told you how she died he went on and I have to warn you I have never talked about this with anyone before so be prepared" he said half laughing trying to put her at ease but inside this was killing him he could feel the anger building up inside him.
"One day Kaley went to Boston to vist her grandparents with Kathy you should have seen her she was so excited because she was going to L.A to visit Kathy's brother after. Just before leaving Boston for LA she Kathy rang and put Kaley on the phone she told me everything about her trip about the zoo her grandparents everything, she told me before she left that she loved me.. that was the last time I ever spoke to her the next day her and Kathy got on the plane to LA but" he paused and looked at Monica with tears in his eyes "Mon it was September the 11th"
Monica gasped with shocked and brought Chandler into a tight embrace as he let out howls of anguish she gently patted his back trying to calm him down. After a few minutes Chandler let go and looked at Monica "Look im sorry for burdening you with all this its just hard on her birthday she would have been seven" he said with a resigned look on his face
"Chandler this is not a burden I love you and I am going to be here for you. That's the deal why don't you show me the rest of these pictures ok" Monica added knowing that he couldn't talk anymore about the day as he was so tired.
"That would be nice" Chandler said "I know looking at me you might not realise it but it felt good sharing her life with you ill just go get the rest of the photo albums
Monica sighed as Chandler ran to get the albums she knew that it would be hard but she was also glad that at last Chandler had let her in.
AN please please review.
Monica couldn't believe that her and chandler had been together for six weeks now she knew that she was beginning to fall hard he had already told her he loved her and she him. From what she had heard Chandler was not worth giving the time of day to, however, she did feel the effects of going out with someone so close to her profession.
One magazine that had unsuccessfully tried to get Chandler to work with them had said she was using him to get her restaurant good reviews.Cahndler had reassured her that he knew that wasn't true and it seemed like they were actually going someplace with this relationship.
Chandler let himself smile as he heard the message Monica had left for him that night she was wondering what to wear since he was bringing her out to dinner next Thursday Chandler was going away until Wednesday but wanted to make sure that she was in the city for the following Friday.
The next Wednesday as chandler was flying home from LA where he had been reviewing a restaurant he put on his laptop. He hated airplanes and decided to distract himself so he played with the laptop. He checked his calendar to see what time he was going to meet Monica at the next night.
Writing in Thursday he gasped as he realised that Thursday was the fifth of February not Friday as he had thought. HE started panicking on the plane and had to ask the man beside him for a glass of water to collect himself. He knew he wouldn't be able to go to dinner with Monica the next night it would just be impossible.
Monica arrived at Rachel's house the next day in tears. As Rachel opened the door she was taken aback at the state of Monica.
"Honey what's wrong"
"Chandler, that's what, he was gone for a week he didn't even call me he just rang me up cancelling tonight Rach and then says he loves me after all that, I mean Rach what is his game" Monica couldn't understand how Chandler could say he loved her and then blow her of.
"Honey maybe you should go over there and tell that boy what you want you tell him right now nobody treats my friend like that" Rachel said decidedly.
"Your right" Monica agreed "im worth more than that ill ring you and let you know how I got on"
Chandler just let the tears fall down his face as he sat staring at the photo album. It had been two years and he still couldn't get past it. Why did this have to happen. Hearing a knock at the door he began to pull himself together. Getting up to answer it he did not expect to see Monica come barging through.
As Monica stormed past Chandler she didn't even looked at him she was not going to let anything get in the way of her and the speech she had been working on for the last ten minutes.
"What dod you think you r doing playing me around, you go away for a week don't call, cancel our arrangements, you close yourself of from me and then you tell me that you love me. How is that loving me" she almost screamed at him. She looked up at him and was surprised to see he had tears streaming down his face.
"Chandler what is it" She asked sitting down on the couch she glanced down at the photo album on the couch and picked it up. "Who is this" she asked looking at a picture of Chandler with a girl of about five.
"That's Kaley she is well was my daughter she died two years ago, its her birthday on the fifth. today and I thought the fifth was tomorrow and that's why I cancelled" he finished with a whisper.
Monica couldn't believe it Chandler had a daughter she felt so ashamed as she realised how selfish she had been and Chandler had been sitting her suffering all day."Im sorry Chandler I didn't know I just thought..She trailed of
"I know I should have told you Monica and I was I was going to but I find it so hard to admit to myself she is gone I cant talk about it only a few people in my life know and I am glad you do too but I guess not like this" Chandler explained "Do you hate me for not letting you in"
Monica put her hand on Chandler leg "of course I don't hate you I have no idea what its like to lose a child and have no right to barge in here and demand an explanation of you im sorry that i made you tell me something your not ready to but I promise you that if you dso want to talk about it then I am here to listen to you"
"Thanks" Chandler said between sniffles. "But I think its about time I told someone else besides Joey about her and if your going to be in my life I want you to know about her and I do want you to be in my life Monica."
"So tell me about her" Monica added gently. She cupped Chandlers hand in hers aware that he would need the support.
"Well her name was Kaley I was going out with her mother Kathy for a year we broke up because it wasn't right and then I found out she was pregnant at first I was scared" he fiddled with his ring and let out a laugh "its funny I was so scared of her at first and she turned out to be the most special thing that ever happened me.Anyway she was born and I had her at weekends and the evenings."
Monica squeezed his hand knowing he needed the reassurance, Chandler smiled at Monica and continued.He told Monica about her first words and steps her first day at school the time she fell everything he could remember. Monica was still confused she didn't want to ask him outright but she couldn't help but wonder how his little girl had died. Sensing that Chandler was having a hard time talking about this she offered him a cup of tea or coffee.
"No if I stop talking I wont tell you everything and I do Monica I do I want you to be involved in my life."
"I want to be ap part of it too Chandler but if this is too hard for you, you can take a break for a minute or something" she said rubbing his thigh.
Chandler placed his hand on Monica hand and continued on "So I never told you how she died he went on and I have to warn you I have never talked about this with anyone before so be prepared" he said half laughing trying to put her at ease but inside this was killing him he could feel the anger building up inside him.
"One day Kaley went to Boston to vist her grandparents with Kathy you should have seen her she was so excited because she was going to L.A to visit Kathy's brother after. Just before leaving Boston for LA she Kathy rang and put Kaley on the phone she told me everything about her trip about the zoo her grandparents everything, she told me before she left that she loved me.. that was the last time I ever spoke to her the next day her and Kathy got on the plane to LA but" he paused and looked at Monica with tears in his eyes "Mon it was September the 11th"
Monica gasped with shocked and brought Chandler into a tight embrace as he let out howls of anguish she gently patted his back trying to calm him down. After a few minutes Chandler let go and looked at Monica "Look im sorry for burdening you with all this its just hard on her birthday she would have been seven" he said with a resigned look on his face
"Chandler this is not a burden I love you and I am going to be here for you. That's the deal why don't you show me the rest of these pictures ok" Monica added knowing that he couldn't talk anymore about the day as he was so tired.
"That would be nice" Chandler said "I know looking at me you might not realise it but it felt good sharing her life with you ill just go get the rest of the photo albums
Monica sighed as Chandler ran to get the albums she knew that it would be hard but she was also glad that at last Chandler had let her in.
AN please please review.
