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Chandler rushed down the long corridor to his room and began to rummage past his old clothes to get her photo albums out. He felt relived that he had told someone particularly Monica as she would try and help him through it
"Here we go" Chandler declared walking into the sitting room he seemed more composed Monica noted and although she was apprehensive about doing this she knew it was exactly what Chandler needed.
"She has your eyes" Monica said as she felt tears well up in her own eyes.
"God im such an idiot here I am trying to help you and I end up crying myself"
"Mon I didn't need to make you cry its just I needed to let you in, you're the first women I dated since Kathy and people think im strong but im weak the only reason I was out the night I met you was because I walked past a toy store and I knew that I couldn't go in buy her a toy don't you see Kaley in a way sent me to you."
"Its ironic isn't it" Monica said glumly.
"Yeah but im just glad she did because I need you Monica before you I used to get up at twelve write my column without caring who it hurt and then watch mindless TV"
" I had no idea"
"I know you didn't and that's why I wanted to tell you but I didn't know how or what to say to you so I decided I was going to leave pictures lying around that you ask me what it was or something I couldn't just come right out and say she is gone I guess I still cant really"
"That's ok you know grief is so huge Chandler especially the circumstances in which she died I mean did you talk to trauma counsellors meet with other family member anything"
"I cant Chandler said I cant to know that im going through this is bad enough I cant watch another family deal with there grief I never have met with anyone affected from 9/11 I don't go down there never I just cant its too hard its too its too.." he began to sob again as Monica swept her arms around him.
As the grief and enormity of what chandler had just told her sank in Monica felt her body tremble in sync with Chandlers as she allowed him to channel his grief.
Chandler was confused the next morning when he woke up until he looked down and saw Monica beside him. They had fallen asleep on the couch the night before while he cried in her arms. He slowly released himself from Monicas arms and went over to the window.
Watching the rain beat against his window he knew it was three right thing to have told Monica everything about his past but he also wondered how it would affect there future relationship. He knew it meant a big step towards commitment well for him anyway. Telling her he knew was his way of cementing his feelings for her.
"I just hope I want too intense" he said to himself
"You weren't" Chandler turned around to see monica smiling at him and handing him a cup of steaming coffee.
"Thanks" he smiled
"No thank you for letting me in I know how hard that must have been for you" Monica said talking a sip of her freshly brewed coffee.
"Well I knew for you to be part of my life that I had to let you in .. I just see this is going somewhere Monica and im usually terrifified of commitment but everything that's happened has shown me that you cant be scared even if you get knocked back you have to put your cards on the table"
"Well I got a deal didn't I" Monica said " Seriously Chandler I am so glad you told me I was beginning to think you were trying to close me of and not let me in does this mean you will meet my friends I have more than Rachel you know does this mean I get to meet the infamous Joey"
"As long as you don't run of with him" Chandler joked
Placing a kiss on Chandlers lips monica laughed "not a chance".
"Look Cahndler I know its hard for you and you have no idea I am how glad you told me but I think it's a good idea you tell me what your feeling and I know you said last night that you didn't want to talk to a professional but maybe getting help for this would be the bravest thing that you ever did."
Feeling defensive at what Monica said he closed up and explained to her that he just couldn't go through that at the moment and how telling her was like a gigantic step fro him anyway.
Accepting this Monica told him that she wanted to go vist Ross and Rachel to mmet for lunch that afternoon and asked him to join her to get "properly introduced to them not just a quick hello at the door"
Knowing how much this would mean to her Chandler agreed" I don't think getting to kno the people closet to you would be such a bad idea now would it"
Monica grinned happy to realise that her and Chandler were onto something special here. Looking at the smile on his face she could tell that he felt the same as her.
"All settled we are meeting them at Kert at one" Monica said hanging up the phone.
Walking up to hug her from behind Chandler wrapped his arms around Monica and mumbled into her neck "wow meeting your older brother I hope he doesn't beat me up"
"Ah your nice I think you will get away with just a few broken bones nothing too bad" She said making the both of them laugh for what seemed like the first time in ages.
"Listen I better go home and get ready ill see you later ok at one don't be late" She said pointing at him accusingly.
Chandler laughed at her compulsiveness but it was just another thing that he loved watching her close the door Chandler realised how lucky he was to have her in his life.
"See you at one" he chuckled.
As she left Chandler felt for the first time in a long time that things were looking up for him, he knew he wouldn't be able to get over Kaleys death but maybe Monica would help him try and lead a normal life and the thought of this excited him more than anything.
REVIEW I didn't realise how important this is until I started writing my own fics.
Chandler rushed down the long corridor to his room and began to rummage past his old clothes to get her photo albums out. He felt relived that he had told someone particularly Monica as she would try and help him through it
"Here we go" Chandler declared walking into the sitting room he seemed more composed Monica noted and although she was apprehensive about doing this she knew it was exactly what Chandler needed.
"She has your eyes" Monica said as she felt tears well up in her own eyes.
"God im such an idiot here I am trying to help you and I end up crying myself"
"Mon I didn't need to make you cry its just I needed to let you in, you're the first women I dated since Kathy and people think im strong but im weak the only reason I was out the night I met you was because I walked past a toy store and I knew that I couldn't go in buy her a toy don't you see Kaley in a way sent me to you."
"Its ironic isn't it" Monica said glumly.
"Yeah but im just glad she did because I need you Monica before you I used to get up at twelve write my column without caring who it hurt and then watch mindless TV"
" I had no idea"
"I know you didn't and that's why I wanted to tell you but I didn't know how or what to say to you so I decided I was going to leave pictures lying around that you ask me what it was or something I couldn't just come right out and say she is gone I guess I still cant really"
"That's ok you know grief is so huge Chandler especially the circumstances in which she died I mean did you talk to trauma counsellors meet with other family member anything"
"I cant Chandler said I cant to know that im going through this is bad enough I cant watch another family deal with there grief I never have met with anyone affected from 9/11 I don't go down there never I just cant its too hard its too its too.." he began to sob again as Monica swept her arms around him.
As the grief and enormity of what chandler had just told her sank in Monica felt her body tremble in sync with Chandlers as she allowed him to channel his grief.
Chandler was confused the next morning when he woke up until he looked down and saw Monica beside him. They had fallen asleep on the couch the night before while he cried in her arms. He slowly released himself from Monicas arms and went over to the window.
Watching the rain beat against his window he knew it was three right thing to have told Monica everything about his past but he also wondered how it would affect there future relationship. He knew it meant a big step towards commitment well for him anyway. Telling her he knew was his way of cementing his feelings for her.
"I just hope I want too intense" he said to himself
"You weren't" Chandler turned around to see monica smiling at him and handing him a cup of steaming coffee.
"Thanks" he smiled
"No thank you for letting me in I know how hard that must have been for you" Monica said talking a sip of her freshly brewed coffee.
"Well I knew for you to be part of my life that I had to let you in .. I just see this is going somewhere Monica and im usually terrifified of commitment but everything that's happened has shown me that you cant be scared even if you get knocked back you have to put your cards on the table"
"Well I got a deal didn't I" Monica said " Seriously Chandler I am so glad you told me I was beginning to think you were trying to close me of and not let me in does this mean you will meet my friends I have more than Rachel you know does this mean I get to meet the infamous Joey"
"As long as you don't run of with him" Chandler joked
Placing a kiss on Chandlers lips monica laughed "not a chance".
"Look Cahndler I know its hard for you and you have no idea I am how glad you told me but I think it's a good idea you tell me what your feeling and I know you said last night that you didn't want to talk to a professional but maybe getting help for this would be the bravest thing that you ever did."
Feeling defensive at what Monica said he closed up and explained to her that he just couldn't go through that at the moment and how telling her was like a gigantic step fro him anyway.
Accepting this Monica told him that she wanted to go vist Ross and Rachel to mmet for lunch that afternoon and asked him to join her to get "properly introduced to them not just a quick hello at the door"
Knowing how much this would mean to her Chandler agreed" I don't think getting to kno the people closet to you would be such a bad idea now would it"
Monica grinned happy to realise that her and Chandler were onto something special here. Looking at the smile on his face she could tell that he felt the same as her.
"All settled we are meeting them at Kert at one" Monica said hanging up the phone.
Walking up to hug her from behind Chandler wrapped his arms around Monica and mumbled into her neck "wow meeting your older brother I hope he doesn't beat me up"
"Ah your nice I think you will get away with just a few broken bones nothing too bad" She said making the both of them laugh for what seemed like the first time in ages.
"Listen I better go home and get ready ill see you later ok at one don't be late" She said pointing at him accusingly.
Chandler laughed at her compulsiveness but it was just another thing that he loved watching her close the door Chandler realised how lucky he was to have her in his life.
"See you at one" he chuckled.
As she left Chandler felt for the first time in a long time that things were looking up for him, he knew he wouldn't be able to get over Kaleys death but maybe Monica would help him try and lead a normal life and the thought of this excited him more than anything.
REVIEW I didn't realise how important this is until I started writing my own fics.
