A/N: Okay. Third chapter. I'm doing this at 10:10 pm on Saturday night. When I usually do my stories but I usually do them much later. But I have time now and it's going to be a long chapter. Well one person said that I need a bit info and I swear you guys can read mines. I've been listening to Les Miserables to much and one song is perfect for Snape!!! I love Javert and he sounds like Snape. If anyone ever heard the songs then do you agree? Well anyways this song is Javert's Suicide. Going to use the whole song and it is going to be in italics...or something like that. Well I wanted to wait a little more for my friend to review but since she didn't (and I gave her a week) I'm not going to have you guys hurt me because of it. So lets get on with this chapter shall we?

Dislcaimer: I own nothing...Wish I did. I LOVE this song!! Can I own that? No I don't own it.

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Chapter 3

Snape's Suicide

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Remus stared into Severus Snape's eyes and that did it. He broke down inside. How could he see Sirius' eyes in Snape's? That isn't right. He shouldn't! Remus' eyes filled with tears ready to be shed and he put his head in his hands and cried. Snape just sat next to him and let him cry. He needed to. Remus was there for Severus many times. Two times counted the most. And those where the times that Snape realized he liked Remus. More then he knew.

Severus started to think about those times. In their seventh year at Hogwarts. It was the day after the full moon. That little detail was one reason why Severus wasn't dead. And one reason why Severus graduated school also. It also made the rest of the year worth living. It was during Christmas break when this all happened. And Severus will never forget about it either.

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"What's the point of living? I have nothing to live for," the seventeen year old Severus Snape said as he looked down into the water where the giant squid was. It was December 22. The water wasn't frozen because of the squid. But if it could be it would. Severus took a deep breath and tried to get ready for the leap before him.

"All I have to do is jump and it's over. Jump and I'll sink to the bottom, never to be seen again," Severus said as he jumped into the water feet first. The shock almost made him take a breath of air, but there was no air around him. He was a fool for wanting to kill himself, and a bigger fool to jump into freezing cold water to do that, but he was not a big enough fool to breath in water.

"This will be over with soon. Soon the pain will go away," he thought to himself. Snape felt himself growing colder and colder.

When he was ready to give up he felt a warm arm grab his wrist and another arm wrap around his waist. He thought it was the squid and welcomed it. He would die faster then he planned. He felt himself moving faster then before and soon he was out of the water, laying on the cold grass on his back.

"This is Hell," he said as he opened his eyes. He gasped at what he saw. There leaning over his shivering body was none other then Remus Lupin. He saved him. Remus looked him in the eyes with sadness and puzzlement.

"Hell? I thought you liked school," Remus said forcing a smile.

Severus saw him shiver and noticed that unlike himself, Remus jumped in with his cloak on. Severus threw his cloak off and he reached over and grabbed it and tossed it to Remus. Remus shook his head and laid it on Severus' body. Before Severus could argue Remus got pulled up to his feet and then Severus got pulled up to his feet. They were facing Professor McGonagall. she didn't look one bit happy.

"You two better come up to the Hospital Wing," she said and pulling on their collars dragged them along with her. As soon as they were in the Hospital Wing they were ushered to two beds and immediately had to drink a cup of warming liquid. They were left alone for a few minutes but they didn't talk. Severus let what happen sink in and didn't look up tell Professor Dumbledore walked in with Professor McGonagall at his heels.

"I told you Albus. Lupin and Snape out in the lake. They could have died," McGonagall said looking at them.

"Well now Minerva. They didn't. And they are fine now I see. So lets see why they were out there in the first place," Dumbledore said.

Severus looked at Remus but he didn't return the glance. Here is was. Severus was going to get kicked out of school. Remus wouldn't because they would believe he saved his life. But why was he outside? Severus didn't even know. He did look up at Dumbledore and opened his mouth.

"My fault Professor. I was outside getting something that I left outside last night," Remus said without batting an eye. Of course! Last night! The full moon. "I went back to get it and by accident I bumped into Snape near the edge of the lake and knocked him in. I jumped in and grabbed him. I didn't want to see him die."

Professor Dumbledore nodded and turned and walked out. McGonagall looked at Remus to see if he was lying but turned and followed.

"Why did you do that?" Severus asked when the door closed. He looked over at Remus.

"I didn't want you to get into trouble okay?" Remus said as he glanced over at him.

"Why were you outside?" Severus asked.

"For your information I did leave something outside," Remus answered but not in a bitter tone. In his usual playful tone.

Just after Remus finished that sentence the Hospital door banged open and in came Sirius. He walked over to Remus' bed and sat down. James and Peter where at home for the holidays so it was just Sirius and Remus. Sirius took Remus' hand and looked him in the eye.

"What happened, Moony?" He asked. Concern was written all over his face.

"I fell into the lake," Remus said. And again he didn't even bat an eye. Severus was wondering why he was lying to Sirius.

"And what did he have to do with it?" Sirius asked nodding towards Snape's bed.

"He pulled me out," Remus answered looking over at Snape's bed. His head was down looking at the sheets.

"Well I am glad you are alright," Sirius said patting Remus' hand and getting up. He walked over to the door and stopped and took a deep breath and turned and faced Snape. "Thanks Snape." Snape looked up at him not believing what he heard. "But your still a slimey git." Sirius turned and walked away.

Snape just sat in his bed and looked over at Remus. He was laying on his bed looking up at the ceiling.

*****

Who is this man?

What sort of devil is he?

To have me caught in a trap

And choose to let me go free?

*****

"Why did you lie to Black?" Severus finally asked. Remus didn't even look over at him but he smiled.

"You wanted me to tell him? Did you want to be haunted the rest of the year knowing that I saved your life?" Remus asked almost laughing.

"Well, thanks," Severus said after a pause. Remus just smiled even wider.

*****

It was his hour at last

To put a seal on my fate

Wipe out the past

And wash me clean off the slate!

*****

'Why did he do that? Stand up for me? He could have made my life a living hell yet he helped me out,' Snape thought to himself as he stared up at the ceiling. He looked over at the sleeping body laying in the bed next to him and he watched him for a few moments trying to figure out how he ticked. He noticed after awhile that he couldn't take his eyes off of the sleeping form.

*****

All it would take

Was a flick of his knife

Vengence was his

And he gave me back my life!

*****

Slowly Severus got up out of bed and walked to the door. It was a few hours after midnight so he wouldn't run into anyone. As he got to the door and opened it he turned back to the sleeping form on the bed. He wanted to tell Remus something, wake him up and tell him, write a note or something, but it did nothing. He wanted to tell him that when Remus saved his life it meant the world to him. But not his life. Severus turned and walked out the door and shut it. He realized to late that it made an echoing sound when it closed. He stood still, holding his breath to hear any possible sound. He heard nothing.

*****

Damned if I'll live in the debt of a theif!

Damned if I'll yield at the end of the chase.

I am the Law and the Law is not mocked

I'll spit his pity right back in his face

*****

If Severus just stood there for a few more moments he would have heard Remus get up and walk over to were he was laying a few minutes earlier. Remus noticed that he wasn't there and near right then and there where he was going. The highest tower in the school.

*****

There is nothing on earth that we share

It is either Remus or Snape! (I took out Valjean and Javert)

*****

Severus walked up the stairs very silently and stopped to look out the window. He looked up at the stars and then down into the lake. The stars showed in the lake and made it look eerie. Severus shook his head and continued up the stairs.

*****

How can I now allow this man

To hold dominion over me?

This desperate man whom I have hunted

He gave me my life, he gave me freedom.

*****

Severus knew what he had to do. He didn't want to live like this. He knew that if he ever set Remus off in anyway he could tell Sirius and the whole school will know that Severus Snape had to be saved from the freezing cold water by the weak Remus Lupin. Although Severus didn't know why people called Remus weak. He was strong in his own way. In some ways he was even stronger then his partner. Sirius Black. Blast him! Sirius had everything Severus wanted. And that made Severus even more afraid. He never thought of Remus in that way tell now. Remus didn't belong to anyone. But then the picture of Sirius holding Remus' hand came back to him. He did not own Remus. No one owned him. That thought scared Severus even worse.

*****

I should have perished by his hand!

It was his right.

It was my right to die as well

Instead I live, but live in hell!

*****

Remus was walking down a corridor leading to the Astronomy Tower hoping he's not to late. He kept wondering why he was doing this. He could easily let Severus kill him, but why did he cover up for him? He knew he wanted to be friends with Severus but did he want to become more? Jumping into freezing water to save him? He has never done that for Sirius. What was going on with him? Falling for Severus now.

*****

And my thoughts fly apart

Can this man be believed?

Shall his sins be forgiven?

Shall his crimes be reprieved?

*****

Severus was taking his time walking up the stairs. He wanted to sort this out before he did himself in. He didn't want to go with confusion but he wanted to know what these feelings meant. How could he like Remus. Love even.

*****

And must I now begin to doubt

Who never doubted all these years?

My heart is stone and still it trembles

The world I have known is lost in shadow.

*****

Remus was running now. He missed a step and tripped and hit his chin. It was going to hurt in the morning but right now it meant nothing. He quickly got to his feet and ran. He was about to run into Mrs. Norris but he jumped over her and left her hissing at his back as he ran as fast as he could. He wanted to save Severus.

*****

Is he from heaven or from hell?

And does he know

That granting me my life today

This man has killed me even so?

*****

'How could someone like Remus be nice to me?' Severus wondered. 'Can he be real?' Severus couldn't get Remus out of his head. He reached the Astronomy Tower and walked over to a window and just stared out. It was high enough for someone to die on impact once they hit the ground. But he didn't make any move to jump yet. He just stood there looking out over the grounds. Only one person on his mind. And he liked it that way.

*****

I am reaching, but I fall

And the stars are black and cold.

As I stare into the void

Of a world that cannot hold

*****

Remus was just a few feet from the Astronomy Tower door and he already felt that he was to late. He can never be to late for Severus. Remus pulled out his wand and ready for whatever he might face. He threw open the door.

*****

I'll escape now from the world

From the world of Jean Valjean

There is nowhere I can turn

There is no way to go on.....

*****

Severus didn't turn when the door opened. He didn't even noticed. His thoughts where still on Remus as he fell ffrom the window. Remus ran into the room and at the window and screamed "Accio Severus Snape!" He wasn't sure if it would work but it was worth a try. He was as much surprised as Severus was when he stopped and started floating back up to the window. He looked into Remus' eyes and didn't even think. Remus was happy that he threw his arms around Severus and hugged him. Severus didn't even back up but wanted to feel this way forever. Severus finally said what he wanted to say since earlier that day.

"Remus, I want to thank you. Saving my life twice. I really like you Remus. I will always be there for you."

Remus backed away from him and looked into his eyes. It brought him back to the real world. Remus was crying on the bed and Severus had his arm around him. He looked at the body in his arms and he sighed. He wanted to hold Remus closer and tell him that he is always there. But once in a live time is enought until Remus says how he feels.

END!!!!

Okay the end. Long.. It is 12:50 AM now...Over 2 hours working on this chapter!! Tell me how you feel about this chapter. This might be my favorite chapter so far. But it doesn't matter what I like. It matters what you like. Lets get some reviews up here.

Lord Angelus: I like Remus/Snape stories. Almost as much as Remus/Sirius. So I hope you like this chapter!

Becki: You liked Chapter 2. So how about Chapter 3? I don't like to rush things. For one thing, I don't really like writing it unless I am in the mood. And who knows when I'll be in the mood. :-)

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Luinnelle: I love the way I write too. I prolong things. In other words. Well I'm sorry it wasn't a girl. I was thinking of Tonks but it didn't seem to come togeher. And since I knew more about Snape then Tonks that is how I chose. And you are the person this chapter is for! Background information for their feelings! Thanks!